Hello! Well after a Super long break of the entire family being sick a month and I do mean sick a month. I am finally back. I wrote a Super Long chapter to make up for it and I am back and ready to write at least a chapter a week and hopefully more often than that. I am so sorry it took so long. It shouldn't happen again. Let's get this story going and get this lovely couple started on their wonderful adventure!
I smiled, "Yes, wait…do they know? I mean that we are…that…" I didn't know how to ask.
"They know there is something between us. I have never been with a woman in a relationship and my reaction to you is different. They do not know the details and I will not explain until we are further into it and comfortable. They will not question." He answered.
I guess that was as good an answer as any right? I let him lead me out and prepared myself to try and get to know these vampires in his nest. I wanted them to like me and I just hoped they did I just prayed they were friendlier than Stan.
I stayed by Godric's side all night and retired to bed when he did. We we're actually better able to maintain ourselves this time around. I was tired I think I was overwhelmed and my body was still trying to adjust to all of the changes that were taking place not to mention my emotions being in overdrive from just being around Godric.
I awoke earlier than Godric and roamed around his house. I found refuge in his vast library the only problem I had with it was most of the books were older and I really did like to read up to date things as well. I wondered if there was a bookstore nearby.
"Are you enjoying yourself?"
Hearing his voice I turned. I didn't realize I had been in here reading so long, blushing I smiled at him.
"I am. I hope you don't mind."
I closed my book returning it to the shelf and walking to him. I could already feel my body warm just from the nearness. He reached out stroking my cheek and gave me a gentle smile. I could be happy forever if he would smile at me like that daily.
"Did you eat?"
I nodded. He certainly is in tune to my needs and I appreciate that.
"Do you think it would be possible for me to go to the book store? I know you have a million here but they are all older and I would like some new ones if it's ok." I bit my lip uncertain I knew the danger and I certainly didn't want to be a burden for him.
His smile widened, "I think that can be arranged. I have a friend that owns a bookstore nearby it's rather small and I think you would like it. You would be protected and you could take your time and relax there."
I liked that idea and I was glad he wasn't opposed to the idea of me getting out some. I was used to being trapped in the house all of the time. He seemed to notice my expression and lifted my chin with his finger.
"I can imagine how hard it must have been being so secluded at home. I'll try not to do that here. I know you need freedom to grow Emayn if not you will feel isolated and I don't want that." His eyes told me he was serious and he smiled softly allowing his hand to fall. I felt emptiness just at this small action. It took so little from him to make me feel whole inside. He turned and my eyes followed as he walked to a bookshelf pulling out a bound black book. It looked like some kind of journal.
He turned back to me his eyes guarded and uncertain.
"If you ever want to learn about me this is a notebook I wrote about my past and things I experienced. I felt there was so much history it would be a shame to lose it should I ever pass, so I wrote it down. It's very personal…but if you would like to read it I would not mind."
I felt my heart swell that he would offer me such a gift. I can only imagine the stories the book held both good and bad. His past had to be colorful in so many ways and it was all a part of what made him who he is today. Walking to him I placed my hands over his and met his eyes.
"I warn you it isn't pretty." He said almost painfully. I could see it worried him what I would think when I saw that side of him.
"Godric I know you have a past we all do. I know you weren't always who you are now. It doesn't matter we all do things we regret. You are not that person anymore." I released the book and hesitantly stroked his cheek with a shaky hand. He sighed reaching up to take my hand in his.
"You don't understand. I will always be that person he may be buried, but he is always there and I am always afraid that even though I am changed that person could reemerge. You have no idea how much that thought scares me especially now that I have found you."
He moved past me and sat down in a nearby chair looking at the floor. I felt remorse and sadness radiating from him and it was painful for me to watch. I had not lived as he had, I could not imagine the life he lived but I knew of killing and violence. My father had told me stories. I could imagine the stories of his past and I could imagine what he had lived through and how much pain it brought him living with the fear he might one day relive that past.
I knelt at his knees and rested my face on his lap.
