Author's Note: Here is the next part and as promised this chapter focusses more on Bobby than John. Although is in it in the end. Hope you like it. Feel free to leave your opinion in the reviews.

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It had been half an hour since the meeting in Cerebro and Bobby was starting to regret how he handled meeting Ally but he still didn't entirely believe it. It's impossible right? Either way the thing that kept popping back into his head was the envelope John had given him. He still hadn't opened it yet. He knew he should it's not like it would change anything. He knew what happened. Things got real between them and John did what John always did he ran way. But now being confronted with the fact that he might of gotten it wrong, got John wrong, he was terrified. What if the letter did change things? He had worked so hard over the last year to put all that behind him.

"Bobby?" Bobby was pulled out of his reverie by a knock and familiar voice at his door. Before he could answer the door was pushed open and a blue, furry man walked in. Bobby tucked the envelope into the book on his bedside table and moved to sit at the end of his bed facing Kurt.

"Hey, Kurt. What's up?" Bobby asked. Kurt was shifting from foot to foot. No doubt unsure on how to ask him about John.

"Scott said John was here. I just wanted to make sure you're okay." Bobby had to hold back a snort. O f course Scott hadn't hesitated to spread word through the school. He was probably regaling the newer students with stories about how John had betrayed them and was evil now and not to be trusted while he was inside the mansion.

"So are you okay?" Kurt sat down beside Bobby placing a hand on his shoulder.

"I'm fine Kurt. He was just escorting one of the brotherhoods prisoners for Xavier to look at." Kurt looked uneasy like he could tell that wasn't the whole story.

"And that's all?" Bobby turned to look at Kurt.

"That's all. He might be here for a few more days but then he'll be gone." Kurt visibly relaxed. Bobby didn't know why he wasn't telling Kurt everything but knew that he didn't want to think about John anymore. Bobby placed his hands on Kurt's cheeks and leaned their foreheads together. Kurt closed his eyes and moved his hands to Bobby's shoulders. They sat like that for what felt like hours but was probably only a few minutes before Kurt pulled Bobby closer and their lips met. Bobby pulled on Kurt's hair and deepened the kiss. He needed this, needed the distraction. Not that Kurt was a distraction he was just there.

When John left Bobby was hurt and Kurt had been a good friend. Kurt had comforted Bobby and they had spent almost all their time together. One thing led to another and they were making out on the couch and in the kitchen and basically every other room in the mansion. Bobby really liked Kurt but he could tell Kurt wanted more. They had done a lot of things but never actually had sex. Between John and Rogue Bobby had never actually had sex and wasn't sure he wanted Kurt to be his first.

Kurt pushed Bobby down on the bed and moved to straddle Bobby's waist. As Kurt started to kiss his way down Bobby's neck Bobby could feel his tail uncurl and start to stroke his thigh. Kurt's tail was often very active during their make out/groping sessions and Bobby admitting found it to be a huge turn on. But at that moment all Bobby could think was how cold Kurt was. He hadn't really noticed it before because to Bobby everything was cold. He knew instantly that John's reappearance had caused the thought and suddenly felt sick. He shouldn't be thinking about John while making out with his 'sort of boyfriend' but he couldn't help it. John's elevated body heat was the only thing to make Bobby feel real warmth. Being next to John felt like what he imagined being out in the sun on a nice summer day felt like for everyone else. Suddenly there was a knock on the door and Kurt pulled away from Bobby.

"Kurt are you in there? The professor wants us to go check out an unusual spike in mutant activity in Brooklyn." Scott's voice called from the other side of the door.

"I'll meet you in the foyer in a minute." Kurt called back. Kurt placed a gentle kiss to Bobby's lips before standing up.

"I'll see you when I get back Bobby. Goodbye." Kurt turned and left without waiting for Bobby's response.

"Bye." Bobby said quietly after Kurt closed the door behind him. Bobby was suddenly very confused. Thinking about John with kissing Kurt had made him feel sick but which part made him feel that way? Thinking about his long forgotten past with John or not stopping making out with Kurt when he did? The memories it had brought up were happy ones but did that mean he still had feelings for John. Bobby lunged across his bed and pulled the envelope from his book. Not caring that the book fell to he ground in the process he ripped open the envelope and unfolded the letter.

Bobby,

I know I'll never have the courage to send this but like the other ones I feel I have to write it. I miss you Bobby. The brotherhood isn't what I thought it would be. I don't like using my powers to hurt people but there is no going back now. It's not like you'd ever have me if I did. Even if there is no hope for our future you deserve to know the truth behind our past. My deepest regret is how I treated you. Looking back I know I was just scared. Scared of how much I cared about you and what that would mean. When Xavier found me, brought me to the school and made me your roommate everything I thought I knew about the world changed. You know better than anyone how bad my childhood was. I didn't think I could trust anyone let alone have anyone trust me, care about me. But you were there and you were everything I needed I just couldn't see it. So when you told me you wanted more, wanted more than what we had in the dark of night hidden away in our room I panicked. Then Rogue showed up and I could tell you liked each other. She may not have been able to touch you but she was willing to give you everything she had. I was not. I knew the only way you'd let me go was if you hated me so I pushed you away. Worse yet I told you it was a mistake and I wished we had never done anything. When Magneto offered me a way out of your life forever I took it. It was too hard seeing you with her, with someone other than me and you were so happy. I wanted to get over you the way you so obviously gotten over me. I know that this letter is not enough to apologize for everything I said and did. So I'll give you the only thing I have left to give you. The one thing I never said but you always wanted to here. I love you Bobby and nothing will ever change that. I will always love you no matter what happens between us know that.

