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If You Only Knew

Bella's Point of View

Two weeks and not a word from Sam; I was seriously getting tired of babysitting. Don't get me wrong the boys and Kate are great, but after you have lived with them for two weeks you get annoyed. Reid at first was fun, but now just plain reckless and annoying. I finally had to take him out back and give a couple good licks for him to listen. Pogue and Kate are pretty much cool, but the whole lovey-dovey relationship thing pisses me off….reality not everyone gets their happily ever after. Tyler is pretty quiet and hangs with Reid which in turn gets him in trouble. Caleb, well that is a different story; if I was any part of the person I was before Edward and Jake hurt me I could see myself with a guy like him, but it's not going to happen. Then of course Dean is calling in every single day asking 'Have you seen Sammy; don't lie to me Bella'. Truthfully I love Dean and I would date him in a heartbeat (if I wasn't broken) but that guy can't let shit go.

"Hey you need some help at the bar?" Caleb asked interrupting my thoughts.

I shook my head, "It's up to you if you want to help, but no hustling my customers." I said eyeing Reid.

"Fine." He mumbled.

"Later." I said and headed to my car.

I walked into my bar and immediately Jen was in my face, "Okay that Dean guy has been calling for the last two hours and there are some guys here asking for a Charlie; I told them I don't know him, but you might."

I looked around her and saw three faces I thought I would never see again.

I swallowed, "Jen did you tell them my name?" I asked.

"No you said if strangers came in and wanted to talk to tell them to talk to Alex which is you duh." Jen replied.

I had decided that it was safer having a fake name when strangers came in. I smiled, "Jen I think you just earned yourself a raise."

"How about a night off?" she mumbled.

"Make you a deal; you go get the shipment of whiskey, tequila, and beer with Gary you got the night off and the raise." I said. She smiled and agreed. I walked over to the three men, "How can I help you gentlemen?" I asked using my southern accent.

"My name is Billy Black, this is my son Jake, and our friend Harry. We are looking for Charlie or Bella Swan." He said.

Billy hadn't changed a bit; he still had that weathered look, but the gleam in his eyes said he was still young enough for some fun. It was obvious they didn't recognized me and I thanked God for that.

"Sorry Mr. Black, but Charlie passed away about six months ago." I said.

"How?" Harry asked.

"He was attacked, but someone." I said; it partly the truth, I mean a werewolf is a man somewhat.

"What about his daughter?" Jake asked and anger flared in me. How dare he ask about me when he told me to stay away?

I looked at him, "Bella goes to the university here in town. She had classes in the mornings." That was true I had classes in the mornings a year ago, "After that she's normally at the library." Also true.

"Thanks." Billy said and they left.

The bar's phone started ringing, "Haven." I said.

"Bella where is he?" Dean asked.

"Well hello to you too; now since you're being rude how about I hang up and you call back and we try this again." I said and slammed the phone down. Two seconds later it started ringing, "Haven." I answered.

"Hey Bella it's Dean I was wondering if you could stop being a bitch long enough to tell me where my brother is?" he said pleasantly.

"Much better and for the hundredth time I don't know where he is, but you will have excuse me I have some wolves to deal with." I said.

"Wait wolves?" Dean asked.

"Yep Harry, Jake, and Billy were just in here; don't worry they didn't recognize me. Later Dean." I said and hung up.

The afternoon was pretty much quiet and around 8 it started to pick up.

"Where's Jen tonight?" Al one of the old timer's asked me.

"I gave her the night off you're stuck with me." I said.

"Awe Bella you're such a sweet thing; isn't she?" he asked the bar.

"Yes she is except when she lies to her friends." Someone said and I turned to see Billy, Harry, and Jake. "That wasn't nice Bella." Jake said.

"Hey I didn't lie; I used to go to school there. If you had been listening carefully I said I had classes there; had as in past tense." I replied.

"Who are your friends Bella?" Al asked me.

"I knew them a life time ago Al; I wouldn't necessarily call them friends." I replied.

"Do you need us to get rid of them?" he asked.

I laughed, "Al I can handle them." He laughed and went to join his friends. "What do you guys want?" I asked turning my attention back to Billy, Harry and Jake.

"What happened to you?" Jake asked, "You were a brunette and had chocolate eyes."

I grabbed an empty box and tilted my head for them to follow. They followed me to the back, "Hair dye and contacts; this is what I naturally look like. Now why are you here?"

"Bella look there are things that kept us from being friends." Jake said.

I cut him off, "Jake if you're talking about the wolf thing I already know." I said.

"How?" Harry asked.

"That's my business oh and Dad knew too." I said.

"Bella please we need to know the truth about what happened to him." Billy pleaded.

