A/N: Well here is the next chapter people! I am glad everyone is enjoying this. It does my heart proud knowing all these people are alerting my story and writing reviews. Though I would like more reviews!! They make me wanna write faster, any who enjoy!!
*Aberdeen, Washington is a real place for those of you who don't know. The school Grays Harbor College is real as well.
*This is going to be a little weird but bear with me, to get into how she met Edward she has to go into how she met Esme.(I think Esme is a great character, and she is seriously underplayed in the books, she is always very much a background character.)
* People will be a lil out of character. But it's necessary for the moment.
* Thanks to My amazing BETA, once again for helping me with this chapter!
*Oh also to rant a question, Imprinting! Please enlighten me to it. Because as far as I know it's supposed to be the person who best fits you, correct? And you are supposed to be exactly what the person needs correct? Please email me back about it because if I am correct it just makes me hate Emily even more then I already do.
Disclaimer: I own nothing of Twilight, though I wish I could own Jacob;-)
X_X
To this day, years later, no truer words have ever been spoken to me. And as I sit here in my room in the Cullen household and look at my children, I say I small prayer for my lost little one.
"Motherhood suites you, just like I always knew it would Lee," I heard a voice say from my doorway. My heart fluttered at his voice, and a tear slipped down my cheek. I knew that voice; it was the voice of the man who broke my heart all those months ago. It was then that I heard another gasp and Edward's voice was filled with anger.
"What the fuck are you doing here Jacob?"
X_X
'Why me?!' My mind screamed as I sat there stunned at the figure in my doorway. I could barely make out Edward's shorter (Jacob is about six foot seven, where as Edward stood about six one) figure behind him.
Jacob stared at me with a mix of love, lust and regret in his eyes. I knew I looked a sight, my dark brown hair still wet from the shower Alice and Rosalie helped me with. I lay on top of my covers in nothing more then my short, silk baby blue robe, that I could feel had ridden up my thigh. My cheeks flushed knowing I was naked underneath.
Jacob still looked amazing. Yet somehow different, almost older. His long black hair loose and framing his face, a soft smiled played at his lips as he looked at me and my children and I couldn't help but feel my cheeks flush. He wore an all too familiar white graphic long sleeved shirt and lose fitting blue jeans with white sneakers. I remembered this outfit all too well; it was the same outfit he wore on out first date. His brown eyes sparkled and were somewhat watery and I did my best to hold back my own tears. No matter what he would always affect me this way. It was then that Edward knocked us out of our stupor.
"Black! Don't make me ask again! What are you doing here?" Edward hissed, and I felt myself scared. Because, even the little I could see of my boyfriend I could tell his whole body was shaking in anger.
"Why I am here is no concern of yours Cullen, I came here to see the mother of my children," Jacob said as he strolled into my bedroom. My body went rigid then, and my face grew red with anger. Looking at Edward quickly I saw him give me a smirk, and I felt my anger lessen only slightly.
Staring at Edward, any girl would be truly lucky to have him. His warm honey colored eyes would sometimes take my breath away with the intensity they held. His hair was spiked and kinda crazy just the way he knew I liked it. His strong, lean muscled body, his pale smooth skin and devil may care smile drove many women wild, but he never stared at another the whole time we have dated. He changed from his scrubs into a pair of black boots, belt, and black button down shirt with light blue jeans. The look in his eyes showed so many things: the love he felt for me, the hatred for Jacob, and the desire to beat him.
"So now they are your children!?" I hissed at him. He stopped mid stride and looked at me sadly, and I felt my heart go out to him for the briefest of seconds before I felt my rage control me again. He continued to walk to me and sat by my side on my bed and looked deep into my eyes.
"Lee, please listen to me. These past nine months have been hell for me. And I was a royal ass for everything I have done to you. I am not asking you to forgive me and rush back into my arms. What I am asking is for a chance to be a part of you and my children's lives." Looking into the depth of his eyes I couldn't help but let another tear fall. He looked beaten, and truly regretful. His eyes held nothing but truth and kindness, but I would not let myself believe him. Out of the corner of my eye I could see Edward leaning against the door frame giving me a look that told me he was ready to beat Jacob, all I had to do was give the signal.
