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Chapter Two: ConsequencesBPOV
4pm…
4.55pm…
…..5.00pm
….5.57pm…
6.40pm…
8.00pm….
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….8.36..37..38pm
11.42pm. That's it!
Finally sick of waiting I reach over to my nightstand and grab my mobile and my car keys. Slipping on my thongs on the way.
Motherfucker, Don't worry Bella, he says, I'm just going over to talk to Mike he says, of course Edward, I'll be here How the fuck could I be so! IGNORANT!
ARGH!!
I snuck out the front door, so as not to disturb Charlies snores on the couch and I continued mentally berating myself for believing him. My truck roars out of the drive as I try to calm the anger and worry pulsing like fire through my veins, seething under my skin as I desperately try to find some justification for his actions, but I know in my heart of hearts that he is just broken, trying to put himself back together in the worst kind of ways. His actions speak to his desperation to feel some semblance of calm and serenity and break from the current of despair and memories that fuel his actions, creating a vicious circle of dependence that I am desperate to break.
But, finally I have to admit I am tired of holding on to a dream that he won't come to fruition, maybe it's time to let it rest. One more chance!
With a knot of despair pushing against my ribcage at my last thought, the thought of an imminent disappointment I pull into Mike Newton's driveway. As I left the house in a worry I had no time to consider my clothing and looking down I am immediately regretting it, to meet Edward I wore clothing that Alice prepared for me a creamy white, silky dress that could act as a nightie a low cut neckline that displayed my new abundance of cleavage (thankyou growth spurt) that were held in a midnight blue lace bra just covered by my dress. The light fabric flowed down just above mid thigh, a look that considering Mike obvious preferences for me, I regretted showing up in, I began desperately hoping I didn't run into him.
Get in Get Edward Get out
Get in Get Edward Get out
Get in Get Edward Get outI repeated my mantra in my head and I hoped out of my truck, putting my head down and headed for the bonfire light visible in the distance. By now it was 12.30am and not hearing from Edward was really making my nervous, even when he gets drunk he always calls me before now, to regale me with tales of his latest conquest as I sit back and hold back tear and my lunch..But tonight nothing. Considering the weird way he was acting today, he told me we had to talk about something and the way he looked at me, like.. like something was different, new almost.
With a rough motion a hand grabbed by arm and jerked me backwards.
"Bella?" whipping my body around, I let out and audible gasp as I was met the dishevelled image of Edward, of his tits, pissed!
"Oh god Belllzza..Sorry I am cause calling to forgets" slurry and unbalanced he attempted to apologize. He continued, "I was going to, to tell you Bella…Bella" Grabbing my shoulder he hugged my tightly his hands roaming my back, pulling me close. His touch usually would have sent pleasurable chills throughout my being, but the alcohol on his breath and his weight bearing down on the effect was quickly lost. Slowly gathering all my strength I inhaled deeply and began lugging Edward towards my ancient vehicle.
Edward stopped abruptly; turning quickly he composed his features into a pleading expression, with an evidently great amount of concentration he seemed to figure out what it was he needed to say into coherent sentences.
"Bella"
"Shhh.. Edward we're almost at the car, and then you can rest"
"No, Listen Bella, Tonight I wanted to talk to you about something really, important." I watched him whilst I pushed him into the passenger side.
At that moment two things happened at once
The first Edward gave me the happiest moment of my life to date,
"I wanted to tell you, that I see now Bella! I see who I'm meant to be with, I love you." I marvelled at the sincerity evident within his gorgeous eyes, eyes that slowly drooped as he passed out.
The second was the worst and single most defining moment within my life it would change my path. As Edwards eyes drooped rustling in the bushes alerted me to the presence of others, I turned to see Mike and a group of his friends stalking towards myself and the currently unconscious Edward, ultimately I was alone.
Grabbing me by the throat Mike slamming my head against my car window. Edward unlike my hopes didn't stir.
"Don't worry baby, everyone will get there fun"
A tiny whisper escaped my lips as I met my fate "Edward".
EPOV (back-after school)'Bella don't worry, were I'm going to change; you won't have to worry any more. I'm just going to talk to Mike, to tell him that I won't be round so much and then I'll come straight here and we can talk." I gave her a one-armed hug for re-assurance and swept her hair behind her ear revealing her enchanting eyes and luscious skin that surrounded her full rosé lips.
