FoxDemonYouko590: So it's been awhile and I'm not going to give you a stupid excuse, but I've been lazy...and I've lost some love for the fandom, but I will finish this. If you have any ideas of where this should go, please message me!
Even though I hate to admit it, this date with Naruto isn't half as bad as I thought it would be. He has been really nice, but I still can't tell if it's sincere or not. When I look deep down into my heart, I'm almost attracted to him…I mean yeah he's definitely attractive but he's been nagging me so much that he has grown on me.
"Hey, you wanna get out of here?" I almost jump out of my chair nearly forgetting that he disappeared for a few minutes.
"Umm, sure." I answer, still unsure but I smile and he grabs my hand, leading me out of the packed club. I tried not to blush but I couldn't help it…
While we were walking down the sidewalk I must've unconsciously leaned closer into his body because I felt his arm wrap around me, pulling me closer than I ever would've imagined being.
"You cold?" I heard him mumbled and I nod. "We'll be at my house in a few minutes."
I stopped walking and looked at him curiously, "House?"
"Yeah, I don't know where you live and it's late so I figured you'd just stay over, is that alright?" I actually didn't have much of a choice, it was really cold out and I don't think I'd survive if I slept in the park, death by cold or stabbing wasn't fun
…I wasn't about to tell him that though.
"Sure." I hear myself saying. We continued our journey down the street and we stopped in front of a really nice apartment. "You live here? This is huge!" I said as he chuckled and took my hand again, leading me up the stairs.
"Only half of it is mine, Tsunade has the other side…she's my aunt." I almost feel as if I'm not worthy of being here…as if my presence would taint the walls. I suddenly got really depressed and Naruto must've noticed 'cause he was next to me in an instant. "What's wrong?"
"I think I should leave…this place is too nice."
"What? It's alright. I get kinda lonely around here, please stay?" I sigh and smiled a little because I think he was being sincere. "Awesome. You can put your guitar and stuff in the living room. I'm gonna go get changed."
"Okay." I walked into what looked like the living room and put my stuff in the corner. Jealously ripped threw me like a knife to the heart. He probably has everything he wanted in life…He'll probably be a rich lawyer in a few years while I'm still slaving away on the streets trying to get my life on track. I stepped away from the wall and stopped my thoughts, curling up on the couch, making myself as small as possible.
I felt the couch sink in, looking over at Naruto I nodded to his decorative attire. "Nice pants." They were red with little foxes on them. He blushed and I couldn't help but laugh shyly for I rarely ever started conversation.
"My aunt got them for me awhile ago, I thought they were cute," he looked me straight in the eye and grinned, "Did you like hanging out tonight?" I was kinda thrown off by his question but I couldn't help but say yes.
"Would you like to go out again?" My mind wanted me to say no, but my heart was screaming yes. I hated moments like this, all my life I've never had to make a decision, I was always told what to do or I never had a choice. So…did I really want to go out with him? He's really nice…but still…
"Did you mean it when you said you liked me?" I heard myself say.
"Of course."
I ran my finger through my hair, feeling the grease rub off. "Yeah, I'd like to go out with you again."
Before I could comprehend what was happening, I felt his arms go around my neck and his lips on mine. My heart literally stopped…what was going on? I didn't even have a chance to answer that question when I felt him pull away.
I couldn't necessarily say that I hated the kiss, quite the opposite. It was just weird because I've never kissed anyone in my life but to have someone just steal it away really pissed me off.
Before I even knew what I was doing, I jumped up from the couch and got my things. My heart was pounding in my chest and I didn't feel safe anymore. I wasn't used to this interaction between people, sure I've seen loads of people do it but I never once thought that it would happen to me.
"Wait! I'm sorry! I-I didn't mean it…" Naruto's words were only whispers through my ears as I glared at him and walked out of his apartment into the frigid night air. It was cold, very cold and I only had a thin sweatshirt…maybe I shouldn't have overreacted? My guitar was settled safely on my back, while I clung to my clothes, feeling the shivers run down my back.
I kept my head down like I normally do, the once confident, bold boy inside me is dying and changing into a cold, misanthropic person with everything to fear. Hate ran through my bones, chilling me more than the temperature around me. I muttered a soft tune, the words flowing through the air before I catch what exactly I'm singing. I recognize it, I've heard it quite a few times and I wish to hear it again but I probably won't.
The crunching of the leaves in the park brought me down from my euphoric feeling of identity. I heard another pair of footsteps and I looked around but before I knew it the world was crashing down around me, the cold suddenly the least of my worries.
'What the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here…'