p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"New York City is a city full of possibilities and surely nobody has time to look at the sky and contempleate the clouds. Nobody except Casey Jones who that day was on a rooftop, smoking and enjoying his break from work./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"It has been a long day and his coatch made him sweat like a mule because he's becoming slow, and he knew it was parlty becuase of smoking . Also, he knew he should have quitted long time ago when he started to play as a pro, when his doctor told him, when April told him…when everybody more responsible than him told him. Even Raph./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;" /p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"Casey felt a grip towards his stomach. He felt bad for have been such a dickhead and have left his best friend in such a miserable way. It has been already a week since the last time he saw him and he still didn't say anything to April./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /He had to tell to his fiancè about his secret relationship, because he really wanted to have Raph for himself, but every time he looked into April's eyes no word could left his mouth. After all this time, he was still attacked to her: she was beautiful, smart, kind and patient. He was in love with her, the same love he felt for Raph. Also, the red hair made him go crazy./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /Maybe with a bit luck he would be able to tell April the truth that same night after the "family dinner", as Mikey called it, at the lair./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /*************/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /"Oh man, did you saw that vid where the dog was trying to jump off the car, April?" /p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"Casey could hear Mikey squeeing from the kitchen where he, Raph and Leo were cleaning the potatoes that April bought for that special occasion./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"For some reasons Leonardo was quite angry and every time Casey tried to look at him in the eyes he felt like he was traficted by a pair of katana. He wondered if the blue clad turtle knew something about he and his younger brother. He hoped not because the last thing he wanted was a lecture by Leo and Master Splinter, but he knew Raph would never have done such a thing like blabing about them./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"And in that moment he realized that Raph wasn't the same. He looked pale, his skin was of a grey-ish color, like he had nausea somehow. "Hey Raph are you alright, man?"/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /Raphael became even paler "Wh-What? Oh yeah don't worry, i'm just tired"./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /Casey didn't believe a single word of what he said. He managed to look into Raph's eyes: the corneas were almost completely red and the eyelids were halfclosed. emHe must have cried a lot for looking so miserable./em/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /A sense of guilt rose in Casey. Was it possible that Raph was in that state because of him? He couldn't believe that somebody could be so sick for loving too much someone else. It was unacceptable. He wanted to punch something, but he knew that the only thing he could actually do to solve that kind of situation was making out his mind./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /And tonight he would have solved the things once and for all./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /He felt deeply sorry for April but he couldn't go on with this situation….Raph didn't deserve it./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /The rest of the night passed in tranquillity except for the part when Raphael decided to skip dinner and leading to bed without saying a word./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"When Casey and April were finally at home the only thing they could do was streching themself and resting on the couch./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"After dinner Mikey insisted to play at twister and doing that with 3 highly trained ninja and a petite kunoichi girl wasn't the easiest thing in the world. After 3 hours they couldn't feel their limbs anymore so they lead to their home sweet old appartment./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"The only thing he wanted was going to bed but he knew he couldn't. Not yet. He had to do it now. Now that April was tired too and maybe with a bit luck she wouldn't have killed him due to /"April i really have to say something to you. Something really important." He started./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""Can't this wait till tomorrow morning? I really need a bed right now"/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""Uh..no…it can't wait or I would go crazy"/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"Finally Casey got her attention, but she looked at him he knew he was in big trouble. After seven years of relationship, he was till charmed by those big bright, intense, blue eyes. She moved with grace towards towards where he was sitting, laying her body against his./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""You know what would be great too?" She whispered near his ear./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""Uhh..No..i don't really know" He tried to look away from her curves, but failing./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""That you would show me again that trick you did last night. Tha one i liked so much…"/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""Oh..oh well m-maybe but i don't think it's a go-" Casey couldn't even finish the sentence that April's lips were pressed into his. Her tongue searching his, demanding attention, her hands working his shirt's buttons. After a while Casey responded to the kiss and started exploring April's back. His lips traced her throat and he was paid with a long moan./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"Casey was moving to April's breast but he bit his tongue when his mind imagined Raphael's pale face, full of sadness and desperation./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""I have to go" his words left his mouth before even thinking./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""What?