HOSPITAL
Paul's POV:
I woke up due to a stray of sunshine that came through the window, my head did hurt as hell and I didn't recognize anything, I had no clue where I was or how I got here. I looked around the room and panicked. Then Ian stood next to my bed. "Paul" I heard him say. "Paul are you there". "Of course I'm here" I told him annoyed but also relieved I saw him. "Pff" I heard him sigh. "What happened" I asked. "You collapsed yesterday on set". "Wait, what yesterday". "You collapsed during a scene and you were out for a long time and after you woke up you weren't yourself". "You screamed and cried and talked about how you had to visit your mother" Ian said softly. "Then what's wrong with me" I asked.
"Paul do you really have to ask that question" Ian said. "Your neglecting yourself you are far underweighted and don't eat well". "And the doctor found another thing but I let him talk with you about that". "What the", I instantly saw I was hooked to all sorts of infuses. "What is this" I asked him "it's water and liquid food". "You were also dehydrated". "I'm going to get the doctor "he said. "Ian" I asked him "did you stay with me?". "Yes I did Paul" he answered, "thank you" I whispered.
The doctor came in the room without Ian this time. "Hello mister Wesley how are we feeling" he asked. "Terrible" I replied, "everything hurts". "Ok" the doctor said "I have to admit I'm very worried about your health sir and the way you take care of yourself". "Well actually the way you don't take care of yourself". "You have to eat better"." I understand that you're having a really hard time in life at the moment". "But the people who care about you are concerned and also think you're in a depression". "I suggest you let them help you with getting the help you need". The doctor went on and on with his scolding. "I don't feel well I know that but I can assure you that I'm going to be ok, I always turn out ok". "Mister Wesley" the doctor said "you only have on life". "Yes sir I know that" I said really irritated, "I just lost the person who meant the most to me in whole my life". "Don't come to me with that bullshit crap".
"Hey, hey, easy" Ian came in to the room an calmed me down. "The other thing we want to talk about doctor remember". "Ok Paul we found traces of drugs in your blood can you explain that to us". "I didn't I, don't do" I tumbled… "Paul you did drugs we all know the tests showed it come clear" Ian said. "Ok" I thought "I have to make something up". "Well I was at a party and they gave me something and I thought what the hell why not". "Is that what made me sick". "No Paul It is not" the doctor answered "it had maybe something to do with the delusions you had afterwards but not with that". "You have to eat better", "but I can't" I said, "it hurts to eat I can only eat liquid things". "Ok I will examine you for that". "But not now the nurse will come in and take your blood pressure and you have to rest but before you have to eat". "I will get something for you".
The doctor came back with a banana and some yoghurt "try this it is easy to swallow". "Ok" I said I started with the yoghurt but I had a lot of trouble keeping it down. I saw Ian looking at me and thought I have to finish this yoghurt. After I finished it I started the banana that did hurt like hell. It took me about half an hour to finish those two things. Ian was still looking at me and said "good job Paul I have someone who wants to speak to you here". The door opened and there stood my big sister Rachel. "Rae" I whispered "what are you doing here". "I heard my baby bro was in trouble" she said. "I leave you two too it" Ian said.
Rachel's POV:
I was terrified after my father called me, he had a phone call from Ian that Paul had been taking to the hospital and was not doing so good. Dad couldn't leave New York so I decided to go. I arrived an hour ago and had a quick talk with the doctor and later with Ian. There were a lot of things that concerned me one of those was that he took drugs. It was hell growing up with him doing drugs it almost killed him. I had to confront him with it but carefully. He was very fragile at this point.
"Hey baby" I said. He started to cry with the sight of me. It was a desperate cry and one of shame. I saw that he was also really scared. I sat at his bed and we hugged he wouldn't let go of me. "I'm so sorry" he whispered. "I screwed up". "Tell me Paul how did you screw up". "I cannot take care of myself properly". "I see that" I said. "You starving yourself, your depressed". "We all love you and are scared for you" she said. "Paul I talked to the doctor and made an appointment with a psychologist for you". "He can talk with you about the loss of mother, and all the other stuff you are dealing with". "Please Paul" I begged "he's coming this afternoon and will talk with you". "Would you do that for us". "I guess" he said, but I heard In his voice that he didn't like it.
"Paul I have to ask you one question, why the drugs please tell me don't you remember what it was like for you in that time and for our family". "It was just one tiny slip" he said ashamed, "please believe me I will never do it again". "Please forgive me" he said. "We'll talk about it later ok, get some sleep" I told him. "Rae" he said, "when can I get out of here", "maybe tomorrow if the doctor says it's ok" I answered.
Ian's POV:
He looks so fragile how could we let this happen. He really was in pain when he ate. How could that happen I'm going to figure this out. And I'm going to keep an close eye on him. "I go home" I told Paul "I see you tonight alright I will take Nina with me, if that's ok". "Yes" he said. "Sleep tight" I said to him "and talk with that man it's for your own sake".
Paul's POV:
God now I have to talk to that man I thought. I don't want that but if I refuse I'm in much more trouble. I have to be careful with the heroin I'm a bit shaking already I have to score a fix or something. God I feel nauseous, I felt a sharp pain in my stomach, "Ian" I screamed Ian turned around "what is it Paul" he asked. "It hurts" I screamed "give me the bowl". I puked in the bowl and out came the yoghurt and the banana. Ian screamed for a doctor and my sister came running in too. The puking session did hurt like hell. "Au" I cried afterwards while I held my stomach.
