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It happened again.
The next day, when Kai opened his bag, there it was...
...another BL-drama CD...
It's not like the bruenette had not been expecting it - he was actually even so eager to watch another one, strangely.
But what he's worried about now is Aichi. He sensed that he had hurted the boy's feelings yesterday by running off like that...
His relationship with Aichi is so precious to him, and he didn't want to ruin it. Kai stared at the BL CD for a while, not knowing if he should watch it or not. To be frank, he WANTED to, but if he gets too addictive to this stuff, it might not be only Aichi that he couldn't face...
But he wanted to watch it anyway. Maybe not now - he should go back to Card Capital today to...at least apologize to Aichi...? Kai set the CD down on his desk carefully, before heading out to Card Capital.
This time, he will definitely not screw up Aichi's feelings!
"Kai-kun!" Aichi's voice rang throughout the shop, calling for Kai - like yesterday, but there was no sign of happiness in his chirpy voice. That was a bad sign...
"Aichi...I..." Kai stammered, groping for the right words to say, but he can't seem to think of anything good. He didn't think it would be wise to blurt out about being addicted to BL - he'll surely be teased about it. Besides, it would be like admitting that he had turned gay for Aichi...And Aichi would find him disgusting and brand him as 'homo' forever!
"N-Ne K-Kai-kun, y-you're not...angry at me, right?" Aichi whispered uncertainly, twiddling his fingers, as he glanced up at Kai in distress. "Did I do something wrong...?"
The boy's voice and his pale face made Kai think that he's very adorable. The way he was twiddling his fingers and his worried expression...he's so cute! Of course, he'll be even more cuter if he makes the uke face. Kai tried imagining Aichi with an erotic uke face. It really does suit the bluenette! Moreover, it makes him look soooooo cute! If he was the seme and Aichi was making that face at him while calling his name...Kai would do anything for that to be real! But if Aichi is an uke...does that mean that Aichi's thing is also uke-sized...?
Kai was aware of the color that rose to his cheeks. What was he doing, thinking about Aichi's...
Without thinking, he ran out of the shop, away from Aichi...
Again.
Kai didn't look back, but he knew what he had done. The small sob he heard when he ran away...he knew.
He finally had made Aichi cry.
"Kai-kun is the worst!" Aichi wailed, wiping his teary eyes with his thin, nimble fingers.
"Now, now..." Miwa patted him, "Don't cry, Aichi..."
The blonde's attempt to subdue Aichi's crying even made Aichi sob harder. Ren, seeing the cute boy cry, could not help but to feel angry towards the asshole, Kai Toshiki. Just thinking about Kai made Ren see red. What the hell is wrong with the brunette? Isn't making cute boys cry illegal?
"Aichi, please don't cry..." Ren mumbled, voicing his thoughts, "You know when cute boys cry, my heart aches!"
"That sounds so gay," Miwa commented, "You sure you're not a shotacon?"
"Aren't you one too?" Ren cleared his throat, raising his eyebrows at the blonde. "Leave that for later. Right now, I think we should go deal with Kai...for Aichi."
"Y-You two...would help me?" Aichi asked, his voice filled with hope. These two are Kai's closest friends! Surely, they'll find out the reason why Kai seems to be running away from him!
"Of course, Aichi!" Both of them yelled at the same time, pulling Aichi into a bear hug. "STOP MAKING THAT SAD CUTE FACE BOTH OF OUR HEARTS ACHES SO BADLY!"
"U-Um...Okay...?" Aichi couldn't help but smile. "Thank you very much, Miwa-kun! Ren-san!"
"You're welcome, Aichi! I'm going to make Kai pay for what he did to you, surely!" Miwa reassured him, giving Aichi a thumbs-up sign.
"...Y-Yeah..." Aichi smiled, unsure, his voice hollow.
Kai stared intensely on the laptop screen, watching the new CD he got, while thinking about Aichi. Why is he turning gay? Gay for Aichi of all people?
It's not like the brunette is disgusted of the boy or anything, but it's just that...they're mates. If Aichi knew about his mixed feelings for the bluenette...he sure would loathe him forever...
...And now, he can't even face the boy. Kai didn't want to admit his gayness - but he knew, right from the start, that he had always had feelings for the boy. His bright blue eyes and his smiling face...not to mention his kindness...made Kai feel a strange attraction to him. Who knew that it would be love?
The fact that he was Aichi's idol...it made him happy. There are so many cardfighters out there, and yet Aichi looked up to him more than anyone else. His eagerness to get stronger so Kai would notice him...it felt as if Aichi wanted to win his attention. However, little that Aichi knew...that Kai's attention was always on him since their first cardfight. Watching Aichi get stronger made Kai feel a little insecure - as if Aichi was overpowering him...
