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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"Youji lended Tetsuo the largest clothes he could find but he seemed happy with the grey shirt and matching sweatpants. He admired them for a moment in the mirror before sliding under his covers. Youji finished brushing his teeth in the connected bathroom and turned off the taps. As he flicked off the light he watched Tetsuo quietly curl up and hold his pillow against his face. He opened one eye to look at Youji and patted the empty space on the bed. Youji crawled under the sheets and immediately Tetsuo's arms went around his waist, replacing the pillow. Youji cradled his head as Tetsuo's long legs tangled with his. This closeness, this warmth, it seems like it was natural and they've been doing this for years. With that thought Youji ponders how long the two of them are going out in this timeline. His pale, lanky fingers curl around Tetsuo's sandy locks and pets him in a loving, slow pace. He could feel Tetsuo hum against his body, purring would be a better word. Youji smiles, he's just holding a big cat sleeping on his chest. /p
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