What's Meant To Be Will Be.

Chapter 3

LaLuneGirl

I had a dream last night….It's a dream I've had before. I hate this dream. I'm engaged to Mamoru and am at their house for the engagement party. As I'm coming down the stairs…totally decked out in bling…and there at the bottom is Akio.

As you don't know who Akio is I'll tell you. He's a guy I knew in 6th and 7th grade….Then after I moved away I forgot about him until I moved back to the area and ended up in 11th grade with him again. We kind of had a thing for each other both times. We could literally sit in a classroom and stare into each other's eyes without realizing the time had passed. The problem was that he ran with a crowd in which the leader was a boy who had been bullying me since 4th grade…. Needless to say we were both children and nervous about each other so we never actually went out. Though he was always polite and courteous to me. The only one of his group who was. The horrible part of all this is I still run into Akio from time to time when I go down to my old neighbourhood…and the chemistry is still there….though I have firmly resolved never to move it to the next level. He is a useless dropout now….but oh so cute still…..I refuse to live my life with a man who is like my father. Tsukino Kenji is easily lead by his family (brothers and sisters) and friends (not the good friends either). He's caused our family extreme financial difficulties on numerous occasions. Don't get me wrong he is my dad and I love him but I've seen what his carelessness has done to my mom and I'd rather be alone than be with a man who resembles my father in any way….and Akio is just like my dad in the sense that he seems to be easily lead.

In the dream Akio is friends with Mamoru…. And what makes it worse is that I can see in Akio's eyes the resolve to do or say something stupid. He opens his mouth and I open my mouth to yell out…something….then I wake up.

Driving to school today I could feel the depression settling in again. What the hell am I going to do? How am I supposed to figure out what I feel about Mamoru? And if Mamoru is not the one (which I have convinced myself its ok if he isn't) what am I going to do with my life? What a depressing thought. I sometimes dream about going to a city where no one knows me. Living my life on my terms and being happy. Problem is I haven't been happy in years. Oh well I have an exam to write…which I totally am not prepared for.

Here's what I do know about Mamoru's wife (ex-wife to be….)….Her name's Kira.

Yup that's all I know about her. She suddenly burst onto the scene, from what I knew (and believe me between his mother and sisters I was well informed of his life whether I wanted to be or not) he wasn't seeing anyone. Then all of a sudden I hear he's engaged and getting married in 6 months…?

I know he bought an apartment in Tokyo city to be closer to work and he and Kira lived there together. Kira has only made one appearance in my world since they got married. A few weeks after the wedding we invited them home and she came. Turns out she was already fighting with Ami over something so they weren't on good terms. I guess things didn't get better as his mom comes up to me, hugs me and introduces me as such "This is my favourite person in the world. She's like a daughter…" WTF! In my defence I did try to befriend her. Regardless of personal feelings they are still family friends and I'm not going to cause a rift over feelings that may or may not exist. I tried to start multiple conversations but each time she would answer with a few words then sit back quietly. I would understand if she didn't want to hang out with the kids if she was a lot older than us…but she's 1 year YOUNGER than me! I guess she just didn't like me off the bat. Oh well. After that we never saw her again. We went over to their place numerous times and Mamoru was always there…and each time he looked a little rough (which was weird as he was GQ Chic normally). Tokyo is a good few hours away from where we live so it was weird that he was there even when I dropped by to hang out with Rei and Ami out of the blue…I didn't think much of it even though Kira was never there. But the more we saw Mamoru alone the more my mom and brother started speculating….which is pretty bad as I always felt they were talking about me as well.

"Usagi" I turned around and watched my friend Minako rush towards me. I'm sitting in the courtyard behind my school. It's a beautiful day today, cloudy and windy but the sun is still making occasional appearances.

"Hey Minako!" I greet her smiling but internally I'm like great….another hour about this boy or that. "Ready for the test?"

One thing you have to understand about Minako is she's not the brightest bulb in the pack….she's actually a dim night light if you really get down to it. We're in our 3d year of Business school and she's made it this far by….yup you guessed it….or maybe you didn't….cheating. This girl hasn't written a single test without cheating. Minako doesn't believe in school. I'm not too sure she should even be in school. I know for a fact she's going to do nothing with her education. Her dream is marry her dream man and be a housewife with him fawning over her. It pisses me off royally sometimes when I study my ass off and then she gets a better grade by cheating off the doufus next to her too dumb to say no to her. I've told her on numerous occasions that I'd rather fail than cheat and I don't ever let her cheat off me. I've got a conscious larger than the pyramids of Giza. Most of the time this girl frustrates the crap out of me as I'd rather spend my time in class studying and she'd rather be on FacePage that social networking site or Skyps the video conferencing application. Yeah chatting with boys….sigh.

