Chapter 3
Koga's Confusion
Everyone watched as the whirl wind came closer. Inuyasha helped Kagome off of his back and she stood next to him waiting to see what would happen. Koga stopped right in front of her and grabbed her hand and kissed it. Kagome's eyes widened. The wolf before her was rather handsome and he seemed to like her, but obviously didn't know the meaning of personal space. He grinned down at her when he stood up straight.
"Hey, Kagome. How's my woman doing?" He asked. Kagome wiped her hand on her skirt and glared up at him. Even though she found him attractive she needed to put him in his place.
"Excuse me but who gave you permission to touch me, let alone put your lips on me? And I hope for your sake that you did NOT just call me your woman." She said angrily. Koga blinked at her in confusion, opening and closing his mouth not able to speak until finally he closed it with a click. Inuyasha was sniggering at him behind his hand. Inuyasha's laughing made Kagome want to flirt with Koga but something was telling her not to encourage him, so as much as she wanted to she didn't. Koga was examining Kagome intently and he noticed the dried blood on her skirt and quickly searched for the cause of it. He looked everywhere and saw the slits on her wrists. He grabbed her hands quicker than her eyes could follow and examined the scabbed over slits. He looked up at her with concern.
"Kagome, what did you do?" He asked her softly. She looked him straight in the eye when she spoke.
"According to Inuyasha, I killed myself because I was tired of seeing him and Kikyo together." She said and glared at Inuyasha. He flinched slightly. Koga shook his head.
"Then how are you alive?" He asked. Kagome grinned meanly.
"Technically I'm not. Kikyo gave me back the piece of my soul she had taken and it animated my body when Sesshomaru slashed me with his Tenseiga. I am now just like the woman I hate with nothing but anger towards Inuyasha, and apparently no memory of our friends. So who are you?" She asked. Koga stared at her wide eyed and then his eyes narrowed and his head turned toward Inuyasha. He let go of Kagome's hands and started to slowly walk toward Inuyasha.
"You were supposed to keep her safe, mutt face!" He yelled and slashed his clawed hand at Inuyasha. Inuyasha growled and drew his Tetseiga.
"I didn't know what she was going to do until it was too late, mangy wolf." He said angrily. Koga slashed at him again, dodging the Tetseiga.
"I knew I shouldn't have trusted you with her safety, you stupid half-breed!" Koga said. Inuyasha froze and stared straight ahead. Koga stopped jumping around and stood in a fighting stance. All of a sudden Inuyasha let go of the Tetseiga and crumpled into a ball with his hands covering his face.
"You're right Koga. I wasn't fit to take care of her or protect her. I failed her just like I failed my mother." He said and started crying. Kagome and the others just stood there staring at him.
"Inuyasha you didn't fail your mother. You were her pride and joy and she loved you as much as a mother could love her son." Kagome said and because she didn't feel emotion the sympathy that would have been in her words wasn't there. Just cold and unfeeling, but Inuyasha understood what she was trying to say and how she wanted to say it. He looked up at Kagome and smiled. She nodded and felt a sharp pain where her heart was. She gasped and put a hand over it. Inuyasha's eyes shined with concern. Miroku smiled slightly. In her attempt to comfort him she was starting to feel sympathy and he guessed that with it a small amount of her love for him was brought to the surface. Koga was watching all of this with curious eyes. Inuyasha stood up and ran over to Kagome, wiping his tears off of his face before he reached her. She was on the ground and he put a clawed hand on her back and rubbed back and forth slowly.
"Kagome are you all right?" He asked her. Miroku cleared his throat and Inuyasha looked up at him.
"From what I've observed it seems to me that in her attempt to verbally comfort you a little sliver of the love she had for you resurfaced and caused it to pierce her heart, though not literally." He said. Everyone stared at him in disbelief.
"What you think that just because I'm not that smart in the groping department that I don't have a brain? I'm very observant here, people. I see things that you all don't." He said. Kagome lifted her head and laughed. Everyone's gaze then turned to her in surprise. The look on her face showed them that it wasn't a friendly smile but a mocking one.
"I would love to know why I decided to kill myself when you guys are so much fun to watch." She said. Everyone stared at her. Koga blinked and then glared at Inuyasha.
"I'm taking my woman with me. I can't trust you with her now. You've already killed her and now I'm afraid to see what else you might do." He said. He stepped toward Kagome and she stood up with Inuyasha's help. She pulled away as quickly as she could and crossed her arms, glaring at both men.
"You're not taking me anywhere, wolf boy. You might know me but I don't know you and I don't go off with strangers." She said. Koga stared at her speechless.
"But you do know me… at least you used to." He said. Inuyasha snorted.
"Yea, she knew you as the pushy wolf that set us up and kidnapped her and then used her to get the jewel shards from the Birds of Paradise." Inuyasha snapped. "I would absolutely love to have a lover like that." He added sarcastically. Kagome's gaze went from Koga's to Inuyasha's and then back to Koga's.
