I arrive at a rather impressive house and a pale boy exits the house and stares at me with uncertainty
"Who are you" he asks and I phase back and dress not caring if he sees
"My name is Raya Quall I am a part of the quileute pack"
"Why are you here" "Sam is worried about your recent addition to the family. He wishes to know that she is not a danger to the town" he seems to think it over and looks at me oddly "what are you looking at" "I cant read your mind easy" "should you be able to" "I'm a mind reader but yours is not easy to read"
"I'm good at blocking the pack, oh well I was sent here to check on your whatever she is" "why send you" "I chose to come on the packs behalf. I am not linked to this girl or you in any way and I decided it would be best if someone who did not have an opinion came so as to not make bad judgement calls"
He nods and a small smile graces his face as he motions for me to enter.
I follow him into a large room where six other vampires are sat and they all snap there heads to look at me
"Who the fucks the mutt" a blond says and I growl at her
"I didn't insult you Blondie so don't insult me" I tell her
"This is Raya quall she volunteered to check on the Bella situation so that she could give an unbiased call on the level of danger she poses" the boy tells them and a woman comes over and hugs me which takes me by surprise
"I'm esme and thank you" "no problem now may I see Bella" the boy nods and turns to the stairs "Bella come down please" he says and a girl with brown hair descends the stairs
"Edward who is she" "her name is Raya and she's here to asses your danger level to the tribe and town"
She moves in front of me and smiles and I smile back politely
"How is Jacob does he talk or think of me often"
"I am not here to discuss Jacob with you Bella. I am here for one purpose only" "I just want to know how he is and to make sure he is not hurting over me. I know how much he loves me"
A small growl escapes my lips and Edward moves her away from me
"I'm beginning to think you pose a danger more than Bella" he says to me and sigh
"I do not wish to discuss jakeys past love for Bella or her past love for him. I am here for one reason as I have clearly stated" I say with more anger than necessary
"You call him jakey why" she asks me and my head jerks up fast as I glare at her and Blondie laughs at us
"What's so funny" Bella asks her "you cant tell she's defensive about her boy" she tells Bella and Bella turns to me angry
"You have no right to take Jacob from me. He is my best friend" she yells and I scoff
"He is your enemy sweetheart. The moment you became this ended your friendship. Jakey is mine so deal with it because I don't share" I tell her
"You cant take him away from me. You are nothing to him but a nuisance. I am the one he will always love, he pledged his undying love to me. Said his heart would always be mine, so he is mine" she says grinning and with that I attack her as we fall to the ground rolling and punching each other
"Go Raya" Blondie yells and Edward growls at her as I punch Bella hard in the face.
I am soon pulled off of her by strong arms and turn to see a rather large guy while Edward holds Bella
"Get off of me shwartzaneggar or I'll kick your ass" I yell
"Sorry pup but not happening" "let go of her. I want to see her kick Bella's ass" Blondie says and I grin at her as she smiles
"Emmett take her to the border please" a blond man says and than turns to me "I'm sorry for what she said"
I struggle out of Emmett's grip and run from the house phasing and running into the woods
Sam and the guys are trying to get in my head but I am blocking them out as I run at full speed trying to burn out my anger
/Raya slow down and tell us what's wrong\\ Sam says in my head but I ignore him and keep going
/baby talk to me\\ Jacob says and with that I let the full force of my pain scream through my entire body and howl
Does he still love her and just didn't want to tell me for fear of hurting me or does he not love me at all.
That thought hurts more than being away from him all that time and I phase back and fall to the floor as I cry
I am scooped up into someone's arms and carried away as I sob
I am soon transferred into another persons arm as I am also wrapped in a blanket
I look up to see Jacob and I begin to struggle in his arms so he places me on my feet as I wrap the blanket around myself and more tears fall as I let the pain show in my eyes
He moves towards me and I back away as everyone watches me
"Tell me the truth Jacob am I anything more than an imprint. Because your precious Bella the girl you pledged your undying love to forever doesn't think so. Now I'm not so sure either" I say with teary eyes and than I walk away and into Sam and Emily's place
Emily follows after me and hands me some cloths. I quickly dress and take a seat at the table
A hand is placed on my shoulder and I turn to see Jacob watching me with pain in his eyes. I bite my lip and push past him as I run from the house and head for the beach
I am slowly walking along the shore line as my tears fall.
"Raya are you ok" I hear my sister ask me and I shake my head as I stop to look at her "it hurts Janet. More than when I was away from him. I want it to stop, I want to die" I tell her and she rushes to me pulling me into a hug
"Please don't do this again. I cant bare to see you like that again, not ever" "but it hurts so much. I love him with all my heart and he pledged his love to that fucking bloodsucking un-dead bitch" "he loves you Raya"
"Does he because I'm not sure anymore. Plus when he finds out that I attacked the skank he wont be happy.
Although I kind of liked the blond one, she was egging me on to do it" I say the last part with a giggle and look at my sister
"Just please don't go back to suicidal Raya" "cant promise that at the moment. I'm kind of edging towards the word razor and wrist at the moment.
Everything she said hit me like a sledge hammer in the heart. It was like having a knife thrust in it and twisted"
"Don't talk like that. You are my sister and I love and need you. You cant leave me to deal with mum"
I giggle at the last part "we should head back"
She nods and we start heading back towards Sam and Emily's
When we arrive I notice that Jacob is missing and look to Sam "he went to the Cullen's" he says
"To see the love of his life Bella. Why am I not surprised"
I sit down and stare at the ceiling; I know all eyes are on me
"This isn't good is it" Paul says "she went back into suicide mode again. I cant loose my sister Paul" Janet says with a teary voice and I look at her
All emotions are once again gone and its like I don't care. I pull out a pack of cigarettes and head outside
I spark one up and take a deep puff as Sam comes outside
"Those are bad for your health" he says "all the more reason to use them. Might kill me before I can do it myself" I say
"ENOUGH I FORBID YOU TO EVER HARM YOURSELF" he yells at me in the alpha tone and I cant resist. My head bows to him as I growl
"I'm sorry Raya but you left me no choice. I wont let you hurt yourself over that girl. Get back inside"
"Why so I can wait for jakey to come tell me he was wrong and that he still loves that slut. Thanks but I would rather not" I than walk away and he lets me go, its not like I can hurt myself now so he doesn't have to worry