Chapter 3 crying
Disclaimer: ally carter owns everything I only own the plot and some characters.
In my first chapter it said something about grant being gay. I'm very sorry if that offended anyone. Thank you for all of those people who have reviewed and if you could tell others about the story because then it will motivate me even more.
Cammie pov
The next morning I woke up. I looked at the clock to see what time it was and it read 5:30am. Normal time for me to wake up. I then realized that I wasn't in and alley and started to panic 'where was I?' Then yesterday's entire event's came back to me. I needed to find a way out of this place. I just couldn't stay here any longer. One of the reasons why I was desperate to leave was because my parents were here. And I still didn't feel like forgiving them for what they did.
I stood up and walked towards the window to see the view. It was beautiful. The sun was just coming out and its rays were bouncing off of a lake that was running through the school grounds. The fields that the school owned were huge. With trees spread all about them and a forest at the end of the field. From the looks of it no one was out yet. I guess now's as good as any to do some of my 'training'.
Naturally people would get in the right gear and clothes to go running. E.g. cycling shorts, top that shows your arms and an iPod. But living on the streets for 6 years of your life prevents you from being able to own any of those things. So I made do with just running in what I have. And that was a pair of ripped jeans, grey top and ruined trainers.
I quickly made my way over to the door and opened it up. I looked down the corridor on both side to see if anyone was coming. I then proceeded to turn left and walk down the hallway, the same way that I came here yesterday with Rachel. Making sure that I made barley any sound with my footsteps. Every step I took me always checked if anyone was awake, but from the looks of it everyone was still fast asleep in their beds.
I managed to find my way all the way back to the hall. But from now on it will get trickier because the only exit that I know of was the glass roof which I destroyed last night. I looked around and spotted two giant doors on the opposite side of the hall. I bet that that's the exit. I carefully walked over to it and slowly nudged it open. As soon as there was a gap a gust of wind blew up into my face. This was defiantly the exit. I was just about to push it fully open when I heard footsteps and they were right behind me. I then heard a voice.
"So you trying to escape again" said the voice. I turned around to see the boy that tackled me last night. The only difference was that he had a smirk on his face.
"No I'm not and why would you care anyway? I don't even know who you are" I asked folding my arms in front of my chest.
"I don't and my names Zach by the way" he said shrugging his shoulders. "And if you're not trying to escape then what you doing?" still with the smirk. I can already tell I'm going to hate this guy.
"None of your business" I replied. But then the boy took a step forwards making me take a step backwards. And that action only made his smirk grow by 10 times its original size.
"You see that's where your wrong Gallagher girl" he said tacking another step forwards causing me to take another step backwards.
"Gallagher girl?" I asked.
"You go to Gallagher don't you and you're a girl?" he replied.
"No shit Sherlock, my names Cammie. And if I were you I wouldn't call me that again." I said. But this time I took a step forwards. But he didn't move. So we were now only a foot apart.
"And whys that? You goanna hurt me?" he said. Raising an eyebrow.
I leaned over to his ear and whispered my answer. "Yes" then I turned around and began to head outside leaving the cocky, arrogant jerk standing there.
I started to run towards the forests. From a quick look around the grounds I made my route up fairly easily. I would start from the forest then follow the lake all the way up to the edge of the school. I would then make a left and go behind the trees by the wall. I would circle around the trees then run around the entire school and back to the forests and I would do that as many times that I needed until I felt like I was going to be sick. Luckily that boy didn't follow me outside, id he did I had a feeling that I would strangle him because of that stupid smirk; he seemed like the type of person that always smirked every chance he got.
When I approached the forest I started to warm up. I didn't want to pull a muscle. Even though I have harsh and painful ways of training if I pulled a muscle I would be able to handle the pain but I wouldn't be able to run until it fixed. I stretched out my legs and arms ready for the non-stop sprint that I was about to do. It normally last 3 hours till I begin to get a bit woozy. I made sure that my pocket knife was inside my pocket before I left, just in case I did slow down for some reason. Even though I was here I still wasn't going to lease up on my punishment methods.
After stretching I was ready to start my run. So without any more waiting I sprinted off running towards the lake. As I ran I could feel the wind blowing through my hair and across my face. I loved that feeling. It felt like I could fly. That's why I ran so often. It takes me away from all of my troubles. It's like I'm in my own little world when I run, no one's after me wanting to kill me or something like that. It's like I'm untouchable to the rest of the world. If it wasn't for the fact that I'm human and need to rest every now and then, then I would always run.