"Is this true? Did you kidnap me and then use me for your own selfish reasons?" She asked him. Inuyasha could tell that anger was bubbling up inside of her and he couldn't wait for her to let it loose on someone other than him. Koga nodded sheepishly and right when Kagome opened her mouth he put his hands up in defense and tried to defend his case.
"But I didn't know you then. I've changed. I would never do now what I did then and it's because I love you, Kagome." He said. Kagome's eyes narrowed.
"I can't feel love." She said and his eyes widened. Inuyasha snorted again.
"Koga stop trying to get in her good graces. We all know you were promised to Ayame and here you are cheating on her behind her back with a woman who has only one emotion and no memory of you. How much more pathetic can you get, wolf?" He asked. Kagome gasped.
"You're promised to someone and you're here trying to be with me? YOU SICK LOATHSOME PIG! Get out of my sight before I purify your two-timing ass. Fucking A. What kind of asshole would do that?" Kagome asked no one in particular. Inuyasha was about to answer but her glare stopped him.
"It was rhetorical, Inuyasha. As in I don't want an answer." She said. Koga looked at her and opened his mouth to speak but she just held up her hand and turned around and walked away, in the traditional 'talk to the hand' motion. Inuyasha was grinning at Koga and waved at him as he turned to leave. Koga growled and then ran back the way he'd come. Inuyasha turned around still grinning and skipped over to Kagome.
"I can't believe I'm saying this but I like you this way. You're feisty and a lot less of a pushover." He said. Kagome had found a fallen log to sit on and had her chin resting on her open palm. She sighed and Inuyasha sat down next to her. The others walked over to them and stood there watching.
"I don't know why but for some reason something inside of me doesn't feel right, like I've done something wrong." She said and Miroku smiled.
"It's called guilt Kagome, just like you felt outrage at Koga's audacity to cheat on Ayame." He said. Inuyasha looked at him in surprise. Miroku laughed and scratched his head.
"Looks like Sesshomaru was right. Just doing what we normally do is slowly bringing her emotions back and hopefully the memories will follow soon after." He said. Kagome sighed again.
"I really don't like this feeling." She said. Inuyasha rubbed her back. She flinched and pushed his hand away, turning to glare at him.
"Don't touch me unless you have to. I still have anger toward you and it'll stay that way until I get another emotion to cancel it out." She growled. Inuyasha put his hands up in defeat.
"Ok, ok, ok. Don't need to bite my head off, wench." He replied gruffly. As usual Miroku was watching her intently as he had been doing since she had been resurrected, and noticed something flash in her eyes again.
"Oh shut up, Inuyasha. You're always mean to everyone, especially Shippo. Just be glad I've only sat you once in the past day!" She yelled. Everyone blinked at her and Miroku held up two fingers.
"That's the second memory she's remembered." He said. Kagome had slapped her hand over her mouth when she finished her outburst. Shippo grinned and jumped off of Sango.
"Kagome, you're remembering! Maybe this was a good idea after all." He said. She snorted.
"Yea, having my body resurrected without much of a soul was such a great idea I'm dancing in my skirt." She said sarcastically yet without any emotion. She hadn't had sarcasm recovered from her mind, though the words were able to be sarcastic in their nature, you had to be a sarcasm expert (like Inuyasha) to catch it. He snorted.
"The day I see you dancing in your skirt is the day Sesshomaru wears a dress." Inuyasha said. Miroku sniggered behind his hand. Sango burst out laughing too and Shippo giggled slightly. Kagome looked at Inuyasha in disgust.
"From what I've seen of your brother, the sight of him in a dress would scar me for the rest of my life, and considering the fact that I'm not really alive that would be a very long time." She said. Inuyasha frowned at the reminder that his love wasn't fully alive. This reminder also brought up a rather interesting question.
"Kagome are you hungry?" He asked her curiously. She stared at him for a minute without moving a muscle or blinking an eye and then tilted her head slightly.
"No, actually I'm not." She said. Inuyasha bit the inside of his cheek while he thought. It was at least noon now and she had killed herself before dawn, and by the time they had resurrected her it was a little while after dawn. He personally was starved and assumed the others were too. He turned to said others with a look that said he was asking them the same question. They all nodded and Kagome watched in silence. She sighed.
"I have a feeling that the reason why I'm not hungry is because my organs and blood aren't working or flowing… at least not right now. Did Sesshomaru say that I would go back to the way I was in mind, AND body, and soul?" She asked. Inuyasha looked to Miroku, who shook his head.
"No. He only said you would remember the past if we went back to normal." He answered with a shrug. Kagome nodded.
"Overwhelm me with Déjà vu. Got it." She said. Miroku nodded absently not understanding what the word 'Day-sha-voo' meant. Inuyasha sighed after coming to a decision that he wished he didn't have to come to.
"Looks like we're going back to Sesshomaru to pay him a little visit." He said and the others nodded in agreement.
"Oh great we get to go see the guy with a stick shoved up his ass… no wait. A REGAL stick shoved up his ROYAL ass." Kagome said sarcastically… without the sarcasm. Everyone burst into laughter as Inuyasha helped her to her feet and they headed back the way they had come in search of the Demon Lord with the stick shoved up where the sun don't shine.
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