Aurora:Its school again...sigh... okay...this chapters not much funny... quite sappy really.. yeah so get ready for some major mush
If Only I wasn't Meant For You
Chapter 3
Ayanami
Rukawa calmly put his sports bag down and picked up a basketball.
Everybody was still looking at him, in an awkward way.
He kept tossing the ball from one hand to the other.
The whole court was silent, only the tossing could be heard, even the red headed boy shut up.
I watched his every move in fascination.
He raised an eyebrow and said," Why Y'all staring at me like that? Get your asses back to practicing."
His actions were smooth and suave, his voice demanding and cool.
Suddenly, everything came into place.
His face, his voice and character.
Everything fit together like a jigsaw.
He was a perfectly normal, fine young man.
And everybody listened to him. They had a whole lot of respect for him.
He turned to me and cleared his throat.
"I think you should leave, Ayanami-san." he said, coldly. " I really...think you should."
Rukawa
I wanted to take it back. She looked so broken when I said that.
But I just didn't feel like saying anything to her, I didn't even want to look at her.
I did not want to have anything to do with her anymore.
Its like part of me wanted to shove her into a closet and lock her up in there with all the other bad memories I've had.
The other part wanted to say ' I'm sorry. Don't go. I'm lonely. I'm lost. I'm sad. I'm worried. I'm scared. Don't go...'
I've been alone for so long, maybe far too long.
I wanted to tell her that everynight I have the same dream.
The night when my Dad walked out of the house.
He just walked out like there was nothing.
Mom didn't even stop him. She didn't even know.
She didn't see what happened.
I did. I saw... everything... ...
Ayanami
Oh my gawd!
He passed out. He just passed out on the floor like that.
"Captain! Captain!" Everybody was shouting.
I needed to get my Dad. I went to the payphone and called him up.
"Daddy... a boy... he passed out..."
And I have a feeling I know why.
Its because of me.
Rukawa
Arghh...my head hurts and I feel so dizzy...
I opened my eyes but everything seems so blur.
Then a voice said," Hey now sonny, don't go around pushing yourself too hard now."
"Dad?"
The man chuckled, "Haha...No, but we're trying to contact your parents now. Not to worry, you're just being stressed out alittle too much. Gotta relax alittle."
I blinked a couple of times and my vision was cleared.
I was in bed. But not in my bed. It was a white quilt and there was a stuffed bear at the side. There were sunflowers on the bed-side table and the room had a strawberry cream smell.
It looked like heaven.
The man before had a warm laugh and a hearty smile.
"Haha... yes... its not your room... do you want to call your parents? You're welcomed to use the phone." the man gave a happy laugh again, putting the cordless phone on my lap.
"Are you God?" I asked.
"No... I'm not ...I'm not Santa either so let's not wait till Christmas till you make the call."
I came back to earth again and reached for the phone.
Then I thought for a while.
Who the hell am I going to call?
My mom's in Korea for some kind of business trip and well... that's all.
I started to dial my home number.
"Hello?" my sister answered the phone.
"Hey, its me."
"OH... its late. Where are you?"she asked.
"umm..." I didn't know myself.
"Are you being held hostage? Cause I don't have any money and mom's away."
"Gee... where'd you get that idea?"
"From you. You're always telling me that one day you're gonna get kidnapped for being such a good basketball player and then I'd have to pay the ransom for you but I don't have any money so I guess some other day then."she said.
"Okay kid, I'll be back soon. Tell you bout' it when I get home."
She's soooo weird sometimes.
Mom says she's a duplicate of me.
But I can't possibly be that strange, now can I?
"What EVA..."and she hung up.
I'll bet she's rolling her eyes now.
Don't ask me how I know, I just do.
She's a freak.
Ayanami
I watched him from outside my room.
Dad had left for the hospital.
Rukawa was on my bed and he was asleep.
Dad said he was just really stressed out. It must have been really tough for him, to be captain and all that.
Not to mention now that I'm here and making him mad.
I stepped into the room and tried to be a silent as I could.
I kneeled down beside the bed.
And I cried.
and cried.
Rukawa
When I opened my eyes again, I found Ayanami's head resting by the side of the bed.
She looked so tired.
Her hair was in a bit of a mess and she was still in her school uniform.
And oh gawd... I wanted to kiss her.
But I didn't have the guts to.
I got out of bed without waking her up and picked up my school bag, which was lying on the floor.
I took one last look at her and thought maybe I should write a note to her and thank her.
So I did and slipped it on her desk.
Ayanami
When I woke up, Rukawa had already left.
I felt disappointed. I didn't know why.
Maybe he was just the first person I've actually made friends with for the whole time I was in Kanagawa.
I didn't have a single friend and I guess I was really lonely.
But my heartached when he left without telling me and the fact that he didn't wake me up made me feel that he didn't want to have anything to do with me. It reminded me of him telling me to leave that day.
He must have really hated me.
And I really really liked him. I liked the way he talked, the way he smiled. I liked it when he was quiet and when he seemed so mysterious.
