Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight and I never will. Oh well.
A/N: So just wanted to clarify a few things. I hate a weak Bella as well but it gets better just stay with me. Also the whole not telling her about being mates is for a reason. Just trust me here.
Bella's P.O.V.
As I watch Rosalie walk away I want nothing more than to stop her. Everything is so confusing right now. I open and close my mouth several times, but I can never manage to actually get the words to leave my mouth. I feel my heart clench painfully as she walks away.
I run my good hand through my hair in frustration. Rosalie has been really nice to me ever since I woke up, but I can't even figure out how I feel about her right now. The moment I looked into her eyes I felt like something in myself shifted. I'm not entirely sure how to explain it.
I really wish I knew more about shifters, but unfortunately my parents weren't very good at explaining things or parenting really.
I shake my head to try and erase the dark thoughts that are starting to creep into my mind. The last thing I need is to start talking to myself while Rosalie is within hearing distance. "Why is nothing ever easy for me?" I mumble softly hoping that Rosalie can't hear me.
I sigh deeply as I slowly start washing off all the leftover blood and mud from my tryst in the forest. I fight back hisses of pain as I feel that some areas are still really sore. I would hate to appear even more weak in front of the beautiful goddess that is Rosalie.
I groan softly as I look back in the mirror and notice that my back is caked in a mixture of blood and mud. I try as hard as I can without pulling on my stitches too much and realize that I can't reach all of it. I growl softly in frustration as I realize what I have to do.
"Rosalie," I sigh hating that I have to bother her when she's being kind enough to make me food. "Could you please come here for a moment?" I feel like I'm just being a bother to her.
In a matter of moments she's standing in front of me quickly looking over me to make sure I haven't injured myself or pulled out my stitches.
"What's wrong? Are you in pain? Do you need me to get you something?" She fires off question after question before I have the chance to even answer.
"Rosalie, could you please calm down? I'm not in pain and I don't need you to get me anything, but I do need your help with something." I say with a soft smile as the frantic look faded from her eyes.
"Oh umm okay. What can I help you with Bella?" She says and I'm sure that if vampires could blush she would be as red as a tomato right now.
"I can't seem to reach all of my back or get dressed now that I think about it. I didn't want to accidentally pop one of my stitches so I called you. I hope that's okay." I say softly as I start looking at everything except her.
"Of course I can help you Bella." Rosalie says with a bright smile that I can tell is genuine by looking into her eyes.
I quickly hand her the washcloth as I turn around as much as I can to make this easier for her. Everything is going well until Rosalie suddenly stops as gasps. I turn as see her looking at my back in horror and anger. Oh shit….
"Oh my god Bella…." She sighs softly as she looks at me with tears in her eyes. How could I possibly forget about the whiplashes maring my back. Stupid, stupid, stupid I keep chanting in my head.
"If it's any consolation they don't really hurt anymore." I say with a soft chuckle trying to make this situation less awkward.
"Are those whiplashes? Who did this to you?" Rosalie growls softly as she runs her fingers along my back gently. I watch as her eyes blacken the longer the looks at all of the scars.
"Yes they are whiplashes, but right now who gave the to me doesn't matter." I shrug trying to get her to let it go for now. I mostly just don't want her getting too upset over this right now.
"It matters to me Bella." She growls louder as our eyes meet in the reflection of the mirror. I gasp as I see the passion behind her words shining bright in her blackened eyes.
"I didn't mean to make it sound like it didn't Rosalie, but if you don't mind I don't want to talk about them right now. If that's okay with you." I sigh softly as start to fidget with the temporary cast on my arm still maintaining eye contact with her.
"Oh okay sure. I'm sorry." She says softly as she starts to finish off my back. I can tell that she's still worried about them hurting by the overly gentle way she's moving the cloth across my back.
I get a warm burn in the pit of my stomach as I enjoy how gently Rosalie is being with me. None of her movements are jerky and she's very careful with how she moves me. She slowly helps me into the tank top and shorts she managed to locate in my size. Before I have the chance to stand up Rosalie already has me hoisted up in her arms bridal style and starts our journey downstairs.
