*Dodges various flying lamps and blenders*

YAY! I got to Update! I don't know how you guy will react to this chapter... It's different from anything I've ever written. I really like it, even though it's the shortest so far. Also, if you watch Glee and love Kurt and Blaine together then you understand why I've been smiling since Tuesday. All I can say about that is: BEST MINUTE AND FORTY SEVEN SECONDS IN GLEE HISTORY!

Anyways, I heart Glee and will publishing a drabble series for it relatively soon (It has yet to be named) Now on with CHAPTER THREE!

Stand Forever

Chapter 3: Blackbirds and Candles

Rating: M

Disclaimer: I don't own anything. If I did B.T.R. would be on HBO or the CW, not Nick. So yeah:)

Xavier stared down at the check-in list in his hand, the one missing check-box; Lola's check-box. He sighed and picked up his Iphone; he pressed speed dial 2, his favorite one.

"We're sorry, but the number you have dialed is no longer in service; please hang up and try again." The monotonous recording droned on.

Xavier sighed, his only real love had managed to escape. He smiled happily, Lola was finally safe. He looked at the list once more, and checked Lola in. A stray tear trickled down his face, he was going to miss Lola's soft smile and caring eyes. Lola had been too nice not to care for everyone, even his pimp.

"Everyone's in." he told Diego, knowing the night was just enough time for Lola to escape.

"Excellent..." Diego hissed in his infamous, venom-filled voice.

Xavier sighed, he hoped Lola's secret letter was the cause of his disappearance and not something awful. But then again, any fate was better than this one.

"Xavier baby, please come to bed" Diego said, more of a command than a plea. Xavier complied quickly, sliding into bed as far away from Xavier as possible.

"Xavier..." Diego growled. He quickly scooted towards him.

Diego was his master. Xavier belonged to him. The faint scars along his dark skin were a constant reminder. This wasn't him, it was all Diego. The girls weren't the only ones drugged. Just then, he felt the familiar light-headed sensation that were the hot pink drugs doing. And with that he turned into a walking stereotype. To the beat of Lady Gaga's Bad Romance, he entered his own.

Lola, Lola, Lola he thought as Diego pounded into him repeatedly. They lived in a world of secrets, lies and betrayal, Xavier was as much of as Lola had been, a personal slave to Diego, that is. He lived to protect Lola, the only person he'd ever truly loved.

Xavier dressed him in feminine clothes because the regulars went for more masculine boys, the less clients Lola had to deal with; the better. Beautiful Lola... Xavier thought over and over again, trying to ignore the pain Diego was inflicting between his legs. It hurt, it always hurt with Diego; but he had no other options. His eyes shut tight, he focused solely on the music surrounding him.

"I want your love, and I want your revenge. I want your love I don't want to be friends."

Xavier was so conflicted. If he really loved Lola, should he set him free? Questions swirled around in his mind, the memories of Lola's empty, lost gaze. His ongoing depression only faltered when he'd read his hidden letter each night. Even if Lola's happiest were spent with the author of that letter, they never failed to make Xavier smile; because as much as he loved Lola, seeing him happy would always come in first.

Diego pulled out of him and he winced in pain. His tormentor chuckled in delight and hopped off the bed. "You'd better get going, Jessica is coming in next." he said monotonously, never one to show any emotion at all. Xavier bit back a cry of pain as he stood, not surprised by the effects of another night with Diego. He limped down the corridor to his private room and flopped onto the bed as sobs escaped his mouth.

"So much for my happy ending..." he sang along with Avril over the loudspeaker, wishing for a more upbeat song, Alejandro would be appropriate. Or Just Dance. Xavier rolled onto his back and looked up at the ceiling. Twinkling LED's mimicked the stars Xavier hadn't seen since he was twenty three years old, living in small town Louisiana.

"And they say L.A. is perfection." he whispered to himself. Just then, he noticed a light down the hallway coming from Lola's old dorm room. He crept out of his room and slipped though Lola's door. Xavier sat down on the bed and reached behind the bed frame. He felt around for the small groove in the wall, Lola's hiding place for his various secret items.

