Chapter 2

(WARNING! May content some difficult subject! Please don't read it if you can be trigger by self-harm or something like that)

After the 'incident' like Nagisa want to call it, the two of them didn't talk much. Karma was still smiling like a devil and Nagisa was blushing each time he remember it. When the class end, Nagisa sigh and start to walk home but a hand grab him. It was Karma. Strangely, neither of them find it strange to just hold hand when they walk home like always. But this time, if Nagisa looks at Karma face, he will saw a light blush on his face.

"-I was thinking you might be upset because of the kiss but you don't seems to care now."

"-No It's fine. It's the plan right? Don't worry about it, I'll try to not be surprise next time okay?"-

And they become silent once again. When Karma finally reach his house, he was more tired then he though. He jumped right into bed after taking a shower. He licked his lips slowly with a strange look in his eyes. In the end, neither of them slept that night, the kiss replaying in there mind.

The next day, when Karma get out of the bed, he knew this wasn't going to be a good day for him. He couldn't take a hot shower so he had to take a really cold one, in the middle of winter. He didn't have time to eat and was already late for school. So he decide to just chill out before going to school after all he was already late why rushing? While walking around he saw Nagisa getting out of the hospital. This tilte his curiousity. Why his Nagisa was at the hospital? No, why did he said 'his' Nagisa? Geez this day was just getting more and more fuck up. Way to curious he decide to follow the smaller boy in his way for school. He was limping a little and a bandage was right under his right eye. A fight? No Nagisa wasn't like that. Maybe he just fall? After all the boy was clumsy sometime. Karma stopped at the entrance of the school.

"Was I just stalking him? Holy shit I really need some sleep." He though before shaking his head.

Of course everyone was asking Nagisa about his injury and Karma was planning on just listenning.

"-I just fell off the stairs this morning so I get to the hospital before going in class that all."

Karma didn't know why but the smile Nagisa give them make his blood run twice faster. He quickly get up his chair, making it fall with a loud noise, and walk toward the door. When Nagisa was about to stop him, he almost slap him.

"-I'm tired of being H24 with you. Leave me alone. After all I'm not your fucking boyfriend and you didn't even let me know what was going on."

Everyone was in shock but Nagisa just smile at Karma.

"-I'm sorry but it wasn't an emergency Karma-kun. I know you are upset but please don't take it out on me."

"-Fuck off Nagisa."

Karma could saw Nagisa was struggling to keep his smiled but he finally let him go and Karma walk away. After punching a tree under the rain, Karma finally calm down and sit down in the wet grass. He couldn't understand why he was so mad but he could see that Nagisa was lying. His eyes were red and his lips dry and full of bite mark. Something seems off and he was the only one who saw right through his lies? He let out a deep sigh, after all none of it was his problem to begin with so he shouldn't let it affect him this much. He was just having a really bad day and needed to take his frustration on someone. And that someone happen to be Nagisa but he know him so he wouldn't believe any of his bullshit right? He hit his head on the tree.

"-Don't do that, you're going to hurt yourself."

The soft voice surprised him. When he turn his head, Nagisa was standing here with a drink in his left hand.

"-Here drink up it will calm you down a little."

Karma take the drink and take a big slip. He didn't apologize, Nagisa didn't ask for one either. He sat next to him and look at the rain, his ponytail were a little down because of the rain but he didn't seem to mind at all. Soon the rain stop hitting their head and when they look up, Koro-sensei was here holding an umbrella above their head.

"-Come on kid, you should go in or else you're going to catch a cold and won't be able to kill me. Nurururu~."

After a fail attempts to kill Koro-sensei, Karma head toward the building in a better mood.

"-In love often you'll have a to disagreed with your partner don't torture yourself with it Nagisa-kun."

"-I'm not Sensei. Karma is like that but I like him that way. And he mind is own problem alright Koro-sensei?"

With that Nagisa decide to go home, pretending to not feel really well. Karma was a little surprised but Nagisa was limping so yeah maybe he wasn't lying.

"-Oh Nagisa-kun forgot his note book. Karma you know where he lives right?"

"-Give it to me Kayano I'll give it back to him tonight."

Karma took the notebook in his hand and an uneasy feeling make him shiver a little. He throw it inside his bag and didn't thing about it for the rest of the day. But when he fall asleep at the end of the day, in his bed, a nightmare make him jump right off the bed and he found himself throwing up in his toilet. Blood, there was blood everywhere. He looked at his arm full of scars. Why was he dreaming about that again? But.. It wasn't him. It was Nagisa who was holding the knife. A wave of panic make him throw up again. He needed to know what was inside this notebook. He quickly open it and freeze. Every page was writing in pitch black with what look like tears. He wasn't feeling good with this. He didn't have the right to read it. But if Nagisa was in danger? Against his best judgement he start to read the first page but couldn't even understand a word. Everything was write in such a mess. He could guess some word like 'why' or 'please' even 'help' almost every page was like this. But sometime a light color contrast in the dark among of word like 'he's back' 'He touch my hair' 'he don't think I look like a girl' and Karma got the feeling that he was talking about him. When he was about to read one of the last page, he heard his phone ringing making him jump. It was Nagisa.

"-Nagisa? What's wrong? Why are you calling me at.. 3 a.m?"

"-I.. I'm sorry but I've been wondering around for about.. Well since 10 p.m and I'm in front of your house for about two hours so... Can you please open up? I'm sorry to bother you this much but I have nowhere to go and I don't want to go home now."

He was crying, Karma could tell just by hearing his shaking voice. He run downstairs and open the door in hurry.

"-Come in you idiot, I bet you're freezing to death right now!"

Karma almost throw him in and soon Nagisa found himself on the sofa, wrapping in a hot blanket, a mug of hot chocolate in his shaking hand. He was still crying but at least he wasn't that cold now. Karma was sitting right beside him, an harm around him.

"-Warm up before talking. After you are going to take a really hot bath, maybe eat something and then when you are inside the bed if you want, we will talk about it, okay?"

Nagisa only nodded before looking down once more. Karma let his mind wonder why Nagisa was like this. Plus he was tired. This journey seems to never end for him. Maybe he shouldn't even have left the bed this morning.