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A/N: (I know it's annoying to read, I usually skip these myself, I won't usually do these.) I know in the book that Sabrina Cried in front of people at Briers funeral but I'm changing it so no one has ever seen Sabrina Cry. This chapter is the first chapter to really focus on Sabrina's past, and sorry if the beginning is long and boring. Also thank you for the follows and favorites.
Disclaimer: I do not own The Sisters Grimm or the song and band "This is Love" by The Script
Recap:
"I guess I'll sleep in the mirror's room." Uncle Jake says, but it sounds different.
That's because I am slipping into what I like to call "T.U.S.O.H." The Unconscious State Of Hurt, so I start sprinting, yelling "Sorry got to go we'll finish this later!" hoping I get to my room before I faint or break down in sobs in front of them. I finally get to my room and fling the door shut, I don't know if it sounds like a slam, or if it was quiet as a mouse because I can't hear anything right now. I run to the portal and step inside the pillow room (that's where it open up's to in the tree house) and faint right then and there on the soft pillows.
The Past's Not Always in the Past Chapter 3
Sabrina's POV
When I woke up I felt tears sliding down my face and I fell apart, I haven't done this for two weeks, and before that the last time I did it was in the orphanage. I am doing this more often, and it's not good, I am supposed to be the strong one, for Daphne, the rest of the family, and all those everafters during the war, them especially because I was supposed to save them at the time.
Now whenever all the everafters that fought in the war with us see Daph and me they salute us, at first it was a joke everyone was doing, but then it became the actual sign of respect, they were finally treating me as an adult. The only everafters that don't salute me are Bunny, Baba Yaga, Snow, and Charming. Boarman and Swineheart still do it.
I hear a sound but I am still crying, am still in "T.U.S.O.H.", and I'm pretty sure I have been screaming for the past hour. "T.U.S.O.H." is basically a flashback or nightmare of a painful time, usually of the war… but not always. I fell asleep again and am now I am having a nightmare about the Scarlet Hand getting out of the barrier and killing all my friends and family one by one making me watch.
The Beast holds Daphne in his hands dragging her along to where he killed the rest of my friends and family.
He chuckles "See Sabrina you never even had a chance to save them, we will always win and now I am about to kill your last reason to live."
He raises his sword and ready's it to plunge it in to her neck and makes sure I have a great view, I am crying the hardest I have ever cried.
"Any last words?" he asks her.
"Yes" she answers, not taking her eyes off of me "Sabrina, even with out us you can still save the world, you can still make a difference, you can let our memory live on, and the Grimms. Promise me you'll try to make a difference." She says
"Daphne, I c-" I start.
She cuts me off "Promise."
I swallow, "I promise," I whisper.
The Beast and the rest of the Scarlet Hand laugh "Well Daphne I am sorry to break your dreams but- actually I'm not but anyway, I am going to kill your sister right after you, so your out of luck she can't do anything." The Beast bellows.
Daphne and I already know this so we don't say anything.
"Well let's get on with this," the Beast says as he lifts his sword, I squeeze my eyes shut, and the Beast-
My nightmare suddenly ended, but my eyes are still shut, I feel small arms around me, the person is softly humming the song Daphne and use to calm each other down, so the person is most likely Daphne. She is humming "This is Love" by a band I like called "The Script".
I am still whimpering when I open my eyes "Shh shh." Daphne comforts. I wipe the tears out of my eyes, sit up on the pillows, clear my throat, and take a deep breath. My cheeks are burning and I am looking down ashamed, I am thirteen, Daphne is eight, I shouldn't let her see me like this I am supposed to be the responsible older sister, I grew up for her, she shouldn't have to do this for me. Daphne untangles her self from me and we sit in silence.
Finally Daphne breaks the silence, "I thought you stopped doing that when we moved to granny's." It was a statement but sounded more like a question
"I did, but then they started again two weeks ago." My cheeks burn again.
"It's nothing to be ashamed of, it's okay to cry." She says
"I know, it's just… " I sigh "I am supposed to be tougher than this, I hold myself to higher expectations than this. I let myself down."