"Save it; it's been five years and all of a sudden you guys show up and think I'm going answer all your questions well new flash it ain't happening. Now I think you need to leave." I said and walked out of the cooler.

Jake grabbed my arm, "Bella we are going to talk." He said in a commanding tone.

I turned to him, "Jake I'm not one of the pack so I suggest you back off and leave before you get hurt."

He smiled a cocky smile and that did it; I pulled my fist back and knocked him square in the jaw. I then kicked him in the gut and pulled my gun, "Listen up Jake I'm not the same sweet innocent Bella anymore and I suggest you get out of my bar now."

"We'll leave Bella, I'm sorry about Charlie; he was a good friend." Billy said.

I lowered my gun, "Thanks Billy, but you need to leave now."

They left and I crumbled to the ground and that's when Caleb found me.

"Bella are you alright?" he asked.

"Yeah, I'm just emotionally drained; when did you get here?" I asked.

"About two minutes ago; a guy named Al said you came back here with three guys." Caleb said looking around. "Who were they?"

"A blast from my past; look I don't wanna talk about it. Can you watch the bar for a minute I just need to sit in the office and chill." I asked.

Caleb agreed and I went to the office and laid down.

Dean's Point of View

The moment I hung up with Bella, Bobby and I drove like bats out of hell back to her bar. I told Bobby about the pack and the Cullen's. I was pissed how dare they just waltz in one day after five years? Bella was doing good and I wasn't going to let some pup ruin it; plus Sam might be there. We arrived at about 9 and some guy was working the bar.

"Is Bella here?" I asked.

"Who wants to know?" a guy with blonde hair asked.

"None of your business." I replied putting my hand on my gun.

"Dean Winchester and Bobby Singer as I live and breathe!" I heard someone say.

I turned to see Al Harrison, "Al what are you doing here?" I asked.

"Oh I come in every once in a while and talk with Bella." He replied.

"Know where she is?" I asked.

"She is right here." I turned to see Bella leaning against the bar, "He ain't here Dean." She said.

I walked over to her, "Can we talk in private?" I asked and she nodded and told me to follow her. We walked into the office and I shut the door, "Admittedly I partially came to see if he was here, but the main reason was to see if you were ok."

She laughed and sat down on the desk, "Dean I'm a big girl I can handle myself."

I walked over to her and put my hands on either side of her face, "I know you can Baby girl," I said using her nickname, "But you don't have to play tough with me."

"Whoa Dean Winchester getting all emotional." She said.

"Hey you're the only one that I do that with." I pointed out.

She stood up and our bodies were pressed together, "Than I fell very honored." She said.

I leaned down and kissed her; at first she returned the kiss and it started to get heated, but then there was knock on the door;

"Hey Bella look there are some people here and they are starting to tear up the bar." A guy said.

"Shit." Bella said and opened the door. I followed and there were about 5 gives with their weapons drawn, "What do you think you're doing Travis?" Bella asked.

"We are here to deal with Sam." The guy said, "Oh goody his brother is here; call him Bella." He said.

"No." Bella said.

"Alright everybody out except Dean, Bobby, Bella, and you five." A guy with curly hair said pointing to a group standing by the bar.

"Bella?" Al asked.

"It's alright Al," Bella said and then looked at everyone, "Go on, don't worry bar will be open tomorrow and we'll have a good story."

Everyone laughed at Travis and his buddies as they left.

"What did they think was so funny?" the curly hair one asked.

"Jason shut up." Travis said and then walked over to Bella and grabbed her by the waist, "Come on baby tell us where he is; I'll make it worth your while."

Bella smiled her mischievous smile and I had to hold in a laugh; she grabbed his hand and slammed his wrist on the edge of the bar. He started screaming, "1. Travis I ain't your baby and 2. From what I hear you aint that good."

"You bitch." He said holding his wrist.

"Ouch that would of hurt if it wasn't true." Bella replied. Then she looked at the 5 standing by the bar, "Remember when I said no using well that is going out the window now."

The guys grinned and I watched their eyes go blacks like a demons; Bobby and I reached for our guns, but Bella stopped us, "It's alright they are the Sons of Ipswich." She said.

"Are you kidding me?" Bobby asked.

"Nope." Bella said.

"Who are the sons of Ipswich?" I asked.

"They are witches that were given powers to help." A voice said and we turned to see Castiel.

"Cas," I said and walked over to him, "What are you doing here?"

"I came to find you; Sam isn't in hell." Cas replied.

"I know he came to find Bella here." I said.

"Bella Swan, the one that dated a vampire?" Cas asked.

"A vampire?" I heard 5 voices say behind us.

Bella's Point of View

Damn it, I said internally.

