an: im so sorry for such a long wait I started getting a lot of homwork and just didnt have time. also sorry this one has not yet been edited and my grammer is horrible. I thought this chapter seemed out of character and some parts didnt really work out. thank you to those who reviewed

College campus

Buffy watched as Spike came running around the corner.

"Well that was easier then I thought it would be" she thought out loud.

Spike saw Buffy and stopped.

"A little help here slayer."

"And why would I help you."

"Because if you don't the commandos will get you too."

Buffy realised what he meant, the guys in army * I could help him if I wanted to. Dammit now I have to I can't just leave him out here*.

"Fine" she said "but we'll have to run a long ways, I can't take you back to the dorm because willows in there so we'll have to make it back to my house."

While they ran Buffy thought *what the hell am I doing he's evil isn't he I can't just let him willingly enter my house ... again. I hate this guy and helping him how low can I get.*

Spike was thinking just the same thing, how could he trust the Slayer.

They got to Buffy's house within half an hour, Spike saw a woman walking buy *wonder if Buffy will notice if I stop for I quick bite* spike ran up to the woman and grabbed her, but just his teeth were about to pierce into her skin a sharp mind shattering pain hit his head.

"What the" he said.

Buffy was shocked, for some reason she hadn't expected him to do that, and what the hell just happened why couldn't he bite that girl, never the less she grabbed him, then punched him in the face for trying to bite the lady. She was about to pull out a stake and kill him, like she should have done the moment she saw him running around that corner, when he caught her off guard and tried punching her too. As soon as he did the same thing happened as when he had tried biting the lady. *huh* Buffy thought * it seems he can't hurt humans, I should probably tell Giles about that ... in a couple of days of course spike can just stay here until I do tell him I mean if he can't hurt me what harm can he do. *

Buffy sometimes stayed at her old house to keep her mom company. Joyce was still out so she led spike up into her bedroom her mother had been giving Buffy some privacy since she got back which meant she probably wouldn't come into her room.

Spike looked around the small bedroom "I have to stay here isn't there some other place I could go?"

"Not unless you want to go back out onto the streets where the commando guys can get you."

"No I mean it's really small and there's only one bed and..."

Buffy clued in on what he meant "oh right your used to sleeping on the floor right."

"Yeah al'right."

Buffy went to get dressed in the bathroom when she got back spike was sitting on the floor propped up against the side of the bed.

"So what next?" he asked.

"Well I'm going to bed, don't touch anything and whatever you do don't go downstairs." Buffy said while getting into her bed.

"Fine I won't go downstairs, but I can't promise that I won't snoop through your stuff cause I'm not tired and I get bored easily."

"Do you want me to throw you out to the streets where the commandos can get you cause I'd do that in a heartbeat, no really I would ."

"al'right" spike lied. He would most definitely be looking through her stuff, even though it was her old bedroom and her more recent things would be in her college dorm, there had to be something interesting here.

Ten minutes later spike checked to make sure Buffy was sleeping when he was sure she was he started looking around the room *where to start* he thought *aha the desk perfect place for hiding things like a diary perhaps* soon he found what he was looking for, the diary seemed to start when she first came to Sunnydale, spike decided to start with the first entry.

Dear diary,

I've started high school here in Sunnydale and it's quite boring, but I seemed to make a friend sort of, her names cordielia she's nice well to me anyway. She sort of reminds me of how I was back before I found out I was a slayer, which by the way I've decided that I'm going to leave that past back in L.A and just try to be a normal teenager, make friends, gossip, and talk about boy. But back to Cordy she's nice to me and she doesn't treat me like an outsider, but she was being a real jerk to this girl named willow. Oh and the most unlikely of things happened when I went into the school library, this creepy guy who said he was mister Giles the librarian, told me he had just what I was looking for and then he pulled out this weird book that said vampire on the cover as soon as I saw that I got out of there as quickly as I could, not caring about the text books that I went in there to get. I can't believe that where ever I go I can't leave being a slayer behind it's not like I chose to be like this cause believe me I didn't, I hate my life.

