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EPOV (Yay. It's a way to make up for everything. A treat. ;) )
What. Just. Happened. I knew Bella still loved me, I could see it in her eyes. Hopefully. Either that or I'm just wishfully thinking. Other then the pain, I saw the love, the desperation, and the longing. I could see it that she didn't want to do this! Shelbi must have said something to have really fucked her up. My Bella. Mine.
I'm not going to be like those guys in the movies and just be 'okay' with it and respect her decision. Hell no. I'll fight for what I want. And I want Bella. I was pretty sure I looked like shit; I was still standing there. Where she left me, my mouth agape and I was thinking through the situation. Even though I knew that I would-will- fight for Bella no matter what, I couldn't help but feel the hurt fill my every bone. Why would she do this? If she does truly love me, why would she let what Shelbi says-which is obvious bullshit- effect our relationship. I held back my tears at the thought of Bella and I breaking up. Forever.
I tried to smile as I thought that I have this class with Bella, but my emotions took over, as I was sure that the grimace won over the smile. If she would change; so would I. I make sure to brush away the dull pain, and the devastation as I strolled into the classroom and saw Bella sitting next to Angela, her face covered in a mask of happiness, but I knew Bella long enough to tell her true emotions. She was like an open book. I wanted to comfort her, to tell her that I loved her and that she shouldn't listen to Shelbi.
Maybe I'm just a fool, and was fooled when I saw the 'love' in her eyes, it could have just been pity. There's a chance that Bella doesn't love me…
"Could I trade spots with you for this class Angela? Please." I asked her charmingly, flashing her a wide grin. She nodded her head with a shy smile, giving me a wink as she went to my seat. I plopped myself down next to Bella noisily, raising my eyebrows at her and she turned to look at me. She quickly masked her pain and gave me a death glare.
"You're PMSing." I stated jokingly, trying to start up with something that had nothing to do with pain. We completely ignored the lesson before us, not that the teacher would notice anyways. We were in the back.
"Excuse me?" She seethed, her eyes wide with disbelief.
"PMSing. Premenstrual Syndrome. Mood Swings. Stress. Diarrhea. There's more symptoms, but I really don't think you care at this point." I retorted, giving her one of my infamous smiles, made only for her.
"Yes. I know what PMS is, douche. I'm not mentally challenged. I don't have it. I simply just…don't want you anymore." Her voice broke off at the last sentence, showing that her lying skills have improved but she still has some work to do to make me believe it.
I leaned in towards her, "You love me, don't you? Don't deny it Bella, cause all of a sudden after you meet this Shelbi girl you just don't want me anymore? Usually in movies and in books, if I were a character I would wallow in my despair. Of course, I'm depressed. I'm confused. I'm angry. Most of all, I'm…heartbroken. Except for the fact that I know you still love me, and I'm not gonna waste my time if you truly don't love me. All you have to do is tell me, and I'll be gone. As much as I would die at the thought, I love you so much more that I would do anything to please you. But I know, that somehow…we will always be together. Always." I whispered passionately, pain seeping out of my voice as I tried to hold onto my hope that she does love me back.
Her breath hitched, and she closed her eyes, her expression heart shattering. " I don't love you, Edward."
My breath that I was holding in came out in a gasp, "What?"
"I…I don't love you. I thought I did, but…I really don't. I don't think I ever have truly loved you." She whispered heartbreakingly.
"You…don't…love me? So we are over. Just like that?" I asked, trying to keep my breath at a normal pace.
"Just like that." I couldn't handle myself anymore; I couldn't stand the thought of not being with Bella. So I did something…mildly stupid?
I grabbed her chin, tilting her head up and towards me as my lips met hers. At first it was soft, but then it grew more passionate. Our lips moved angrily together; violent and mind-blowing. At first when I kissed her, she was frozen. Taken back by the action, I presume. But after a few seconds, she melted. The kiss continued for a few minutes, until Bella came back to sense and pushed me away from her, "Stop Edward! I can't do this…we…don't belong together."
"Why not?" I asked; my voice so quiet that I doubt Bella could hear it that clearly.
"You're not good for me Edward." She stated, her usually innocent brown eyes, lifeless and cold.
"I'm sorry, are we interrupting something?" The professor asked us, sarcasm dripping from his words.
"Ugh! Fuck, perfect. First day of college, and I go to the Dean. Lucky me…" Bella muttered, along with a couple profanities. Apparently, cause of me we were now sitting in the office, waiting for the Dean to come and lecture us.
