Okay I'm glad it's not confusing anymore, but there are questions that I'd like to answer ok

Twilight lover asked how she can love him that fast. Well she's always loved him but she just couldn't forget what he did to her. Also when she runs she thinks straight and I guess she's never had to run for Edward before so that just brought the feeling more.

And, yes he is a gorgeous ass!! (That one was for you twenty1nyounger!!)

Okay back to the story!!

What am I thinking? Why must I love him now? He had done nothing to disserve it. When I got to my house I was conflicted. Hate or love? My very confusing thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door. I opened the door to see…

"Jasper? What are you doing here?" It was such a surprise to see him here. I was expecting Alice or Rosalie.

"I saw you at practice today and you looked pained. What's the matter?" ha. Even Jasper can see right through me.

"It's nothing. I just got a lot on my mind," Jasper game me a look that said there's- more- to- it- than –that. I sighed. "Really, it's nothing."

"Come on Bella. It's got to do with Edward doesn't it?" god my friends can read me like a book.

"It's just he's such an ass and a jerk. When did he become this way? I mean we were best friends."

"I don't know Bella. But that's not why you're conflicted," how could he know that?!

"I could feel how confused and conflicted you were. It's like radiating off of you?"

"Damn," He looked at me for an answer. "Okay…um, I was wondering if I…I should be nice to him or hate him forever?"

"Hate him forever or until he show you otherwise."

"JASPER!! You just selled out a friend," I can't believe he said that!!

"No I didn't. Look I know how he can be and well he could hurt you again so just wait until he shows you that you can trust him first," wow. I didn't know Jasper would say that.

"Thanks Jasper, this means a lot," he stood up and walked to the door.

"No problem. And if you have any more problems you know where I'll be."

"Will do," He left then and I did my homework and took a shower. Charlie was going to be home soon and I still haven't made dinner. I made spaghetti so it would be ready when Charlie came home. Dinner was nice and silent. But when I fell asleep was when I slapped myself in the face.

The dream I had was uncalled for. I was at the championship football game and the score was tied and a minute left of the game. It was raining and that water must have seeped through my skull and affected my mind because what I did next was irrevocably stupid. When a time out was made, I ran down the bleachers to Edward and kissed him with all I could muster and wished him good luck. When they won the game Edward ran in my direction. I thought that he was running to me but he went to Lauren instead. After he made out with her he turned to me and said, "I told you once and I'll tell you again. You're ugly and stupid, I could never love you."

I woke myself up then and just sat there. I was to worn out to cry. I stayed up all night and now because of the dream I didn't want to go to sleep for a continuation of it. I thought of what Jasper said and my messed up dream while I was up. Now if you put those together, Edward is going to have to do major sucking up and kissing my ass to get me to trust me again.

It was now 4 a.m. and I've been up for about five hours and was too tied to keep this no sleep thing going so I decided to go for a jog through my secret path in the woods.

The run was not that pleasant because for some odd reason I felt like someone was following me. It was weird. It was like someone was inside my head and knew every move I made. Man alive I wished it wasn't pitch black. I must have looked back behind me like a thousand times before the run was over.

Getting ready was taking forever. Stupid dream. But after getting ready and heading to school I found something off … about Edward.

He looked like he just died. Under his beautiful green eyes were dark purple bags and was moping around until…he saw me. He started to walk to me with a glint in his eye until Bob, one of his friends, pulled him to the dressing room for before school practice.

I sighed.

The rest of the day was fine until lunch came around. Why is lunch the time of day when everything goes wrong?

"Hey have you seen Edward today. He looks…"

"Horrible?" Someone with a deep velvet voice called. Everyone at our table looked at Edward. Edward's eyes gazed at all of us but it seemed that his gaze landed on me longer than anyone else. I didn't think of it.

"Of course you look horrible. When do you not," I asked with a smirk.

"Well then I'm glad you think that I look horrible because you don't look much better than me, he said right back at me. Such a jerk.

"Hey Bella can I talk to you?"Edward asked me.

"Um sure," this is unusual.

Edward leaded me to a secluded area to talk or to kill me. When I looked in his eyes, they showed sincere? Nervous? Sad? Whatever it was it was freaking me out.

"I…I want to make a truce. I mean we used to be best friend and I know that screwed up but I'd like a second chance. Please?" what am I going to do? Should I let my hatred take over and shut him down or let him show me that I can trust him again? Hate or Love?

Okay that was Chapter 3!! Now next chapter will probably in Edward's point of view. REVIEW!! REVIEW!! REVIEW!! REVIEW!! REVIEW!! REVIEW!! REVIEW!! REVIEW!! REVIEW!! REVIEW!!