Chapter 3

Author's Note: Law & Order, Law & Order: SVU are not mine, they are Dick Wolf's.

So I was supposed to be working on Chapter 14 of Heart Chant but then I started reading the reviews I got for Chapter 2 of this story and I have to admit that it bothered me that people thought that Olivia was just daydreaming about all that occurred there.

First of all my dear readers let me apologize if my writing there wasn't as clear and concise as it usually is. What I meant about Olivia daydreaming about it was that she was recalling all of that with Elliot. It's like when we go out on a fantastic date and the next day our friend or colleagues find us in a daydreamy mood because we keep remembering what happened with our date. That's what Olivia was doing in my head and I totally apologize if it came across just as a normal daydream. In any case, I've revised that part, changed the wording actually so that there's no more misunderstanding.

In the meantime, about this chapter, I'm not going to lie, this will not be an easy read. You may end up not liking any of the three people but like I told someone I like this to be realistic not fairy tale like. In any case, I do hope you all still enjoy this chapter. Please review!

KATHY

Saturday late morning

"Oh God, yeah! Ahhh…" Elliot cried, giving one big push, as he ejaculated. He stayed still inside her until his orgasm finished. Once he was done he quickly pulled out and rolled over to his side of the bed, spent.

His breathing was still a bit rapid like always when he was still coming down from an orgasm and she turned to him, putting her arms around him. "That's was amazing, as always…" Kathy smiled at him.

"Yeah..." He smiled back at her and so she took his response as agreement.

They lay there like that, her arms around him and Elliot playing absentmindedly with her hair until they both realized it was close to noon. So reluctantly they got out of bed. As Elliot stood up, Kathy observed that how sexy he truly was. He was still semi hard and even just watching him peel off the used condom full of sperm was a bit of turn on.

About a month ago almost the same time she had discovered about his affair, he started to insist on wearing condoms whenever they had sex. At first, not knowing about Olivia, she had been upset. She asked him why. They were married. They were Catholic. The Catholic Church did not believe in artificial contraception. And again, they were married.

Elliot agreed, but he also said that they were not getting any younger and already had 5 kids. He knew the bad side effects of birth control pills so he'd rather take this precaution. At first, she did not want to agree. But they have been having sex a lot more nowadays – definitely more than 2x a month now and she knew he was right. She knew he was fertile and for some reason his sperm always found her egg. And so reluctantly she had agreed.

When she had found out about him and Olivia, she wanted to confront him and ask him if the reason for the condom was because he was sleeping with 2 women. But again, as much as she wanted to lash out and get angry, she loved him more and wanted to keep him more than she wanted to kick him out. After all, no one was perfect. And as their vows said, marriage was for better or worse. They've had the better times, so I suppose, at least for her, this was the worst of times.

He had come home very late last night. It was past 3 am when he got in. And again he went straight to the shower before coming to bed. In her mind she knew there was no way that he had come from court preparations. Not until 3 am. Sadly and angrily she knew he had been with Olivia again.

It was getting more frequent she realized his dalliances with her. Added to that, they were partners too and so all in all Olivia was definitely with him more than she was. And she was his wife not Olivia. She was going to have to do something about this. She really couldn't take it anymore.

"Kath?" She heard Elliot call out to her breaking her reverie.

"Aren't you going to join me?" He asked. Kathy heard water running and knew that he was in the shower.

"Coming!"

And with that, she joined her husband in a Saturday morning shower.

KATHY

Sunday morning

"Are you going to be home late again tonight?" Kathy asked him as he put on his coat getting ready to leave for his shift at the 16th precinct.

There was an edge to Kathy's voice and Elliot heard it. He paused but then decided not to take the bait. If he did, he'd be late for his shift. So instead, he merely shrugged and replied in a non-confrontational tone, "I don't know yet. Hopefully not. I'll call you later and let you know. If nothing comes up I should be home by 8."

Kathy was a bit surprised that he didn't take her bait and for another second she wanted to goad him into a fight. They had a fight last night and she wasn't over it.

They had taken the kids into Manhattan for a family night and it would have been a success had they not run into Olivia and her date. The kids love Gray's Papaya and had begged their parents to take them there. And so Elliot and Kathy had given in. Unfortunately, as they exited the popular hotdog joint, who was going in but Olivia and a guy named Mike Logan. According to the introductions, Mike was a former cop out of the Major Case Squad. Logan. Another Irish man. What was it with Olivia and Irish men?