"Bella you dated a vampire?" Caleb asked me and then he looked at my arm where James had bit me, "You dated a cold one!" he yelled.

"Who in the hell are these people?" Dean asked.

"We should be asking you that?" Reid said.

"Enough; let me get the whiskey and I will tell you everything." I said and leaned over the bar. I could feel Dean's eyes looking at my ass;

"See something you like?" I asked turning towards him.

"I always like what I see with you B." he said smirking.

"Look, but you can't touch." I said and walked over to the table.

"Never has stopped me." Dean said following me.

I motioned for everyone to sit down, "So here are the basics; I was 17 moved to a little town called Forks, met a guy named Edward, knew immediately he was a vamp, fell for him, got attacked by another vamp that gave me this," I said pointing to my scar, "Edward and his family killed the vamp, my 18th birthday I got a paper cut, edward's brother went blood crazy and tried to attack me, two days later he took me into the woods and left me. Then I started hanging out with my friend Jake, he was Quileute so the legends said that they shape shifted into wolves, he changed and told me never to come back or I was going to get hurt, so after that my dad and I moved here and this where I've been ever since." I finished.

"Wow, that's a lot of info." Kate said.

"Yep," I said and then the phone rang. I got up and answered, "Haven."

"Hey B it's me." Sam said.

"Shit," I muttered.

"What's wrong?" Sam asked.

"Call me on my cell in two minutes." I said and hung up.

"Who was that?" Dean asked.

"Al wondering if everything was ok." I answered, "I need to go do the order sheets for tomorrow. Dean if they have questions answer them." I said walked to my office. I locked the door and then my phone rang;

"Bella what's going on?" Sam asked.

"What's going on is Dean is here numb nuts." I said. "Sam, where in the hell are you?"

"I'm on my back; sorry my job took me a little longer than I thought." Sam explained. "Have they given you much trouble?"

"No, but it would be nice to know just how long you were going to be gone." I said.

"I'm sorry." Sam said. "Look do you know how long Dean is going to be there?"

"I don't know; he showed up after I told him about Billy, Harry and Jake being here." I said.

"They were there?" Sam asked.

"Yes they were, but they are gone now." I said.

Just then I heard banging on the door, "BELLA OPEN UP; I KNOW SAM'S BEEN HERE AND I KNOW YOU ARE ON THE PHONE WITH HIM NOW!" Dean yelled.

"Shit," I said. "Sam I gotta go I'll call you later." I hung up and erased the number he called me from after I memorized it. I pulled out the order sheets and opened the door, "Can I help you?" I asked Dean as he pushed pass me. He grabbed my cell phone and started looking through the call history; I smirked, "Now Dean you aren't getting jealous over my other boyfriends are you; I thought we talked about this." I patronized.

Dean put my phone down, closed the door, and locked it as he placed his head against the door, "Bella I had everyone head to your house so it's just you and me. I know Sam brought them here, now I want to know where he is."

"Sorry Dean I can't help you." I said pushing off the wall and going to sit at the desk. I started filling out the order sheets.

Dean came over to the desk and placed his hands on it as he leaned towards me, "Bella tell me or else." He said.

I put my pen down, stood up and looked at him, "Dean your threats don't work on me; I don't know where he is."

I knew I was lying to Dean, but I had promised Sammy that I wouldn't give Dean any details for the time being.

Just then there was a knock on the door, "Dean I got a read on Sam; he's in Virgina." I heard the angel say.

"There you go Dean, better hurry off." I said and sat back down.

"Be there in a second Cas." Dean said and then he came over and kneeled down by me, "Bella, I'm sorry I lost my temper. I know I can be an ass and you're the last person that deserves that from me." He placed his hand under my chin and made me look at him, "I wish I could see the Bella I knew when we were younger; don't get me wrong I like you this way, but you aren't whole and I swear to God if I ever see them I'll kill them." He kissed me and then stood up, "See you soon Bella and I plan us finishing what we started earlier." He walked out the door.

I sat there and wanted so badly to have that part of me back. I wanted to find love, to believe in it, to trust it, but I can't. When someone takes your heart and rips apart not once, but twice you build up walls and I won't ever let them down. I remember how if used to be after Edward left, I couldn't sleep without him, I had nightmares, and I was willing to do anything to get him back. As I reminisced I turned on the radio and Shinedown's If You Only Knew came on. I started to think about Edward, Jake, and how they hurt me. I did something I hadn't done in years, not even when my dad died….I cried.

A/N: Sorry it is taking so long to put up chapters for my stories, but with my classes this semester I have a lot of research to do for papers I have to write. I hope you all will stick with me even if the updates aren't consistent. Review.