Words You Don't Mean

by Lillyflower01

"I love you." Even though those were he words he'd been longing to hear, they broke his heart more than anything else he'd ever heard. You shouldn't say things you don't mean. Dan Howell has been in love with his best friend, Phil Lester, for as long as he can remember. But of course the latter doesn't feel the same. However a fake relationship hurts more than rejection.

3. Chapter 3

CHAPTER THREE

"Damn, all you guys wanna talk about is boys," Dan chuckled at the liveshow's stream. "Fine. Umm...Maya wants to know if there are any boys I like at the moment. Erm-Maybe." the brunette smirked at the computer screen.

He was immediately greeted by his fans begging him to tell them everything.

'Who do you like?'

'Is it Phil?!‽'

'Awe, Dan, don't tease us like that.'

'I bet he loves Phil.'

'Dan please tell us.'

'1S phAN rEAl?!1!1‽ /1?'

Dan chuckled, running a hand through his hair.

"Okay, sense you guys asked so nicely, I'll tell you who," Dan sighed in mock defeat. "Oh, now you're guessing. who do you think I like? Most of you say Phil, no surprise there. Someone says Tyler Oakley." Dan couldn't help but laugh. "Where did that come from? Okay, being completely honest, I would let him bang me. But that's not who I like."

Dan chewed on his lower lip, suddenly nervous. Was he sure he wanted to tell the internet?

He sighed as he noticed the thread. Everyone was begging him to tell them who it was.

"Alright, fine, I'll tell you..." Dan trailed off awkwardly. He took a deep breath. "Most of you guessed it, yes, it's Phil."

The chat immediately exploded.

'I knew it!'

'YESYESYEESYESYESYES!1!1!11!'

'ADIHSDUIUIGUGJSDGFUISFGHSJGSHGFUISBGOJJHGS'

'AWWWWWWAWAWWWWW'

'So is phan real‽'

'PHANPHANPHANPHANPHAN!'

'PhAN 1s rEAl!1!1!'

Dan chuckled, running a hand through his hair.

"No, phan's not real," Dan informed. "Sorry to disappoint. Phil doesn't feel the same. But he knows how I feel and he's been really sweet about it."

'Awwwwww.'

'wHY n0T?!‽?‽'

'Philly why'

'Philly why don't you love Dan?'

'NO0oo0oOOOoo0oO!11!1! Danyul, my heart is broken.'

Dan shook his head in humor. "Sorry, guys. Umm...what else is there to talk about? Oh, PJ wants to know where Phil is. I think he's in the living room. Do you guys want him to join the liveshow? Yeah? Okay. Phiiiilllllll!"

He waited for a moment, a smile flickering over his face as he heard Phil wandering towards his room.

"Yeah?" Phil said as he walked through the doorway, stopping next to Dan.

"Our fans missed you," Dan smiled up at the older male.

Phil giggled. "Oh yeah?" He raised his hand to wave to the camera. "Hi guys!"

"We were just talking about you," Dan informed.

"Nothing too bad, I hope."

'Dan was just telling us how much he loves you.'

'Phil why don't you love Dan back?!1?‽?!1?'

Phil sent Dan a questioning expression.

"You told them that?" he wondered.

Dan shrugged, his eyes awkwardly fixed on his shoes. Phil chuckled.

"Alright. Well, that's fine," Phil responded, quietly. "It's your secret to tell."