It has been a week since I apologized to Gary. He didn't exactly take it very well, saying that I "embarrassed him in front of the whole school." I was like, "You had it comin', dude." He didn't respond to that very well, either.
But on the bright side, May finally asked Drew to the dance a few days after our talk. They're not officially together, but they have definitely grown a lot closer. Just this morning, Drew pecked her on the cheek before running to class. It was so cute.
As they say, "The grass is always greener on the other side." But, unfortunately for me, I haven't made it to the other side yet, so how should I know if the grass is really greener? Gary got me so confused with his seriousness when he asked me out last week that I don't even know what to do anymore. I thought that I hated him. But I keep going back to that day and seeing his eyes… They showed so much truth in them, and I just didn't know how to respond to that.
The Gary Oak Fan Club reacted pretty well to my rejection of Gary's invitation to the dance. Sure, they got on my case about slapping his "beautiful angel face" but in the end were happy that I had said no.
But now I'm not so sure that I made the right choice. I know it's stupid, but some part of me that I'm sure all girls have is saying, "Maybe if you say yes, it'll be different. Maybe you'll be 'the one' for him and he won't break your heart in three days. Maybe you'll fall in love."
I've had to banish those thoughts from my mind several times every day. I mean, there is no way that I like Gary-mother-freaking-Oak. There can't be, especially after the way he's treated me our whole life, and how he's treated other girls.
It is final.
I can never fall in love with Gary Oak. Ever.