A/N: Thanks to all of those who reviewed!It really means a lot to me!

And thanks again to Come what may for the beta!

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I hope you´re doing fine out there without me, ´cause I´m not doing so good without you...- Three doors down „Here by me"

Part 2:

The halls of the university were crowded as Grissom made his way towards room 112 where he was supposed to start his lecture on entomology in about an hour.

He had not slept well that night, partly because of the noisy hotel guests in the room next to his and partly because he just couldn´t sleep alone anymore. It was strange. He´d slept alone for years before he and Sara finally started dating, but he´d gotten so used to her warm body next to his that now he couldn´t sleep without her soft breath in his ear.

Sighing he opened the door to the room and closed it behind him again, savouring the silence that greeted him. Setting up the materials he´d use for the lecture would give him time to think. Not that he hadn´t had time to do exactly that enough during the last two weeks, but still...

He hadn´t thought it would be this hard to leave Sara. He loved her, sure, but still it was new to him how much pain it could cause to be away from her. The only time they´d been seperated for more than a day since they´d started their relationship had been when Sara and Nick worked a case away from Vegas. But that had been different. They hadn´t lived together back then, he knew she would be back in a few days and what was most important, Sara hadn´t been pregnant back then.

He sighed again. He´d decided to leave before he even knew about the pregnancy and when they´d found out it had only delayed telling her about his decision, not made him rethink it completely.

He knew he had to leave. He had to get control over his life again and he couldn´t do that in Vegas. But the timing was the worst and he knew Sara felt abandonned by him and probably thought he was retreating because of the new development in their relationship.

And maybe she was right, at least partly. The news that they would soon be parents had shook him to the core. They´d never talked about starting a family and to be honest he didn´t have the desire to become a father anytime soon. She´d probably seen that in his reaction, which was, not really talking about the issue. He´d only mentioned his thoughts about the baby and not being a good parent to it in the state he was in right now when he´d told her about his plans. He shook his head at himself, he should have handled the situation better. Well maybe he could show her how much he really cared when he called her later. She would have her first check-up today. He considered calling her now, before her appointment to tell her how sorry he was for not being able to be there, but decided against it at the first students already began to filter in. It would have to wait until after the lecture.

„Sidle."

„Hey honey, it´s me."

It hurt to hear his voice and know that he was too far away for her to hold.

„Hey." She whispered into the phone, cradling it to her ear.

„How was your day?"

„As always, lots of questions to answer, lots of students to bore. How was your appointment?"

„Interesting. We obviously miscalculated the time of the conception."

He could tell by her voice that Sara was nervous.

„Oh?"

„Yeah, I´m apparently in my fourteenth week."

A gasp escaped Grissom before he could surpress it. She was in her fourteenth week...they´d thought maybe her sixth or seventh, but fourteen weeks...

The silence between them stretched, as Grissom didn´t kow how to respond. How could it be that they hadn´t noticed until recently? They were trained investigators for God´s sake, so what did this say about them?

„Gil?" The insecurity in her voice pulled him out of his thoughts and he realised that he probably wasn´t the only one in shock here.

„Yeah, I´m still here...It´s just...wow."

„Yeah I know what you mean." She didn´t sound happy.

„So, is everything okay? With the baby I mean?" God, why was this so hard for them?

Well Gil, maybe because you are seperated from your girlfriend by a whole continent and you left her alone although she is pregnant.

„Yeah, everything is alright. Dr. Ross made an ultrasound and prescribed me some prenatal vitamins."

„Good...Look Sara, I need to go now, I should prepare the lecture for tomorrow and you probably have to get to work soon anyway. So, I´ll call you tomorrow?" He knew he was acting like an asshole, but he just couldn´t deal with this right now.

„Yeah sure." She couldn´t hide her dissappointment. She´d expected him to react this way, but still...

„Bye Honey."

„Bye...I love you." But he´d already hung up.