*GASP* Am I really doing it?! (Gasps could be heard everywhere) I'm seriously doing it, I'm doing a romance chapter! Oh gosh, why?! WHY?! Well, it's something new to me so... if you guys want me to do more of these, please let me know!

So first up, a Merome sadistic fanfic :D Get ready for da FEELS~ And no, I rather do a twisted romance one than the fluffy stuffz.

I hold the knife in my right hand tightly, it was just above my left wrist, teasing the soft skin of it to be cut open and what I assumed will be my death.

Should I really do this? I thought seriously. What will the others think? What will Jerome think?... No, no, I must not think of it. Nobody cares for me anymore, the love I once had is shattered. I don't really care about my subscribers that much now though, most of them are just douches. They think it's funny to insult him, they think getting attention for themselves is great! Why would I even care about them?! I thought outraged. The other youtubers, they are just nuts. They do so many crazy stuffs and they think it's amusing. Well, for their stupid logic it is, but for me, it's just shit. I mention mentally.

Jerome though... Jerome makes me feel different, made my hope get up again, made me not care what I do! I chucked as I thought of something else. How ironic, he was the one who revived my hope for this sick world but he's the one that made me depressed, made me lose the will to live... Just as fast as the smile formed, it turned into a frown. Jerome, Jerome, Jerome, my mind is ALWAYS thinking of Jerome. What's so special about him anyways? Why does Merome have to exist? So many questions, not a single question. I know deep inside me I had loved him but... him loving me back? It's just not possible. He already has a girlfriend, it's just... It's just not fair... Why does it have to end up like this... Why can't they live in a story of 'Happily Ever After'. Unfortunately, life is not a tale, life is just not fair. Some gain some lose. There, hopes crushed. Just. Like. That.

I suddenly heard footsteps and knocking of the door before someone opened it.

"I'm home!" I heard an all too familiar voice said cheerfully.

I panicked, I didn't know what to do. It is as if time froze, I just stood there with the knife and all that indicated what I was going to do. I swore I saw a small smile on Jerome's face just as he walked into the kitchen. When he saw me, he dropped the plastic bags which was loaded with groceries onto the floor, eyes wide.

"M-mitch... W-what are you doing?" He asked cautiously. I just frowned in reply.

"Don't tell me you're actually doing this... Please, tell me it's just a prank..." I saw tears weld up on his eyes as he said.

My heart broke, he really cared for me? It was too late... he can't go back now. Everyone will hate me, nobody likes a suicidal guy. Not even the all-loving Jerome...

"Mitch... Please put that dangerous sharp thing away, please..." He begged, words just about louder than a whisper.

"Please..." He repeated.

I couldn't help it, I cried. I slashed the knife on my wrist, blood oozing out of the cut I made. I fell down to the ground, feeling weak. I'm just that, a useless, weak being. Nothing higher.

"NO!" Jerome shouted, running to my side.

"Why would you do this?!" Jerome asked me, sadness clearly showing on him.

"Nobody loves me truly, what is my purpose in this world anyways..." I answered, too weak to even shout, to weak to even breath again.

"I love you, Mitch. Please, don't leave me like this." Jerome said. Anger rushed into my heart, he dares says he love me?!

"You love me?! YOU SON OF A BITCH! How could you lie to me in a time like this... If you really did love me, you would've come over to my every birthday instead of saying your girlfriend needs you, you would've listened to me every single word even when someone else is talking to you, you would've invited me into all of your event you held... but guess what? You did. You did a long, long time ago. Slowly, SLOWLY! You began to ditch me, thinking I was nothing and you still dare say you love me?!" I screamed, not caring if someone else heard me.

"You... you're just selfish! You want everything to yourself!" Jerome said and I couldn't resist it, I slapped him across the face.

"You damn freaking useless piece of SHIT! Selfish you say? If so, then why would you ever want me to be your friend? You biggums..." I said, when I said the word Jerome always calls me, tears started to fall, making my clothing wet. The blood was oozing out faster, but I didn't even feel the pain... the mental pain I'm having was enough.

"Mitch..." Jerome started, I could see him thinking what to say next.

"The first time I met you, I really like you, I really do. You made me think my girlfriend is almost nothing. As time goes, my love towards you blossomed but I was too scared to tell you, too scared that you wouldn't like me anymore so I figured I'll start ignoring you to see your reaction... but I never thought this would happen..." Jerome explained.

I bit my lips, still not trusting him.

"What I liked about you was your strong heart, you withstand many challenges but you just laugh it off... Now what you did in front of me... was unacceptable... You made me regret loving you..." Jerome said with true sadness.

"You... you regret loving me... for that?" I said in disbelief.

"You speak like you don't care I'm bleeding inside out, you speak as if you don't care I'm dying, but I still don't regret loving you... but you lost faith in me when I finally couldn't handle it anymore... Jerome-" I couldn't finish my sentence, death already choking me... Jerome, I'm sorry you didn't get to here what I said, I'm truly sorry... And suddenly, everything turned black.

The neighbor next door heard Mitch's shouting and went to investigate through the kitchen window. Neither Jerome nor Mitch realized. The neighbor reported to the police and the police arrived just as Mitch died. Jerome was blamed to be the murderer but Jerome accepted it, thinking that the punishment is worth for him. Jerome was sent to a death sentence and so, Mitch and Jerome both died in 2014.

Umm... so ya... I know, it sucked but... at least I updated! I finally used some swears for the first time... Well, if you want me to do more of these be sure to let me know, hope this at least made you feel something and uh... I'll be back on the next update of mine! (Next chapter is an OC chapter)! Goodbye!

PEACE :D