Hi everyone! I want to start by saying thank you for all the views and reviews of my chapters… it's been lovely reading the reviews and the messages…
I also want to say sorry for not updating sooner… but sometimes we can't predict what happens in life…
So here it is chapter 3! Hope you enjoy reading it!
DISCLAIMER: I don't own any of the characters, everything belongs to E.L. James.
Today has been a good day so far, I spent the morning job hunting and I have sent my resume to five publishing houses… I know that I will not receive a positive answer from all of them but I'm hoping to receive at least one.
I start to get ready for my dinner with Gideon but I don't know what to wear… I never had a problem with this specially when it's a dinner with Gideon… well… I'll go with the usual… jeans and a white top… this time I add a black blazer and black high heels from Kate's wardrobe… she won't mind.
Gideon said that he would pick me up at seven and it's 18:58pm so he must be almost here as he is always very punctual… my train of thought is stopped by the doorbell… it must be Gideon.
I walk down the stairs to see Kate hugging Gideon for dear life… it makes me happy to see how close they are… I approach them and they stop hugging.
"Hey Ana you look hot … are those my heels? " Kate asks and I regret my choice right away… maybe i should have asked…
"Yes, they are… I hope there isn't a problem if I take them just for tonight…"
"Of course not… are you kidding… I am proud of myself now… finally I succeeded"
"In what? I was the one who chose the clothes…"
"Well yes but it was me that gave you a sense of fashion…" Gee thanks Kate… with all of this I forgot that Gideon was in the room…
"Hey Gui! I'm sorry …" I go forward and give him a kiss on the cheek
"It's okay Ana… I know how my sister can be sometimes… you look great by the way with or without heels …" Gideon always the charmer.
"Thank you... see Kate…" I show my tongue to her in a childish way but I don't care… me and Kate are always like this.
"Whatever… he would defend you even if you were wearing clothes with dirt all over them…"
"Okay… well Ana are you ready?" Gideon asks finally ending the conversation…
"Yes let me just grab my purse…" I go upstairs and grab my purse and my phone that was charging… When I was starting to walk down the stairs I hear Kate talking…
"Why did you ask her to go to dinner with you Gideon?"
"What's the matter can't I?"
"Yes you can but… what do you have to tell her? She told me you said that you had something to tell her… just her… what's going on?"
"Fucking hell Kate can't I just ask a friend to dinner and talk to her?"
"Are you going to tell her how you feel?" What does Kate mean? I know I shouldn't be eavesdropping but I want to know…
"Kate what are you talking about?"
"Don't play dumb, it doesn't suit you… just don't try anything… oh and by the way I told her about the deal between you and Grey… just so you know…she needed to, because things will be awkward tomorrow and she would be at loss with all the tension… Why don't you clear that tonight?"
"Fuck Kate bad timing… this is so bad timing, this doesn't concern her… it's a thing over and done with…"
"Seriously"? I find my clue to walk down the stairs…
"Hey! I got my purse…"
"Great let's go…" Gideon says harshly… I wave to Kate that was near the couch… before I know we were in the car driving towards his apartment in awkward silence…
"It's everything alright?" No answer… great.
"Gui?… Gideon?"
"What Ana?" I look at him dumbfound…
"Look… if you don't want to have dinner just turn around a drop me home… we can do it another time when you are less grumpy and you are being a less of a chump…"
"Ana I am sorry I just have a lot in my head… I was hoping for a quite dinner tonight but probably it will be filled with questions that I rather not answer…" I don't want to push the subject so we remain in silence until we are inside his apartment…
"So what's in the menu?" I ask finally breaking the silence…
"I thought that something simple would be fine so I taught about Mac and Cheese… what do you think?"
"Perfect… You know I don't like fancy food…"
"Well then… my housekeeper just served dinner…" We sit at the table and start eating
"Wine?"
"No thanks…" This is so awkward… we never had dinner alone and I'm starting to regret it…
"Gideon… what's going on?"
"What do you mean?"
"For someone so perceptive you are lacking vision today…There is a big elephant in this room why don't we start acknowledging it… you said that you had something to tell me what is it?"
"Ana… let's start about what Kate told you about…"
"Christian…yes… what about it? I understand if you don't want to talk about the subject…although I am very curious about the whole situation…"
"It's a part of my life rather complicated… you aren't ready to know…" What the actual fuck? Okay different approach…
"I won't ask what happened… but why it happened?..."
