Third chapter/song in this story, and this song's called "Life Goes On" by LeAnn Rimes, how I love her voice!!! ENJOY!!!
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Life goes on, life goes on, life goes on...
The next day, Calleigh went over to Adam's parent's house because she knew that his family was out of town as well. She kept going over the conversation that she would have with Adam, telling him that he needed to stop being such a controlling jerk and actually be nice to her when they were around other people.
Lately he had been ignoring her in public, acting like they weren't going out at all, and she was going to ask him to stop it, or their relationship would be over.
You sucked me in and played my mind
Just like a toy you would crank and wind
Baby, I would give 'til you wore it out
You left me lying in a pool of doubt
If you're still thinkin you're the daddy mac
You should've known better but you didn't and I can't go back
She found his door open and cautiously walked in, looking around for him. She heard him talking in his bedroom, and she followed the sound of his voice. She then heard another woman's voice, and it sounded like Kathryn from her homeroom. She called,
"Adam?" She heard him swear, and then he stumbled out of his room, looking around for her.
"Um, Cal, hey,"
"Hey Adam. Who's your visitor?"
"Um, no one, really,"
"I'm not dumb, Adam,"
"Could've fooled me," He muttered, and Calleigh saw red.
"You know what Adam? This is the last straw."
"Um, okay," He said slowly, not understanding what she was getting at.
"We're through. If you still think you're the numero uno man in my life, you are oh so wrong. Goodbye, Adam," Calleigh said, turning on her heel was striding out.
Oooh, life goes on, and it's only gonna make me strong
It's a fact, once you get on board say goodbye 'cause you can't go back
Oooh, it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I'm at, is my life before me, got this feeling that I can't go back
Life goes on, life goes on, life goes on...
Calleigh kept walking, tears blurring her vision as she considered her life going on as a free woman. The idea actually appealed to her; although Adam's betrayal was hurting her worse than what she wanted to admit. She knew that she couldn't go back, that she had to move.
Somehow she knew that her life would go on, but that fact didn't help the knife that Adam seemed to have plunged into her heart, and it twisted every time she thought about all the times they shared together, knowing that every word, every touch was a complete lie.
That was what really and truly hurt.
Wish I knew then what I know now
You held all the cards and sold me out
Baby, shame on you if you fooled me once,
Shame on me if you fooled me twice
You've been a pretty hard case to crack
I should've known better but I didn't and I can't go back
She kept walking, not knowing where she was going and not really caring, which was the sad part about it. She kept thinking about how Adam had held all of the cards, had been the one to roll the dice, and he had just wanted someone to be there for him in case he ever lost or fell, and that's what she had been. He never wanted a serious relationship; he just wanted someone to fall back onto.
With a disgusted groan she realized that she had been like a retirement fund to Adam, just someone to fall back on just in case. She ran to a tree and punched it a couple of times, and then kicked it, pretending that it was Adam's heart. She was trying to make him hurt just as much as he had hurt her.
The bad part was, was that she should've known better, her family was smarter than that. She should've known better, but she didn't. And now she can't go back.
Oooh, life goes on, and it's only gonna make me strong
It's a fact, once you get on board say goodbye 'cause you can't go back
Oooh, it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I'm at, is my life before me, got this feeling that I can't go back
As she ran through the woods once again to her solitude, to her place, her clearing, she kept thinking about how she had gotten on board the heartbreak express and had gone full speed ahead, which was a terrible mistake, as she now knew. She had said goodbye to her common sense at the dock and knew that she couldn't go back.
At the time she hadn't wanted to go back, but now she wished that she could go back, even though she knew that she couldn't possibly go back. Not now, not ever.
Na na na na na life goes on, na na na na na made me strong
Got a feeling and I can't go back
Life goes on (and it's only gonna make me strong)
Life goes on and on and on
As Calleigh collapsed in the middle of her clearing again, she knew that the whole experience had made her strong, but she really didn't care about that fact now. All she wanted to do was lick her wounds in peace, trying to yank Adam's knife out of her heart and get it to stop twisting. A dreaded feeling rose up in her, knowing that she couldn't go back.
Her life would go on, she knew, but would she just be a side-liner, or would she be a participant? Would she just be a shell of herself as her life went on, or would she live her life to the fullest, trying to get past Adam, her first, no, second love besides her family?
Shame on you if you fooled me once,
Shame on me if you fooled me twice
You've been a pretty hard case to crack
I should've known better but I didn't and I can't go back
As she lay there in her despair, something just snapped inside her. Anger coursed through her veins, and she jumped to her feet, yelling at the sky,
"Shame on you, Adam, for fooling me once!" Then she whispered to herself,
"Shame on me, for letting Adam fool me twice."
She sank back down, her anger still filling her, chasing away the despair and heartbreak, knowing for the umpteenth time that she should've known better, but she didn't, and now she can't go back.
Oooh, life goes on, and it's only gonna make me strong
It's a fact, once you get on board say goodbye 'cause you can't go back
Oooh, it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I'm at, is my life before me, got this feeling that I can't go back
After a while, Calleigh finally stood up and brushed the grass and leaves off of her clothes. She walked back to her house and went into her bedroom, changing into some running clothes. If she couldn't get rid of Adam's memories just by will, then she was going to force them out of her by exercising until she couldn't think straight, and she was going to do that by running.
As she fast-walked out to the track where she always runs to warm up, her mind was still full of Adam's betrayal. As she began to run faster and faster, she vowed to herself that she was never, ever going to speak of him again.
She was going to let her life go on. Without Adam.
Na na na na na life goes on, na na na na na made me strong
Whoa, yeah
Got a feeling and I can't go back…
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I hope you liked this chapter/song, as I love LeAnn Rimes, there'll be some more of her songs later, as I love her voice! I love Shania Twain's voice too, there's be more of her songs too. Thanks for reading, more to come and adios for now!!! (LUV YA BETH!!!)