Kathy had watched Elliot and Olivia closely and she had to hand it to them. If she hadn't seen them making out like teenagers before, she would have never suspected anything between them. Olivia definitely looked like she was enjoying her date with Mike. She was laughing out loud at something he said when they walked in. And why shouldn't be? Mike was handsome with dark hair and very sexy green eyes – the only thing wrong with him as far as she was concerned was the plaid tie he was wearing. For heaven's sake who wore plaid ties?

She didn't see any discernible effect on Elliot until they reached home and the kids were already in bed. Knowing what she knew about Olivia and him, admittedly she suddenly felt insecure and she was the one who tried to seduce him. But for the first time in a long time, Elliot had not responded. He had given the excuse that he had to be on duty early tomorrow and he'd rather just take a rain check.

She was incensed when he used those words. Rain check! How dare he! A rain check! She had ordered him to sleep on the couch and he had gotten angry. He said he was tired and he'd like to sleep in his own comfortable bed.

"Fine." That's what she had said. "I'll sleep in Maureen's old room."

And that's exactly what she did, which brought her to this morning.

"You know my work is…things can pop up last minute."

"Yeah, right…well I guess I'll see you when you decide you want to come home." Kathy answered back, her voice still cold.

Elliot sighed. "Can we talk about this later? Okay I need to get to work."

He tried to kiss her goodbye, but Kathy just turned away. Throwing up his hands, he left.

Kathy stood by their doorway, watched him drive away until he was out of sight. She sighed a very heavy and trouble sigh as she turned and went in to get wake up the kids and get ready for Sunday Mass.

OLIVIA

"So how was the date with big bad Mike Logan, Liv?" Much asked, grinning.

John had been friends with Mike's old partner from the 2-7 Lennie Briscoe and thus John had become friends with Mike as well. He knew that Mike was single and though there were times that he had a reputation with the ladies, he also knew that Mike had changed. He was older and hopefully, if John was reading him right, he was ready to settle down.

"It was great! He's no longer big bad Mike Logan." Olivia replied, truly sincere about her statement. Despite the fact that they had run into Elliot and Kathy, it was true that she and Mike had a good time. Mike could be a pretty funny guy. She had heard that he could have a temper too but now that he was no longer working for the NYPD and in the private sector, she didn't even see a hint of that famous temper. And for that she was glad.

"Well that's a change and that's really good to hear Liv." John remarked, looking somewhat surprised at her response but grinning happily when she said it.

"Yeah, Liv. That's awesome. You need other men in your life aside from us, and especially Stabler."

Olivia laughed out loud and replied, "Oh come on Fin. What's wrong with you all?"

"Nothing, but you know there are more than four men in the world right? It's not just Elliot, me, John and Cap?"

Olivia was still chuckling and she replied, "Of course."

"Good. So are you gonna see him again?" John asked.

"See who?" Suddenly Elliot's voice rang out and Olivia's heart began to race. She had known at some point today, knowing Elliot, her date with Mike would be brought up. But she didn't think it would be from the second he walked in.

Olivia turned her head towards him and she knew he could see and read the apprehension in her eyes. But before she could answer it was Fin who answered for her, "Didn't you know? Liv had a sizzling hot date with Mike Logan last night."

"Really?" Elliot eyed Olivia, who suddenly blushed. "Was it really that hot Liv?"

Hating the fact that Elliot was putting her in this position, she lifted her head and met his eyes defiantly, "Well no, not yet. But it has potential. A lot of potential. And to answer your question John, yes, I am seeing him again."

Fin gave a big cheer then and said, "Hell yeah, Benson! Go for it. You deserve some happiness. Didn't the Cap know him? You should get tips from him."

"Well I'm not sure that is such a good idea but thanks."

Just then Captain Cragen came out of his office and called out, "Tutuola! Munch! Get your butts in here now!"

John rolled his eyes at the command and replied, "Coming oh Captain my Captain!" His voice was a mocking singsong to which Fin found himself laughing at.

When the other two were gone, Olivia quickly made herself look busy at her desk. But she already knew he wasn't going to let her get away with anything. And she was right. Just several seconds after the Captain's door closed behind Fin and Munch, Elliot walked up to her desk, bent down and whispered in her ear in a not so happy tone, "You and I need to talk."