"Well if it makes you feel any better, I'm not going to tell anyone." Daphne says, trying to make me feel better.
"Yes please, could you not tell anyone, you are the only person that has seen me cry since Mom and Dad disappeared and you've only seen me cry three times, I'm pretty sure they don't think I'm capable of crying" I respond
"Sure, and yeah I don't think they know you can cry either, you've been so strong through this." she says, "Well this is a pretty nice place, how'd you get it?" Daphne asks.
"Oh yeah, how did you find the tree house?" I ask, she should not know where this is, I sprayed her with forgetful dust, she should have forgotten.
"Well we share a room, and I am a detective, so I eventually found out where you disappeared to all the time." She answers.
"Oh… I got it from you guys for a present, like you got Sparkle-Shine," Sparkle-Shine is Daphne's pet unicorn, it's kept in Puck's room.
"How come I don't remember giving it to you?" she asks.
"Forgetful dust," I answer, she nods her head in understanding.
"You need a space of you own." She says.
I smile at her she is growing up so fast; no matter how much I try to change that. "So are you going to dust me again?" she inquired
"I'll think about not dusting you, okay?"
"Kay" she answers. A week ago she started using that short texting language even though she doesn't have a phone, it's really starting to get on my nerves. But I don't say anything because I love her. And I do not want to make her angry. A mad Daphne is not a fun Daphne.
"Can you at least show me around your suptastic (super and fantastic), gravy tree house?" she squeals as she looks around the room.
"Alright, this is the Pillow room." I gesture around to room as I say it. She dives on one of the mattresses and sings "I looooove it!"
I lead her to the Kitchen, the fridge is magically stocked so it never runs out of food, and you can change what food you want in it, also it doesn't affect my addiction. Daphne made a squeaking sound and ran over to the fridge but pouted when she opened it and didn't see any junk food or "exotic" Granny food. Daphne still grabs a banana and starts to eat it though it's neither unhealthy nor "exotic".
I am trying to stay in shape by eating no junk food and training everyday, incase the Scarlet Hand does get out.
Next I take her to the elliptical room, she sticks her head in and says, "cool," I can tell it's not her favorite room because she didn't use one of her Daphne-ish words.
I point out the bathroom, I wasn't going to bring her in here but apparently she wants to go in, because she runs in. It's a really nice large bathroom actually; the main colors are turquoise, white, and silver it has a big marble vanity, a nice turquoise toilet, the bottom half of the wall is white, the top half is mirrors (you would think that it's awkward to have that in a bathroom, but it's not), a big shower with strong jets in the shower walls and powerful shampoos for Puck's pranks.
I look over a Daph and see she is wearing her detective face, and looking around the room.
"What is it Daph?"
She pears around the toilet and says "Aha."
"What is it?" I repeat.
"It's a hand scanner." She says
I look at her with a confused expression, what does she mean?! We are in a bathroom there are no hand scanners! I think to myself. Then a memory hits me.
*!*!*!*!*FLASHBACK*!*!*!*!*
Right after the tree house got reviled to me Granny Reida came up to me, "Sabrina," she started "if you end up telling us where this tree house is you still deserve a place of you own, so you'll need you detective skills in this tree house," and the winks at me. She left me there confused until Daphne came running up to me, then dragged me into the trampoline room raving about how much fun it is.
I thought I figured out what she meant, there is a button on the training room floor that if you step on it the boxing ring comes up from the ground, but now I realize, I was wrong.
"'Brina it won't work when I put my hand in you should put in yours." Daphne says bringing me out of my thoughts.
"Okay," I say as I stick my hand into the hand shaped mold.
The machine beeps and I take my hand out, and on the wall next to the toilet a plain white door appears. I go and open it; I'm positive this was the thing Granny was talking about. When I do it leads me to a bedroom, the bedroom has two doors that lead too… I don't know. The Bed is king size, and next to the bed is a door and on the top half is a window that I see leads to a backyard with a swing set, large pool with a diving board and small water slide, and a beautiful enormous forest is behind that. The wall across from the bed is all glass and has sliding that is also glass. The glass sliding doors lead to a deck with a hot tube. Daphne stepped out on the deck and I followed.
