A/n: In contrast to the previous chapters, Ciel does some deeper thinking here. I kind of focused this chapter on what happens – and the mood – in the few final episodes. And instead of my usual LOVE-LOVE SebxCiel fantasies, I tried to be more realistic with the situation.

Bottom line: Sebby is a demon who only wants his end of the contract.

Disclaimer: I disclaim.

Beta'd by: Denzii.

The Musings of a Child

by

Here's Your Cheese Omelette

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Chapter three: Game of Life

It's not like I didn't think about it. I know the life I lead has only one end. I know I will die by his hand. By Sebastian's hand.

The price of the devil is high, but a Phantomhive does not have such a limiter in one's vocabulary – especially when it involves prices.

I was prepared. I'm sure that I was firm, confident, and unafraid of my choices—the moves I chose to play in my game of life.

Now that I think about it, perhaps my life is just another one of my many games – a silly, roundabout board game to pass the time – and, when once I reach the goal, it's game over. I'll have achieved the objectives of the game, but the only real winner will be Sebastian.

He will be the game master, while we will all be the chess pieces — used and then thrown away. The irony of reality is cruel, yet inescapable, because it is the truth.

Perhaps this is what my fondness for games was born from? Was it because I wished to be a player, and wished to deny that I was merely a pawn in Sebastian's strategy?

Was my obsession with games, and besting Sebastian in one way or another, born from this?

Was I afraid of death? Was I afraid of losing the game?

If so, I deny it.

I am Earl Ciel Phantomhive.

I do not fear death, because I chose to die. I do not fear losing, because I will not lose.

That's it. Plain and simple.

And until the day I die, until the day I become Sebastian's meal or plaything or whatever, I will be the player, and I will use him however I wish. No matter how difficult or impossible my strategy may be. The only thing my piece needs to do is go where I tell him to.

And until the day Sebastian makes my life hell, I will do just that to him. Let the demon know that Ciel Phantomhive does not go down without a fight.

~Ciel Phantomhive

A/N: There. I added another chapter! Just to finish things off for good. This will probably be the last chapter na jud. If you want another chapter, just suggest a chapter theme.

Please comment!

BC:

It's very… serious, compared to your usual Kuroshitsujis. Haha. But it's nice!

Ciel's really IC in this one, great job. Just added a bit of punctuation markings here and there because I'm OC.

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And do I sense a part of you in this fic? :)

A/n: I have no idea!!! Maybe?