I reached the lake and ran along it looking at the glistening water as I ran. The way the sun's rays bounced of off the shimmering water. And the way that the wind makes ripples in the water that makes you feels so calm and collected. The water looked so cool and refreshing as I ran so I decided that after my run I would go for a swim. But just a relaxing swim. When the lake connected with the wall I broke off and ran behind the trees. It was a bit darker behind the trees, mainly because the branches and leaves were blocking the sun from entering through them. But at points in the branches there were small gaps where the sun's rays would be allowed to enter and grace the murky trees with its blissful light. All too soon I came out of the trees and was running round the school. On my way round the corner of the school I noticed a barn full of mats, punching bags and dummies. Well that's defiantly going to up my fighting if I can use them. It would make a change from using old, worn-out bins in alley ways. And the occasional street bully that I would teach a lesson to saying who's the boss. Let's just say I had fun with those fights.
I then managed to get back to the trees. It took 15 minutes to run one at full speed. I then carried on running.
The longer I ran the more people you could see walking about the school grounds. I knew that breakfast was probably being served about now. But I never stopped running. It's punishment for eating last night. People were probably wondering where I was. Or they were thinking that they had just dreamt me being there and I never actually crashed through the ceiling in the middle of their dinner. I wonder if they were looking for me. I doubt it they probably saw me on the way. That or that boy told them where I was.
2 hours and 30 minutes later it was 8am. The lack of energy was getting to me. And every now and then I would slow down. But I would quickly pick up the pace and count every time I slowed down, which was 5 times. I was just in the middle of my 10th lap now, coming up to the trees by the wall. When I reached the trees I stopped and looked around checking that no one was in looking distance. I pushed my sleeve up my arm so my arm was completely bare from my hand up to my shoulder. I put my hand in my pocket and pulled out my knife and flicked it open, so the blade was out. I placed the point on my arm bracing myself, getting ready for the pain that was about to shoot through my arm and all along my body, I was used to the pain but that didn't stop it from hurting when the blade pierced my skin.
I was just about to push the knife into my skin to create yet another scar, when I was tackled to the ground. My knife, flying out of my hand and skidding across the mossy, forest floor under a bush. I looked up to see who had tackled me to the ground. And there I saw the boy that I was talking to earlier, laying on top of me.
"What are you doing? Get off me" I shouted rather angrily. Quickly pulling down my sleeve, so he wouldn't see the previous scars that I had covering my arm.
"I think that question should be directed to you, Gallagher girl. You were just about to cut yourself." Said the boy rather calmly.
"Yeah well I'm not going to answer now get of me" I growled.
"Nah I'm quite comfy here thanks" he said with a stupid smirk on his face.
All right that's it I've had enough of this boy. I managed to position my body so I could flip us over. I then pushed up on his chest and rolled over on top of him. His face was priceless. However he quickly covered it up with a mask.
"How did you do that?" he asked me. You could still read the shock in his voice.
I moved my face down to his ear and gently whispered in his ear. "I may be no spy but I do know some moves"
Then suddenly he flipped us over again. Him ending on top. Then he leaned down to my ear and whispered. "Not as many as me"
Then he got up and walked away. He just walked away. From me. You can imagine how shocked I was. I was always the one to walk away. I mean look what situation I was in. I decided not to let him get to me. I walked back over to the bush where my knife flew under. I bent down and looked underneath. I could just about see it. It was far of at the end of the bush. I could just about reach it, but the only way I could bring it out was to hold it by the blade. Well at least I'll still get my punishment. I stuck my hand underneath the bush and stretched my arm. I could just about touch the blade. I managed to scoot the blade closer to me and grab hold of the blade and brought it out.
When I took the knife from my hand I could see my blood on both sides of the blade. I then looked down at my hand and saw that it was covered in my blood. I felt little shots of pain shoot through my hand every time I moved it. Well I guess that's the end of my run. Then the thought of going for a swim in the lake came back to me. I started to jog towards the embankment. I looked around to make sure that no one was looking. But luckily everyone was in classes and I wasn't permitted to attend them.
I grabbed the bottom of my shirt and started to lift it off. I wasn't going to go swimming in my clothes. They were the only things I had that would cover my body. When my shirt was off I dumped it on the ground. I then reached down and took of my shoes and socks. Next were my trousers. When I was only left standing in my underwear and all my clothes in a nice pile on the floor, I ran towards the water and jumped in. as soon as I hit the lake I could feel the water surround me, taking me deeper into it. The water was just the right temperature to go swimming, not to hot, not to cold. It was perfect.