… And where do you want to go in the middle of the night? I won't let you go on patroling today" April had a worried look, like she knew what he was really up to do. Casey felt his heart thightening./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""Nowhere really. I just need some fresh air and want to smoke a cigarette, i'll be on the rooftop if you need me" he managed to say "I'm sorry, babe, i'm just not in the mood tonight. I know it sounds crazy coming from me but it's true, believe me". And with that he went out on the fire escape and started running on the top of the building./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"When he reached the top he was breathing heavily. What was wrong with him? Not only he didn't have the guts to tell his fiancè that he was cheating her with their friend, but he was losing the battle against his primordial instincts. And like it wasn't enough, April was getting suspicious about his behaviour./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"Casey lightened a cigarette and smoked nervously, he missed Raph so bad. He wanted to feel the heat of his breath once more, even just for laying on his bed and doing nothing but cuddling him. Raphael's life was already messed up without him causing so much trouble./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"How could have possibly predicted something like this. It was going so well, everything was fine when Raph wanted more. Because one night wasn't enough. Not that casey wanted to end it but still…/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"emIt was just one night of patrolling, like almost every night they spent together. He remembered it was summer, one of the hottest nights of the season and they were so lucky to bump into a Purple Dragon's meeting in an abandonated coach-house. it wasn't an easy fight but Casey and Raph were at maximum and managed to get just some scratches./em/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"emThe only things he could remember after the fight was that they raced upon a building and when they stopped Casey couldn't take off his eyes from Raph's sweating body. Adrenalin still running through his body. Raph's eyes half closed. Their lips finding each other. Raph's calloused hands exploring shyly Casey's body. The heat. The passion. The sweet words. The fury and the demanding touches. Each other name cried out loud./em/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"He took out the phone from his pocket and quickly texted to his best friend./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"Tonight, he won't be alone./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /*******br /Darkness. Raph being quite and cold, so unusual for him. Casey was right behind him, embracing him and whispering nice things like how much he cared about him. But something wasn't right, he could feel Raphael's body jerking at his touch and sometimes /And then he heard a sob coming from his best friend's throat. His body trembling even more than before, he could hear his buddy sniffing and breathing heavily./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"Suddenly, Raphael got up from his bed and leaded to the bathroom. Casey didn't follow he knew his best friend needed some time alone, he could only stayed there staring at the ceiling, still shocked from what he saw./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"What was happening to his life?/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"_/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"I'm sorry it took me so long next chapter will be totally different and you won't have to wait almost month for it T^T/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"It has been a long day and his coatch made him sweat like a mule because he's becoming slow, and he knew it was parlty becuase of smoking . Also, he knew he should have quitted long time ago when he started to play as a pro, when his doctor told him, when April told him…when everybody more responsible than him told him. Even Raph./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;" /p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"Casey felt a grip towards his stomach. He felt bad for have been such a dickhead and have left his best friend in such a miserable way. It has been already a week since the last time he saw him and he still didn't say anything to April./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /He had to tell to his fiancè about his secret relationship, because he really wanted to have Raph for himself, but every time he looked into April's eyes no word could left his mouth. After all this time, he was still attacked to her: she was beautiful, smart, kind and patient. He was in love with her, the same love he felt for Raph. Also, the red hair made him go crazy./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /Maybe with a bit luck he would be able to tell April the truth that same night after the "family dinner", as Mikey called it, at the lair./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /*************/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /"Oh man, did you saw that vid where the dog was trying to jump off the car, April?" /p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"Casey could hear Mikey squeeing from the kitchen where he, Raph and Leo were cleaning the potatoes that April bought for that special occasion./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"For some reasons Leonardo was quite angry and every time Casey tried to look at him in the eyes he felt like he was traficted by a pair of katana. He wondered if the blue clad turtle knew something about he and his younger brother. He hoped not because the last thing he wanted was a lecture by Leo and Master Splinter, but he knew Raph would never have done such a thing like blabing about them./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"And in that moment he realized that Raph wasn't the same. He looked pale, his skin was of a grey-ish color, like he had nausea somehow. "Hey Raph are you alright, man?"