"Do you have any idea how much you hurt me!? What I went through?! You took my heart and snapped it in two! After everything, and seeing you with her, I felt like you took the love we had and shit all over it! What changed? Please tell me? I would love to hear what you have to say?!" I said hearing my voice crack, my son started to fuss and I immediately froze when Jacob took him into his arms and rocked Nicolas softly. Edward growled watching the exchange as I did my best to hold in my own emotions.
"Lee, listen with the whole Bella thing, well I was a jackass. And it made me realize whether these kids are actually mine or not, I want to raise them with you. Because I love you and I don't care who their dad is, just who can love them and be there for them as well as their mother. And I know I was an ass for ruining everything we had, I am asking for a chance, just one chance to show you I can be a good man for you, no matter if it is baby daddy, friend, or boyfriend." Jacob said this and leaned forward to kiss my head softly. Edward was literally shaking with rage in the doorway and stomped over to me pulling me closer to him. I took a deep shaky breath and tried to calm myself to speak, but Edward spoke up first.
"That was very well thought out and spoken well; tell me, how long did it take you to think that up? I think you have done enough for the day. Now I suggest you give My Girlfriend back Her Son so they all can rest, and I will show you out." The pure hatred in Edward's voice somewhat scared me. I took Edwards hand and squeezed it gently.
He looked at me and I could see that he was scared that Jacob was here and that I would leave him, and it shattered me. Jacob gave me a small smile and kissed Nicolas' head and handed him back to me. I nodded to him and Edward got up to follow Jacob out. As they reached my doorway I called out to Jacob.
"Jake, their names are Nicolas Seth Clearwater, and Angelina Rosalie Clearwater. If you're going to be part of their lives, you should know their names," I said softly. Jacob's smile grew a little wider. "This doesn't mean I will forgive you, or even want to associate with you outside of my children. " He nodded and walked out of my room.
When I was alone with my two children I looked down and kissed both of their sleeping heads. They did look a lot like Jacob, but then again small traces of what could have been Sam were there as well and it confused me all the more. As I heard the front door slam closed I jumped slightly and cringed. I know Edward was upset knew, but he would never voice it. He knew it was my choice to do this, and he would support me.
'He is a good man, and you don't deserve him. You could never love him as he loves you. Jacob will always have that love.' That annoying voice in my head spoke. I groaned and took a deep shaky breath.
'I can love him, I just need time. We have only been dating for three months.' I argued to the voice.
I shook my head to clear it when I heard Edward give a slight cough to snap me out of my stupor. I looked at him and he was holding his daughter, eight month old daughter Renesmee. I smiled and motioned him with my head to come sit by me. As he sat next to me holding his sleeping daughter and I held my two children, I felt happiness I had not felt for a long time over come me.
"Listen Leah, I love you. I have for so long, and I will be here for you and love these two kids like they were my own. Because in my mind they were the moment you said we could be together. He is going to hurt you Leah, just like Sam did. I don't want to bring this up, but I feel like it needs to be said. When he cheated on you, he not only did it more than once, he thought he fathered my child. Then- you know what it's not important it's the past. I just want you to be careful, please Leah." Edward said with a soft smile as he kissed my forehead. I looked up at the man who was there for me no matter what, and it killed me that I couldn't love him in the way he loved me, but I was dam well going to try.
"I know you're worried, but I am a big girl now. I care for you Edward, so very much. And I am with you, and I know you're scared. I will be careful, and I am not going to ruin everything I have with you," I said laying my head on his chest next to Renesmee. He smiled wider and nodded. I felt the twins fidget and fed them before putting them in the co-sleeper set up next to my bed. They fell asleep before I had the blanket over them and I lay back down with Edward, who was stroking Renesmee's back soothingly.
As I watched them I couldn't help but to think back to the first time I had ever met Edward, and it brought a smile to my face. And it all started with Esme Cullen.
X_X
'Aberdeen, Washington in July was warmer than I thought it would be.' I thought to my self as I felt the cool breeze of the air conditioner hitting my face as I entered the South Shore Mall. As I entered the mall I couldn't help to think how much my life was different life had changed so much since that horrible day in April. I still have nightmares about it, but I have my family and the boys. They all help me as much as they could. Sam left with Emily to go stay with her mom and I was glad for it. Having him around brought up too many painful memories. I was walking with my only friend from my classes, Esme. Summer classes had just started last month and by the time September rolled around I would finally be a registered nurse, all those hours of those annoying online classes would finally pay off.