"I am not afraid of your past nor am I afraid of you. I know it comes with falling in love with you and it's something I know I cannot fight. Destiny is saying we will be together and I am afraid I am not strong enough to fight that. I don't want to. If you have a dark past that you have to overcome then we will fight it together."
His blue eyes looked deeply into mine as his cool hand brushed my cheek.
"You have such a pure soul." As he spoke I could feel the shivers down my spine. I still don't understand how he could have such a strong emotional hold over me. I only know he does. I lifted my head pushing his knees apart with my palms so I could be closer to him.
"You're such a strong leader Godric why are you doubting yourself now?" I questioned him.
He sighed reaching up and running his hand through my hair. His fingers then ran down my arm and rested there. I could almost feel them melting into me. My breathing increased as I looked into his beautiful eyes, eyes I knew I would come to love for eternity. My heart clenched in my chest as my eyes dropped. I allowed my fingers to unbutton the top few buttons of his shirt and run my fingertips delicately over the satin smooth skin of his tattoos.
God, they were beautiful just like all of him. I glanced up noticing he was watching me with curious eyes. I pushed my luck and unbuttoned his shirt the rest of the way trailing my hand down his marble chest with each one. I inhaled deeply and pushed the shirt open exposing his muscular chest. He was absolutely beautiful just like I knew he would be.
I couldn't help but caress him my hands were moving of their own accord. He was simply too gorgeous not too, he was my destiny. I met his eyes again and I noticed his were now closed and his breathing had increased. I can imagine it was hard for him, me kneeling between his strong thighs like this caressing his chest.
"Godric, you are so beautiful. I suppose you hear that all of the time, but you are." I kissed his right pectoral muscle gently gliding my hand over his powerful abdominal muscles. His eyes shot open and he looked at me with a heated gaze.
I felt his hands grip me and pull me up closer to him. I won't deny the moan that slipped from my lips as I slid up his well toned body. I never knew it was possible to be so attracted to someone. He gripped my hair tightly and perhaps to someone else it would have been painful but to me….god it felt good. I was inches from his lips panting against him and I wasn't the least bit embarrassed.
I moved my hands to his shoulders and crawled into his lap straddling his waist. It was as if someone else was taking over me, someone more experienced than I was. I slid my fingers around his neck and smiled sensuously. I could no longer think clearly, my mind was cloudy and filled with lust and want. I wanted, no needed him.
His lips captured mine and as one hand held my head firmly in place, the other slid down to the small of my back and pulled me tightly against him. It was pure ecstasy as so many feelings assaulted my body. The feeling of his hard cool body against my own was beyond belief. I found myself gripping him harder and pushing into him as his tongue danced against mine.
My blood had turned into fire and every movement he made sent me into overdrive. His lips left mine making a trail down my jaw to my neck. I gasped gripping his hair.
"Don't stop please." I begged breathlessly.
I don't know what I was asking him not to stop exactly but my body seemed to know. I felt his large hands grip me tighter. His breathing shallow on my throat as he kissed my pulse point, it was beyond erotic. He wasn't moving and I knew he had to be contemplating something.
"Godric?" I whispered in question.
"Please Emayn one moment." He pleaded.
I had never heard of him being weak and my father had told me he was quite strong. I knew it must be because of our strange bond.
"Godric… it feels right do it please." I begged.
I could hear him swallow and I knew he was debating. I arched under him pushing my neck closer to his awaiting mouth.
"We are one." I said finally. "Finish the bond."
I felt him exhale against my neck and then his teeth sinking in my flesh. It didn't hurt, but I clung to him tightly expecting it to. I relaxed when I realized there was no pain and suddenly there was unexpected euphoria, pleasure so sweet I started to feel my toes tingle. I closed my eyes panting as I clinched and unclenched my fist. I was praying he wouldn't notice how good this felt to me but I knew he would.
His cool hand slid under my shirt resting gently on my back and drawing calming circles there. I finally totally relaxed letting go unexpectedly and crying out his name. I would have been embarrassed could I think straight, but all I knew was it felt incredible and I loved him. I don't know how or why but I do.