"You know with this temporary cast on I'm allowed to walk…..well stumble. You don't have to carry me around like a baby." I pout as I wrap my arms around her neck trying to pretend like I'm not enjoying this.
"I know I don't have to, but I want too. I can tell that not many have shown you any kindness in your short life if all those scars is anything to go by. I would like to be one of the people who have so please for my sake allow me to care for you." Rosalie says with a gentle smile as she carries me into the kitchen.
I think about what she says as she gently sets me down at the island as she goes back to making me food. I don't really know how to respond to what she just said because she's right even though I wish she wasn't.
"You know we don't have to talk about it. I don't want you to feel like I'm trying to push you. I just want you know that I'm here to listen if you ever want to talk." Rosalie says with a beautiful smile as she finishes making my food.
Again I decide to say nothing and instead just nod my head. I feel myself starting to fidget with my fingers as I think about telling Rosalie about my life. Would she understand? Would she still be nice to me?
"Bella please don't think about it too much right now. I was simply making an open offer it's entirely up to you if you want to take it or not. I just want you to feel more comfortable around me." Rosalie says as she leans over and places a plate loaded with food down in front of me.
"Umm Rosalie that's a lot of food." I say as I fight to resist digging in. I never realized how hungry I was until now.
"Well I know that shifters eat quite a lot and I'm sure you're hungry by now." Rosalie says with a gentle smile as she pushes the plate closer to me.
"I don't want to seem selfish eating all of this." I say as I feel myself starting to fidget even more trying to look at anything but the plate of food in front of me.
"Has somebody said that to you before Bella?" I nod silently without thinking about it. I quickly turn and look at Rosalie as I hear her release a fierce growl.
"I'm sorry," I apologize quickly as I push the plate away. I don't want Rosalie getting mad at me like the others. I bow my head using my hair to hide my face.
I gasp softly as I feel Rosalie standing beside me gently moving my hair out of my face. "I'm sorry for growling beautiful." She whispers softly as I nod my head still avoiding looking at her. "Bella please look at me. I'm so sorry I never meant to scare you." Rosalie whispers as she runs the back of her hand along my cheek in an almost affectionate motion.
"I don't want you to be mad at me. You've been so nice to me and I'm afraid that will change." I say as I look up at her and see her eyes are darker than their usual honey gold.
"I could never be mad at you Bella. I don't know who would be stupid enough to be so terrible to you, but I can promise you that I will never be."
"Please don't make promises you can't keep. I've had enough broken promises to last me a lifetime." I say with more venom than I intended too.
"I'm sorry, but I never make a promise I don't believe I can keep. I don't expect you to trust me easily, but please don't brush me aside either." Rosalie says with conviction as gently cradled the side of my face. I couldn't resist the urge to nuzzle into her hand.
"I'm sorry. I just….I didn't mean to sound rude….I….it's just that I've spent most of my life trying leaving not to trust people and there have been so many broken promises." I sigh as I feel a few tears escape.
"I don't know what kind of people you're used to dealing with, but they're not here. I'm not going to hurt you and judging by all those scars that's something you're not used too. Don't worry about upsetting me because you're not going too." I really wish I could believe Rosalie. Her eyes look so genuine, but I don't know if I can. Something in me keeps telling me that I should trust her though.
"How can you be so sure of that? I'm a screw up and I've been known to be kind of clumsy." I feel my heart skip a beat when she chuckles softly as she gently runs her fingers through my hair.
"I'm sorry I don't mean to laugh, but I'm trying to imagine you being clumsy and it's rather cute. My opinion might be biased, but I don't think you're a screw up. If you don't believe me now then ask me again in a week, or a month, or a year and I can promise you that my opinion will not change." Rosalie says softly as I feel myself smiling.
"Okay," I say softly as a warm feeling starts to spread through my body. I don't know what it is about Rosalie, but she just makes me feel special.
"Good now start eating before your food gets cold, and please eat as much as you want it's not like any of us will eat it." Rosalie says with a sweet smile as she gently kisses my forehead and pulls my plate closer to me.