That made it worse.
A whole lot worse.
If Only I wasn't Meant For You
Chapter 3
Ayanami
Rukawa calmly put his sports bag down and picked up a basketball.
Everybody was still looking at him, in an awkward way.
He kept tossing the ball from one hand to the other.
The whole court was silent, only the tossing could be heard, even the red headed boy shut up.
I watched his every move in fascination.
He raised an eyebrow and said," Why Y'all staring at me like that? Get your asses back to practicing."
His actions were smooth and suave, his voice demanding and cool.
Suddenly, everything came into place.
His face, his voice and character.
Everything fit together like a jigsaw.
He was a perfectly normal, fine young man.
And everybody listened to him. They had a whole lot of respect for him.
He turned to me and cleared his throat.
"I think you should leave, Ayanami-san." he said, coldly. " I really...think you should."
Rukawa
I wanted to take it back. She looked so broken when I said that.
But I just didn't feel like saying anything to her, I didn't even want to look at her.
I did not want to have anything to do with her anymore.
Its like part of me wanted to shove her into a closet and lock her up in there with all the other bad memories I've had.
The other part wanted to say ' I'm sorry. Don't go. I'm lonely. I'm lost. I'm sad. I'm worried. I'm scared. Don't go...'
I've been alone for so long, maybe far too long.
I wanted to tell her that everynight I have the same dream.
The night when my Dad walked out of the house.
He just walked out like there was nothing.
Mom didn't even stop him. She didn't even know.
She didn't see what happened.
I did. I saw... everything... ...
Ayanami
Oh my gawd!
He passed out. He just passed out on the floor like that.
"Captain! Captain!" Everybody was shouting.
I needed to get my Dad. I went to the payphone and called him up.
"Daddy... a boy... he passed out..."
And I have a feeling I know why.
Its because of me.
Rukawa
Arghh...my head hurts and I feel so dizzy...
I opened my eyes but everything seems so blur.
Then a voice said," Hey now sonny, don't go around pushing yourself too hard now."
"Dad?"
The man chuckled, "Haha...No, but we're trying to contact your parents now. Not to worry, you're just being stressed out alittle too much. Gotta relax alittle."
I blinked a couple of times and my vision was cleared.
I was in bed. But not in my bed. It was a white quilt and there was a stuffed bear at the side. There were sunflowers on the bed-side table and the room had a strawberry cream smell.
It looked like heaven.
The man before had a warm laugh and a hearty smile.
"Haha... yes... its not your room... do you want to call your parents? You're welcomed to use the phone." the man gave a happy laugh again, putting the cordless phone on my lap.
"Are you God?" I asked.
"No... I'm not ...I'm not Santa either so let's not wait till Christmas till you make the call."
I came back to earth again and reached for the phone.
Then I thought for a while.
Who the hell am I going to call?
My mom's in Korea for some kind of business trip and well... that's all.
I started to dial my home number.
"Hello?" my sister answered the phone.
"Hey, its me."
"OH... its late. Where are you?"she asked.
"umm..." I didn't know myself.
"Are you being held hostage? Cause I don't have any money and mom's away."
"Gee... where'd you get that idea?"
"From you. You're always telling me that one day you're gonna get kidnapped for being such a good basketball player and then I'd have to pay the ransom for you but I don't have any money so I guess some other day then."she said.
"Okay kid, I'll be back soon. Tell you bout' it when I get home."
She's soooo weird sometimes.
Mom says she's a duplicate of me.
But I can't possibly be that strange, now can I?
"What EVA..."and she hung up.
I'll bet she's rolling her eyes now.
Don't ask me how I know, I just do.
She's a freak.
Ayanami
I watched him from outside my room.
Dad had left for the hospital.
Rukawa was on my bed and he was asleep.
Dad said he was just really stressed out. It must have been really tough for him, to be captain and all that.
Not to mention now that I'm here and making him mad.
I stepped into the room and tried to be a silent as I could.
I kneeled down beside the bed.
And I cried.
and cried.
Rukawa
When I opened my eyes again, I found Ayanami's head resting by the side of the bed.
She looked so tired.
Her hair was in a bit of a mess and she was still in her school uniform.
And oh gawd... I wanted to kiss her.
But I didn't have the guts to.
I got out of bed without waking her up and picked up my school bag, which was lying on the floor.
I took one last look at her and thought maybe I should write a note to her and thank her.
So I did and slipped it on her desk.
Ayanami
When I woke up, Rukawa had already left.
I felt disappointed. I didn't know why.
Maybe he was just the first person I've actually made friends with for the whole time I was in Kanagawa.
I didn't have a single friend and I guess I was really lonely.
But my heartached when he left without telling me and the fact that he didn't wake me up made me feel that he didn't want to have anything to do with me. It reminded me of him telling me to leave that day.
He must have really hated me.
And I really really liked him. I liked the way he talked, the way he smiled. I liked it when he was quiet and when he seemed so mysterious.
That made it worse.
A whole lot worse.