She was pleading with me to not go through her eyes. I knew she didn't put much stock in my promise of sobriety, I'd said it before and broken it again. I think she was tired of fighting me and become complacent in her patterns of caring for me, but there was more passion in her eyes today as if warning me against failure.
"Bella I swear, as your best friend" hopefully more soon "I will be at your house this afternoon and four o'clock, okay? Don't worry I'll just drop by Mike's and soon enough you'll be wishing I would leave and go to my own place."
A tentative smile grew on her face; I could see belief growing in her eyes to a level that had left her long ago. I'd let her down so many times that I never blamed her but I couldn't do it again I couldn't break her this time when she finally returned her faith to me, it would hurt her so much more this time. I gave her a hug, rough enough to not give away my desperation to touch her and she turned flipping her hair and sending her delicious scent my way and retreated to her ancient Chevy.
Pausing to watch her drive away I started walking towards my Volvo, getting in I started thinking of what I was going to say to Bella this afternoon.
Bella, my love we were meant to be…. To strong I would scare her away before my second sentence.
Bella you and me, we were written in the star… She's not the Hallmark card type; I don't want to come across more of a chick than she is.
You know Bells I've always admired you body and mind… 'admired' her body what the fuck am I thinking I might as well just throw her down and mount her there
I know I've been with a lot of girls but I've only ever wanted you.. SLEAZE, argh!
Let me be there for you now… c'mon you've been with heaps of girls, you can do this Edward.I pulled into my drive way and ran up to my room and quickly pulled on my long sleeved white v neck, baggy jeans and red converse finishing off with my favourite leather jacket.
Bella gave it to me for my house warming at the Cullen's; it was amazing it had a young Bob Dylan feel to it. Alice accidentally let it slip later that Bella had been pulling extra shit at works for two months to raise the money for the jacket I wore it whenever I could. Running my hands through my hair, I considered my self decent and left to go to Mikes I wanted to get it over with and hurry to Bella.
Speeding down the high way I pulled into his drive, and headed towards the sounds coming from the back. I knew Bella always hated Mike not only for his influence on my own nasty habits but also the way he looked and spoke to her dripped with lust, he viewed her as a piece of meat that was rightfully his for the taking. I did everything I could to keep him away from her, never leaving them alone together at school, always making sure he never got his chance.. That is everything but staying away myself therefore not running the risk of her getting corned whilst she is dragging my sorry ass home. No more this is the last time I'll see Mike I'll square things off and be free to run home to her to my heart, my Belladonna.
I heard music; Bob Marley's tunes spreading throughout the growing gathering. I pushed my way through the crowd searching for Mikes golden hair. Hearing his obnoxious laugh I headed towards it, and begun to question why I hung out with him in the first place.
I knew the answer. Booze, Pot and Money.
As shameful as it is to admit I had to do something to clear my mind and turn my focus away from those days back in hell, so I got a 'job'. Mike ran a small dealing operation out of La Push the national park gave him the required privacy and in return for a the opportunity to forget all I had to do was run a couple of deliveries every now and then.
I was so ashamed of it, I told myself if I never looked inside and of the packages then I could never be sure and then I could be wrong. I tried to deny it to myself as much as I could because even for me and what I have been through I had no excuse.
Never telling Bella, this became the only real secret I will ever keep from her, I have no intention of sharing this little day job with her. My other secret I would admit next time I saw her angel face.
"Edward!.. My man, c'mon join the party grab a beer and roll a joint, this stuff is heavy." Mike came into view Lauren and Jessica shit faced on either side of him. I picked up the opened Corona that he handed me, out of courtesy.
I had to approach this diplomatically, I didn't need Mike getting angry because he may appear idiotic but his malevolence is both stealthy and unrelenting if he decides you're an enemy he will not only destroy you but will do so in ways that are unimaginable with actions that hold irrevocable hurt.
"Mike, hey man what's happening?"
"You know Edward, this is fate you were just the man I needed, I've got a job that I can only trust you with." CRAP why, is this a sick joke everything that could prevent me from talking to Bella seems to be going to happen
"Well, I needed to talk to you about that man, the jobs that I've been doing for you. I'm gonna give them a rest for a while man, you know mixed priorities."