He released my neck a short time later and kissed me softly.
"Ema you must drink." His voice was so soft and sexy. I also didn't miss this was the first time he had called me Ema. He went to bite his wrist but I shook my head. He raised an eyebrow and I patted his chest and bit my lip shyly. I didn't know if he would honor my request but it just seemed very intimate to me. I wanted that.
He smiled looking down and reaching to a nearby to drawer to grab a knife. I watched as he ran it across his beautiful chest and then met my eyes. Looking back to his chest I leaned down I wondered what his blood would taste like. I didn't wonder long, as soon as the blood hit my tongue it exploded in my mouth. It was like nothing I have ever tasted. It was not gross or disgusting like I would have imagined it was sweet and flavorful, like a fine red wine. It had such a flavor I can't describe except to say it was all Godric and it was perfect.
I heard him purr deeply and sat back looking up at him. He smiled wiping my chin.
"You are so brave Emayn." He said thoughtfully his eyes full of love.
I leaned close kissing him briefly then slowly pulling away.
"I feel different."
"Yes, we are blood bonded. We are…" He hesitated then spoke again. "The bond we have is almost complete it is only lacking one thing to make us whole as a couple."
I bit my lip then nodded knowing, "Making love."
He smiled, "Yes. It will happen when we are ready. We don't have to rush into anything."
I laughed at him. We don't have to rush into anything, yeah right. Just like we didn't rush into this blood bond, in case he hasn't realized it yet we aren't really in control of any of this.
"What's so funny?" He questioned pushing a stray piece of hair behind my ear gently.
"It's just…we haven't decided anything fate has kind of decided for us. We don't really control much our body's kind of take over." I didn't mind telling the truth why lie? He knew it as much as I did. He lifted his head and laughed slightly.
"I guess you do have an accurate point. I am trying to control this it just seems to be out of our control but that doesn't mean I'm giving up on trying. I don't want you to think we can't try and have some say over what happens and how it happens. You mean a lot to me. I want you to be comfortable with the way things progress."
I couldn't help but let my eyes wonder over his immaculate chest. If I look at it too long we may be progressing to the next part of the bond within about zero point two seconds. I looked deep into his eyes for a moment and leaned down resting my head on his shoulder.
"I am comfortable. I've never felt more certain of anything in my life this feels so right and I just know that…." I looked up from his chest and his face was so close. He smelled so good, his lips were too close and the temptation too great. I ended up licking my own then running my tongue over his lower lip. I noticed he was clutching the chair.
"Ema." He whispered.
His speaking gave me the opening I needed and I slipped my tongue into his awaiting mouth. He moaned gripping my head. I curled my body around his knowing I wanted this to happen. He was my soul mate and I had no intention of ever being with anyone else. It felt so right.
He stood lifting me with him. I wrapped my legs around his waist knowing where this was heading. I had waited so very long to find the one true love of my life. He carried me out of the room and down the hall into his bedroom. I heard the door shut but paid no attention to anything other than him laying me on the bed.
He released my lips. I gazed into his stormy eyes and watched mesmerized as he tossed his shirt aside.
"Are you certain?" He asked me cupping my face in his hands. I closed my eyes running my hands up his back.
"Yes, I have never been more certain of anything than I am of you and I. I never expected to meet my soul mate I never thought it because I was the last of my species, but then I met you and so many feelings emerged. All I know is you make me feel more alive than I have ever felt and I love you there is no question. I know how I feel, I love you it may be crazy but I don't care."
Godric simply kissed me tenderly, "I love you too. No one could understand probably because I don't, but I know how I feel as well and I know I love you too."
"Make love to me." I whispered allowing my hands to caress his back. His skin felt so good beneath my fingertips. His lips met mine and we kissed slowly, deeply, passionately. I felt his hands under my shirt and was beginning to feel my heartbeat increase when we heard the knock on the door. You have got to be kidding me!
