I can't stop my legs from walking me up to the stage. Then I realise that I'm on camera, so I do my best to look smug and determined. Diamondus asks for volunteers, but of course there are none. I glare at Welda, who actually looks sort of sad, but if I get far enough into the games that they interview her, they will probably show this so she can't be smiling.
Alex and I are marched into the Justice Building, where we have a little time with our loved ones.
My mother comes in first, and she actually cries.
"Baby, I want you to know that I love you and Welda equally, even if it doesn't seem like it. I know that you are annoyed at me for marrying Jack so soon after your father's death, but I needed the support and if I mourned anymore I was worried you would get depressed." She breaks down into huge sobs. I believe her. I suddenly believe her, because I don't want to be angry at what could be our last meeting.
"It's ok mum, I believe you." I whisper, trying not to cry. I hug her until she is lead out and Codend comes in. I don't know what to say, but I don't have to worry because as soon as they shut the door Codend brings our lips together. Every emotion flows through me; passion, surprise, love, nervousness, happiness. I know that this is being filmed, but I don't want to stop. I close my eyes and feel his soft, full lips moving with mine. Finally he breaks away and I'm dazed and disorientated.
"I had to know," he breathes, "don't make any allies or join the careers. Just focus on winning and give the gamemakers a good show, that way they won't bother you." A peacekeeper marches in and takes Codend away. "I love you!" he cries out, and they door slams shut behind him.
Codend Wirve loves me and I think I love him back. And now I will never be able to tell him unless I brutally murder children. How sick the capitol is.