Title: Lost memories

Hey guys, I'm honored that some people actually enjoy reading it, so I'm here with a new chapter :) enjoy!/Lieflik


Chapter Two: Before the last beat

When Yuki waked at first he couldn't open his eyes, the pain from yesterday were still captured in his body, screaming to be set free. Slowly he started to move the limb body of his, checking if it were steady enough to bear him. When he was assured he sat up, letting his feet touch the cold floor, gathering power. As he rose to fast the dizziness made him hit the floor and no one was there to catch him.

Small tears started to curl down his cheeks as Yuki sobbed. He felt crushed. Weak. Abandoned. Carefully he once again stood up, stable this time. He made his way to the mirror and stared back at his broken self. His eyes were swollen after all tears, his skin was pale after all the pain. He looked at his trembling mouth and shut it. He was not going to give in, he couldn't. "Luka will come back" he tried to calm himself. "He'll have to" he turned and stared through the window "He can't leave without giving my heart back."

He gradually began to walk to the kitchen there everyone would gather for breakfast. Before he walked in the door, he took some deep breaths, made sure the invisible mask was on in order to hide the pain. The others mustn't know about Luka. He didn't want to awake negative feelings, nor make them pity him.

When he made it through the door he met a surprised cook. "Oh, Yuki-sama! You're already awake? The breakfast won't be served 'till… at least one hour more. So you can leave." Yuki studied the brown haired man and made a quick decision. He shook his head and said. "I'll help you, Katsumi" "No, absolutely not, Yuki-sama. I work here you see and…" "Oh look at that bread" Yuki interrupted and made his way to the oven.

"Yuki…" "I'll clean this" Yuki said and headed to the dishes. "By the way, umh you've been up quite a while. Am I right?" "Yes?" Yuki stared down at the dishes. "…You don't happen to have seen Luka?" Katsumi studied Yuki with critic eyes as he spoke. "No I haven't. He may just have gone out for a while, that isn't unusually, right?" "Yeah…" Don't worry, I'm sure that…" "Oh my, check out that dusty window." Yuki once again interrupted with a laugh. "Best I do something about it"

This has always been Yuki's way to block out anything that bothered him, to keep himself busy enough so he didn't had time to think about it. Then he put on a mask in front of others to hide his feelings from them. Yuki made his way to the big hall in order to clean the windows as he thought highly "Can anything even go worse"

Then suddenly you could hear a scream from the kitchen. A hair rising scream, screamed from the top of lungs. Yuki ran as fast as he could to the source of the scream and stopped in shock. Blood. The floor was covered in blood and Katsumi was lying down in the center of it.

"Katsumi" Yuki whispered before he was shoved aside of a much stressed Takashiro. He ran to the unconscious man and checked his pulse. "What's going on?" Hotsuma and Shusei came from behind, also because of the noise.

"He's still alive, he must accidentally had slip and fallen on the knife, close to the heart. Bring doctor!" In the middle of all movement Yuki stood as petrified, still staring at the bleeding man. "Yuki come over here! You'll have to heal him"

With unsteady step Yuki made his way to Takashiro and sat on the blood, carefully lifting over the limb body's head in his knee as he started the healing process. It felt frightening to do it without Luka. He was scared of the pain it would give him but he pulled it together and kept going. As he came longer in the process he could feel the knife pushed through his skin and then a hard thrust right between his ribs. He couldn't hold in the scream that came after. The pain was unbearably and he had to tilt himself to the wall in order to not fall.

The following moments went in slow-motion. Doctor came running in with Hostuma and Shusei, they helped each other to lift and move the unlucky cook, and then everyone except Shusei disappeared. "Are you okay?" Yuki made a fake smile and nod. "I'm glad I could help" Shusei studied him with sad eyes "Can you stand?" "Yes" Yuki smiled as he with shaky legs stood and looked at his bloody clothes. "I think I'll just go and change"… "Where is Luka?" Yuki felt his mask crumbling as he kept smiling. "I'll be back soon" he said and walked, feeling Shusei's eyes burned on his back.

When he was done changing he walked to the hall and surprisingly the whole family sat on the black couches. "What are you...?" "Sit down Yuki" Takashiro said with a steady voice. "What is this about?" Yuki asked and looked around. "Yuki, sit" Yuki then sat on the absolute end of the sofa, prepared to flee. "Where is Luka?"

The question hit him as a fist and he felt the mask crack. "So you don't know?" Yuki looked down the ground as answer. "That was what I feared" Takashiro sighed. "Have you no idea why…" "That son of a b*tch!" Hotsuma stood up, furious. "When he comes back I'll kill him!" Hotsuma kept on shouting when suddenly Yuki cleared his throat and all eyes turned at him. "I don't think he will be coming back."

Another crack from his mask, and everything went quiet. "What are you saying Yuki?" Shusei asked "Of course he'll come back." The rest agreed with a nod. "He's probably taking care of something…" "LISTEN TO ME" Yuki rose as he screamed. Crack. "Yuki…"

"He won't return, he's gone okay?!" CRACK! Then Yuki fled, feeling all sense of control leave his body. He had to get out, now. Then suddenly two strong arms caged him and he was stuck. "NO" He yelled, he couldn't let them see him like this. He tried to fight through the grip but it was pointless. He felt his mask broke and all feelings came seeping through. And he fell apart. He screamed, fought, tried to run. "Let me go" he started to cry. He struggled as he started to see stars and slowly, painfully he went to unconsciousness.