AN: Stephenie Meyer owns all the characters. I only visit their world and play with them a little bit. Thank you to my beta twilight-is-lovee.

The Kill by 30 Seconds to Mars
Crashed by Daughtry
Blurry by Puddle of Mudd
Given Up by Linkin Park
The Gift by Seether
Whatever Tomorrow Brings by Incubus

BPOV

I pulled into my driveway and killed the engine on my truck. The drive home from Emmett's house was awkward and uncomfortably silent. Edward was so drunk and upset over Lauren cheating on him that he kissed me, and I actually responded. He looked so hurt when I pulled away from him. I felt like the biggest bitch.

"Do you need help getting back to your house?" My voice came out as little more than a whisper, and I cleared my throat. I couldn't make myself turn to look at him.

"No, I'll be fine. Thanks for the ride, Bella, and I'm really sorry," he mumbled sadly. I closed my eyes and heard the door slam shut. I waited a moment before opening my eyes and watched him walk to his front porch. He slumped down on the porch swing there and cradled his head in his hands. I took a deep breath and got out of the truck. Edward looked up as I closed my door and he watched me walk to the house. I calmly closed the door behind me, and then ran up to my room. I went straight to my open curtains. Hesitantly, I pulled them shut for the first time in almost twelve years. I didn't need Edward to see me balled up on my bed crying my eyes out.

After twenty minutes of crying, I stood up and walked to my window. I held my breath and peaked out of my curtain to see Edward sitting at his desk wrapped in a blanket. His curtains and window were wide open. I saw him look down at his cell phone and press a few keys then flip it shut. He then looked back at his computer and shook his head. I grabbed my cell phone and did the only thing I felt like I could do in this kind of situation.

"Alice! Come over, please! I know you've been drinking, but I really could use you and Rose," I whined into my cell phone the instant Alice answered.

"Bella, I'm not with Rose. I'm with Jasper. Can this wait?" she asked in an irritated voice. I sighed and felt more tears well in my eyes.

"No, I don't think it can… please," I begged in a whisper. Alice gasped on the other side of the line, and I heard muffled voices and sighs.

"I'll be right over, sweetie. I'll drag Rose out of Emmett's room to come with me," Alice responded, and then quickly hung up. I fell back onto my bed and let the tears come again.

EPOV

I climbed out of her truck and stumbled my way to my porch. I felt sick but it had nothing to do with the alcohol pumping in my veins. I sat on the swing there and held my head in my hands. I could feel the tears stinging my eyes, and I tried to fight it, but they flowed of their own volition. I heard the door to her truck shut, and I looked up and watched her walk to her door. She never once turned toward me. I had ruined it all with my drunken stupidity. I let my head fall back into my hands and sat there for a few minutes before making my way inside and up to my room. I immediately looked over to Bella's room and my heart tore apart at the site of the closed curtains. Bella had never closed her curtains in almost twelve years. I felt a sob escape my lips and turned away from the window. I sat on my bed for a little while letting my tears burn my eyes while I choked them back.

Determination set in, and I pushed my window open. I knew she would see it eventually and I didn't care if I was up all night waiting for her to talk to me. I was desperate to fix this with her. I couldn't lose my best friend. I wrapped my blanket around my shoulders and settled into my desk chair. I dialed the first few numbers of her cell phone a few times but stopped myself before I could finish it. I watched my computer, waiting for her to message me.

After an hour of nothing, I started to panic. I looked back out to her window several times but the curtains stayed drawn. I walked to the window and looked out just in time to see Alice's blue Honda Civic pull up to Bella's house. Rosalie and Alice piled out and stumbled to the front door. I sighed and knew exactly what they were going in there to discover.

BPOV

Surprisingly, Rosalie wasn't angry at my interruption of her make out session with Emmett. I was still sobbing quietly when they burst into my room, falling over each other.

"What's the matter, Bella? Alice said it was important," Rose questioned me gently as she took in my appearance. I was still in my coat and boots, curled up on my bed. My hair was splayed out around me, and I knew my eyes were bloodshot and my face red.

"Edward kissed me. He was so drunk and upset over Lauren that he kissed me… and I kissed him back," I whispered brokenly as I started to cry again.

"Oh, sweetie… I don't even know what to say…" Alice said lying down next to me and wrapping her arms around me from behind. Rosalie climbed up on my other side and laid her back against me. I wrapped my arms around her and placed my head on her chest. She tightened her arms around mine.

