"Lucas what did you hear?" Brooke asked. Her tone was barely audible. But he heard her nonetheless. One look confirmed her suspicions.

"You know what I heard." Lucas said to her.

"Can we talk about this?" Brooke asked desperate. He couldn't be mad at her for very long. He just looked at her and nodded. He started to walk off with her when she said,

"Not here. Not now. Can we just enjoy the night and then talk about it later. I'll come over and explain." Brooke said to Lucas.

"Sure." He nodded at her. She spent the rest of the night having fun, but in the back of the back of her head knew they had to talk later. It wouldn't be a fun talk. Especially because she knew she couldn't be with him no matter how much she wanted to. He would offer it was only going to be because of what was happening. She couldn't do that. She couldn't trap him like that. She wouldn't. Unless of course he proves he truly loves her- no! Those thoughts had to stop right now. It wouldn't happen and she can't get her hopes up. She can't feel that pain… again. So she enjoyed her time with her friends. It was a perfect night, in theory, but she had the conversation that would take place later in her head.

Brooke had an idea to sing karaoke it was just an idea but now here she was standing on stage singing the song "The Other Side of the Door" by Taylor Swift.

With your face, and your beautiful eyes
and the conversation
with the little white lies.
And the faded picture
Of a beautiful night
You carried me from your car
up the stairs
And I broke down cryin'
Was she worth this mess?
After everything and that little black dress
After everything I must confess,
I need you

And the song was over. Lucas couldn't help but feel as though she had been singing to him. But he ignored the feeling, he had to he loved her too much. The end of the night came and Brooke drove Nathan and Haley home then called Rachel and told her she'd be late getting home for she had to go talk to Lucas. Rachel tried to get her to come home instead but it was a lost cause. Brooke decided she would however eat something with Rachel so they went and got some food after Brooke called to tell Lucas she'd be late. Finally Brooke left and headed to Luke's house. Brooke got there took a deep breath and walked up and knocked on the door seeing Karen's sweet motherly face.

"Hey Karen" She said.

"Hi Brooke, I didn't know you were coming over." Karen replied but nonetheless stepped aside for her to walk in.

"Well it wasn't planned until tonight so you know. I can go though." Brooke said, hoping Karen would let her weasel her way out. No such luck.

"That's nonsense." Karen said then continued with. "Luke is in the shower but you can talk to me till he is out. He shouldn't be long." Brooke nodded and sat down at the table with Karen.

"So Luke told me what happened." Karen said.

"Oh yea?" Brooke asked barely audible. She wished the floor would swallow her up. It didn't. Damn.

"Yea. Well, I wouldn't say he told me. He didn't tell me what actually happened just the end result. But I want you to know that despite what happened I still love you Brooke." Karen said hugging Brooke.

"Thank you Karen. I love you too." Then they pulled away and heard the door open and saw Lucas walk out in a towel wrapped around his waist. The pipes were messed up so Karen had to wash his hair in the sink. Brooke giggled as she watched the woman she considered a mother wash the boy she loves hair in the sink. It was the funniest picture in the world. Brooke also caught herself staring at Lucas' chest which was glistening from the water every now and then. Being caught by him one time she blushed and he chuckled. He loved to make her blush. Karen finished and told him to put some clothes on.

"I'll be ready in just a minute Brooke. And you won't speak a word of this ever again." Lucas warned her. Brooke laughed. It was nice to be able to joke with Karen and Lucas again… just like old times… but it wasn't old times. That was a problem. She still loved him- she loved Karen- she needed him back. But if Brooke begged him or even accepted him back when he undoubtedly offered then he would be trapped and all her pain would be for nothing- at all. She can't handle that. It hurt too bad to lose him. Her train of thought was broke off by Lucas calling her name. She walked into his room after a deep breath.

"So you ready to talk?" Brooke asked as she set down on the corner of his bed. Lucas nodded his head and sat next to Brooke.

"So what I heard you and Nathan say" Lucas started then stopped unsure of what to say.