"Godric? I'm sorry to bother you but we have something that needs you attention."
Yeah, so do I…..Me!
Godric reluctantly released me looking at me apologetically. I stroked his cheek as he moved from me and sat up as he grabbed his shirt and buttoned it back up. I couldn't believe this was happening he really did need to get a house where everyone else stayed home.
I quickly looked in the bathroom mirror and my eyes flashed behind me when I saw him standing there.
"I'm sorry my sweet. I didn't realize we would have guests tonight." He ran his hand through his hair and I could tell he was irritated. I turned taking his hand in mine and slipping on my tip toes to kiss his lips.
"It's ok. You can make it up to me with a kiss." I teased him.
He laughed lightly and stepped closer it forced me against the bathroom counter. I didn't mind at all as long as he was close. Leaning down to me his lips wrapped around mine demandingly and he kissed me thoroughly. I was out of breath when he finished and I had to take a minute to regain my composure.
"Was that adequate?" He asked me as one side of his mouth curled up in a knowing smirk.
I didn't even answer him I simply winked and pulled his hand toward the door. Once outside he led me to the living room where everyone was gathered. I saw Isabel and she looked at me with a sad smile. I knew she felt bad for the interruption even though she had not been the one who came to the door.
Godric sat down and pulled me next to him.
"What is this interruption about? I left word I was indisposed tonight." He said looking around the room. It was obvious by the look on his face he was not happy.
Stan stepped forward and shook his head, "Yes sheriff and you know we wouldn't come unless it was absolutely necessary."
"Yes I know. What has you so worried underling?"
Stan handed Godric a piece of folded paper and he opened it reading quickly. He folded it back and sighed shaking his head.
"This is indeed troublesome. Have you checked into this?"
Stan nodded and leaned on a nearby chair, "I did. I also had Isabel do some checking to verify the findings. It seems this has been going on some time. I don't know how much information has been sent or for what purpose."
I didn't know what was going on but everyone seemed upset by this information whatever it was. I could feel the tension that was for sure. Two vampires were led into the room and tossed to the floor in front of Godric and he looked at them curiously.
"Godric this isn't what it looks like." One of them pleaded.
Godric shook his head, "Tell me then what is it?"
The brown headed vampire nodded, "It is all a misunderstanding. We were gathering information for the council but it had nothing to do with the arrival of her. They wanted to know about the activity of Stan."
"Stan?" Godric questioned raising an eyebrow.
"Yes, he doesn't exactly have the best reputation with humans. They wanted to make sure he was behaving and not fanning any flames. They were uncertain that he would not go behind your back and start trouble given his past. We were supposed to watch and make sure he wasn't causing any further trouble with the humans…anything that would cause unnecessary attention to you and the nest."
Godric looked at me then back to them, "To protect Emayn."
The vampire shook his head, "I do not know. We were simply instructed what to do not why. The council doesn't give more information than they wish."
Stan was irate and grabbed the vampire by the neck slamming him against the wall.
"You have no right to watch me you lying little coward. It's none of your business what I do and I would never endanger my sheriff. I should rip your head off for this travesty!"
"Stan let him go." Godric said softly but with force.
Stan turned to face Godric.
"Godric you can't be serious! Do you like the idea of the council sending people in snooping in our affairs like we can't take care of ourselves? Since when did we all of a sudden become weak and have to be watched? When did I become a liability because if you didn't trust me you should have tossed me out long ago!"
"Calm down Stan." He stood looking at the man still on the floor at his feet who had said nothing.
"Is this story true Thomas?"
The young man nodded, "Yes, Sheriff it is."
Godric sighed, "Stan regardless of if we like what the council did or not. The reason they did it was just. They want Emayn safe and I cannot punish these men for that. You may go."
They were quickly out of sight and Stan turned furious.
"This is an outrage! They are stalking me like I am some kind of monster and that is ok with you?"