"Yeah you?" She asks trying to catch her breath as she comes to stop next to me.

"Yeah as ready as I'll ever be."

"So I have news!" She says gleefully….shocking. I groan inwardly but smile at her outwardly. She is my oldest friend here at the university, I've known her since our College years and I don't get close to people easily as most of the time they piss me off and I scare them off with my blunt attitude. Apparently I've made a person or two cry as well….

"Yeah? Who about this time? Kenta?" I ask taking a bite of my sandwich as she makes herself comfortable next to me.

"No…" She said looking crestfallen for a moment…If I didn't know better I would have to say she really had fallen hard for Kenta and would never get over him. But….."You remember Masao?"

"That British guy?" I ask, I can never keep her boys together but I'm fairly confident I'm right as she seems to be getting serious with this guy…even though they've only met face to face once….. "Yeah what about him? Wasn't he sending his parents to meet you or something?" Minako's family is very traditional if you can believe it or not. They still do arranged marriages….Though if you think about it Minako's arranging it herself.

"Yeah…." She said and then promptly started blushing. I raised my eyebrow at her and waited silently for her to continue, the sandwich was getting soggy…. "Well I went to Toba with my mom and brother to have dinner with his parents." She said a smile on her face as she snags a fry out of my box. "Oh my gosh his mom is so sweet. She gave me a hug and kisses and kept telling me to eat more!" She gushed.

I am currently listening with a half an ear as I'm focusing on finishing the sandwich before class starts. I don't believe in cramming just before the exam as I usually forget everything I studied so I relax for the ½ hour or so before I have to write them.

"What did she grill you on?" I asked knowing that certain people will ask you a million questions…especially if their son's happiness hangs by the thread.

"She was totally cool. She didn't ask me a single thing. She spent the whole time talking to my mom. I sat there nervous just picking at my food. My bro spoke to his dad but really I was ignored for the most part. "

"Feeling neglected?" I asked ribbing her as I crumpled the now empty wrapping.

"Not at all! IF she acts the same way after we're married I'm going to love her forever!" She gushed getting up as well and walking towards the trash with me.

"She proposed the marriage arrangement?" I asked her surprised. Minako laughed.

"Of course not! She has to go back to Britain and discuss it with Masao and then ask my mom, who has to then ask me…." She said as she grabbed my bag for me.

"Oh of course." I mutter. I don't really go out or date. Acceptable guys are kind of afraid of my bluntness. I've been asked out many times but it's usually from guys my family would never approve of…which I secretly crave….or guys who are strictly in the 'friend' category. I never ever date friends.

Mamoru…..is a FAMILY Friend. Not a personal friend so he doesn't count, at least I try to clump him into the friend category and try to justify not going out with him by that in my mind….I fail horribly each time I try. I don't mind not being popular with the guys. I do crave for someone for myself who I can curl up with in front of a fire but I'm content by myself so it's not that big of a deal….unless I'm out with my friends and their significant others….who live to be mushy in front of me.

"Minako…what about Kenta?" I asked her as we walked towards class. Minako keeps her boy crazy talk for when were in private or with close friends, for which I am grateful. Minako pauses, pain flashes in her eyes.

"He doesn't want anything to do with me. And neither do I….Face it Usagi. You were right. I need to forget about him." Recently I told Minako that she should ask Kenta if he wanted her to wait for him as her family was pressuring her to get serious about getting married. His answer was that he wasn't ready for commitment and he wouldn't ask her to wait…. It crushed Minako like nothing I've ever seen. Some days I hate all men.

I was the second one to finish the exam….I either did really good or failed. Did I forget to tell you Mamoru's family thinks I'm a Genius? I'm not sure why they think I'm like super smart at school. I'm ok. My average is like 3.0, and during a good semester I might go up to 3.7 but that's about it.

Well….Were going to their house next week. I'm sure he's going to be there…

To Be Continued….