Big time Sorry
Well lets see no one besides me and the guys knew that Kendall and I we dating and I knew if I wanted all my friends to be cool with it i would have to tell them the truth. About me and Kendall. So I decided that when I went go work that day I would tell the cast of ICarly that me and Kendall were together. So When I went to work the guys came to see me film but when I looked at the script I remembered it was a love episode between Freddie and Ashley. I was freaking out and I didn't want to tell the guys about the episode cause me and Nathan had to kiss like eight times in just a few minutes and I was really scared so before we shot the scene I went up to Kendall and played a trick on him since the day we met we would say that the other would have a smudge on there shirt and we would smack each others nose and I decided instead of smacking his nose I would kiss him. So when we were about to film I went up to him and told him that he had a smudge on his shirt and looked and I kissed him. We were there for like eight seconds and he looked at me and whispered that He didn't have a smudge just a kiss from my favorite girl. When he said that I did nothing but blush. I told him whatever happens in this episode is just my character nothing personal. I went up to Nathan and asked me if I was dating Kendall and I said yes. He was shocked I would date a older man. And I told him its my life I want to be with him. He asked me if I told them about the episode and I said I told Kendall that its nothing personal just acting! So when the director came i saw Kendall pick up my script and I was freaking out cause it said ISay I love you. He looked at me and looked upset. So I ran over and asked him if everything was ok. He told me he wasn't comfortable for me to kiss a different guy. I told him I have no feeling for Nathan. He was still upset. So when the kissing parts came up I would see him look away. I felt so wrong but it was job, luckily I was leaving by the next few episodes. I felt like crap after the episode and I went to go to Kendall but he didn't look at me. I asked him if he was mad at said no but it felt like I was cheating on him. But I told him that I wasn't though. Then end of the episode I break up with Freddie. And it was true. After I told him that I was done being Freddies girlfriend on the show everthing went back to the way things were I felt like was was Love Struck with Kendall. He was everything I wanted from a guy. I knew when I left some one was upset but I didn't know who. Who could be happy for Jessdall. Jenette was upset I was with Kendall. But I didn't care. I knew I wouldn't be seeing her for a long time after I would be done with the show. But I was excited for the photo shoot with the guys to get them ready for the acting world. James was the only one besides me who didn't need to get pictures done cause we already had a portfolios but we need new pictures casue mine were a year old and his was like 2 yrs and we look so much different from our pictures since then.