"No, I didn't say it was ok. I said their motives are just and like it or not they are the council. You can address the issue with them, but in the meantime try and let it go. Emayn is important and they wanted her safe you of all people understand that." Godric spoke firmly standing close to Stan.
Stan's angry gaze fell on me as he shook his head, "I do understand but I wouldn't hurt her. It makes no sense."
I felt bad knowing he held me responsible it was all in his gaze. I stood and left the room finding myself alone out back. I thought the fresh air would do me some good. I certainly didn't want to start out with anyone here hating me. It seemed like that could not be avoided now.
"Are you ok?"
I turned seeing Isabel's concerned face. I smiled at her trying to seem perfectly calm even though I was upset.
"Yes, I'm fine. I just didn't want to make enemies but it seems I can't seem to avoid that." The reality is when the council is involved some things are out of your hands. I didn't like that.
She moved beside me and looked up at the stars.
"Stan has a temper and he really is an oversized bulldog. You'll have to overlook him he never has understood the concept that we really are no better than anyone else. I doubt he ever will. He doesn't really like anyone to be honest so don't worry about it, I don't."
I smiled at her and she glanced at me smiling back. The soft breeze caressed my skin and I closed my eyes enjoying the feeling. It was relaxing and I needed that considering all I wanted was to be with Godric, and yet now that my head was clear I wondered were we really moving too fast?
"Can I ask you a personal question? I mean you know about men and I…well I don't have a lot of knowledge."
I sat on a nearby bench and she followed me.
"You can ask me anything. I will try to answer as honest as I can." Her face seemed concerned and I wondered if she knew what I was going to ask. I know she had to have known what was interrupted earlier. I suddenly became nervous and clasped my hands together looking at the ground.
"What is it Emayn?" She questioned her voice growing more distressed.
I met her eyes for a moment before looking off.
"I know my feelings for Godric. I have no doubt of them they are very clear to me but it has happened so fast. I hardly know him even if I feel I have known him all my life. I am wondering if this is all moving too fast."
She took my hand in hers and I felt glad to have her friendship. I knew in the future she would be someone I would value for her opinion and her guidance.
"Ema only you can decide what is right for you. If you feel it is too fast then slow it down to a pace that you are comfortable with. You sitting here with me asking me this tells me you are uncomfortable. You are a bright young girl and you are overwhelmed with all of these new feelings. Love can be overwhelming and all consuming. I know you want to feel all the wonderful things that come with it, but it will all come with time and he will wait for you."
"You think so?" I asked in wonder.
"If Godric is anything it is patient." She smiled at me standing. I didn't know why she was leaving until I saw him nearby waiting on her. He was so beautiful in the moonlight. I stood walking into his awaiting arms and he welcomed me warmly. There was nothing better than the feeling of being in his arms. Well there was but none of them were things we needed to be doing right now.
I leaned back to see his face and he stepped back resting his hands on my hips.
"Everyone has left. I wanted us to be alone just like we planned."
Could he be any sexier? Fire flickered in his eyes and I swallowed feeling my stomach clinch. God knows I wanted him but I also wanted to wait. His fingers began to explore my arms gently creating sensations of pleasure and I inhaled sharply. I was trying not to need him and he wasn't helping.
"Godric." I managed hoarsely.
"Yes?" He stepped closer again. His body now against mine I could feel his hard muscles. I felt myself shiver and closed my eyes.
"You are so beautiful Ema. You make me want to touch you it's just so easy." He whispered against my neck before he kissed it. I had to do something because my mind was becoming cloudy and if I didn't stop this now it was over.
"Godric wait."
"What's wrong sweet one?" He lifted my chin brushing his thumb across my lips, his eyes boring into mine. "You look confused."
"No, no I'm not confused….I just." I paused looking down. "I don't want you to be upset with me I feel so many things with you. "
He lifted my chin again forcing me to look at him and searched my eyes. If he kept looking at me that way with those deep blue eyes, I just might lose all my resolve. He was so close and oh so tempting. This was so hard because my body was telling me I wanted him and he was my mate. I knew he was the other half of my soul I just wanted a little more time this was just so very fast.