"Wow," Daph said, and boy, was she right.
There were stairs down to a beach, a really beautiful beach, it has a fire pit (not lit) and it was especially gorgeous because the sun is setting right now, I didn't realize how late it was, I look back at the clock by the bed side table, it's 6:03 P.M. we better be getting back to the house, but I want to check out where those other doors lead to.
Daph and me go back inside. I just realize there is a doggy door on the door that leads to the backyard, and in the corner of the room is two bowls and a ripped open dog food bag, taped to the dog food bag there is a slobbery, slightly ripped, note. Just as I take the note off the bag, a mastiff puppy barrels into the room from the backyard. It was the cutest thing I've ever seen. I sit next to Daphne on the bed and the puppy hopped up on my lap I start petting…I check, him.
The note reads:
Dear Sabrina, as you've probably seen I have given you a mastiff puppy, you are free to name him yourself. I also already gave you some dog food and two bowls; you can fill up the water bowl in the bathroom. Another thing, I know clothes aren't your thing but at least try some of them. - Granny Reida
Hmm… clothes… bathroom… I better check those doors. The first doors one I open leads me to a bathroom, much like the one in the tree house at the tree house but the main color is light purple instead of turquoise. The next door leads to a huge walk in closet, not really my thing but it has a lot of bathing suits and a bunch of workout clothes.
Daphne walks in and squeaks then says "Ohhhhhhh! You need to try on this, and this, and this, and this… and this, and this, and this!" picking up a bunch of clothing as she goes.
"Nooooooo way! Anyway we got to get going it's…" I check the clock again "Holy crap! It's 6:29, run, run, run!" Daphne and I start sprinting out of the room because in our house dinner starts strictly at 6:30 and if your late everyone waits for you and you get extra hard training (only exception to miss dinner is if your really sick or really hurt), not that it will be that hard for me, but still I don't want to know what else they will do to me.
Then I remember the puppy and say "Bye pup see you later, I will come back to send time with you, feed you, and name you. Bye!," with that I closed the secret door and it disappeared.
I yell to Daph as I am sprinting "we will finish to tour tomorrow! Okay?"
"Yeah, sure, whatever! Lets just get to dinner!" she calls back.
We make it into kitchen just as the clock turns to 6:30, Daphne sighs and smiles and I quietly whisper "yes!".
Daph sits down as do I, and she takes a fourth of the meal and Puck already took his fourth so leaves the 8 others, including me, with the two other fourths. I take at little as possible but enough for it to look like I have a healthy amount. We are eating Granny Reida's famous spaghetti and (black) meatballs (if you can call it that). I am a pro now at making it look like I eat Granny's dinners, I act like I am nibbling but I'm not actually eating, then by the end of dinner I've moved around my food in a way that they can't tell I didn't eat any then I go in to the tree house and eat a big, normal, healthy meal.
During dinner we do our regular chat of what's going on around town and talk about Uncle Jake's adventures, apparently now I'm not the only Giant slayer in the family.
By the time I get back up in my room it's around 7:15, I walk through the portal. Everyone else is in the living room, so I will be joining them after I do this, what I'm doing is what I promised the pup I'd do… and something else.
I walk in the bathroom and put my hand in the hand scanner, the door opens, and I step through it. Immediately the pup, man I really got to name him, attacks me. I lift him off the floor and place him on the bed then walk over to his bowls and fill the one that says "food" with food, then I run to the bathroom with the bowl that says "water" with water and bring it back into the bedroom. Then I sit on the bed and the puppy climbs on my chest.
Hmm…what will I name him? I think. "Taylor?" I ask him, it looks like he shakes his head. Hmm… "Cam?" he does it again. "Jim?" he jumps off the bed and for a moment I think he likes it but then he starts dragging his butt across the floor, I laugh, "Okay, okay, not Jim." He gets up and starts to wag his tail, I laugh again. Then it hits me, my favorite rapper's name. Cudi. "Cudi?" I ask him, he climbs up on to my lap and starts licking my face, "Alright, Cudi it is then."