"Yea. But before you say anything I was gonna tell you. I just needed time to figure out how and what I was gonna do." Brooke explained in a breath.

"So you are?" Lucas asked. What else could he ask?

"Yes. I mean I haven't been to the doctor yet, but I've took a couple tests." Brooke said to him. Lucas nodded, that's it. He said nothing for what seemed like an eternity to them both but in reality was only minutes. Then he asked the obvious question,

"What are you going to do?" Lucas asked. Then he thought about something and almost immediately added, "I'll be here for you no matter what you decide."

"I'm keeping it." Brooke said then she broke down and Lucas pulled her into his arms. They just held each other for an eternity-so it seemed. After a little while Brooke pulled away.

"I know it seems a little rash- especially since I found out a few days before Nate and Hales left- but I have thought about it. I can't abort it. I couldn't live with myself knowing I killed my baby. I also know about Dan trying to abort you and I can't imagine what my life would be like without you. I can' put it up for adoption- I can't live knowing I have a kid out there that I don't know and never will know. The only other option is to keep it." Brooke explained to Lucas sniffling while she explained.

"I understand and am actually happy with your decision." Lucas said and to Brooke's confused look- "I agree with your opinion on both fronts. Besides, though it's not how I imagined it having a baby with you won't be that bad." Lucas said before realizing what he was saying. He quickly covered with " You know opposed to some of the girls out there."

"Yea, I get it." Brooke said trying not to sound disappointed. She told herself not to get hopeful. She knew it would only end in heartbreak. She let herself hope that he wanted her. That he wanted to have a baby with her. She knew better than to hope. Every time she hopes he crushes said hopes into thousands of pieces. Why would she hope? Why? Stupid Brooke.

"Who knows?" Lucas asked.

"Just Haley, Nathan, and us." Brooke said. Then she decided to add, "But, Rachel is catching on. I can't hide it from her much longer- she is one of my best friends."

"I know. You can tell her. I think I'll tell Mouth if it's okay." Lucas said to her still having his arms around her.

"Yeah that's fine Luke." Brooke smiled at him. Truth was Mouth would probably help her through it. Brooke and Lucas were suddenly looking in each other's eyes and Lucas leaned into her. Brooke freaked and stood up saying

"Well, it's getting kinda late. I better go. I'll make an appointment then we will go and figure out how far along I am and everything else. I'll call you with the details. Bye Luke."

"Umm yeah it is late. Okay um I'll talk to you later. Bye Brooke." Then, "Hey, what about my mom?" Lucas asked he knew she would understand his question.

"If you don't mind I would like to tell her after the appointment." Brooke said.

"I don't mind." Lucas said.

"Okay good. I'll call you later." And with that she left.

Brooke got in her car and started speeding towards her house crying. There were times she wished Lucas never left the rivercourt; then she never would have fell in love with him and lost him to Peyton twice. She wouldn't be pregnant. She wouldn't have this constant ache in her heart. She wouldn't cry her eyes out every night. She wouldn't be completely confused; she loves him but hates him; he pisses her off but he makes her so happy. She wouldn't feel like this. But also she never would have fallen in love twice. She couldn't have Luke's baby. She wouldn't know what love felt like. She wouldn't have a reason so sweet to cry. She couldn't be this happy. She wouldn't feel like this.

Lucas watched her get in her car and drive away as he had tears in his eyes. There were times he wished he had never left the rivercourt; then he never would have fallen love with Brooke and lost her because of Peyton twice. He wouldn't have got a girl pregnant. He wouldn't have this constant ache in his heart. He wouldn't cry- ever. He wouldn't be completely confused; he loves her but hates her; she pisses him off but she makes him so happy. He wouldn't feel like this. But also he never would have fallen in love twice. He wouldn't be having a baby with Brooke. He wouldn't know what love felt like. He wouldn't have a reason so sweet to cry. He couldn't be this happy. He wouldn't feel like this.