"Ema." He said huskily brushing his lips against my forehead. "If you wish to wait I don't mind…not at all. I will do whatever makes you comfortable. Did I not tell you I want you to feel comfortable? You are so very special and what we have between us I have never felt before. It does not have to be rushed."
I could see in his eyes he was being honest. I knew the truth in his words but that didn't stop my body from its ache. I tried to calm myself not understanding why it was so difficult. Surely this was not a normal thing being so attracted to someone. It had to be something with my species and the mating thing.
I let my eyes wander over his beautiful face and wondered what he was like as a human. I wondered if he had a wife and what his life was like. I knew I needed to read the book he had offered me to know all the answers. In essence it was my way to get to really know him inside and out like no one else could. I found my hand had landed on his cheek and I caressed it gently.
"Do you remember being human?" even as I asked the question I wondered if it was appropriate. His eyes widened in surprise for a moment and then he spoke softly his hand resting upon mine.
"Not much. It was so long ago and I was very young. I was a good hunter and I was favored in my tribe. I did not have a mate if that is what you are asking." His eyes were thoughtful as if he knew what I was wondering before I even knew myself. I smiled at him as he pulled my hand from his cheek kissing my fingers one by one. My breath caught as a rush of sensations flooded my body. The man was so sensuous he should be x-rated. I couldn't think it was as if my brain was starting to short circuit and he was the culprit. My mouth went dry as my body responded to him.
He laced my fingers with his as he let our hands fall a small smile on his lips. He had no idea the effect he was having on me. Honestly. How could he be so smoking hot? I couldn't trust my own body it was begging to betray me. To my own shock I slid my free hand behind his neck and pressed my lips to his. He was frozen a moment probably contemplating how crazy I was sending him all of these mixed signals before he moaned deeply and pulled me closer.
I pulled my other hand free and buried it in his silky hair, my heart slamming into my chest as I arched against him. I felt myself losing control and I had no idea how to stop it. His body called to me and mine responded. I pulled him with me until we fell on the nearby couch. Immediately I slid my hands down and started pulling his shirt up. I wanted it off.
He quickly grabbed my hands and held them down beside my head. He pulled away from my kiss and took a moment to catch his breath.
"You don't want this my love. I can't do this knowing you want to wait."
His voice was shaky but firm. I tried to fight his hands but it was no use he was stronger than me. He shook his head no.
"Not like this Ema we can control this…it doesn't control us."
He quickly sat up and moved away from me. I sat up trying to calm myself. Wow. I seriously need to learn self control because when I am around him I have none, zero, zip. I bit my lip and walked into the kitchen grabbing myself a coke from the refrigerator. I turned and he was looking out the back door.
"I am sorry I didn't mean for us to…" He met my eyes and smiled slightly. "It seems we will have a little trouble keeping our hands to ourselves." He said instead.
I sat at the table with my coke.
"I noticed. It would seem our hands aren't the only thing." I added.
He chuckled and turned back to look outside.
"It would seem this is a very strong bond. Your species is so very interesting. I can see why they never mistook who they were meant for. It's kind of hard to."
I let my eyes fall over his small but muscular frame. I had to admire the fact that looks really are deceiving.
"Do you think I could go to the book store tomorrow? I would really like to get some books. Perhaps I can find something to help me with self control."
He might laugh at me but it can't hurt. It's not like we are having much success on our own here. At this point I didn't care I had to do something.
"Sure, I'll make arrangements for you in the mean time I need to look over a few things. If you need me I'll be in my office." He responded calmly and to my relief he didn't laugh at me.
"I'll be in the library." I said back.
I wanted to get started on his past no time like the present. I was also hoping it would provide a much needed distraction. I stood and walked past him but feeling his eyes on me I turned.
"Godric, I…"
He smiled pressing his finger against my lips.
"Enjoy your evening sweet one." He kissed my hand and left the room disappearing into his office. You know that thing they call animal attraction? I hate it!