"OK Esme, why are we here?" I asked giving her a questioning look. She smiled brightly at me and laughed.
Esme was literally the only girlfriend I had anymore. I did my best to not be so moody around her, but even if I was, she took it in stride, and decided she needed to take up the roll of my big sister. She knew I couldn't escape her and it was hard to get mad at her seeing as how she didn't have a mean bone in her body. Not to mention since we went to school together and had almost every class together once she got started on something there was no way I could escape her.
***
Esme and I met officially during a seminar for first time nursing program students of the GHC (Gray Harbor College) in the end of May. I was in the middle of trying to run to the theater as to not be late when I saw someone who made my blood run cold. He stood there looking like something out of GQ with his pale skin, bold hair slicked back and a suite covering his fit frame, his warm green eyes and happy smile looking at a woman that I could only describe as stunning. Standing next to him was what I could only assume to be his wife; she had on a simple brown pencil skirt, matching brown boots and green blouse. They both looked to be in their early to mid thirties, her hair looked to be the color of caramel, and her eyes looked to be almost golden. They were smiling at each other warmly and he leaned down to kiss her and I felt a wave of sadness and a little bit of envy wash over me.
It was then I assumed he felt someone watching them that he turned to look at me. When he saw my face he looked shocked for a moment, and then gave me a warm smile. He laced his hand with the woman's and strolled over to me.
"Ms. Clearwater, how are you?" He asked me giving me a warm smile. I nodded to him doing my best to keep the memories of my time in the hospital out of my head.
"Hello Doctor Cullen, I am fine, and please call me Leah. I actually go to school here now. " I said rather quickly, I hate my mother for instilling manners into me, I wanted to just rush past him but my mothers voice was screaming in my head to be respectful.
"Well that is wonderful, and please Leah call me Carlisle, and allow me to introduce my wife Esme Cullen. She is finishing up her last year here." He said proudly staring at her with such love and adoration in his eyes that it almost made me cringe, seeing that much love and happiness was a little to much for me to handle these past few months. Call me a bitter harpy if you will, but it hurt all the same.
"What are you studying?" Esme asked me giving me a heart stopping smile, she was really sweet and it was hard for me to hold back my own smile.
"Well I am actually finishing up to get my nursing degree." I said feeling my own smile grace my face. Esme smiled wider and grabbed my hand pulling me into a hug, I flinched, scared for a moment but quickly recovered.
"Oh this is wonderful! I am here for the same reason; oh this will be so much fun! I will show you around, and I know we will just be fast friends. Come on I will take you to the seminar, and introduce you to all the teachers," Esme said excitedly. I could only nod to shocked that someone I barely knew was acting like a long lost friend.
Esme kissed Carlisle quickly and they said a short goodbye as she led me to the theater. After two hours of her introducing me and talking about her family life and school here I actually felt calmer then I had in a long time. I opened up somewhat and told her what life was like on the rez, and about the boys and my family.
"So how do you know my dear Carlisle? I know you were his patient, but what did he treat you for if you don't mind me asking?" As soon as the question came out of her mouth I went rigid, she looked at me and took my hand giving me a sad look. "I am sorry, it was not my place." She said quickly. I shook my head and took a deep breath.
"No, really it's fine. I umm- well I had a miscarriage a few months ago, and well he was my doctor at that time." I said feeling the tears well up in my eyes. Esme pulled me into a hug.
"We lost ours close to six months ago, I was three months along." Esme said sadly. I saw tears well up in her eyes as well and we both took shaky breaths. After a moment we both calmed somewhat and she gave me a warm smile. "How about we get out of here? I think we could both use some fresh air." I nodded to her and she quickly pulled me along outside. When we walked out to the parking lot I stopped dead in my tracks at the beauty I saw before me. It was a 1966 Ford Mustang red convertible.
'You really should stop drooling over a car, your getting to be as bad a Jacob.' My annoying inner voice said to me.