I look at the plate before I look at Rosalie again. "Why do you care so much? You hardly know me. I heard that vampires aren't known to care about random strangers they find in the woods." I say hoping that I didn't offend her.
"You're not some random stranger to me Bella." Rosalie says as she slowly reaches her hand up and places her hand back on my cheek.
"Then what am I because honestly Rosalie you're confusing the hell out of me." I say softly as I lean into her touch again. I don't understand why I keep doing that, but I can't lie and say I don't enjoy it.
"How much do you know about vampires?" Rosalie asks me gently as I feel her trying to move her hand away from my face. I quickly grab her hand to keep her from moving away.
"I know they're supposed to have red eyes and are not very nice. But you have gold eyes and you've been really nice to me." I say simply as I nuzzle her hand resisting the urge to purr.
"My eyes are gold because I feed from animals not humans. Bella do you know what a mate is?" I look into Rosalie's eyes and see that she's clearly nervous about something.
"I'm sorry, but I can't say that I do. There's a gaping hole in my education both in the human world and ours." I watch as a frown forms on Rosalie's beautiful face, and I hate that I caused it. I never want to be the reason for her to be unhappy.
"How much do you know about your own kind?" Rosalie asks as she moves to take a sit next to me keeping her hand on my cheek.
"I know I don't age as long as I shift, but other than that not much." I say with a shrug as I see Rosalie's frown deepen.
"So you never really had anybody explain shifting to you. What about your parents?" Rosalie asks hitting a sore subject.
"I don't want to talk about them right now." I sigh as I release Rosalie's hand and wrap my arms around myself. I was afraid she was going to ask that.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you Bella, but I thought it was tradition or something for old shifters to explain everything to the next generation of shifters." I look up and see that Rosalie is being genuine.
"My parents never shifted. They thought I was a freak when I did." I mumble as I try to pull my knees up to my chest, but stop as I remember my stitches.
"I'm so sorry Bella. I never meant to bring up bad memories." Rosalie says as she starts running her fingers through her hair in frustration.
"It's okay Rose you didn't know. It's my fault for questioning you in the first place. I'm just not used to people caring about me for seemingly no reason." I say softly as I reach over t grab her hand. Something about being in physically contact with her makes me happy. I'm not quite sure how to explain it.
"Okay so on to less depressing subjects like you eating. If Esme comes back and finds out I haven't fed you she'll have my head." I couldn't resist growling at the thought of somebody hurting Rosalie.
"Oh no I'm sorry I was just kidding beautiful. Esme would never hurt me, but she wouldn't be very pleased if she found out you didn't at least eat a little something." Rosalie says with a gently smile as she stands up and grabs my food.
"Is she always like that? I mean she sounds very motherly if that's the right word." I say as I watch Rosalie quickly heat up my food for me.
"Oh she is very motherly, and I'm sure if you let her she would shower you in motherly love. I'm also sure you would quickly become her favorite." Rosalie says with a gently smile as she places my food in front of me again and hands me a fork. "Eat, please." She says as she begins to clean the kitchen.
I eat in silence for a while as I watch Rosalie quickly clean and put away all the dishes she used. She really is a gorgeous creature, but I still don't understand what I feel for her. I feel like I'm connected to her in a way I've never been connected to anybody, but that still doesn't explain anything.
"Bella," Rosalie says softly as she comes to sit down next to me. "I need you to try and do something for me. You don't actually have to start now, but I need you to at least think about it." Rosalie says sounding rather serious.
I put my fork down and gently turn to face her. "What would you like me to do?" I ask as I watch her start to fidget. I can't say I've ever seen a vampire fidget before.
"I would like for you to try and work on trusting me. I imagine that isn't an easy thing to ask of you, but I hope you know or learn that I will never hurt you Bella." I watch as Rosalie's eyes start to mist over as she looks at me.
I nod silently as I think about what she said. "I believe you when you say that you won't hurt me." I say simply as I watch her. I honestly believe that for the first time in a long time I trust somebody, Rosalie.
"That's good," Rosalie says as she runs her fingers through her hair as she sighs. "I just not sure if that's the same thing as trusting me though."