It was empty except for an envelope.

To Whomever it may Concern,

Hold on. Stand Forever. NEVER back down. I didn't and now I'm gone.

You CAN escape it all. In the end, everything happens for a reason. Even if it feels as if nothing could get worse, just remember: It could always get better.

Always live in the moment, you never know when it might end.

Love,

Lola.

Xavier had tears in his eyes from reading the words he knew weren't meant for him. Lola was as afraid of him as the rest of their world, no one got to know the truth. As far as everyone was concerned, Diego and Xavier were partners in crime; not master and slave.

The game wasn't for the weak or stupid. It was all about skill. Pure Skill. The game was like Alice in Wonderland, trippy and beautiful on the outside; but so intricate, complicated and dangerous on the inside. Does that make me the Knave? Xavier wondered, contemplating how similar the two really were. So many hidden meanings in this world. Thought Xavier.

He pulled out a notebook from a drawer in Lola's nightstand and began putting together the pieces of his insane idea.

The Lola in Wonderland Theory:

Lola-Alice

Mystery Savior- The Mad Hatter

Xavier- The Knave

Diego-The Red Queen

Circus Diego and Xavieramous: Wonderland ?

"Oh but it's so much more than that..." Xavier whispered to himself The voice inside his was telling him he'd missed so many details over the years. Love, Lust, The recurring nightmares, the drug-induced Lucid Dreams. But, with the new chip, came the loss of memory. his dosage being twice as strong as Lola's.

The uncertainty of his life was never-ending. what had become of his wife and daughter? Granted he was gay, but his wife was still his best friend. He was quickly forgetting his beautiful family in Louisiana , quickly forgetting what the sun looked like. Eleven years underground will do that ; even without high-tech drugs speeding the process along.

"Like acid burns through snow..." He thought aloud, referring to his quickly deteriorating memory.

"Simile for what, may I ask?" Came a feminine male voice behind him. He turned around to find Jessica; or Jesse, as Lola had called him. Xavier recalled Jesse being Lola's best friend, and protector. Dormouse. He thought, mentally adding Jesse to the Lola in Wonderland cast.

"My memory." Xavier said simply, not having the energy to lie. He stood, ready to return to his room.

"You know he's not coming back, right?" Jesse asked boldly, finding his confidence in Xavier's tears and lost expression.

"Yeah, I know that, why do you know that?" Xavier asked, sneering at Jesse.

Jessesmiled and walked closer to Xavier, he lightly ran his lips along Xavier's ear, making his shiver before whispering, "I know everything... X-slave-eir." and promptly walked out of the room.

Xavier fainted.

Jesse chuckled lightly as he picked Xavier up into his arms a while later, not wanting to get him into trouble with Diego.

"Oh Lola, you had no idea..." he whispered, looking around at the paintings strewn around the floor, all abstract likenesses of Lola. Jesse rolled his eyes, smiling. That Kendall guy must have been something else if Lola was willing to give up all this... this admiration.

Oh my god you guys, I didn't even break a two thousand word count, that's how short this is. I haven't even started writing chapter four yet and I'm still not supposed to be posting Fanfiction. (or reading it for that matter) But, when the writers on this site are as good as you guys, how could I resist? Which is why all Spring Break I've been up until 3 in the morning reading, and then sleeping until noon. Anyways, there's a poll on my profile I'd like you guys to check out, The question is: Which of my OC's is your favorite? (Your choices are Jesse, Xavier and Diego)

Chapter 3 Playlist:

Bad Romance by: Lady Gaga

Just Dance by: Lady Gaga

Alejandro by:Lady Gaga

Candles: (Originally Hey Monday, but I like the Glee version better)

Blackbird: (Originally The Beatles, but once again; the Glee version was ten times better in my eyes)

Waiting Outside The Lines by: Greyson Chance

Reviews? Please point out any typos, this wasn't even proofread :/