When I surfaced I flipped my hair out of my face. If I had been looking it would have looked like one of those adverts for shampoo when the model turns her head and her hair follows. I swam further into the lake, wanting to take in the view and I swam. When I got to the centre, I laid back my head and brought my body to the top of the water so I was floating. I felt the sun beating down on my body, warming my skin. I listened to the birds singing their early morning songs to each other. I was relaxed. I had never been able to feel this relaxed in a long time. I felt like I had no cares in the world.
I don't know how long I was just floating there but I didn't mind it felt nice. I always made sure that I was in the centre of the lake at all times. And that I didn't drift down stream. But the lake was still today. Apart from random gusts of wind, every now and then. But I always managed to stay in my dream like state. Well, all until I heard breathing. And it didn't just sound like one person.
I opened my left eye to see a boy standing by the embankment, staring at could also see 3 others a little distant behind him watching us. None of them I recognized. But they all looked about my age.
"Can I help you?" I asked. Because he wasn't moving to go anywhere. He didn't make any move to talk. So began to tread water facing him. "Hello, can you talk?" I asked waving a hand in the air to snap him out of whatever trance he was in. and luckily it worked because the boy smiled at me and began to talk.
"Hi" said the boy.
"Um hi? Who are you?" I asked, trying not to sound rude, I was just a bit curious.
"I'm Dan. short for Daniel." I looked him over. He had blonde hair and blue eyes. In other words he looked hot. He seemed quite nice. I wonder if that's actually how he acts.
"Hey I'm Cammie" I said smiling back.
I noticed the other 3 boys start to walk towards us.
"Hey Dan, you goanna introduce us to your new girlfriend." Said a boy that had brown hair and brown eyes. Sort of like me but a boy version. Plus I have blonde streaks in my hair.
"She's not my girlfriend tom" said Dan. Dan looked a bit uncomfortable. But introduced them anyway.
"This is tom the guy that dates anything that moves" said Dan. this cause him to get a hit from tom. But I giggled a bit hen he said that. Making Dan smile a bit.
"Hey" tom said. Winking at me. Uh gross. I have so much other better things to do. I just rolled my eyes.
Then Dan continued "He's called Ed" pointing to the boy that was standing on toms left.
"I'm guessing short for Edward right?" I said smiling.
"Yeah" said Ed and smiled back and it wasn't a flirtatious smile either just a friendly one. He had dark brown hair and grey eyes.
"And last but not least this is Sean." Said Dan pointing to the boy on his right.
"Hey" said Sean. He had black hair and hazel eyes.
"Hi" I replied. Still smiling.
Looking over them all they all looked extremely hot. But I so have better things on my mind than finding a boyfriend. And if I was to have a boyfriend tom would defiantly not be it.
"Hey guys, so is there a reason why you interrupted my swim?" I asked.
"Nah, we were just wondering why you're out swimming in the lake during school?" asked Dan.
"I don't go to school here." I said.
"Then why are you here?" asked Sean.
"Because Rachel and Matthew won't let me leave" I said lying back on my back and floating.
"You mean Mr and Mrs Morgan? Aren't they your parents?" asked Ed.
"They were my parents" I mumbled. But they all heard it.
"How come they aren't your parents anymore?" asked Sean.
"I'm sorry but could we not talk about this please. It's a touching subject for me" I asked.
"Sure what do you want to talk about them?" asked Dan. putting his hands in his pockets.
"I don't know, let me get out, dry off and get dressed first. I'll meet you over by the trees when I'm dressed" I said swimming to the embankment.
"Okay see you in a few" said Dan. then he left with the others, towards the trees.
I got out and walked over to my clothes. As I bent down to pick up my top someone grabbed me around the waist.
"What the?" I said twisting around and coming face to face with Tom.
"What are you doing tom?" I asked getting annoyed. I was also freezing my ass off.
"What does it look like baby, I'm having some fun" he said.
"Yeah well you're not having it with me so let go now" I shouted at the end. But he just brought me closer to him whilst holding onto my waist.
I tried to push him away but he was too strong. But that didn't stop me from pushing as hard as I can on his chest. I thought of what moves I could use but I was in not position to use any of them. I was trapped.
"Don't worry babe you'll enjoy this" he said. Then smacked his lips down on mine kissing me.
When he did that I tried to move my head away but his lips just wouldn't come off. He then shoved me down onto the ground and got on top of me pinning me to the ground. He then carried on kissing me roughly.
