Can I trust you?

Ch.3: Being Back Home Never Made Him So Nervous

Finland hopped onto the couch with a sigh. He was glad to be home, but for some reason he was really jumpy. The way Sweden was looking at him the whole ride home was making him nervous… Well, more nervous.

And it didn't help that Sealand keep implying a relationship between them. Finland had to keep pretending that he hadn't heard him…He didn't want Sweden to know how he felt yet. No, that would be bad…

Sweden on the other hand was kind of down because of Finland's lack of memory.

It seems he really didn't remember what he said that faithful morning after and innocent dream where they were dressed as farm animals.* It was really discouraging, actually. He tried his best not to show it. He didn't want Sealand to pick up on it.

"Poppa! I don't know what I want for dinner, so you pick something!" Sealand sat next to Finland on the couch and swung his legs excitedly. "Anything Poppa makes is good."

Before Finland could stop himself he said, "Sweden's cooking is amazing…" He gasped and covered his mouth.

"What's the matter, Momma? You compliment Poppa all the time…" Sealand stared worriedly at him.

"I-I do?" At a nod from Sealand he turned to Sweden and smiled. "Oh…Um, well, in that case…I should say…I love your cooking…" He blushed when Sweden flushed and looked away.

"Thank ya."

Finland cleared his throat and looked away.

Sweden sauntered into the kitchen to make dinner…

-Quite a while later-

Finland sat next to Sealand and across from Sweden when he felt Hanatamago lick his ankle. "Hey there, girl. How are you? Where were you earlier? How have you been! I missed you, did you know that? Yeah~!" He sat back in his chair and watched the dog for a minute before going back to his dinner. He poked it with his fork before feeling a dropping feeling in his stomach. "You know, I think I'm tired…I'm not very hungry…I think I'm just going to go to bed. If you guys don't mind."

"No, if Momma needs sleep, you should go." Sealand said with a worried look.

"'f y'r tired…sleep…" Sweden said simply.

Dinner continued as Finland stood and then froze. If he wanted to go upstairs that meant Sweden would have to carry him. He would be especially persistent because the stairs had caused this predicament in the first place. "Sve? I'll need your help…I-I'm sorry."

"'m s'rry. I f'got…" Sweden stood up and flew to Finland's side.

In the blink of an eye Finland was in Sweden's arms and up the stairs. It was as if he was making up for the time it took for him to realize… "Sve, I'm sorry for being a bother…"

"Yer n'ver a bother, Fin…" Sweden mumbled as he sat Finland down on the bed. He pulled out pajamas for him and then turned to leave.

"Sve, I have a question…" Finland waited for Sweden to turn before continuing. "Am I missing something…I feel like something is different now…I don't know what it is though…"

"We b'th confessed…" Sweden turned away and cleared his throat. "We confessed our feelin's, Fin. We love each other…"

Finland blushed. "O-oh…That's a big something, but that wouldn't explain why I'm nervous…or scared…" Finland pulled off his shirt and pulled on the pajama shirt.

"Maybe 't's 'cause you don't remember?"

"I-I guess missing some parts of my life could make me troubled…but I guess I should be okay…I mean, you guys are so supportive! I wish I could remember everything…" Finland smiled at him. "But I remember most things, so I should be okay! And as a nation, I won't let this be a setback." He watched Sweden shift his feet before turning and leaving.

Finland pulled his pants down and pulled on his pajama pants. Maybe he could read something? He rolled over on the bed and stole the book off of Sweden's bed side table. "Looks interesting…" After reading the first chapter he heard the door open.

"Momma? How are you?" Sealand pounced onto the bed next to Finland.

"I'm fine…I wish you guys wouldn't treat me like I'm dying. I bet I'll be walking by tomorrow! I'm a nation, after all." Finland tilted his head to the side and smiled. "Don't worry so much. Have some fun…"

Finland fell asleep beside Sealand as the boy spoke animatedly about his day since Finland was gone. Sealand, realizing that Finland went to sleep, rolled off the bed to go play with Hanatamago. Seconds after he left, Sweden entered. He changed and stared at Finland on his side of the bed.

He smiled slightly and decided that he would take the Fin's side of the bed.

-The Next Morning-

"Sve?" Finland leaned up on his elbows and realized he was on the wrong side of the bed. He giggled as he turned to Sweden and found him at his side, asleep. "You're so silly…" He leaned down slowly and planted a kiss on Sweden's cheek. "I love you…" Blushing furiously, and quite glad that the Swede wasn't awake, Finland tested out his ankle and found that the pain was less than before. It was a little more bearable.

He stood and limped to Sealand's room. The boy was still asleep…

Finland smiled and turned to go make breakfast.

A few minutes into making breakfast he heard the bathroom door upstairs swing and shut. Although the sudden noise scared him, he figured that it was Sweden or Sealand just getting up. "How'd ya get d'wn 'ere s' fast?" Finland spun around and gave a questioning look.