"He's an ass. Don't let him do this to you," Rosalie seethed. I let my tears fall down my face as my two best girlfriends held onto me and comforted me. They didn't speak for a long while and let me cry until I had no tears left. They never judged me and only listened to my pain. After my sobbing had subsided and silent tears fell on my cheeks, Alice decided it was time to bring about a new mood.

"Do you remember when we first met?" Alice asked me softly. A smile broke out on my face.

"How could I forget? Amy Tate was trying to steal my Twinkies in first grade, and you came up behind her and pulled her hair and bit her hand," I giggled. Rose turned around to look at me with a smile on her face.

"I remember that. She always picked on me, too. I ran from the lunch line and squeezed in between the two of you so that you guys could protect me from her," she laughed. Alice smiled brilliantly, and we all sat up.

"Thanks, guys. You are always there when I need you the most." I sighed and rubbed my eyes. Alice hopped out of the bed and ran to my closet. She pulled out a tight black tank top and threw it at me. Then she picked up my new pajama pants that were on the floor in front of my bed from earlier in the day.

"Get dressed and get some sleep. We'll stay here tonight. I doubt Charlie will care," Alice stated as she rummaged through my drawers where I kept some of her and Rosalie's clothes for just the occasion.

"What's on the agenda for tomorrow?" I asked while yawning. Alice and Rosalie looked at each other and rolled their eyes at me.

"We're sleeping off massive hangovers!" Rose giggled. We all curled up on my bed again, and they quickly dosed off. I couldn't sleep so I slipped out from between them and walked to the window. I peeked out of the curtains to see Edward slumped over his computer with the blanket over his shoulders and his cell phone still in his hand. I sighed and grabbed my phone. I didn't need to call him; I just needed to text him to warn him about his window being open still.

Hey, you're going to get sick if you leave your window open all night.

I sent the message and stifled a giggle when Edward jerked awake and fell out of his computer chair. He looked down at the phone and turned to look out the window. I gave him a half smile and waved. Then he started pressing buttons on his phone and mine chimed in my hand.

We need to talk, Bella. I am really sorry about tonight; I never meant to make you mad.

I felt the lump form in my throat and dropped the curtain to cover my pain. Then I pressed reply on my phone and sent him another message.

Not tonight.

EPOV

After she dropped that curtain, I felt the tears well in my eyes. I got her message and threw my phone on my bed.

Not tonight.

I stomped to my adjoining bathroom and turned on the shower. I figured the hot water could help relax me. Why not tonight? Bella had never avoided me. I knew Rosalie and Alice were still over there, but that had never changed anything before. Hell, when we were younger, I used to sneak over and hang out with them all night. I stepped into the steaming hot water and let it run over me for a few minutes. The images that had been plaguing my head since Bella got on the dance floor with Alice and Rosalie at Emmett's party flooded my mind.

Bella grabbed my hand and pulled me onto the dance floor. She placed my hands low on her hips and wrapped her arms around my neck. She moved herself against me slowly, grinding her body against my groin. I felt my erection grow, and her eyes widened in pleasure. A mischievous grin flickered across her face, and she slid her hand down my chest and grabbed me through my khakis.

I groaned and let the images take me as the hot water pelted my body, and I sighed as I grabbed my dick in my hands. I stroked myself a couple times, and my orgasm took hold quickly. I pressed one hand against the cold tile wall and stroked myself quickly as I exploded. I was panting by the time I was done, and quickly cleaned myself off and climbed out of the shower. I was praying to God I wouldn't be pleasuring myself for the rest of high school. I went back in my room and noticed that the curtains in Bella's room were no longer completely closed but it was too dark for me to see anything in her room. I got dressed and crawled into bed and fell asleep knowing I would be nursing a horrible hangover in the morning.

BPOV

I groaned as the light shined onto my face from the open curtains and tried to roll away only to roll into Rosalie who swatted at me and pulled the blanket over her face. Alice was sprawled out on the floor snoring lightly. I smiled at the image of them both and decided I would let them sleep. It was only ten, and I knew the hangovers would be awful.

I tiptoed out of the room and into the bathroom to brush my teeth and wash my face. I pulled my hair back into a loose, messy ponytail and then headed down to the kitchen to start breakfast. I fried up some eggs and bacon along with pancakes and poured some coffee out for the girls. I set the table with aspirin next to each cup and ran to wake them both up.

