Dear Dairy Journal Thing,
I hate that I created them. Who do they think they are staring up without MY permission?! They are mine and then they go and try to attack my little angel?! Fuck No! Grr It makes me so furious! My things attacking each other hurts.
I wonder if that BITCH has anything to do with this. If he tries to ruin Mikados life I will be pissed. He can have mine, but he can't come near Mikado's. /\/\/\/\/ And the worst part is that fucking creep thought me a damn lesson. I know now I will forever protect the one I love. No one gets to tear them down, hurt them, or control them ever.
Something about the endless amount of pain he forced upon me, made me realize I can take ANYTHING. Also when the pain became so much and I thought I'd die, I realized how much I actually wanted to live. It's almost funny when the thing that makes you want to die, shows you how much you don't want to. The bile mixed with blood swirling in ones mouth, covering the shattered hear. I know that eventually everything will be alright, and it just takes time to reach a shower.
I don't care if he showed me the joys in life, he is the reason I had to go looking. I know he already messed with Mikado, but I swear I will protect him. No matter what can happen to me, he will be safe.
Him being happy, and safe is the most important thing to me. Thats why when my time to leave comes, he will have Anri. I should probably mention no one at school actually knows we are dating. Well aside from those girls and Ryo. Erika and Walker would so totally fan girl if they knew. He he Walkers a fan girl.
Oh My GERD! I am not sick anymore! I can finally please Mr. Dicky and my prostate. Being the uke actually so rocks. Oh my gosh I haven't even kissed him since I was sick, plus two days just to make sure. Oh and sorry dairy Journal Thing for not writing for a four days, life got busy. And yeah this is short too...
Oh so I am thinking about getting a job, since I kind of got fired from my last one... Any Idea of what I should be? I know your not exactly vocal and all, but you make me happy from pissed so I think your quite magical. Maybe you could just like send me a sign? No? Okay yeah that was stupid. See you soon. Oh actually do you know if Mikado has seen me hid you? Like there is something that has been bothering me and I need to tell someone. Can I trust you like that?
I am ofically insane. I am trying to have a convirsation with an object. Time to take a nap and sexify myself before Mikado arrives. He works todays so he should get here around 10:30, he is going to be so tired tomorrow. But not me 'cause I is about to go night night. Bye~