I tried to scream but it just came out as a muffled sound against tom's lips. If only I had my knife I would be able to get out of this but I was still only in my underwear.
I tried to flip him over but he held my arms and legs down by his arms and legs, restricting my movement to only my head.
I started to feel panicked. I've never been in this position before.
Luckily tom moved his right leg to the outside of my left leg. I brought my nee up and kneed him in his nuts. Making him let go of my arms to move them to hold his nuts. I quickly shoved him off of me and crawled back over to my clothes breathing heavily from what happened.
I hastily picked up my clothes and ran to the forest and ran inside hoping not to be found. When I was deep enough in the forest that I was sure no one would find me. I fell to the floor, dropping my cloths and began to bawl my eyes out. I was curled up in a ball with my knees hugging my chest, my arms wrapped around my legs and my head resting on my knees. I was rapidly shacking from what just happened with Tom and that it was becoming increasingly cold. I'm pretty sure that my eyes were now bloodshot and my cheeks were tear stained.
Soon enough dark clouds had covered the sun up making it seem dark and it began to rain. Being the worst day ever I was sat in the only place where there was no trees covering above my head so the rain fell straight down onto my head and body. The situation I was in made me think of everything that was wrong in my life. I was being hunted by the circle of Cavan, I've been living on the streets for 6 years and I'm sure that my parents wouldn't forgive me for running away. And just now I was basically raped. My life had hit an all-time low. This made me cry even harder.
My life just wasn't worth living for anymore I had nothing going for me. I had no one that cared for me anymore and the only friend I had was amber. Who I doubt I will ever see again. So I crawled over to my trousers and pulled out my knife. I opened it up and placed the blade on my wrist. Still crying. Then I heard a voice.
"Cammie" said a voice that I recognized.
"Zach?" I said, still crying and holding the knife to my wrist.
"Cam put the knife down" Zach said coming closer to me.
"Zach I can't….I can't" I said shacking my head. Tears falling from my face. He kneeled down in front of me and grabbed both of my wrists.
"Cam, you can, come on you have so much going for you." Said Zach. Almost pleading with me. "Just drop the knife."
It took all of my will power to be able to release my death grip on the knife. But eventually my fingers let go of it. As soon as the knife had dropped to the ground Zach pulled me into a tight hug and let me cry on him. He took off his jacket and placed it around my shoulders. I gripped his t-shirt afraid that I would pick up the knife again. All the time he is whispering soothing words to me.
"It's going to be alright. Don't worry cam I'm here for you"
Soon all of the crying had begun to catch up with me and gave me a massive headache. Soon enough I fell into a dreamless sleep.
Zach pov
At lunch
When I entered the lunch room with grant, nick and Jonas I knew that something was off. I looked around and noticed that most of the teachers table was empty. The only actual teachers there were Madame Dabney and Mr Mosckowitz. The other teachers were nowhere to be seen. And this got my attention. The only reason why barely any of the teachers wouldn't be here is if it was an emergency. So being a Goode I had to find out what it was. I walked up to Madame Dabney and began to talk.
"Excuse me Madame Dabney, I was just wondering where the other teachers are?" I asked very politely. After all she was the C&A teacher.
"I'm sorry Zachary but I'm not permitted to tell you. If you would like to know then you would need to talk to Mrs Morgan. I do believe that she is in her office." She replied.
"Okay, thank you" I said then began to make my way up to Mrs Morgan's office. But just before I could exit the hall nicks voice call over to me.
"Yo, Zach where are you going?" he asked me.
"Headmistresses office" I replied. Turning to face nick. Also standing by him were grant and Jonas. Who both held confused looks.
"Why? You in trouble or something?" asked grant.
"No, I just want to know what's going on with the teachers, and Dabney said that if I wasn't to know then I need to talk to Mrs Morgan." I stated.
"Can we come, I need to know if Dr Fibs is going to be in class today" said Jonas. Trust Jonas to think about classes 24/7.
"If you want" I replied. Then we all went up to Mrs Morgan's office.
When we got there I knocked on the door and heard a "come in" so I pushed the door wide open to reveal all the teachers that weren't at lunch today and a very nervous Mrs Morgan.
"Yes boys?" she asked.
"We were just wondering why only Madame Dabney and Mr Mosckowitz was at lunch today, Mrs Morgan?" I asked as politely as we could.
Mrs Morgan shared a look with the other staff the gave out a sigh. "Well okay, but we will need all of your help if you want to know." She said. Giving each of us a stern look. And each of us nodded.