'Shut up! Leave Jacob alone, he can't help that he is a man who love cars, and I can't help that being around the boys not just Jacob that I appreciate an amazing car.' I said defensively. The stupid voice made a snorting sound.
'Oh now your sticking up for Jacob huh? Why don't you just admit your crushing on the boy, since you got out of the hospital he has become a permanent fixture in your house, along with that FUCKING annoying Swan girl.' I sighed and shook my head.
It was true Isabella Swan showed up the day of my breakdown in the hospital. I heard her talking with her father that she felt sorry for me, and that she was going to "help Jacob" care for me. I knew it was a bunch of bullshit.
I remembered that annoying little bitch from when we were younger. She used to come by every summer. Jacob had the biggest crush on the girl and seeing as all three of our fathers were friends she would always come by and take great pride in treating Jacob like gum under her shoe. But like the good little bitch he was for her he took everything she dished out.
When they were fourteen she finally said yes to being his girlfriend only to be caught two weeks later by Seth and Jacob, and Sam fucking a kid named Mike Newton in the ally next to his parents shop. It crushed poor Jake, and I couldn't help but feel the more hatred for her then I thought possible, the girl and I never got along as it was she always hated me and Seth for some reason, but then again we weren't to fond of her either. But seeing what she did to Jacob just broke my heart, I had never seen the boy so crushed.
Jacob of course being the ever kind and ever forgiving idiot that he is along with my brother welcomed her into their lives and into my god damned home. Jacob would come by everyday to see me and everyday she would show up and did her best to make it look like she gave a fuck. It killed me that she had not changed and no one but me seemed to see it, the only difference was Jacob wasn't her bitch and it's was making her crazy. He grew from the bitch boy to a grown I'll be it sexy ass man and the fact that she wasn't getting all the attention drove her insane. I really couldn't get the girl nor did I try to. I was glad I was starting school; it gave me a reason to get away from the craziness I felt stirring around me.
"Ready to go?" I nodded oh boy was I ever.
***
After that day I and Esme became very close. I felt a bond to her I had not felt to anyone in a long time. Jacob and Seth were happy I had found another girl to hang out with, though they still tried to push Bella on me. Almost every day I spent hanging out, or talking on the phone with Esme I felt myself becoming more the old me, she was like the sister I always wanted, that I thought I had in Emily.
"Now don't get mad please…" She started to say and I stopped mid step and gave her a stern look.
"What did you do Esme?" I asked looking at her warningly. She gave me a small smile and hugged me.
"Well Carlisle and I were talking and-"But I cut her off and pulled away from her grasp. Since knowing Esme whenever she starts with 'Carlisle and I were talking' it usually involves something I probably wont like, it's normally her idea, Carlisle just goes along because he wants her to be happy.
"What did you do this time?" I said exasperated. She smiled and took my hand patting it.
"Well, I just thought maybe you would like to come out to dinner with us, you see Carlisle brothers and sisters are coming back from their schools and I would love for them to meet my dearest friend." She gave me one of her conniving smiles and I narrowed my eyes.
"What is the catch Esme?" I said warily.
"No catch, we are going out to Port Angeles for dinner and dancing. I would love if you would come and let me dress you up!" She said hopefully. I sighed knowing there was more to this then she was letting on but letting it go. She cared about me and I cared for her so to make her happy I would do this.
"Fine." I said defeat in my voice. She smiled wider and laughed.
"Oh this is wonderful; I thought I would have to harass you all week for this. You are learning faster then my Carlisle did. Next Saturday I will go over and help you get ready, and I am so happy!" She said gleefully pulling me forward and dragging me along in the mall.
The next week passed in a haze of school work, buying insane amounts of groceries because my house seemed to be the place to be for the boys in La Push, and mentally preparing myself for whatever it was that Esme had planned for me. By the time Saturday rolled around I woke up and quickly showered. As I stepped out of the bathroom and walked to my room I checked my phone and saw I had text message opening my phone I laughed.
New Text Message from Esme:
Don't be sacred and don't run or I will have sick Jacob on you.