"What do you mean? I've been down here for quite a while…" Finland turned back to the table to cut the eggs for the open sandwiches he was making.

"I th'ght y' jus' w'nt in th' b'throom?"

"N-no, I thought that was you…Maybe it was Sea?" Finland shrugged.

"No, I thought 't was ya b'cause Sea's innis room…" Sweden shook his said. Hanatamago was asleep on the couch. Sweden was back upstairs in a matter of seconds.

Maybe…maybe the house was haunted? The weight sounded as if it were Sweden, a man that big could not be hiding away in their house without them knowing… Finland frowned as he set the table. Sealand came down the stairs and plopped down in his seat.

"W'as going on, Momma? Why'd Poppa wake me up so early?" Sealand rubbed his eyes and frowned into his cup of milk. "I was sleeping so well…"

"I'm sorry, Sea…I guess Poppa just thought breakfast was better eaten warm than cold." Finland turned his head, ignoring the fact that today's breakfast was served cold, to the staircase just in time to see Sweden come down shaking his head. "Nothing?" He questioned. Sweden answered with another shake of the head.

"What'cha talking about?" Sealand asked as he dove into his breakfast. Sweden sat down beside him. "You guys talking in code or something?"

"Oh, no. England told us we had some pranking fairies in the house…Sweden's just making sure that nothing is out of place…" Finland smiled at the small boy.

"Don't be tricked by that git! He's just lying for attention! That's why he's the bloody black sheep of Europe!" Sealand scarfed his breakfast in a flourish and was about to leave.

"Watch your tongue… W-wait!...Wait, Sea…" Finland frowned when the boy looked at him, a look of worry on his face. "I-um…Tell me about your dream! You said you were sleeping well? Tell us about it…"

"Oh, well…Latvia was there…We were at the movies with Lithuania and Poland, but then we weren't. Somehow he had ended up in this pretty meadow… there were flowers all over, so many colors…but then, it started to get really dark…So Latvia said he had to go home…I was sad at first, but then I said 'good riddance' and ran in the opposite direction…I got lost, though…It was so dark and cold, but then I saw Uncle Den with the others, but everyone else was all blurred. I could only really see Uncle Den…" Sealand sighed and smiled. "I was so scared until I saw him. He kept asking me what was wrong, why I was whimpering, I could feel him touching my head." Sealand paused and tilted his head. "You know that bit felt rather real, I've never had a dream like that before…Especially with Uncle Den, Nor, and Ice in it…"

"I'm still waiting for the nice part…" Finland muttered. Sweden shot him a resigned look.

"The nice part was knowing that even though I was scared there were others to help me." Sealand smiled. "You know, I dunno if I was dreaming, but I woke up after that to Uncle Den petting my head…He looked like he was half asleep, too… Did Uncle Den come over while I was asleep?"

"N-no, Den hasn't come over since…when…I don't even know…" The phone rang and Finland stood to answer it. "Hello?"

"Finland? It's Ice, Nor's throwing a fit about Den missing again, have you seen him?" Iceland spoke softly on the other line.

Finland frowned. "N-no, we were actually just talking about him. Sea's convinced he was in the house while we were asleep…"

"Don't listen to Ice. I am not throwing a fit… Should I clock Den again for you? He doesn't seem to take a hint…" Norway seemed as impassive as ever, but then there was a slight undertone of irritation.

"Again? I don't understand…I got into an accident the day before yesterday, there are some things I don't remember…Could you fill me in?" Finland asked calmly.

"Oh, never mind!" Norway said, exasperated. "I'll just have to get my point across this time."

Then the line went dead. Finland hung it up and turned. "Den's gone missing…"

"That's the third time this week…They'll find him home at the end on the day with no scratches…Maybe slightly hung-over again…" Sealand sighed. "Why does Uncle Den drink so much?"

"Well, sometimes it's a coping mechanism…Sometimes it's just for fun." Finland shrugged, "But don't let Den influence you. I like to drink, but I stopped for you…" He winked at Sweden, who chuckled softly. He went for ONE drink sometimes. Well, that was what he told everyone. He could tolerate his liquor better than most though, so he could drink a decent bottle and come out reasonably sober still. "I hope Den's okay…Is this really the third time?"

"Yea, they called when we were in the hospital with you!" Sealand frowned. "How are you?" Sweden looked at him with rapt interest.

"I'm fine. I can walk, but I still don't remember everything." Finland shrugged. "I'm sure it will come back to me… I remember everything up until the accident, it's strange. There shouldn't be much to remember, but somehow I feel there is…" Finland smiled at Sealand and Sweden, but I promise you I'm fine…So don't look like that okay? I'm not dying, my ankles nearly better…" When the looks didn't go away he rolled his eyes and frowned. "You're only making this harder for me…"

"Sorry, Momma! Can I go now?" Sealand swung his legs in his chair waiting for the magic words.