I say bye to Cudi and close the secret door then head off toward the training room. I'm gonna do this, I'm gonna do this. I keep telling myself.
I walk in the training room, step on the button to make the boxing ring pop up, and then I tape my fingers, like I've done hundreds of times then climb up into the ring. I stand in front of the punching bag and take twenty deeps breath like I always do and…attack, I punch and kick the life out of punching bag, while memories of hurtful times before Granny adopted me and after my parents got kidnapped.
*!*!*!*!*NOT FLASHBACK, IT IS A MEMORY*!*!*!*!*
Here was one of the memory's it was actually one of the not bad ones, I call this time the third year, because after my parents got kidnapped Daphne and I were in the orphanage for a year, in and out of foster homes also, then the next year Daph and I weren't in the orphanage anymore, we ran away from this especially brutal foster home and lived in this abandoned apartment building in this pretty bad neighborhood. Luckily no one but small kids could get inside because the whole building was blocked up with boards, all windows and doors, except one window that was blocked by trashcans I moved them and climbed in. It was actually pretty nice place with furniture in it and everything but I quickly learned why, there was tape on the floor in a human body shape in the living room of the apartment we were going to be staying in, because the window leaded to this apartment, with a blood stain on the rug and signs all around the house saying how this was the towns property and if we were found there that we would be arrested and the last thing the signs said was that this was a crime seen and that there was an unsolved murder in that building.
I took down all the signs and picked up the tape before Daphne could see and I told her the bloodstain was a wine stain from the people that lived here before.
Every single night for the next year living in that house I had a hard time falling asleep. But we needed a place to live, and it wasn't that bad, it could have been worse. After a week Daph and I were starving and I found myself, like a cliché movie, on the ground in the pouring rain. But eventually a man found me and brought me into his Boxing shop and feed me and over the coarse of dinner I found out his name was Jacob Schmitt he was only 25 and had Ms. Smirt as a foster caseworker also, so he knew what it was like in the system, of course he asked why I was starving in the rain and, with my trust issues, I told him I had a very poor but nice foster family that could not afford to pay for me and Daphne's food, I told him about her. I also told him I had Ms. Smirt too (we made fun of her for a while) and that I wished to learn how to fight and protect myself. He, being the nice person he is agreed to feed Daphne and I and give me free boxing lessons. Then when I was about to leave and give some of the dinner I ate to Daphne, Jacob's brother came down to the shop (they lived on top of it), his name was John and he was my age (11) and when I left I called to Jacob "Bye Schmitty!" and ever since I've called him Schmitty.
I had boxing and self-defense with Schmitty everyday and some times I fought John, apparently I was a natural, after my third week of practicing I beat John, and after my seventh week I beat Schmitty. John and I eventually got very close over time and he became like a best friend. After two and a half months of training Schmitty said I could probably take on five grown men, and he wasn't joking.
It had been three months since I met Schmitty when I found the ring. An illegal fighting ring that is, a place where people like me could make some quick cash. When I first got there it was all boys and four girls. One girl was obviously excluded, That excluded girl was the first one to say something to me, she said "Hey, I'm Rachel, or Run Away, what ever you prefer, and if you want to make it in this place then you better know how to fight, or know someone that does." And instantly I knew I liked her.
That is when that memory ended and another one began. After an hour I knocked the punching bag off the chain it was attached to. That is when I stopped. I went in to the bathroom and untapped my hands, even with the tape my knuckles got really bloody, but I've had worse, much worse.
I jump in the shower and take one that last about 5 minutes then jump out and then open the secret door with the hand scanner then go inside and through on an outfit, just a plain green T-shirt and some sport shorts then say bye to Cudi and shut the secret door leave the tree house, and go downstairs, completely forgetting about my knuckles.
When I get down stairs I hear some voices I don't recognize, I walk into the living room and see two faces, one that I hoped I would see again, and the other I hoped I also see again but only so I would be able to get revenge. "Ray?" I ask
"Hey twenty" she responds
Cliffhanger!
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