**TRIGGER WARNING FOR SELF-HARMERS. YOU SEEN THE SIGNS LAST CHAPTER OF MIKEY FEELING LIKE HE DOESN'T BELONG. IT'S OBVIOUS ABOUT WHAT WAS BEING FORESHADOWED.**

Mikey's POV

Sleep just wasn't going to happen tonight. I keep thinking about that voice earlier. It bothered me. I knew that I always felt like a burden, But I never thought much about it. I never did anything about it. But now, that everything has happened I want to do something. Raph hated me. And If Raph hates me than I hate me. Raph's always been my hero. I looked up to him. I wanted to be like him. I wanted his approval. And now Raph hurt me, but I deserved it. He doesn't really mean that He's sorry. 'Your not worth an apology. Your worthless.'

Yeah, Yeah that's true. Sighing, I go through Facebook. I scroll through random posts. Until I come across one of my 'Friends' posts. Her name is Stormi, she seems like a sad person. She always posts stuff about depression. But this post was different. She was talking about this thing called 'Self-Harm' and It interested me.

'I don't generally tell people that they should cut, or burn to get rid of feelings. But Self-Harm has always been there when I felt like a burden, or felt worthless. Ugly. Fat. Or anything really. It's simple. You feel an emotion, you hurt yourself, and it goes away. For a while. It makes you think about the real pain. Not the emotional pain.'

Soo, If I hurt myself I won't feel like a burden anymore. I'll be worth something. I need to find something sharp, to see if It's true.

I hope it is.

Raph's POV

"Leo, Do you think He forgave me? Because It didn't sound like he did."

"No Raph. It's going to take time."

"Your right. I just feel so bad. Mike didn't deserve alla that. I mean, Yeah he deserved a spankin' but not that."

"Yeah," Leo sighs," I called Splinter back home."

"What?! Why would ya do that Leo?"

"He has a right to know, Raph. Your going to be punished by him. He told me to forewarn you. He should be home soon."

Mikey's POV

While Raph and Leo were talking, About who knows what, I snuck into Raph's room. I knew that Raph had blades. I found his collection and took the smallest but sharpest blade. It was Silver, with a Black handle. Very simple.

I ran back to my room, Locking my door. It's time to test this. Ignoring the small voice calling me names, I put the Blade to my arm, Sliding it across. Instantly bead of blood show up and I focus on them. I did it more, and pushed harder on the blade. Not too deep. I wouldn't want to kill myself or anything. 'Or would you,' Said a small voice in my head.

No. Heck no.

After sitting a while just staring at the blood I hear someone yell.

"RAPHAEL, COME HERE THIS INSTANT!"

It sounded like dad.

I quickly found a rag and cleaned the blood off my arm. I wrapped my arm in gauze, searching for a long sleeved shirt. Which was practically impossible to find. I listen as Raph gets yelled at for hurting me. Ha. Raph doesn't care.

I peak out of my room and see dad spanking Raph with a strap.

Raph wasn't struggling, He was just telling how much he regretted what He did. Is he sorry? It sounds like he's sorry. But I'm confused.

After dad was done, Raph got up and headed towards my room. I'm glad I closed it before I was seen.

"Mikey, Baby bro. I'm so sorry. Please, Please. Come outta there so I can hug ya and give you a proper apology."

Was he serious? I hear a sigh and Raph comes in with shock on his face.

"Why are ya wearin' sleeves?"

"I was cold," I lie.

"Riiigghhht."

Crap. I regret ever cutting myself.

"Yer bleeding, Mike."

I was. It went through the Gauze. Oh crap.

"I'm okay. Just a scrape probably."

"Sure Mikey. Come here. Let's get you to Don's Lab," Raph says coming over to me.

"What? No I said that I'm fine," I panicked as He got closer, "No! Don't come any closer. Please."

In all honestly I'm scared what Raph will do. But I know he won't hurt me again. I seen how sorry He was just a few minutes ago.

Raph just grabbed me carefully and carried me to Donnie's Lab. I struggled but Since Raph is so much bigger than me It didn't work well.

"Donnie. Mikey's arm is bleeding."

"Let me take a look."

Raph set me down on the table so that I was laying down. Careful not to hurt my bottom. Donnie hummed as He pulled up my sleeve revealing blood covered gauze. I heard a gasp from both of my brothers and looked away.

Once the gauze was peeled off the cuts were revealed. "Mikey, Did you do this?"

"I'm sorry Donnie."

"Don't be. We will get help."

"It won't happen again. I don't feel bad anymore," I told Donnie.

"We have to make sure nothing ever happens like this again. And you and Raph need some time to sort stuff out."

So for some odd reason my internet wasn't turned off. Which is good. I hope it stays on but I have doubts. They did this last time. This chapter wasn't beta read. I want to write a story about my favorite band member being a Neko (Andy biersack). But with a plot twist. But I can't do that yet. I have prompts to do! So like I could be an ass and end the story here. But a baby sequel has come. I'm posting them as the same time.