Destroyed

"Oh Fuck, oh fuck we're screwed, we are so screwed." Ethan said and ran his hands through his hair when he saw Roberts on the floor, Reid laid the unconscious Alex on the small sofa, as she had fully responded to the drugs Roberts had given her.

"Stop freaking out and help me!" Reid said and whipped the lamp clean of his fingerprints.

"Stop freaking out? You killed him!"

"He tried to rape Alex! He had his hands inside her pants!" Reid hissed angrily at his friend.

"I understand that and I wish I had been here to beat him up myself, but not to kill him! Couldn't you just beat him unconscious?" Ethan said.

"I couldn't stop damn! I didn't came here with the exact plan to kill him! But when I saw him- touching her like that I lost it!" Reid defended himself.

"Oh shit, okay, okay" Ethan said and seemed to calm down. "What do you want me to do?"

"Put on the pair of gloves you brought and help me clean my fingerprints off and the call the police and an ambulance car" Reid said and put the lamp in Roberts hand again to leave some of his fingerprints on it.

"The Police?!"

"Yes the police, who else?"

"Yeah but, I thought you wanted me to help you throwing him in the ocean or something like that" Ethan mumbled.

"Don't be stupid, we are going to pretend that you found him!"

As soon as he was certain that he had cleaned off every evidence that would connect him to the crime he committed, Spencer took Alex inside his arm.

"Okay tell them that you found Roberts dead in his office and an unconscious student. And sound freaked out-"

"I am freaking out because my best friend killed the professor of the girl he has a crush on and who was nearly rape by said professor! And I helped him to clean up the fucking mess!" Ethan said pretty freaked out and through clenched teeth.

"Perfect, now call them!" Ethan shook his head but called 911 without a comment.

"H-hello? Oh fuck, I- I found a professor, he's dead! And-and my friend is lying here, she's unconscious...Ethan Jones, yeah, Berkeley University, Hall 8...second floor. I will." Ethan said and then hung up.

"Satisfied?"

"Yes, thank you. And I'm sorry about getting you into this." Reid said and looked up at his friend, who calmed down a little when he saw that his friend was indeed sorry.

"I'll go now-"

"Wait! What am I suppose to tell them?"

"You'll lie and say you got to take a walk, sound and look like you lie, then admit that you have been on the way back from breaking into the music room and heard yelling from up here" Spencer explained and pat his friends shoulder.

Spencer looked at the corpse of Roberts and then to Alex, though he didn't feel remorse for what he had done, he wasn't sure how Alex would feel about that, would she understand? Would she still stay friends with him, knowing that he had killed a man? Reid knew how Alex felt about this kind of things, crimes and criminals in general, she hated them. After all her father was a Detective and two Idiots, who had the dump idea to rob a bank high on PCP, had killed her beloved brother.

He couldn't live with her hating him, he couldn't live here, if Alex didn't want to be around him anymore. His fun, loving, beautiful Alex, it was impossible for Spencer, to not be around her while being here or anyway near her, even imagining it was too painful. Maybe he would be lucky and she couldn't remember but then he had to lie to her. And that was something else he could never do to her. He could lie to any other human being on the planet, but not to Alex. So Spencer knew, that he couldn't stay, that he had to leave. Reid looked at his other best friend and that he would understand, he would miss them, these two were the only people he met in his live who he would truly miss, they had made him feel human and normal.

"Thank you...for everything" Spencer said and Ethan nodded, not knowing how much was standing behind those words.

"Go get out of here, before lying will be unnecessarily, because they locked your sorry ass up." while saying this Ethan even managed to smile a little and Spencer turned to leave. In the door way he turned around, but before he could say a word, Ethan already answered knowing what he wanted.

"I won't leave her side, I promise" nodding at his best friends words, Reid still walked over and kneeled next to the sleeping form of the woman he loved and ever would love. He stroked a brown lock of hair behind her ear and kissed her cheek, before he leaned closer until his lips were at her ear. Though he knew she wouldn't hear him, he couldn't leave without telling her.

"I love you and only you...there is no one in this universe that could ever take your place in my heart. I hope that one day I'll see you again and that you will forgive me for what I did."

With that Spencer left. Just when he was around the corner of the last hall in the street, the Police and Ambulance arrived, he packed a bag with essential things he needed and was gone.

Ethan must have been convincing as no one ever drew the connection to him, maybe it was because nobody really wanted to find the murderer of a man who had raped countless students over his years. Reid had read an article of Roberts murder two weeks after he had disappeared, apparently he had kept a photo of every girl he had ever raped.