"Seriously?…Ana… it's a long story" I look at him as if I'm waiting for answers and fortunately he understands it…
"Christian and I we got apart because of me… I admit it… we were young with raging hormones I started a relationship with someone… a woman and nobody knew about it… I knew I could trust Christian with my life but I was afraid that he would look at me in a different way…and besides that…I am very selfish…"
"He would look at you in a different way just because you are in a relationship with a woman…?"
"No… he wouldn't but at the same time he would if he knew the relationship's nature…"
"Which was..?" I know I shouldn't pressure the subject, but the questions are coming off my mouth before I can think about them…
"I will get there… " He isn't looking me in the eyes… it's unusual…
"Sorry… you don't have to say anything… "
"I started that relationship when I was fifteen… and soon I discovered that the woman I was with was manipulating me… I loved her… so she convinced me that I had to step away from my family and friends in order to be better, I believed her at first… and I broke my friendship with him…Christian… stepped away from my family… only to find out that the person I loved was having the same relationship with my best friend… I was so angry… so blind… I didn't realize that she was manipulating him too… Christian didn't know about my relationship with her… I don't blame him I never told him… I stepped away… he also started to step away from me more … I know this because even though I was ignoring him, he would reach out for me and ask what was wrong… soon enough he stopped talking to me … I was so angry Ana… I failed him and let that woman get to him... to both of us… I think that he doesn't know until today…about my relationship with her…and believe me it was very fucked up…"
"Kate thought it wasn't a girl the reason of all the disagreement but after all…"
"It was a woman in her thirties… " What the hell… the age for consent is at sixteen…
"Gideon… she is a pedophile…" If he was having a relationship with her, and if the relationship was sexual and she was manipulating him… then she's a pedophile…the thought doesn't sit right in my troat and suddenly I feel the urge to throw up, but fortunately I don't.
"I know… I realized that when I was almost 20… at Harvard and tried to reach out to Christian but he was already in deep with range and fury… since he was little he has suffered from abandonment jumping from foster home to foster home…until the Greys… and I did that to him… one more person to abandon him… I regret it but Christian started to want revenge…not just for it but also for the things that I did to him during the time I was… angry…. " But if he realized that the woman is a pedophile why didn't he do something about it? And what could Gideon have done to Christian?
"Gideon… why didn't you do something to stop her… the woman… "
"I wanted to… but I found out last year that he is friends with her…and still have him by the balls… " really? Is she still manipulating him…
"How can one person have such influence over him… over both of you…?"
"She is a dominant… and we were submissives…" What? God, please tell me that it doesn't mean what I think it means? He is just rambling pieces of the story… I'm trying very hard to piece them up together…but it's hard and confusing as hell…
"What?"
"Ana… I trust you enough not to tell this to anyone about this conversation, I trust you enough so I won't make you sign an NDA… you have to promise me Ana… "
"Yes, I promise…" This is so bad…I have that feeling in the pit of my stomach when something is terrible…
"Okay… so I'm going to do a superficial approach on the subject… do you have any idea of what is BDSM?"
"Bondage, Dominance, Sadism and Masochism… isn't it?"
"Are you familiar?" He asks me panicked.
"Not exactly I read something online a couple of months ago or in a book I can't remember exactly…"
"Yes, it's exactly that… It's a lifestyle and dominants practice it with submissives … Elena made me a submissive while she was the dominant and then she trained me to be the dominant… the lifestyle requires submission… you have to give your submission to the dominant… if you don't follow the rules you are punished…"
Punished? PUNISHED? Elena is the pedo? Does he still practice?
"Elena is the woman who…"
"Yes, it is…"
"And are you still a dominant?"
"Yes, I still practice the lifestyle…"Oh dear Lord…
"Do you punish your submissives or whatever that is?"
"When is required… yes" When is required… the hell is it suppose to mean?
"What do you mean with punished? Like being caned and whipped…? Oh God did she do that with Christian too…?" Please don't let it be more confusing…
"She did… with both of us at the same time… I ended it but apparently he didn't…" How fucked up is this woman… she should be behind bars…
"Wait why didn't you worn Christian… or helped him sooner?"
"I could have but I didn't want to… When I say that I was the reason for the end of our friendship, I'm telling the truth... and when I say that I did things to him to get my revenge yes that is also true… but he didn't do less than me Ana… It took almost one year to get my company up and running and do you know why? Because every fucking time I started an acquisition he was there to take it away from me… he still does sometimes… and do you want to know why I didn't expose him and Elena already? because I'm perfectly aware that they would expose me too… and I would go down too…"
"Gideon you don't mean that… how could you say something like this?... Especially about someone who was dear to you… "
"Ana… Christian thinks that he has everything always under control… and what pisses me off more is that he has… he wants revenge and I can't stand still and let him have it his way…"
"What did you do Gideon? You have been telling me things, but something doesn't make sense… You got angry about finding out that Elena was having a relationship with Christian… Christian didn't know about yours with Elena… you wanted revenge over it and Christian wanted revenge over losing a friend… you came to your senses when both of you entered to Harvard and tried to talk to him… he didn't want to hear it … and this part doesn't make sense… if both of you were such good friends why didn't he wanted to hear you out? What did you do?"