She looked at him and asked, "Now? I'm busy Elliot. And I'm sure the Captain is going to want to see us next."

"Fine. But you and I will be going to lunch downtown."

Lunch downtown or dinner downtown was their code for checking into the St. Mark's Hotel.

"El, I don't think that's such a good idea."

"It's your choice Liv – it's either lunch downtown or after work at your place or right now at the cribs. But one way or another, we are going to talk."

She looked at his blue eyes which were blazing with both anger and desire. And though she hated herself for it, for some reason that cocky, egotistical attitude of his turned her on so much. In fact, she just got a little bit wet the way he just handled her now. Whether she was angry at herself or not, she found herself nodding. "Lunch downtown then."

She would have actually preferred it to have been at her place after work, but having Elliot in this kind of mood the entire day was not going to be fun, so she'd rather talk with him sooner rather than later.

"Good girl." Elliot said.

Olivia swallowed and then stood up. She needed to walk away from him just for a minute. He was projecting so much intense emotions that she found it a little hard to breath around him right now. "You want some coffee? I'm gonna get some."

Elliot didn't even bother to look at her as he shook his head no. Any other time, Olivia would have been pissed but right now, she was glad and she quickly walked away.

ELLIOT

He pinned her against the door of the room that they were given at the St. Mark's.

He unzipped her pants and then together with her panties he pulled them down forcefully before he shoved two fingers into her dripping pussy. Finger fucking her, while she was flush against him, Elliot took his free hand and held her face while he looked at her and asked, "So Liv, tell me about your date. How hot was it?"

"Fuck you, Elliot."

"I know you want that darling, I can feel it."

"Fuck you." Olivia repeated.

Elliot chuckled without mirth. He felt a little sick for what he was doing to her but he couldn't help it. He was jealous. REALLY JEALOUS. And maybe he should just admit it.

Elliot gazed at Olivia's eyes and he could see the dangerous sparks flying from them. He stopped laughing and his expression became agonized while he continued with the in and out of his fingers in her pussy.

"Liv, I'm sorry, fuck it, I'm jealous."

"What?" Olivia gasped then she moaned as Elliot hit a particular spot inside her. "OH God, El, that feels good!"

"Yeah, you like me being jealous?" Elliot knew he sounded like a dick right now but he couldn't help it.

"No baby, what you're doing to me feels so good!"

"So good that maybe you won't see Mike anymore?"

Elliot reached for his fly and unzipped himself. He pushed his pants and boxer briefs down with his free hand and took out his hardened cock. Then pulling out his finger from her dripping core, he grunted, breached her entrance and then buried his cock inside her. He grabbed her thighs and wrapped them around his waist and started to pummel her against the door

"Tell me you're not gonna see him anymore, Liv."

"Oh fuck, El, your cock feels so good inside me, baby. Are you gonna cum inside me again?"

"You bet I am, Liv, because you know what, even if you don't admit it, you're mine. You know it. You've known it since the day we met."

"Fuck you, Elliot." Olivia said again but then she gave a little whimper. "God damn it, that feels so good, faster El!"

"Say it Liv, say you're mine."

"No, you're married."

"So what?"

He wanted her to hear her say that she was his. Though they didn't talk about it last Friday, Elliot did remember what he had cried in the midst of his orgasm and he knew that he meant it too. He did love her. Problem was, he loved Kathy too.

But right now, he was with Olivia. He knew he had Kathy but Olivia…Olivia was a different story. He felt like that maybe Olivia wasn't in this as deep as he is. That he was just a momentary affair until she found the right guy. And he didn't want that. Yes, the fact that he wanted her and he didn't want to get divorced was fucking selfish but there it was. The truth. He wanted to have his cake and eat it too. At least for now. He knew there would come a time that he would need end one but right now, he just wanted the best of both worlds.

Elliot put his arms around her ass and pushed her off the door and put her down on the bed. He pulled out and then told her in a voice that could only be described as harsh with desire, "On your fours, Liv."

Olivia was trembling with want and immediately did as he asked. He could see that him being jealous was turning her on a lot. He could see that she wanted him to take her, command her and make her shout his name.

