I don't own Gorillaz…This one's about 2D now but first…lyrics from my favorite song:

Angeli i demoni kruzili nado mnoj

Rassekali terni i mlechnye puti

Ne znaet shas'tya tol'ko tot

Kto ego zova ponyat ne smog

Nalybuites' nalyubuites

Aeria glories aeria glories

(Repeat twice)

I am calling…calling now spirits rise and falling

S toboi Ostasa dol'she

Calling …calling…in the depth of longing

S toboi Ostasa dol'she

-Inner Universe, Origa

I feel…lightheaded.

No surprise…I'd been like that since medication on account of the headaches, so I'm not complaining. It's been weeks since we sent Noodle to that clinic in other words 'mental hospital', I don' care wot Murdoc calls it, it's an asylum to me.

It's been empty and quiet without her. She's our sunshine of the band, our little Princess and now she's gone there…it's been lonely after that. Lonely for me that is…

Since I walked into her that day I was scared for Noodle…the look on her face when she saw me and started crying, holding her bleeding hands to her face with the knife on her bedside table. I didn't know what to do except walk over and hold her close to me…I felt her clinging on to my shirt crying, "Please don't be mad 2D please…" she was trying to make clear sentences but was drowned out by her sobs. I quietly hushed her and told her that it was going to be okay, that I wouldn't tell Murdoc what had happened just to calm her down, but unfortunately…someone had walked in on us.

Murdoc...

The next thing I knew we were taking her there…It was too much on my head to hassle. Noodle was crying and begging not to go, but we weren't listening, at least…Murdoc wasn't.

He didn't even look at her in the eye when they took her away.

I did though…and Russel too.

We both at least managed to say goodbye to her without breaking down, so why didn't he? I know he's a Sadist and all but even Muds can't be that heartless could he? Sometimes I wonder if he's even human with the way he's been acting lately. After that, he'd been shutting himself up in his Winnebago or wherever he's hiding nowadays since I hardly keep track at where he lives…Russel…he's still living at Kong with me keeping the hogs, monkey and cat company…trying to keep faith that Noodle will come back to us one day.

It's still hard to believe Noodle would do something like this. Cutting her wrists…I never thought she'd stoop to that level because I thought she was beyond all that.

That's something people would expect from me I guess, but they were wrong. I outgrew that phase when Noodle stopped me one time back in a drunken phase. She always had my back ever since.

I never thought I would be the one to have her back now that she's facing this dangerous behavior, if I hadn't walked in on her, she would've done something drastic and…it's too hard to even THINK about.

All this thinking of Noodle leads me to her room and I stop. Her room…it's been a while since I looked in there.

I open the door…and enter, nothing's changed much, it's been empty since our last music video and damaged down to shreds, but I never thought it would hit me so hard now that she's really gone. I know it's temporary but it still hurts you know. She is our band mate after all and good friend, not a sleezeball like Paula was. There's a picture on the floor…I reach down to pick it up to get a better look at it.

It's Noodle…on her little Island playing guitar. How mellow she looked strumming the strings…frozen in time with her bangs hiding her face, legs dangling over the edge. You can't even tell she looked miserable there…but I guess even then she was feeling suicidal.

Ever since she went to Japan and found out more about her past from that Ku-zu-co guy, I could never get his name right, she'd been quiet…more mellowed out than usual during Demon Days. I wonder what would've happened if she didn't remember being a military agent…would she have been better off not knowing.

Who knows…I forget things all the time and I'm happy…but not really.

Not even medication could make me forget about her.

"Maybe…I should go visit her", I suggest out loud, frowning a little at the picture. I made up my mind…I'm going to see her.

I'll take Russel with me too; she needs to see her friends. She needs to know that we haven't forgotten her, that we miss her and want her back home with us.

Another short chapter from me sorry...very sorry but another one will come up real soon...XD