/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /Raphael became even paler "Wh-What? Oh yeah don't worry, i'm just tired"./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /Casey didn't believe a single word of what he said. He managed to look into Raph's eyes: the corneas were almost completely red and the eyelids were halfclosed. emHe must have cried a lot for looking so miserable./em/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /A sense of guilt rose in Casey. Was it possible that Raph was in that state because of him? He couldn't believe that somebody could be so sick for loving too much someone else. It was unacceptable. He wanted to punch something, but he knew that the only thing he could actually do to solve that kind of situation was making out his mind./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /And tonight he would have solved the things once and for all./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /He felt deeply sorry for April but he couldn't go on with this situation….Raph didn't deserve it./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /The rest of the night passed in tranquillity except for the part when Raphael decided to skip dinner and leading to bed without saying a word./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"When Casey and April were finally at home the only thing they could do was streching themself and resting on the couch./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"After dinner Mikey insisted to play at twister and doing that with 3 highly trained ninja and a petite kunoichi girl wasn't the easiest thing in the world. After 3 hours they couldn't feel their limbs anymore so they lead to their home sweet old appartment./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"The only thing he wanted was going to bed but he knew he couldn't. Not yet. He had to do it now. Now that April was tired too and maybe with a bit luck she wouldn't have killed him due to /"April i really have to say something to you. Something really important." He started./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""Can't this wait till tomorrow morning? I really need a bed right now"/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""Uh..no…it can't wait or I would go crazy"/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"Finally Casey got her attention, but she looked at him he knew he was in big trouble. After seven years of relationship, he was till charmed by those big bright, intense, blue eyes. She moved with grace towards towards where he was sitting, laying her body against his./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""You know what would be great too?" She whispered near his ear./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""Uhh..No..i don't really know" He tried to look away from her curves, but failing./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""That you would show me again that trick you did last night. Tha one i liked so much…"/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""Oh..oh well m-maybe but i don't think it's a go-" Casey couldn't even finish the sentence that April's lips were pressed into his. Her tongue searching his, demanding attention, her hands working his shirt's buttons. After a while Casey responded to the kiss and started exploring April's back. His lips traced her throat and he was paid with a long moan./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"Casey was moving to April's breast but he bit his tongue when his mind imagined Raphael's pale face, full of sadness and desperation./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""I have to go" his words left his mouth before even thinking./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""What?… And where do you want to go in the middle of the night? I won't let you go on patroling today" April had a worried look, like she knew what he was really up to do. Casey felt his heart thightening./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;""Nowhere really. I just need some fresh air and want to smoke a cigarette, i'll be on the rooftop if you need me" he managed to say "I'm sorry, babe, i'm just not in the mood tonight. I know it sounds crazy coming from me but it's true, believe me". And with that he went out on the fire escape and started running on the top of the building./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"When he reached the top he was breathing heavily. What was wrong with him? Not only he didn't have the guts to tell his fiancè that he was cheating her with their friend, but he was losing the battle against his primordial instincts. And like it wasn't enough, April was getting suspicious about his behaviour./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"Casey lightened a cigarette and smoked nervously, he missed Raph so bad. He wanted to feel the heat of his breath once more, even just for laying on his bed and doing nothing but cuddling him. Raphael's life was already messed up without him causing so much trouble./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"How could have possibly predicted something like this. It was going so well, everything was fine when Raph wanted more. Because one night wasn't enough. Not that casey wanted to end it but still…/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"emIt was just one night of patrolling, like almost every night they spent together. He remembered it was summer, one of the hottest nights of the season and they were so lucky to bump into a Purple Dragon's meeting in an abandonated coach-house. it wasn't an easy fight but Casey and Raph were at maximum and managed to get just some scratches./em/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"emThe only things he could remember after the fight was that they raced upon a building and when they stopped Casey couldn't take off his eyes from Raph's sweating body. Adrenalin still running through his body. Raph's eyes half closed. Their lips finding each other. Raph's calloused hands exploring shyly Casey's body. The heat. The passion. The sweet words. The fury and the demanding touches. Each other name cried out loud./em/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"He took out the phone from his pocket and quickly texted to his best friend./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"Tonight, he won't be alone./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"br /*******br /Darkness. Raph being quite and cold, so unusual for him. Casey was right behind him, embracing him and whispering nice things like how much he cared about him. But something wasn't right, he could feel Raphael's body jerking at his touch and sometimes /And then he heard a sob coming from his best friend's throat. His body trembling even more than before, he could hear his buddy sniffing and breathing heavily./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"Suddenly, Raphael got up from his bed and leaded to the bathroom. Casey didn't follow he knew his best friend needed some time alone, he could only stayed there staring at the ceiling, still shocked from what he saw./p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"What was happening to his life?/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"_/p
p style="color: #575151; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 15px; line-height: 15px;"I'm sorry it took me so long next chapter will be totally different and you won't have to wait almost month for it T^T/p