*wow* spike thought * never knew the slayer used to hate what she was so much, does she still feel that way, and I just can't picture the slayer ever being like cordielia, I would like to see that, she seems so much the opposite of her wow and she first thought of that stuffy old watcher of hers as creepy... well actually I can sort a see why. I don't want to read the whole diary so I'll skip ahead to after she met me wonder how scared of me she was she seemed to cope well with the fact that I was back huh maybe just maybe she knew but if so then why hadn't she killed me yet and why did she help me out and why in the bloody hell cant I hurt humans* spike then went to read an entry half way through the diary.

Dear diary,

Today as I was leaving the bronze a vampire came at me I killed it easily but then out of the shadows I saw the outline of a man I couldn't tell who it was though just then he started clapping and then he said something about him going to kill me before he stepped out of the shadows I knew I needed to kill him but he was just so... well there was something about him it was like he wasn't like normal vampires he was special. He had bleached blond hair like really it almost looked white and he wore a black leather duster he looked sorta rugged he was actually kind a hot, a 'y' shaped scar was visible on one of his black eyebrows the vampire said his name was spike, I told Giles about him later and we couldn't find him anywhere then out of now where angel came and told us to cross reference it with William the bloody we found him right away and it turned out he was a brutal killer who got his name by killing his victim with railroad spikes. Okay terrified much.

*what the Slayer thought I was... hot, I wonder if she still thinks that*. Spike flipped to the back of the book but when he reached the last page it was still before she ran away *bullocks* he thought* I need to get hands on the next instalment it might be hard but I'm up for the challenge* spike smirked as he heard Buffy stirring in her sleep

"Riley" she said suddenly still sleeping

*WHAT* spike thought *who in the bleeding hell is this riley ponce, and why the hell am I caring why should I care who's name Buffy says in her sleep, or who she's dreaming about this very second oh I gotta wake her up cause if she says riley one more time I'm gonna flip. Bloody hell the bleeding dream was right I am in love with the slayer*

As if on cue there was a knock at the door spike ran into the closet just before Joyce walked into Buffy's room.

"Buffy, honey are you there, oh there you are I thought you came home last night, I saw your coat downstairs". Joyce said while walking in the door.

Buffy jolted upright, she quickly looked around the room to make sure Spike had hid somewhere when she saw no one she answered "oh yeah sorry I didn't leave a note or anything I just thought I'd come home for the weekend."

"Oh that's all right sweetie, and sorry if I woke you, I'll go down stairs and give you some privacy I'll call you when I make some breakfast."

"Ok sounds great bye" Buffy said as her mother left the room.

Spike who had been listening from the closet then came out, they stood in silence for a minute then spike broke the silence.

"So who's this riley bloke" he muttered.

"WHAT!" Buffy yelled.

"Is everything all right up there Buffy" Joyce called from downstairs.

"Umm yeah mom I was just talking to will on the phone" Buffy replied.

"Ok" said Joyce.

Buffy now turned to spike "how in the hell did you know that, that..."

"You talk in you sleep slayer "spike said while plopping down on her bed.

"Oh what a relief I thought you'd been spying on me or something" Buffy then also sat down on the bed but made sure she was a ways away from spike.

"Okay but who is he?"

"Why do you even care?"

"I don't know, I just want to know."

"He's a friend of mine; from school you do know what a friend is don't you."

"Yeah of course why the hell would you ask a stupid question like that?"

"Oh I don't know I just thought since you probably don't have well any."

"Hey... oh wait your right."

Buffy laughed and so did spike "so you gonna tell your creepy old watcher bout me" spike said after a moment.

"Creepy why would you call him creepy well I guess I did find him creepy when I first... saw...him...hey you read my diary, you know I knew you'd pull something like this I should never have let you in my house" spike was laughing again Buffy took this time to look at him more clearly, he looked almost identical to when she first saw him but he seemed more alive almost human* wow I never noticed this before but his smile is amazing and his eyes there so blue there just wow.*

Spike was now staring at Buffy * she's just so beautiful. I can't believe I'm in love with the slayer I mean I've killed two of them, it's just she different ,she's amazing.*

They quickly broke out of the trance that they were in, and retreated to separate corners of the room.

please review, next chapter im bringing Xander into the story.