Esme would come over every Saturday for a girl's night and she would teach me to cook so I didn't have to harass Seth every night and we would watch a movies. Needless to say my new found cooking skills learned from Esme had won Seth, Jacob and the rest of the boys over. Now she was always welcome, and the boys would constantly try to ruin our girl's nights.
"Leah-"I heard Jacob start to say as he opened my door, but I saw his face turn bright red as he started to stutter seeing me in nothing but a fluffy white towel. I turned bright red and screamed.
"GET OUT!" He stammered as I ran for the door shoving him out and slamming my door shut.
I slammed my head against the door over and over again, and locked my door. I heard my brother asking Jacob what was wrong and I could only imagine that conversation. I shook my head and bit back my laughter. I didn't leave my room for the next hour and a half until I heard the familiar sound of Esme's car pulling up. I slipped on my sweats and a tank top and walked outside to greet her ignoring the blushing Jacob sitting in my living room.
Esme ran to me and gave me a big hug, from behind her I saw a girl stepping out of the passenger's side. She was small, no more then five foot which made me smile, she had short hair black hair that was curled softly around her ears and a happy go lucky smile plastered on her face, she looked like a pixie. She was wearing a purple Charmeuse cocktail dress with chiffon waist that made her emerald green eyes pop, and a pair of silver heals.
"Esme you look stunning!" I said excitedly, and she did. Esme wore a beautiful green pleated sweetheart bodice and comfortable wide straps. The flattering empire waist is gathered in the middle with a floral accent. She wore a pair of brown heals and her hair was lose and in soft curls framing her face.
"Oh thank you! This is my sister-in-law Alice. Alice this is my dear friend Leah. Leah, Alice is going to help me get you ready for tonight." Esme said as Alice walked over to me and hugged me.
"Oh I am sure we are going to be very close friends as well!" Alice said in a very sing song voice. As we pulled away from each other I rolled my eyes, and she gave a small pout. I smirked; oh I would have fun bothering this one.
Esme said hi to the boys, and introduced Alice, after making rounds and running back to the car and pulling out a enough food to feed an army they rushed me upstairs and I didn't come out for another two hours. After looking at myself in the mirror I couldn't believe I was the same Leah, I was a primped, plucked, and teased version of Leah. I wore a black dress that showed off my cleavage with a haltered top styling with a plunging neckline and corset detail the dress fit me like a glove and to top it off I wore my black Mary Jane's. After Alice finished with me my hair was in long layers with long side-swept bangs starting below tip of my nose. She added subtle highlights and red hues to add dimension, and it was half up the rest in soft curls falling down my back and chest. I had little makeup on with a clear lip gloss.
"Dam I am good!" Alice said excitedly jumping up and down clapping a little too enthusiastically for me. I rolled my eyes but smiled softly.
"You look breathtaking Leah." Esme said hugging me, I hugged her back and Alice jumped in and I laughed softly to myself.
"Oh man, dear pent house-" I heard a voice say from my doorway. I pulled away and scowled. Standing in my doorway was Sam's two lackeys Jared and Paul. They both looked me up and down and Paul let out a wolf whistle and continued, "Dam Clearwater, if I would have known you can clean up this good, I would have fought Sam to get you a long time ago. How about you me and your two friends go back to my house and have some fun." I felt my rage build and Esme grabbed my shoulder, trying her best to calm me. Jared rolled his eyes and smacked Paul in the back of the head.
"Listen mutt, you couldn't last ten minutes alone with me, and I honestly doubt your packing much south of the border, so why do you run home to your couch, push the cushions together and have yourself a good time, because that is probably the only actions you have see since your mom washed your little pecker." Alice said glaring at him.
Esme and I looked at each other, then at Alice and burst out into laughter. I looked at Paul who looked dumbfounded, and Jared whose face was beat red from holding back laughter. Paul stomped over to Alice who grabbed Paul by his left arm and flipped him in the air, lading him on the floor next to her. I shocked to say the very least. Alice and I shared a look and gave each other a high five.
"Nice one Pixie." I said trying to calm my laughter down. She giggled and shrugged as Jared sighed shaking his head at his fallen friend walking over to pick him up.
"When you're my size, it pays to know how to defend yourself." She said in her happy sing song voice, I nodded and hooked my arm in hers as Esme lead the way down the stairs.