Sure, he was glad that Aichi's becoming stronger and stronger...But if Aichi gets stronger than him, would he continue being the one Aichi looks up on?
Kai panicked at that point. He really needed to get stronger...so Aichi would always see him as his idol...
That is the reason why he accepted the power of Reverse. So that he would become the strongest of all, and so Aichi would admire him forever...
...But instead...he hurt Aichi.
He thought being strong would make Aichi admire him, but then he realized that being strong - but reversed - didn't make himself nor Aichi happy at all. Since he is the source of Aichi's unhappiness...maybe it was better for him to disappear. That was what he thought, before Aichi fought him on the Tatsunagi Building. Kai had told him about his self-exile for Aichi's own good. But Aichi...he didn't want Kai to disappear. Considering what he had done, Kai was surprised at that. Then, he realized, that even though he's not Aichi's idol anymore, it doesn't mean that Aichi would stop admiring him. They were mates after all...
Even so, frankly, if anyone asked him when did he truly realize his feelings for Aichi - it was probably on Aichi's disappearance. He was glad that he haven't forgotten the boy's existence like anyone else...it made him feel special. It must be because of their strong, unbreakable bond...which is breaking apart right now.
Kai loved Aichi. He knew it, but a part of him is still declining the thought. Of course, no one would want to admit that they're gay...especially someone like Kai.
His thoughts were interrupted by the sound of someone knocking - more like banging - on the door. Kai quickly slammed laptop shut, and muttered a few expletives as he went to open the door.
He swung the door open, a scowl appearing on his face when he saw who his visitors are.
"What do you want, Miwa? Ren?"
"Why are you being so mean to Aichi? What is wrong with you?" Miwa asked, rather angrily, his face strangely cold and serious. "Don't you know how much you hurt him by running off like that?"
"It's none of your fucking business," Kai growled, and reached out to slam the door shut. However, Ren was faster. He lashed out, slamming Kai to the wall, and pinning his wrists down.
"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT?!" Ren yelled in his face. Kai had never seen him this angry, even when he had PSYqualia... "DO YOU LIKE HURTING OTHER PEOPLE SO MUCH, YOU ASSHOLE?! ISN'T AICHI YOUR MATE?"
"Of course, he is my mate!" Kai shouted back. "IT HURTS ME AS MUCH AS IT HURTS AICHI! DO I THINK I COULD STAND TO SEE HIM CRYING?!"
"IF YOU CARE ABOUT HIM, YOU WOULDN'T MESS WITH HIS FEELINGS LIKE THIS! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS? WHY ARE YOU AVOIDING HIM?!"
While Ren ranted on, Kai didn't listen. He was too horrified on the sudden realization that Ren is pinning him down on the wall and that their faces were so close...
Suddenly, an image came into his mind. It was a scene from the first BL CD, where the seme pinned the uke down on the wall and started doing...things...
Is Ren trying to become his seme?!
When that thought came into his mind, Kai freaked out. There is no way, no way at all, that he'll become an uke!
Kai kicked Ren squarely at his stomach, and while the redhead gagged and yelled nonsensical words at him, Kai dragged him (along with Miwa) out of his apartment, and slammed the door shut, bolting it just in case. Ren banged on the door again, hollering at Kai, but the brunette didn't listen.
"DON'T SHOW YOUR FUCKING FACE UP AGAIN!" he hissed at the people on the opposite side of the door, shutting both of them up.
When he was sure that the door was locked and that there is absolutely no way that Ren would come at him again, Kai slumped, his back against the door, sweating and shaking uncontrollably. While he made a little oath to himself to never become an uke (especially Ren's), he flipped open his phone. When he saw that Aichi was the sent him a message about thirty minutes ago, relief and panic washed over him at the same time. Kai never knew that people can feel relieved and panicked at the same time - until this day...
When he read Aichi's message. He felt his heart sinking in despair. As every second passed, he hated himself even more...
Kai-kun, I'm sorry if I did something that made you angry. Please forgive me. I never wanted Kai-kun to be angry at me...
Kai wanted to hit himself over and over again. He was the one who wanted to apologize. He should apologize. It is not the bluenette's fault that he's like this...
Kai walked over to his laptop, retrieved the CD out, and broke it into a million of pieces. The shining shards of what used to be a CD shattered all over the place, while Kai buried his face in his hands, not knowing what he should do anymore. He can't stop himself from acting like this. Why can't he even say 'sorry' to Aichi? What is wrong with him? He hated the people who made him like this. He will find out who was responsible for making him addicted to BL, and also ruining his beautiful relationship with Aichi.
At that instant, there was a knock on the door. Kai tensed. Ren isn't giving up yet? Cautiously, he crept towards the door, and peeped through the peephole.
It was Aichi.
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