"Hey, guys! It's time to get up! Come on, I made you both breakfast," I called as I pulled the blankets from them. They both groaned and rolled away from me. "Its bacon, eggs, and pancakes. I even set out aspirin for you guys," I coaxed. Alice perked up and climbed out of the bed where she must have crawled up after I went downstairs. Rosalie whined but rolled off the bed and threw her gorgeous blonde locks into a messy bun.

"Only because you said bacon," Rosalie mumbled as she sleepily stumbled down the stairs in front of me. I laughed at the smile that crossed her face when she entered the kitchen.

"This is my apology for interrupting you guys last night and also my thank you for coming to my rescue," I said as I slid into the chair across from Alice.

"You never have to apologize for needing us, Bells. I noticed that the curtains were partly open this morning. Does that mean you're forgiving him?" Alice questioned as she poised to take her aspirin.

"I don't know… I'm not complaining that he kissed me because, God, it was an incredible kiss. I just don't appreciate the circumstances. He was drunk and just found out his girlfriend had been sleeping around." I sighed, pushing my food around my plate. I suddenly didn't feel like eating anymore.

"Well, you need to talk to him. For all you know, he doesn't even remember what happened last night. This is not worth losing your friendship over," Alice reminded me.

"You know, Bella, it may not have had anything to do with the Lauren situation. Maybe he just realized what he had sitting right in front of him." Rosalie gestured matter-of-factly with her fork. I turned to gawk at her, and I knew that Alice was doing the same with a fork full of food halfway to her mouth.

"Why in the hell would you say that? In twelve years, he's never showed the slightest interest in my as anything more than 'one of the guys,' so what would have changed?" I questioned her. I was all for having hope, but not when it was pointless.

"Listen, I'm just guessing here. I'm trying to put this situation in a better light." Rosalie shrugged innocently. I narrowed my eyes at her and turned back to pushing my food around my plate.

"Don't try to make him into the good guy here, Rose. He did something stupid, and he needs to pay for it," Alice chided. The conversation quieted while we finished eating. I climbed onto the couch and got comfortable while Alice and Rosalie cleaned up the kitchen. I had put 'I Love You Man' in the DVD player and was just waiting for the girls to join me. Once we'd all sat down on the couch and were comfortable, a knock sounded on the door. I knew who it was and didn't want to answer it.

"I don't want to talk to him right now," I whispered. Alice glared at me and Rosalie pushed me off the couch.

"Just go and get it over with so we can watch the movie already," Rosalie complained. I gave her an evil glare before I pushed my lip out in a pout towards Alice.

"Oh no, I don't think so. This is your issue." She held her hands up to fend me off, and I spun away from them as the knock came again. I reached the door and braced myself with a deep breath.

"Bella," Edward breathed in relief as the door opened up. I looked up at him and nearly melted at the molten green of his eyes. I shook my head, looked away from his eyes to his mouth, and unconsciously licked my lips. His brow lifted, and he smirked at me. "Um… can we talk?"

"Right now isn't a good time; Alice and Rose are here, and we were about to watch a movie," I explained. I was proud of myself for staying so calm and cool.

"We've all seen it ten times; she's cool to talk," Rosalie called out, and I cursed her under my breath. Edward gestured to the bench on my porch, and I sighed. I reached out to grab a coat from the hooks and padded out into the cold December air in my pajamas and slippers.

"Listen, about last night… I… ugh… I feel horrible for pushing myself on you like that. I know that I pissed you off, and I'm sorry. I don't want to lose you as a friend because I got drunk and couldn't keep my hands to myself. I also wanted to tell you that… well… it wasn't Lauren I was upset about last night… it was… umm… well I was upset because… I…" Edward stammered adorably staring down at his hands as he twisted his coat hem in them.

"Just spit it out already," I laughed. He looked up at me and smiled tentatively.

"I don't know if I'm ready to really discuss it," he whispered as he looked back to his hands. I patted him on the shoulder.

"I'm here when you are ready. I'm not mad at you about last night. To be honest, I was upset that you chose me to try to rebound with." I half smiled as I looked away from him.

"Is that what you think happened? I would never do that to you, Bella!" he cried out angrily. I felt my cheeks flush, and he turned to face me. "Ugh… why does this have to be so damn hard?!"

"I'm so confused right now," I admitted as I stared at him. He shook his head violently and stood up.