"Ana… I know that was wrong but in that time …"
"Gideon… tell me…"
"I stole his business plan before we got to Harvard… he found out and dropped out of college to start his business before I could copy his…"
"You stole his business plan? You stole his dream?" I can't believe this… I never expected this… my mind is in overdrive… pedophiles… BDSM… revenges… this is too much for me to handle right now…
"Gideon this is so much worse than what he has been doing… he didn't destroy your business or your dream, he simply found a way to retard it a little by buying companies that you wanted… and on top of this that bitch still has her claws all over him… I was starting to think in the beginning of our conversation that you regretted losing your friend and doing nothing to help him with that abuser… but now all I can see in your eyes is hunger for a revenge that shouldn't exist, especially if it's you the one who caused the major problem…" I don't know what to say anymore… I can't believe that he has done something like this… I realize now that I don't know him at all… by this time I only feel compassion towards Christian… everyone has it all wrong it shouldn't be Christian the person I should step away from…I should step away from Gideon.
"Ana… you can't possibly be defending a person that you never met or even know what looks like… "
"I don't need to… if this story is true, yes I'm taking his side… Yes I don't know him, I don't know anything about him but if this is true I'm pretty sure that he has every right in the world to be mad at you…"
"You can't be serious… You know me for years Ana… you know who I am… what I do…"
"I thought so too… but right now a person who acts like this… cold, insensitive… I realize I don't know a thing about you Gideon… "
"I told Kate this was bad timing…"He starts to talk to himself
"Don't blame Kate… If this was what you had to tell me… then it's time for me to leave…"
"Ana… no…" I start to walk towards the door, but he stops me… grabbing my arm…
"What Gideon… I have to go… I need to think… my brain and my body can't take much more of this… I just found that you are a total different person… and we didn't even discuss that you are a dominant and control women… and I don't want to go there right now… let me go Gideon…"
"I can't leave you like this… I need to fix things with you" He sounds desperate but I just need space…
"I have to go… I need some space and time to think…"
"At least stay here… in the guest room I will take you home tomorrow morning…"
"There's no need I will call a cab… Oh and one more question why did you decided to tell me this right now… why tell me and not Kate..."
"Because I thought that you would be the only one to understand… I thought this night would be a lot different… and this wasn't what I had planned to tell you but…"
"So what is it?" Please I need to go home if he tells me one more shocking thing I will faint…
"Ana I like you… a lot … I have feelings for you…"Please tell me this is a nightmare… please tell me that I will wake up and this will just disappear… everything is taking a fast pace in a short period and I'm done…
"Ana… say something…" Oh god it's real…
"Gideon, it's been a long night… a lot of revelations… I can't think straight right now, as I said I need space… time to process all this… this is too much … and by the way you are only saying that so I will stay here…"
"No Ana… I really like you…"I really have to tell him… what am I going to do?
"Gideon… I'm sorry but yesterday I would say that I like you a lot too… but as a brother… as a friend… today after all the information I've just received I feel like I don't know you at all, right now I look at you and you are a completely different person…"I don't know if I'm being harsh or not… I guess I'm being a little but I don't know what to do… I'm confused… I need to get home or a place far away from here… I need fresh air.
"Ana… I never should have told you any of this… I told Kate…"
"Don't blame Kate…don't do things worse… I'm sorry if I don't feel the same Gideon… and I must say that it wasn't a very good idea telling me this upon everything that we've been talking about…"
"I'm sorry too Ana… I don't want this to ruin our friendship… what we had" We go silent and he puts a mask on, almost impossible to read but a see glimpses of sadness is his eyes "Maybe it's better if you go… I'll take you home…"
"Gideon… please understand I need space from you… and I'll call a cab don't worry…"
"Fine… please just tell me when you get home." Okay…
"I will… uhmm thanks for dinner…"I tell him as a goodbye because I honestly don't know what to say to him… and I don't know what I will say to him in the future either. This is so fucked up...
So this is chapter 3… I intended to write the gala in this chapter but it would be too long… and I think I left it in a good point...
From now on there will be more of our favorite couple!
I hope you liked it… please review or message me if you have any opinions or suggestions.
Love Bia X