"For me that's pretty much the same thing. For the years of my life that I can remember I've been surrounded by people who have done nothing but hurt me." I watch as Rosalie's eyes blacken as she fights to hold back a growl.
"I hate how you can say that so matter of fact. I hate how poorly people have treated you." Rosalie growls as she stands up and starts pacing in frustration.
"I didn't mean to upset you, but for me it is a matter of fact. You've seen the scars the fact that you haven't added to them by now is an abnormality for me. Nothing against you personally it's just common knowledge that people don't like me." I say with a simply shrug.
I gasp as Rosalie is suddenly standing in front of me trapping me between her body and the island. I look into her pitch black eyes and I'm surprised by the fact that I'm not afraid.
We just stare at each other in silence as I watch Rosalie battling with herself internally. "I would never hurt you, and I want to kill anybody who ever has." Rosalie growls as she leans forward and gently rests her head on my shoulder.
I slowly wrap my arms around her neck hoping it doesn't make her angry. I gasp again when she wraps her arms around me quickly lifting me up. I wrap my legs around her waist as she quickly takes off upstairs.
"Are you taking me back to the room I woke up in earlier?" I don't know why but something inside of me is hoping that she says no. Something about that room makes me feel weird.
"No, you're mine which means you're going to be staying in my room." She says as she walks up the stairs at a fast yet gentle pace.
What does she mean I'm hers? I decide to wait until a later time to ask her. I'd rather try and calm her down first. She seems really upset over something.
Rosalie carries me into what I assume is her room. She gently sets me down on the bed before she walks over and closes the door. I watch as she leans against it taking slow deep breathes.
I take a moment to look around. "I like your room." I say softly hoping to break the awkward tension that's starting to build around us.
"I'm glad you like it." She says softly as she continues to lean against the door with her eyes closed.
"Did I upset you? I'm sorry I really didn't mean too." I say as I start to stand up and walk over to her. I'm quickly stopped by a sharp pain shooting up my leg.
Rosalie's suddenly standing in front of me quickly lifting up off my leg. "You should really be more careful Bella." Rose says as she gently sets me down on the bed again. "I'll go get you some pain medication." She says in a neutral tone as she walks into her bathroom.
She quickly returns with pills and a glass of water. Wait. Why were my pills in her bathroom? Was she planning on me staying in her room?
"Thank you," I say softly as I quickly take the pills and finish off the glass of water before handing it back to her. I gently start to adjust the mass of pillows filing Rosalie's bed as I start to get comfortable.
Now that I think about it today's the first time in awhile that I've been able to sleep in an actual bed. "Would you like to get some sleep now?" Rosalie asks as I see she's taken her spot by the door again.
"Rosalie, would you….I mean you don't have too….could you maybe…." I sigh in frustration as I fail to find the right words.
"Bella, would you like for me to lie down with you?" Rosalie asks as though she could read my mind.
"If you're okay with that it's only until I fall asleep….if you'd rather go do something else I understand. I don't want to be a bother or anything." I mumble as I start fidgeting again.
"Of course I can Bella. Please never be afraid to ask me if you need or want something." Rosalie says softly as she moves to sit down next to me on the bed.
"I'm not very good at asking for things." I say softly as I feel Rosalie reach up and gently brush my hair out of my face.
"Then we'll work on it beautiful, but for now how about you get some sleep." Rosalie says as she slowly slides down in bed waiting for me to join her.
I slide down next to her and stare at the ceiling. Neither of us wish to break the tranquil silence that has managed to settle between us.
I close my eyes and I feel Rosalie turn on her side and gently wrap her arm around my waist pulling me closer. The feel of her ice cold skin against my forever burning flesh feels nothing short of amazing.
In a matter of minutes I feel myself starting to drift off hoping and praying that when I wake up all of this won't be some cruel dream that my mind created. With that thought in my mind a finally fall asleep feeling Rosalie pull me that much closer.
A/N 2: So as you can see I've made quite a few changes but trust me it will make sense in good time. Also I decided to add the wolves simply because I've never worked with them before.