The doctor came in "what is it Mr. Wesley" he asked. "He just puked out his breakfast and he's in a lot of pain" Ian said. I laid down on my pillow catching my breath. "Ok" the doctor nodded, "Paul can you sit up for me please" he asked me. I tried but my stomach did hurt so bad. "Ok" the doctor said "easy I'll give you something for the pain". After a few minutes it started to work. "You're still feeling sick" the doctor asked me, I shook my head "no not really" I whispered. "Ok you have to eat you can only leave here if you can keep something down for at least ten hours". He got me mashed potatoes and stayed with me so Ian could go home. My sister made some calls and the doctor ordered me to sleep till the psychologist came.
"Paul" I was woken up by my sister, "I would like you to meet doctor Morgan he's a psychologist at this hospital". "I explained that you are depressed and what happened in the last couple months". "I would like for you to talk to him". "I'm going to wait outside if you need something just yell ok". Then she left after kissing my forehead.
After I ditched the psychologist and told him how I missed my mother and admitted that I might be depressed I said I didn't need an new appointment. I phoned with my father and little sisters and said that I was going to be ok. I promised I would go on a visit soon. Rachel came in and said that she had to go back to New York. She had left Ian in charge to take care of me. "Get some sleep Ian and Nina will come tonight" she told me. "I love you" I said, "I know baby I love you too". "Now get better". "Call me when you get out, alright". "Say hello to everybody", "I will" she said.
Ian and Nina came in while I lay sleeping so where Kevin and Julie. Ian had a plate with my dinner. On the plate there was yoghurt potatoes, cooked carrots and meat. "Hey Paul wake up buddy dinner time" Ian gently woke me up. "Hey guys I said". "Good to hear you kept your potatoes down" Ian smirked. "The doctor gave this to me he said you had to eat". "Do I have to I'm not hungry" I sighed "I still have the needles and tubes in me so I get food". "Paul eat doctors orders" he repeated.
I started with the potatoes again it took me about twenty minutes to finish them. It did hurt like hell. "I can't anymore it hurts" I said "the meat is too hard and so are the carrots". "Ok" Ian said "I will mash your carrots so you can eat them better". After fifteen minutes I finished them. I ate the yoghurt and almost puked again. They all looked worried at me. "Are you anorectic or something" Julie asked worried. "It's not that I don't want to eat it just hurts and I keep throwing up", I told them. "I have only drank liquid protein shakes for the past month or so" I admitted.
The next day:
Ian's POV:
Paul had to stay in the hospital till the second day after they admitted him. I was in charge of picking him up. I did not want for him to sleep alone that night so I planned to go first over to his house so he could take some stuff and I would let him sleep at my place for the next couple days. But first we had to get out of the hospital, the paparazzi knew something was wrong with Paul someone leaked the fact that he collapsed on set. So it was busy outside of the hospital. "Paul" I said "there is paparazzi standing outside", "why" he asked, "because they know that you are in here". "What how do they know" he sighed "someone told them you collapsed the other day". "Great" he said. "Put your hat on" I told him "I will guide you through, just don't talk". "Paul, Paul, how are you doing, are you better, Ian what is going on with him" they screamed. "Guys, guys" I said "no comment come on let us through please". "Come on move out of the way".
"Thank you Ian", Paul said when we were in the car. The poor guy was shaking. "How do you feel" I asked him, "weak" he answered "I'm glad I can sit" he answered me. "That's because you lay in a hospital bed for two day's" I said. "Ok I'm taking you home with me we pick up Nina and then we go to your apartment so you can get some stuff". "But I don't need a babysitter" Paul nagged. "Well you do and I promised your sister" I grinned. "Ok you're right" he said. "I'm really thankful for what you did and do for me" he answered. Ok there we are, Nina got in "hey babe" she gave me a kiss. Then she also kissed Paul "how are you doing hot stuff" she asked him, "great" he answered with a sarcastic tone. "There we are" I said when we pulled up at Paul's apartment. "We go get your stuff ok". "I need to take a quick shower" Paul said. "Ok but not too long and answer me when I call you please" I said.
Paul's POV:
Damn I needed to get my stuff, it was in the bathroom so I could put on the shower and shoot something up. I really didn't like it but I had to as I was already in withdrawal and would soon start to shake more. I took my spoon and took a little bobble out of the medicine cab bet and put it on the spoon I took the lighter and heated It up. When it was ready and liquid I sucked it in the needle. I patted my arm so my artery was visible I heard Ian call "are you alright Paul?". "Yeah I'm ok" I screamed back. I pricked the needle in my arm, it felt so great god. "Pff" I sighed. I got to quit this I thought but I have to do it when I'm alone because else everyone will notice the symptoms.
I put the needle, lighter and spoon away in my bag and put some new balls of heroin in it. "So how was your shower" Ian asked "ok" I lied. I took some clothes and we were off to go. At Ian's place he had ice-cream I already had dinner in the hospital if you can call mashed potatoes again dinner. I could eat the ice-cream and it tasted awesome. "Ok" Ian said at ten o'clock "bed time for you mister". "I go to sleep too" Nina yawned. "Ok Paul if there's something wrong please scream, call or come to my room ok" Ian said to me. "Ok sleep tight". "Thank you guys for this" I repeated again.
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