Yours,

John Allerdyce.

Bobby could barely breathe. He was shaking and could feel tears slide down his cheeks. Was it possible he had been wrong all these years? Bobby could still remember all of it, every moment he had spent with John. Being told that the new hot head pyrotechnic with massive anger management problems would be his new roommate to meeting John and being completely amazed by the boy. At first it was his looks, his I don't give a shit attitude and the way his snarky remarks always made Bobby laugh. Yeah he had problems especially with his anger but he kind of had a right to hate people; the people in his life had been dicks to him.

He remembered the first night John had opened up to him. He had probably thought Bobby was asleep but either way he talked, about everything. It kept happening until one night Bobby had a nightmare about his family finding out about his ability and kicking him out unable to accept their son was different. John had gotten up soundlessly and pulled Bobby into his bed. A few nights later they were sleeping in Bobby's bed when Bobby leaned up and placed a small quick kiss to John's lips. Bobby was terrified John would push him away but he didn't. He kissed Bobby back and that was it.

It was like a dam was broken. They had heavy make-out sessions every night never going all the way but loving every second of it. Then one night Bobby asked John if they were ever going to be together during the day. John didn't answer but the next night John didn't come back to the room. When Bobby confronted him in between classes he said horrible things to him and told him they could never do it again. Bobby was confused and heartbroken but John still acted like his friend during the day so he hadn't completely lost him. That was of course until he left for the brotherhood.

Bobby lay down on his bed and closed his eyes. He was suddenly exhausted. Bobby didn't know what to do with this knew information and didn't want to think about it now. He wanted to sleep and as he drifted off his last thoughts were of John and how much he still loved him.

Ally had left to explore the mansion and see what was different and what hadn't changed while John was sitting in the kitchen with a cold beer thinking about everything that had happened that day. A familiar voice calling from behind him pulled John form his thoughts.

"Surprise, surprise. I ain't ever expected to see you here mon ami." John turned around to see Gambit leaning against the counter, a trademark grin on his face.

"Hey Remy, it's good to see they haven't kicked you out yet." John replied. Grabbing his beer he got up and walked over to where Remy was standing.

"So tell me chere what are you doin' here. I thought you said you'd never step foot in this place again."

"It's uh complicated." John replied.

"You ain't trin' to win back blondie's affections are you? Cuz that ship appears to have sailed." Remy replied. Remy had been John's closest friend since he joined the brotherhood and he had told him about Bobby when Remy had caught him writing one of his letters.

"Relax Remy I know Bobby hates me." The Cajun shook his head at John his face adopting a look of pity.

"I do hate to be the barer of bad news but blondie has moved on. I've caught him on more than one occasion rufflin' the blue fuzzy boy's fur if ya know what I mean." John was shell-shocked. Bobby hadn't led on that he was seeing someone much less Kurt. Nightcrawler is a nice guy and all but he wasn't…he wasn't…damn it he wasn't John!

"Bobby and Kurt? Bobby and Kurt. Bobby and Kurt! Remy why didn't you tell me this sooner?" No wonder Bobby had had a hard time believing they had a kid together. He was in love with someone else. And John had given him that letter. That probably looked so stupid.

"Why didn't you tell me you had a kid! I had to hear it from that salaud Summers!" Remy retaliated. John sighed he was right even after Remy left the brotherhood they had stayed in touch. Informing each other on all the major developments in each other's lives.

"I'm sorry, Remy. It all just happened so fast. I should've known Scott would go blabbing. She isn't really my kid. Not yet anyway she's from the future." Remy's face contorted back to pity and he put a hand on John's shoulder.

"I'm sorry too mon ami. But just so you know I don't think he's the kid you fell in love with anymore."

"What do you mean?"

"The way you talked about he sounded like a boy scout or angel or something. But I'll I've seen him be is brooding with poorly supressed frustration. When he's not hitched ta blue boy's wagon of course." John cringed slightly at the last remark he didn't like the idea of Bobby and Kurt together but the man Remy was describing definitely didn't sound like the Bobby he knew. Bobby had always been smiling and quick with a joke. Always making someone else's day better even if he himself was having a crappy day.

"I guess things have changed for everyone not just me." None of it mattered anyway. Destiny may have him and Bobby living a suburban life together but if Bobby didn't want him around then he would be sure to stay as far away as he could.

Well I hope you guys liked it. Salaud means Bastard by the way but I just thought if Remy was going to insult someone he'd do it in french. Also did you guys like Remy. I really wanted to include him and nightcrawler other than John and Bobby they are by far my favourite x-men. As always thank you so much for reading and please review they keep my world turning.