I couldn't think, I couldn't breathe. I couldn't do anything. Bella…truly doesn't love me. I use to tell myself I would rather die then go through the situation where Bella doesn't love me. I chuckled darkly in my head; it's funny how everything can change in one day. The one-day were everything was supposed to change, but for the better.
And now…all I wanted to do was to beg Bella back, for her to be mine and to forget about Shelbi. We could elope, run away from everyone. Just us. But…she doesn't love me. How could I be so stupid? Falling so deeply, when she never even loved me. All of it was a lie. Everything.
I sighed, trying to figure out what I did wrong. I would change, for her.
"Please Bella, just tell me what is happening. Tell me why. I love you Bella, don't you…love me?" I asked her pleadingly, wishing for some answers. She looked at me, but not into my eyes.
"I…can't Edward. We just…can't be together. Can't you just get it through your mind that I don't love you!" She yelled at me, her voice laced with frustration and desperation. Have you ever had your heart ripped out of your chest? Yeah, well that's what i'm feeling right now but a thousand times worse. Have you ever had the feeling where you just have nothing to live for anymore? When there's nothing you can possibly to change a person's mind. You can't make a person love you.
"Woohoo!" We both looked away from each other and to the sudden noise. Standing there was none other then Shelbi, wearing a smirk on her face.
"Come on Bella, I'm getting you out of this place. Let's go, before the Dean comes and pretty boy spills that we were gonna ditch." She said, sending a wink in my direction. Sighing, Bella got up and grudgingly followed Shelbi, sending me a longing look.
"And where are you going Miss. Swan?" A familiar voice asked, her voice sweet and gentle. ( I wanted to stop there so badly :P )
My old child hood friend, Kate, that I haven't seen in at least 15 years.
"Kate!" I gasped, the whole in my heart aching slightly but feeling better when I saw her. Looking more gorgeous then ever.
Her hair was slightly messy, a deep chestnut colour coming a few inches below her shoulders. Her eyes were a wide and a sparkling grayish-blue. She was wearing a black v-neck dress with a silky red wrap around her waist, flattering all her curves and making her look breath taking. My eyes dragged down her long legs and to her strappy black heals, my breath held in.
Her eyes widened and lit up, a beautiful smile stretching on her dark wine-colored lips. "Edward!" She said in disbelief, running up and hugging me tightly. I shivered, wrapping my arms around her waist and hugging her back just as firmly. "How are you here? I mean, you're so young and you're the Dean!" I asked, my voice dead, but some interest coloring my tone.
"Well, I graduated way early since apparently I'm 'gifted'," She rolled her piercing blue eyes, she never took a liking with compliments, "So I decided to be a Dean. It's fun to be strict and lay out some harsh rules on people. How I love the students misery." She joked, winking at me. I laughed mechanically, remembering that Bella was in the room.
"Oh! Well, since you're an old friend. I'll let this go, but don't go into any other trouble. This is only your first day, always getting into mischief as you were when we were together." She said playfully, winking at me with a wide gleaming smile.
"Off you go, along with you Miss. Swan, I'll forgive it this time." Kate said politely, smiling at her.
"Thanks." Bella spat, glaring at her and then striding away with Shelbi without giving me a glance. My heart ached with pain, but the sense of Kate here with be dulled the pain slightly but it didn't go away fully.
"Okay, well go off to your next class. But don't be a stranger. Maybe you would like to…get coffee together sometime?" She questioned nervously, her teeth grazing her bottom lip. I thought back to Bella and all that happened today, and right now I honestly think that I just couldn't go through with this right now. I felt like dying.
"I'm sorry Kate, right now I really should focus on school. Another time?" I suggested blankly, wanting to get out of the room as soon as possible.
"Oh," Her face fell, "yes. Another time is fine. See you…later. I really missed you Edward."
I tried my best to smile back genuinely, and nodded my head at her. I soon fled the room and went to my dorm, prepared to…
HEY! Okay, so i completely changed the plot. What can I say, the story just writes it's self. The whole kate thing kinda just came to me, I thought about New Moon and I wanted to know what it would feel for Edward if Bella did something simliar to that. I had to re-write this chapter at least...4 times. I changed it up a lot. I changed the summary, look below!I really hoped you liked it, I think I did alright. Please review! I would love it! Thank you soooo much to all of you, it means so much! :)
P.S. Link to what Kate looks like on my Profile!
With lots of love,
Alice. :)
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