"Please come in and shut the door then" she said. And we did as she asked. When the door closed she began to talk.
"As you all saw last night, Cameron Morgan mine and Mr Morgan's daughter came to the school." She paused for a moment then carried on. "Well this morning we were informed by one of my students that she was seen running somewhere in only her underwear and holding her cloths. They couldn't tell us where she was running to because she had to get to her lesson. And nobody has seen her since. We thought that we could wait for her to come back in but as it is now getting dark and is raining we can't wait any longer. So we were just about to go out and search for her. Or otherwise there is a chance that she could catch hypothermia." She said. I could tell that she was getting very worried about Cammie.
A short while after that we had all been given a comm's unit and our own sections of the school grounds to search. I had been given the forest.
I had been searching for 5 hours straight now and it was turning 6pm. But no matter how cold or wet I was I was determined to find Cammie. I was walking down a little pathway that most people didn't notice when I heard something. It sounded allot like someone crying. I quickly ran towards the sound hoping that I would be Cammie. I soon entered a clearing, and in the middle of the clearing was Cammie. Holding a knife to her wrist and bawling her eyes out. The only thing that she was wearing was her underwear. Her clothes left in a wet pile on the muddy floor.
"Cammie" I said. She looked up and towards me. I could see her bloodshot eyes. She must have been crying for a long time. I could also see all the scars along her arms and legs. Did she do that to herself? But I knew that this time she held the knife to herself she wouldn't just leave a scar, she would die.
"Zach?" she said, still crying and holding the knife to her wrist. It pained me to see her like this. I've only actual talked to her twice but I already felt close to her. And seeing her like this tiered me to shreds inside.
"Cam put the knife down" I said inching closer to her. I'm sure that everyone was listening to me through the comm's and that they all had a heart attack when they heard me tell Cammie to put the knife down. I think I could even hear a few people gasp after I said that.
"Zach I can't….I can't" she said shacking her head. Tears cascading down her beautiful face. Every time that I had seen her before, she looked strong and confident but to see her like this now, so weak and helpless. You just wouldn't know what to say. I kneeled down in front of her and grabbed her wrists. Looking her in the eyes.
"Cam, you can, come on you have so much going for you." I said. It probably sounded like I was pleading to her. But if that's what it takes to get her to drop that knife without using force then I would plead for the rest of my life. "Just drop the knife."
I could tell by the look in her eyes that she was trying so hard to drop the knife and when she finally dropped it I pulled her into a hug letting her cry her eyes out. I quickly took of my jacket and placed it around her. She felt so cold to the touch. You would wonder how she had been able to stand it out here. But I guess that's one of the things you get used to if you're a street kid.
Eventually she had fallen asleep from all the crying that she had done. So I picked her up bridal style. Making sure that my jacked was wrapped around her as much as it could and I carried her out of the forest. It did take a while to get out of the forest about 2 hour, as we had travelled very deep into the forest but we eventually got to the edge. I could just see the school up ahead. And a some very nervous looking teachers standing just inside the school. You could also tell that there were student looking out of their windows as I could see them looking. But that didn't matter. Only as long as Cammie gets into the warmth. As soon as the teachers saw me they all ran over to me.
"Oh my god, what happened?" asked Mrs Morgan. Holding back tears.
"I found her crying in a clearing deep in the forest. I don't know how long she was crying but when I got there I found her like this holding a knife to her wrist." I said. With that news Mrs Morgan couldn't hold it in any more. And let a few tears slide down her cheeks.
Mr Morgan came up to me and took Cammie from my now aching arms.
"Thank you Zach, for finding her" he said. And the look in on his face said that he truly meant it.
"It's okay" I said. Then Mr Morgan ran inside with his wife. Probably going to the infirmary to get Cammie checked up to see if there is anything wrong.
Suddenly a wave of exhaustion came over me and I couldn't stand any more. I just fell to the floor. The teachers surrounded me and helped me up as well as my 3 best friends. They managed to steady me.
"Okay I think I'm good" I said. So they let go. But they never moved from their spots beside me. I tried to take a step forwards. But as soon as my foot touched the ground it buckled under the weight. Luckily grant and nick were on either side of me so they caught me before I fell to the floor.
"Boy's got him out of the rain and take him to the infirmary to get-" said Professor Buckingham.
But I didn't hear the rest because I blacked out from the cold and having to carry Cammie for two hours in the rain. But I welcomed the blackness if it meant that I didn't have to move anymore.
Well I guess Cammie won't be alone tomorrow.