"Um," Finland thought about it for a second. "Yeah, okay…Sve, we're both going upstairs to get dressed…" Finland stood and limped over to Sealand. Sweden frowned and was about to get up and carry him. "N-no! I'm fine, please. Eat your breakfast…"

"C'll m' 'f y' need 'nythin'…" Sweden turned and went back to his breakfast.

"Of course…" Finland limped after Sealand happily. When they reached the top of the stairs and Finland looked down the tiny hall his eyes played a trick on him. He could have sworn he saw a figure standing at the end, but it seemed that it was not so. Déjà vu, Finland could have sworn he seen that before, but how? No one else seemed to remember such a thing. No, it must have been from a dream or something…

Finland entered his bedroom and went to take a shower. He stripped, turned on the water, he looked in the mirror and frowned slightly. There was something different about his face…Like it wasn't as happy as it used to look… He shrugged and slid into the shower…

Later as he sat on the couch watching television. At that same moment Sealand came hopping in with the work papers that Finland asked him to retrieve for him.

"Here you do Momma!" Sealand cheered handing him the papers.

"I'm not your Mother!" Finland said with a sickeningly sweet smile. "Anyway, thank you dear!" Finland picked up the papers and squinted at them with a critical eye before setting of to work on them, pen moving like the wind.

"How're y' feelin', m' w'fe?" Sweden suddenly asked in the kitchen doorway.

"Yup! I'm just working on some papers now, and I'm not your wife!" Finland replied sharply before turning of the television and turning of a desk lamp.

The room filled with silence for a while before Sweden cleared his throat and shifted in the doorway still.

"Sve! Do you want to sit next to me?" Finland offered, tilting his head at his lost looking house-mate. "There's enough room if you want to!"

Without a word Sweden sat beside and pressed his back on the back of the couch stiffly.

"Sve, what's wrong?" Finland asked quietly.

"'s j'st… 'm b'hind on a few th'ngs. I w's w'rried." Sweden turned to Finland and frowned. "Y'r pos't've y're 'lright?" He backed away slightly as if to take in Finland's whole reaction.

"Of-of course, Sve! I wouldn't lie!" Finland frowned as the taller man. "My ankles feeling a lot better, but I have this strange sinking feeling when I look down the hall upstairs…" He rambled on without even realizing what he said. "I think my eyes are playing tricks on me too because I see a man at the end sometimes, but if I look again he vanishes…"

"Uncle Den's outside! Uncle Den's outside!" Sealand cheered and nearly tripped down the stairs. "Can I open the door for him?"

"How do you know he's here?" Finland asked turning to the micro-nation.

"He's outside on the side walk! He was looking up like he was expecting fireworks of something!" With that said the boy bounced to the door and danced. When he was given a nod of affirmation he slammed the door open. "Hiya, Uncle Denmark! Come in!"

'Uncle Den' came sauntering in as if he was caught red-handed. "Hey, guys! I just happened to be in the neighborhood! Thought I'd drop by and tell you I'm fine…Nor hasn't called yet?"

"N-not since dinner to tell us you were missing." Finland explained. "You…seem sober."

"I am, man! What'd make you think otherwise!" The Dane laughed obnoxiously loud as he closed the door and hung up his coat. "How's the little man?"

"I'm doin' great Uncle Den! But why were you looking up at our house like you were expecting one of America's birthday firework shows to start?" Sealand asked curiously.

"Oh, I was just admiring the house! I never realized what a pretty color…um…"

"Brown?" Finland supplied dryly.

"Yeah! Yeah, that! S-so how are you guys doin'? I heard from Nor earlier that you took a spill? You alright, Fin?" Although there was a hint of teasing, Denmark seemed genuinely concerned.

"Why is everyone babying me, I'm fine! I'm a nation, I've dealt with worse than this, we all have!" He was not the frightened, fragile flower he used to be! He took a deep breath and sighed. "I'm perfectly fine!" He smiled a strained and twitchy smile at the taller, older nation. It said 'leave now, please'.

"So how are you guys doing? Other than, ahem, 'counting sheep'?"

And if Finland wasn't angry before, he was now. "Leave, leave now! That isn't what I meant, stop tormenting me! Aagh!" Finland stalked upstairs and slammed the bedroom door behind himself.

"You made Momma mad…" Sealand pouted before going upstairs, too.

"Th't w's 'nc'lled f'r…" Sweden commented as he stood and followed the two.

"Am I the only level-headed person currently in the household!" Denmark asked as he pulled down his jacket and left the house.

-oooo-

A/N: I've been trying my best not to do these. But…

*Referring to my other work Counting Sheep. I'd appreciate if you read that too! Can't have a relationship without knowing how it began of course~!

Also if I made any mistakes tell me, because my spellcheck and my eyes are both unreliable! Reviews would be great! They help me function. :}

Also, thanks Amon for the review, and Su-san would be rather upset! :P