Again, Reid was glad about what he had done, he had eliminated a monster. And many should follow.

She woke up with a scream and real tears started to run down her cheeks, a light in the other corner of the room lit up and in the next moment she felt familiar arms around her.

"Ssh it's okay Alex, it was just a nightmare..." Kate mumbled as she held her crying friend. It has been a month since the night Alex was nearly raped and she had come back from her parents home to the university three days ago, against the wishes of her family. Kate thought so too now, after waking up the last three nights to Alex's cries, but after what her friend went through it was understandable.

But it wasn't only the reliving of everything that had happened that night, that caused Alex the nightmares and to wake up screaming and in cold sweat. Though it was horrible, what Ethan had told her fours days after that night, was ten times worse.

When the doorbell rang she knew it was Ethan, he had promised to come by, had spent the last money he had on a train ticked to Kansas City for her. Alex felt bad, that she was still sad the it was only him. Why wasn't Spencer coming with him? Didn't he want to see her? Or speak to her? She had called him at least fifteen times and he hadn't once answered her calls, or her countless text messages. She didn't remember much of the night, but one thing she was sure she remembered, he was comforting her beside the corpse of Roberts.

Alex knew that he killed him, because of her. He was in trouble because she had been stupid enough to get herself into this situation and he could go to jail, only because he saved her. So she hadn't said anything when the detectives had questioned her, she had kept her secret and swore to herself that she would never tell a soul, beside him. Because Alex needed to thank him for what he did, she had to tell him that she didn't care, that she loved him and always had since they met. But it seemed like he didn't want to have anything to do with her anymore.

There was a knock on the door and she saw Ethan standing in the door smiling slightly.

"Hey there, how are you doing?...I wanted to bring you something, but I couldn't decide what flowers you'd like, so I got you this." he said and held out an acidic yellow mug to her, with the face of a duck on it and in the duck's bill was space for cookies, it was probably one of the worst presents she had ever received but she knew that, like Spencer, he didn't really knew about this like this and it came from the heart and it made her smile.

"Thanks, that's really sweet of you...and I'm doing okay...I guess" Alex said and for a moment she could see the content smile on his face, before he got serious again.

"It's good to see you doing better, we already miss you" he told her while he sat down on the side o her bed.

"Can I ask you something?" Alex asked, she just had to know and Ethan was also his best friend.

"Sure."

"Does he hate me? Because of what happened? I was told what you said and that you found Roberts so you know who it was. Please...tell him I need to talk to him, Ethan please I-I'll apologize if that's what he wants I just…he hasn't answered one call, or text and he didn't come with you" Alex said and Ethan took her hand.

"Alex he would never ever in one million years ever ask you to apologize, none of what happened was you fault! It was Roberts okay?...But…" he told her but hesitated before his next words, one reason for his visit, was to tell her, Ethan just didn't plan to tell her so soon.

"What?" his long pause caused her to get suspicious.

"I can't tell him any of this Alex because I don't know where he is...nobody does, Spencer is gone."

That was why she had to come back after her parents had begged her to stay and study at a university closer to them, Spencer. The University was where he had last been, where they had been together for the last time, just everything here was connecting her to him. Here was the place she had fallen in love with him and here was the place everything had ended. All of it together was likewise boon and bane for Alex, she needed this, needed to be close to him.

It was like an addiction.

Alex brushed the tears off and took a deep breath. "I'm okay, sorry for waking you again Kate...just tell me if I should better get a room o my own" Alex mumbled but Kate only smiled and hugged her again.

"Bullshit Alex, it's okay, you would do the same thing for me and I know that you miss him so much, I understand, really honey but...he's gone. Reid never once called and I'm not really sorry to say this but to leave you alone with everything that happened is just...disgusting. I thought he cared more about you than that" Kate said and stroked over Alex's back.

Alex didn't know if she should be angry at her friends words or not. On the one hand she loved Spencer and that wouldn't change anytime soon, but on the other hand something inside her told her that Kate was right. He hadn't he said one word to her, no goodbye, nothing, he had just backed his things and disappeared. Had he even once cared about how she might feel? What she was going through? That it was all harder, because he was gone? That her life was empty without him? That she missed him with every cell of her body? That she wished she could only speak to him once more?

And like every addiction, it also destroyed her.

So here is the new chapter, I hope you liked it though it took me forever to write it :)

Next is going to be a little jump in time but you'll still get to know what Reid has been up to. I also decided to write in some of Alex's thoughts especially on Reid's disappearance I hope you didn't mind. Please leave a Review and tell me if you liked it or not!