Seeing Olivia's ass in the air, her knees on the bed slightly apart exposing her dripping wet slip through the back was fucking erotic as hell and he could not hold back. He lined his hard shaft against her aching and wet core and plunged. Olivia put her hands on the headboard of the bed to support herself when she felt him thrusting in and out of her almost violently. He knew she could feel and hear his balls slapping against her ass. His movements weren't frenzied but each thrust was hard and powerful. Seeing his cock going in and out of that pussy and how it good felt made him all the more crazy that she could have been doing this with Mike last night.

"Did you fuck him, Liv?"

She seemed so lost in their lovemaking that she didn't answer and Elliot repeated his question, his jealousy so evident with each syllable.

"No, ah! Oh my God! El, that feels so good!" Olivia moaned.

"Answer my question." Elliot grunted out while his balls slapped against her ass as he thrust once more inside her.

"No, I didn't…"

He heard her voice trail off and knew there was a but there. So he had to ask. "But…?"

"But I really wanted to." Olivia confessed. "Oh God, El, I'm so close." She whimpered loudly.

At her words, Elliot pulled out and he turned her around making her lie on her back this time. He saw Olivia's flushed face and her tortured expression and he knew that she was lying.

"You're lying to me."

"No, I'm not."

"Fuck you, Liv."

"You already are."

"Say it, Liv, say you're mine."

"No. I am not yours and you are not mine."

"Do you want me to be?" Elliot asked as he slid his cock into her again. This time, his thrusts were not hard but they were slow and gentle and deliberate. Then he put his hand in between them and started rubbing Olivia's clit, bringing her just on the brink but not quite yet.

"I…I can't answer that Elliot." Olivia stammered. Her heart was beating fast from more than just their lovemaking but from his words.

"Didn't you hear what I said last Friday as we were making love?"

"What?" Olivia's heart raced even faster. No, he was not about to bring that up, was he?

"I know you know what I said." Elliot continued to rub her clit and thrust in and out of her. While he continued his mind blowing motions, he bent down and whispered in her ear. "Do you want me to say it again, Liv?"

"No, not if you don't mean it." Olivia whispered back.

"But I do mean it. I mean it very much. I love you, Olivia Benson. You're mine and I am yours."

Elliot knew his sexual prowess gave Olivia very great pleasure but today, he knew it was his words that brought her to her heaven. The moment he said what he had said, he felt Olivia clench around his cock and she started to pulsate and she cried out. "OH GOD, ELLIOT! I'm cumming, oh God, you're cock is just so ah! AH!"

The pulsating of her pussy around his cock was too much for Elliot too and all of sudden, he felt his dick twitch and the next thing he knew, he was shouting Olivia's name to the high heavens. "OLIVIA. You're mine, only mine Olivia! Oh my God that feels so fucking good! I love you! I love you!" His cock spurt over and over as he spilled his seed inside her, her pussy milking him.

When their orgasms faded, Elliot collapsed on top of Olivia, leaving himself buried inside her pussy. He was breathing hard and so was Olivia. A few moments later, he lifted himself up. He looked at Olivia and said again, "You're mine Liv."

Unable to answer him at that exact instant, Olivia simply pulled him to her and kissed him hungrily leading him to make love with her a second time.

After they were done with their second round, they knew they had to get back to work and as Olivia was in the bathroom, Elliot sat on the bed waiting for her. He looked down on his hands and saw his band of gold again. He looked up and sighed. He was in love with Olivia. He knew that. And he knew she was in love with him. Mike was just a distraction – he was sure of it. The problem was he loved Kathy too. What was he going to do? How he can he love two women?

He needed help and advice. Who could he turn to?

He heard the sink in the bathroom turn off and he knew that Olivia was done. Sighing he stood up, ready to get out of there. He'd think about it later but right now, he and Olivia needed to get back to work.

TBC…

As Rhonda Roo told me…oh what a tangled web we weave….

Elliot is in this way deeper than he thought and Olivia has yet to admit that she feels the same. And Kathy, Kathy is definitely not getting what she deserves. So what happens now? Does someone tell Olivia that Kathy knows. Or does someone tell Kathy that it just isn't sex with Elliot and Olivia that it's deeper than that. And will Elliot find out that Kathy knows?

All coming up, dear readers. Hope you enjoyed! Please review here and on Twitter: Jo_Bautista