As we entered my living room all eyes were on the three of us, and Seth was fuming. Jacob, Quil, and Embry looked like their eyes were about to bust out of their skulls, and we heard Jared and Paul coming down the three of us burst into a fit of giggles. Seth cleared his throat and the boys all blushed slightly when Seth saw Paul he let out an angry growl.
"You're cringing, and draped over your stupid fucking man crush Paul, what did you do?" Seth hissed. I sighed grabbed my shawl and kissed my brother goodbye as we headed out.
When we reached our destination I gasped as Esme and Alice shared a smile. We pulled into Camaraderie Cellars Winery and I was dumbfounded. Outside the winery was a sign saying "closed for private party" and I looked at Alice and Esme who smiled widely at me.
We met a woman at the doors, she was my height and that was saying something consider you don't see many girls close to six foot a lot. She looked like a Victoria Secret model with her long flowing blond hair put into a side pony tail, piercing blue eyes and perfect makeup for her pale skin. The dress she wore was a slash neckline, spaghetti straps and flattering empire bodice that was accented with sequins and matching heals. We took one look at each other and I smirked, something about this girl, just call it a hunch, but I knew I would like her.
"So this is the one you want to hook Edward up with? Well at least she is pretty, I am Rosalie." The blond said in a dead pan voice. I looked at her confused for a moment, and then turned to glare at Esme and Alice who blushed slightly.
"This is a fucking set up!" I yelled. Esme and Alice looked at Rosalie exasperated and I started walking back to the car, there was no way in hell I was going through with this. I heard Esme call my name and but I ignored her and I kept walking until I saw a small lake. There was a small bench by the water and I sat there trying to collect my thoughts when I heard a noise behind me.
I turned and saw a man standing by a tree close by looking out at the water smoking a cigarette, he seemed to be lost in his own world, and I couldn't help but notice his looks. He was wearing a two-button, non-vented black shadow stripe tuxedo. His hair was spiked but sort of disheveled and he had a very beautiful smile. He had the jacket of the tux thrown over his shoulder and in the moonlight he looked almost like a vampire from one of those cheesy stories I used to read when I was younger. I was him put out the cigarette and he turned to look at me.
"You know staring is very impolite." He said giving me a sexy smirk, I blushed slightly and looked away back at the water.
"I'm sorry." I said almost to myself, I heard him laugh and sigh.
"It's OK. So would you mind telling me why you're out here?" He asked strolling over to me. I looked at him and rolled my eyes.
"Well that's none of your business, but the same could be asked of you." He put his hands up and smirked again.
"Hey, I didn't mean anything by it. I just don't want some over grown asshole running over here, seeing me talking to you and trying to beat the shit out of me for 'looking at his girl' if ya get me." He said with a slight chuckle in his voice, I smiled and shook my head.
"I was brought here under false pretenses." I said simply, he sat down next to me and sighed.
"Well then, that makes two of us." He replied pulling out another cigarette offering me one, when I declined he lit up one for himself and took a long drag.
"My friend and her sister-in-law brought me all the way over here and then its let out I am actually here as a blind date for some guy named Edward." I said shaking my head softly, the man standing next to me laughed to himself.
"Well, that's gotta suck. I hate shit like that. Have you ever met the guy?" He asked taking another drag of his cigarette.
"No, but knowing Esme he probably won't be my type. Me and her have a very different type in guys. And besides I am not really ready to start dating yet." I said looking out at the stars. He laughed again and I looked him in the eyes, feeling myself getting a little annoyed.
"You have a type huh? That's cool, what's your type?" He asked with a devious twinkle in his eyes.
"Not that it's any of your business but I go for the strong, dark, and rugged type. I love Esme, and no offense to her husband but she goes for the preppy model type." I said rolling my eyes. When the man laughed again I finally snapped, "is there a reason why your keep laughing douche bag?"
"Oh none really, just that maybe you should give this Esme the benefit of the doubt." He said getting up and starting to walk away. I felt the scowl form on my face and I heard Esme's voice behind us.
"Oh good Edward, I see you met Leah. She is your date for the evening."
X_X
A/N: Hated it loved it? Let me know. I know this is a long chapter and I will have the second part up as soon as I can.