A/N: So every chapter I am hoping to switch points of view between Carlisle and Jasper. Also this will not be one of those stories where they get over the person they have been with for 80 plus years and fall in love in a week or two. It will be a developing relationship. Don't worry there will still be plenty of drama and C/J interaction.

Also I want the chapters to be longer, so I will probably only update about once a week so that I can get some good content and length in them. Everyone likes long chapters right!?

Well as always I own nada, I just make them dance, dance monkey dance! Good monkey! No don't spank the monkey, yet, bad monkey!

JPOV

"Jasper stop taunting the poor thing and just eat it already!" Alice called from the out cropping of rocks she had situated herself on. She giggle as the bear I was playing with swiped at me and caught my shirt. Damn I actually liked that one!

"Thanks for distracting me! I liked that shirt!" Getting bored and agitated with the game I jumped on the bears back and sank my teeth into the thick hide and into the vein to procure its warm life source. Humming in pleasure as the warm liquid hit the back of my throat I drank greedily.

"Damn, husband of mine, if you weren't gay I would be all over you. That's sexy as hell!" Alice's voice cut through my blood induced haze. Yes I know our relationship is all kinds of fucked up but I love the little troll. What kind of women stays married to a guy, even if its all for show, know that he is gay and not attracted to you. She truly is one of a kind.

I owe Alice so much. Not just for finding me and showing me a different way to survive that didn't involve killing innocents. But for accepting me and helping me to accept myself. I wasn't always so open about my orientation.

"Well wifey I am just that good, I can make decapitation sexy!" She snorted and started to say something when her eyes glazed over and I knew she was having a vision. After a few minutes she snapped out of it.

"Well?" She got a distressed look on her face before jumping down from the rock she was sitting on.

"It happened. We need to go back to the house. Its going to be a rough couple of days." I knew what she was referring to immediately. Esme had finally snapped and so starting the chain of events that would hopefully lead me to my soul mates arms.

"Jasper, I know that you know this, but you have to try to keep your enthusiasm to a minimum, remember he is mourning the loss of the person he thought was his soul mate."

"I know this Alice. I am just going to be there and support him and let things run their course like you have been pounding into my head for decades."

"Good boy, now lets go support daddy dearest!" I groaned she knows I hate it when she calls him that, he so aint my daddy!

"Alice, I have never seen him as daddy, and that thought is just all kinds of disturbing." She winked at me and grabbed my hand as we took off towards the house.

As we approached I reached out to feel the emotions inside. This was not going to be pleasant at all. I could feel mass amounts of anger, defensiveness, resolve, and disbelief. What surprised me the most was that none of these emotions were coming from Carlisle, from him I was getting nothing. He wasn't doing anything to block me it was just like he didn't have any emotions, he was just numb, and that was very disconcerting.

I shot a look at Alice as we made our way into the house. The chaos that was before us was surreal. Couches were overturned, the glass coffee table had been shattered, and the throw rug was shredded. Rose had Esme by the throat against the far glass wall. Emmett was trying to pry them apart with out causing damage to either one, and Carlisle was in his office in his numbed state completely unaware of the turmoil in the house. Doesn't look like he will be down to stop the madness like he normally would. Guess this is on me. I pushed out as much calm as I could muster in my current state. With the false calm floating around Rose started to loosen her hold on Esme allowing Emmett to pry them apart all the way with out causing any harm.

"What the hell is going on here!" I bellowed out feigning ignorance.

"Ask the tramp!" Rose screeched making to lunge for Esme again but being held firmly in place by Emmett. I sent out another wave of calm and got a grateful look from Esme that I wanted to bitch slap off her face! If she was looking for an ally in this she was barking up the wrong tree. Turning to Esme I asked the question I already knew the answer too.

"Esme, what is the meaning of all this?" I was gritting my teeth trying to keep my own anger in check. Yes I was happy that she was going to finally be out of the picture but was pissed that it had to break Carlisle in the process. But Alice assured me that he would come out of this stronger and more full of life. I had to trust her once again.

"Well, Jasper, I have decided to leave the family. I feel like I am missing something and need to find it on my own." While I couldn't fault her for that I knew there was so much more to the story. About this time Edward and Bella decided to show up for the day.

"What the hell." Edward looked like he was going to spontaneously combust trying to catch up on all the thoughts running through everyone's minds. For this reason I made sure to keep mine in check. After a few minutes his face snapped to Esme.

Oh shit, here it comes!

"Esme, how could you!! Its one thing to leave to find yourself but to cheat!!" Edward was all but screaming in her face at this point. Apparently not all of us were as good at hiding our thoughts while under pressure. Suddenly in a woosh of air Carlisle was in the room.

"You WHAT!" He look like a man possessed. It was one thing for her to want to go out and find passion and romance but to hear that she had already started the process while still with him I guess was entirely another.

Esme looked down at least having the decency to look ashamed even if she wasn't feeling it.

"I'm sorry, it just happened."

"It just happened, IT JUST HAPPENED. Bad hair cuts just happen, buying an ugly sweater just happens, getting the wrong kind of shampoo just happens! Cheating on your husband DOES NOT JUST HAPPEN. " The look on his face was devastating. Rose was growling and to my surprise Edward was as well. He was about as much of a pacifist as Carlisle. But then again, his father, mentor, and creator, was hurting immensely. Bella and Emmett were just watching the scene unfold wide eyed.

"I don't really feel like I need to defend my actions. I'm not ashamed of what I did. I was finally doing something for me." Suddenly a fire shot into Carlisle's eyes and he exploded!