Mikes went from one of utter shock to a malevolent smirk; this was going to be a memorable night of that I am sure. Mike walked over to his makeshift bar and poured two drinks lingering for a moment. Chuckling to himself he paused before starting towards his house, I stood there and just watched his actions preparing myself to have to run or defend myself when he gave his command to his boys.
"Well calm down Eddie, lets go talk this over." I walked over to meet him, and he handed me one of the drinks in his hands taking a sip of his, I did the same.
We walked into his lounge room, he waved his hand and it was cleared leaving us is a silence charged with anticipation. "It's her isn't it?" he says with a menacing calm in his voice that was scarier to me than and any volume could have been. It was because it held a level of self satisfaction only achieved when he got his way, I knew then that I had played right into his plan and that some how it involved Bella.
"Mike" I pleaded whilst running my hands through my hair. "C'mon don't make this difficult, man we've always got on. I've kept up my end and always followed without hassle. Bella doesn't have anything to do with my leaving, I just think it's time I get my act together." I looked up and stared directly into his cold blue eyes trying to read his reaction. "You know Edward, your right there is no need to make this difficult. I'm offering a straight exchange; you can walk away without lingering responsibilities and I, well I… I get what I've always wanted."
What has he always wanted? BELLA!
"I won't help you get her Mike! For fuck sake Mike how many times has she turned you down?" he laughed a malignant laugh "Well this time, I'm done asking. And you know what I couldn't have without you, because you never could look after your fucking self. She always has come running to your side, you keep putting her in these positions and now she is out of luck. Little Eddie you never deserved her she should have come to me when she had the chance." My mind was running a mile a minute; I tried to stand up but became dizzy and lost in my movements. Mike chuckled as he walked over to me and grabbed my hair "this is your fault and the price you'll pay for me to keep quiet and not tell Bella, what you really do when you hang out with me."
He continued to exude his malignant laugh as I struggled to overcome an immediate stupor that I was experiencing. "What wrong Eddie didn't like my very special drink I made for you?" He held up a white powder that he had spiked my drink with, I slowly started to lose consciousness the last thing I herd was him whisper in my ear "Now all I have to do is wait for Bella to show up to pick up your sorry drunk arse."
No, no, no….
It is completely dark now I slowly get up but stumbling looking like a drunken tool. I drew out my phone, the blaring light to the screen blinding me temporarily before I could make out the time on the screen. 11.42pm. I had to act quickly or Bella would be here soon and everything would fall apart.
Grabbing on to the wall and inching my way out of the lounge room I headed outside, if I could just get to the road then Bella would see me before she would have to step a foot in Mikes. My throat was aching so I grabbed a cup of clear liquid off a counter and swallowed, the burn that seared alerted me to the stupidity of my actions. I was so out of it I didn't even consider anything but water to be within the glass and I was already having enough trouble sobering from Mikes little drink and this was just getting worse.
My heart broke when I saw my angel wandering and searching through the back yard, her silk cream dress reflecting the firelight, and showing just how quickly she ran out to find me.
I stumbled over to her and reached for her with more intensity than I had intended "Bella?" I had to question, as my own recognition had much to be desired at the present moment.
The alcohol was working its way to my coherency. I had a choice to either tell her everything and Mikes threat, and potentially scare her out of mind, disgusting her with my participation as well. So, option one leads to Bella probably hating and blaming me. The second is just to stay awake and get her out of here as quickly as possible, and tell her how I really feel, hopefully ending in us.
All the fear of her current situation hit me, how could I keep putting her in situations like this Mike was right it was all my fault.
I had to act quickly, just let her think I was drunk and get her to take us home. "Oh god Belllzza..Sorry I am cause calling to forgets. I was going to, to tell you Bella…Bella" Everything was starting to way down now I could feel my consciousness slipping as the walk to the car became hazy, unfortunately word vomit coming out with it. I had to try and tell her how I felt, she put me in the back seat and I finally pushed the words that have been dying to escape, out "I wanted to tell you, that I see now Bella! I see who I'm meant to be with, I love you." Followed by sleep taking over.
I must have been having I nightmare, because the heard the scariest thing I could imagine. A loud slam and Mikes distinctive voice "Don't worry baby, everyone will get there fun" and a small voice cry out "Edward". Chills flowed through out my entire being as I prayed it was a dream and then nothing.