"Come on, let me in so I can be one of the girls," Edward joked, and just like that, he was the same old Edward. I stared at him in confusion for a moment before walking back to the door. "By the way, I love that outfit," he cooed at me. I smacked his shoulder, and we walked back into the living room. I took my place on the couch, and he plopped down into the chair after removing his coat. He slipped off his shoes and placed his feet on the coffee table. "Where's the popcorn?" Edward laughed at himself.

EPOV

"Bella," I couldn't stop her name from falling from my lips as I looked down at her. I watched her carefully for a moment and noticed her look down and lick her lips. I unconsciously cocked my eyebrow and a smirk broke out on my lips. "Um… can we talk?" I quickly collected myself.

"Right now isn't a good time; Alice and Rose are here, and we were about to watch a movie," she said, keeping her eyes anywhere but on me. She still seemed angry.

"We've all seen it ten times, she's cool to talk," I heard Rosalie call out from the living room. I silently thanked her as I gestured to the bench that sat on Bella's front porch. Bella stepped back into the house, and I thought she was going to ignore me, but she was just grabbing a coat. I watched as she stepped out in a black zip up hoodie, covering her tight black tank top. She was wearing those adorable pajamas from yesterday, and on her feet were pink fuzzy slippers.

"Listen, about last night… I… ugh… I feel horrible for pushing myself on you like that. I know that I pissed you off, and I'm sorry. I don't want to lose you as a friend because I got drunk and couldn't keep my hands to myself," I began confidently. I decided right then that I needed to tell her how I felt. "I also wanted to tell you that… well… it wasn't Lauren I was upset about last night… it was… umm… well I was upset because… I…" I stammered nervously not knowing how to explain what was on my mind.

"Just spit it out already," she laughed at me. The laugh hurt ,but I looked up and tried to smile at her anyway.

"I don't know if I'm ready to really discuss it," I whispered as I looked back to my hands where I realized I had myself twisting the hem of my coat, and immediately dropped it. She patted me on the back and warm electricity burned my skin.

"I'm here when you are ready. I'm not mad at you about last night. To be honest, I was upset that you chose me to try to rebound with." She turned away from me as she said this. I felt my hands ball into fists and my face flush with anger.

"Is that what you think happened? I would never do that to you, Bella!" I cried out. I spun myself to face her, and I saw her cheeks flush. I instantly felt horrible for blowing up on her. "Ugh… why does this have to be so damn hard?!" I cried out again.

"I'm so confused right now," she replied softly. I felt her looking at me, but I couldn't seem to look away from my hands. I needed to make a decision about this. I could either tell her how I felt and risk losing her, or keep her as a friend and suffer in silence. I shook my head violently and decided I would rather keep her.

"Come on, let me in so I can be one of the girls," I joked with her. She looked at me with a strange expression but led me into the house. "By the way, I love that outfit." I smiled and she smacked me on the shoulder. She sat between Alice and Rosalie on the couch. I pulled off my coat and took a seat in the recliner then kicked off my shoes and put my feet on the coffee table. "Where's the popcorn?" I laughed to myself.

"Make your own. I'm starting the damn movie now." Bella threw a pillow at me and pressed the play button. I got up and walked into the kitchen to make us all popcorn. While I was rummaging through the cabinets, I heard someone come in behind me.

"Listen, Edward, we've known each other a long time. Bell is one of my best friends, and if she ever calls me that upset again over something you did to her, I will walk over to your house and kick your ass," Rosalie hissed when I turned to face her. I swallowed heavily and tried to compose myself.

"I never meant to upset her. I know you guys care about her. Trust me when I say that I care about her, too. I don't really feel comfortable talking to you about this, though," I whispered back. Rosalie cocked her head to the side and gave me a confident grin.

"You don't have to talk to me about it. Emmett has a big mouth when he's drunk. I won't tell Bella, but I will not let you do this shit to her anymore," she stated, and I felt my mouth drop open. I was going to kill Emmett when I got my hands on him.

"Please, Rose… She doesn't like me that way… She's my best friend and the only person I really feel close to. I can't lose her," I whined. Rosalie smiled and shook her head. She grabbed the box of popcorn from a cabinet along with two bowls. She pushed them across the counter towards me.

"She prefers Dr. Pepper, but Alice and I will have Cokes," she said before turning around to walk back to the living room. I groaned softly and let my head fall into my hands.

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