"DOING SOMETHING FOR YOU!! ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!! EVERYTHING YOU HAVE EVER DONE HAS BEEN FOR YOU! EVERY PLACE WE HAVE EVER MOVED, EVERY CONVERSATION, EVERY FUCK, ALL OF IT WAS ABOUT YOU!! ALL ON YOUR TIME LINE, NEVER WHEN I WANTED OR NEEDED IT!" I don't even think he realized that he had punched a hole in the wall in his rage. Is it weird that the rant had me slightly turned on? Edward shot me a look and I realized I had lost control of my thoughts for a moment. Shit!

Edward please, don't say anything lets deal with this first then I will explain things.
My thoughts were pleading. He nodded and turned his attention back to the train wreck before us.

Esme was now screaming back at him with fury.

"MAYBE IF YOU CARED HALF AS MUCH ABOUT ME AS YOU DO YOUR PATIENTS DOCTOR," she sneered out the word doctor like it was the vilest word in the English language. "I MIGHT NOTHAVE FELT SO NEGLECTED AND SOUGHT THE ARMS OF A MORE ATTENTIVE LOVER!" She sneered at him. This caused everyone in the room to growl, even Bella though it wasn't quite as impressive as a vampire growl but it's the thought that counts right? She wasn't just betraying Carlisle, although he was the one that would feel its effects the most, they were all losing something.

In that instant the fight went out of Carlisle, and he fell to his knees, and my hate and rage for Esme grew. How dare she blame him for HER infidelity! Carlisle just knelt there with his head hanging in shame. I was about to explode at her when Edward of all people beat me to it.

"HOW DARE YOU BLAME HIM FOR YOU POOR MORAL CHOICES!" He paused for a minute and continued more calmly. "If you were unhappy you should have talked to him, try and work stuff out, not run to the closet dick you could find to bounce on!" My jaw must have hit the floor with the surprise at hearing those words come out of Mr. Prim and Proper. He even beat Carlisle in the prude area most of the time. Bella really has loosened him up.

"She like's dirty talk." He answered my inner musings then winked at me. That is just creepy. But it gave me hope that he would except the future Alice had envisioned now that he wasn't being such a stick up the ass. The rest of the family was confused at this exchange we just shook it off getting back on task.

"Look this is my decision and I am leaving. I am sorry I hurt you all but this isn't what I want and haven't wanted in a long while." Rose snorted and looked at her.

"You should have left then instead of pretending to care. Now get the HELL out!" She roared.

With one last look around Esme grabbed her suitcases and flew out the door without a second glance. Alice, Rose, and Bella were all around Carlisle holding onto him while he just stared into space. How I wish it could be me holding him. SHIT! I did it again. I looked over at Edward and he just mouthed the word 'later' at me. I nodded in affirmation.

Emmett, Edward, and I just watched as the girls tried to talk Carlisle out of his trance with little to no luck. He was feeling the numbness again and it was killing me. I walked over to them and bent down to his level looking into his lifeless golden orbs.

"Carlisle," I tried to get a response, "I know this hurts but don't cut yourself off right now. Let us help you, please." I pleaded needing some sort of response from him. He blinked at me a few times and the anguish I saw I saw there made me almost prefer the empty look. He fell into my arms and started shaking with sobs. The rest of the family joined us on the floor. Alice next to me as I held Carlisle. Rose and Emmett sitting in front of us clinging on to each other, and Edward and Bella on the other side of Carlisle, Bella in Edwards lap. No one really knew what to say or do at this point but just being here for support was enough. There would be time for word's and anger later, time for us all to learn new love, and time for all of us to open up and redefine our out look on life and passion. But for now we mourned. The loss of lover, a mother, a friend, and what we thought was a member of this family.

After several hours on the floor Bella announced that she needed a human moment causing us all to chuckle, except Carlisle, who was still locked in his own mind. I decided to move him to his one of the guest rooms. I didn't think that he would appreciate being in the room he shared with the harpy and the living room was destroyed so moving him to a couch was out. I didn't like leaving him in this state but I knew that we all needed to talk.

I went down to join the rest of the family in the living room where we started to try and clean up the mess. Bella was in the kitchen getting some food while the rest of us just wondered around picking stuff up. Suddenly Rose stopped what she was doing and I could feel waves of anger and rejection coming off her. I looked over to where she was and saw her holding a framed photo in her hands. Peeking over her shoulder I saw it was a family portrait that we had taken the day after Edward said he would change Bella. The day we all, except Alice and I, thought our family had finally been completed. I placed my hand on her shoulder to try and calm her when the picture suddenly disappeared from her hands and was followed by the sound of breaking glass. She had thrown it out the window.

Esme and Rose had been close. Rose had considered her a mother for almost 60 years and with her past the fear of rejection and abandonment was going to make this particularly hard on her. Once her anger dissipated I assumed depression would soon follow.

"I don't want any reminder of her in this house any more!" She seethed. I just squeezed her shoulder in understanding.

"Does anyone know how long this has been going on?" Emmett inquired picking up shards of glass. Bella appeared at the door to the living room not wanting to enter and get cut with the glass that was everywhere but wanting to be apart of the conversation. Edward went over and lifted her in his arms and we all sat on the floor again, Bella in Edwards lap to avoid ass splinters. Edward quirked an eyebrow at me.

"Ass splinter's, really?" He asked as he kissed Bella on the cheek.

"What? What else would you call it, slivers of glass that could embed in her ass, ass splinters." Wasn't that obvious?

"Is that a technical term?" He asked me.

I flipped him the bird and laughed a bit.

"Ok well now that we know what would happen to my ass if I didn't have a lap to sit in can we please get back on point. Not all of us here have buns of steel ya know." We laughed at that.

After a few minutes of light banter to ease the tension I sighed knowing the time had come for Alice and I to let them know what we have known for decades. This could end badly.