Chapter 2:
"Seth. I have to tell you-"then I noticed it, something very strange. Seth looked as if he were a blind man seeing the sun for the very first time.
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"I love you Bella" Seth's humorous voice echoed into my head. I'm in my room right now and I have no clue how I got here. It's a possibility that I forgot to breathe, passed out, and Seth carried me here. As realistic as that Is, I like to believe that in a powerful burst of….anger? No, jealousy No…Energy and ran home.
It's been a year since Jacob died, 9 months since Edward left me and 6 days since Seth imprinted on another girl. At the exact moment that I saw the twinkle in his eyes, I knew I had lost the one person I had left that loved me.
I've been waiting an hour, trying to play my normal self, for Charlie to leave. We are close in a way that he can tell when something is not right with me. Since I'm the most shit liar, I have been in my room for the majority of this week. As soon as the cruiser left our driveway I forced myself up to go to the mirror. I cringed when I saw the physical shape I was in, remembering when I played creeper last night.
*Last Night*
I went on Facebook with Seth's password to see that his status went from 'In Relationship' to 'Its Complicated' and what do you know? Jessika Yes her name is jessika...with a K! Had been added to Seth's Top Friends list. Being the creeper that I am, I searched through some of her pictures. My jaws dropped as I took in a sight to see...I would do her. Her profile says that she was from Jamaica and before Forks lived in Atlanta. She is a hip hop dancer and a model. Two things that I am very VERY far from, seeing that I have no rhythm, height or balance.
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When I snapped out of my daydream I saw that it was getting dark outside. I looked back at the mirror and to my surprise I was shocked, disappointed even. Jessika had Bouncy lovely curls while I had flat locks, my brown eyes don't even compare to hers as mine are dull and hers are full of life and energy. Jessika has the brain she graduated 2 years early, talent I watched her videos on YouTube, and even a body, and damn aint it a body that I don't got.
Even when I try to steer away from Jessika, I can't. I'm a little plain but not ugly, and if it's not my looks then my personality must seriously be lacking for three men in my life are no longer with me. In a moment of rage, the brush that was meant to tame the mess on my head went straight into the mirror splitting in the middle of my face.
After trying hard and failing at trying to look decent, I decided that I needed to go for a little drive. I ran down the stairs, tripping on the last one, and grabbed my keys before heading out the door and getting in my black Jetta. The truck, that I was so much in love with held so many sad memories. My car came to a stop and to my surprise I subconsciously drove myself to the Clearwater house. Before I could ram my ass into reverse, Leah came walking towards the passenger window. It was nice outside today and to my convenience my passenger window was open. NOT! Leah didn't seem surprised that I was parked in front of her house. Leah stopped at the window across from me. I flinched as I waited for something Mega-Bitchy.
"Bet you want to kill yourself" she smirked "huh"