2 days later

Hand in hand she walked to the station with Matt. They had brought the car to the garage and walked the rest of the way. She was really glad he was not upset with her for damaging his truck but she was upset with herself, that she still didn't dare to tell him something was wrong and that she had damaged his car because of it.

She let go of Matt's hand as they were almost at the firehouse and Shay was also walking on the driveway and Gabby laid her arm around her friend.

''It's good to be back.'' Shay sighed as it was the first shift for the both of them, Gabby because she had been sore and a slight concussion, b ut she felt better now and Shay had been recovering from the gash, but now they were both back.

''I missed you.'' Gabby said as she was glad to be back on the ambo with her best friend. She had visited Shay once, but the concussion and soreness hadn't made it easy and Matt had been to worried for her to go out at first with the concussion.

''I missed you...between the mint chocolate ice and bad movies Kelly took for me for my recovery. I hope Matt has been pampering you too.'' Shay said with a smile as they walked to the ambo and Shay laid her hand on the hood of the ambo and smiled. ''And I missed you too sweety, hope Rafferty wasn't mean to you.''

Gabby laughed and they walked inside to get changed. The guys greeted them both back and Matt winked at Gabby while he was grabbing his coffee as he already changed.

They had hardly changed when the alarm rang and they ran tot he ambo. She looked at Matt, shortly before running into the ambo and he climbed in the truck. She was worried now every time he got on that truck, afraid he would do something brave but stupid again. That he would be in danger again. But she realized she shouldn't worry about him on the job because what had happened hadn't happened on their job.

''Something up? You look worried.''

''Oh, no.'' Gabby said as she faked a smile. At the scene they walked to the man that was stuck under his lawnmower.

''Did the blades hit you?'' Shay asked as they kneeled down but the man denied and Matt and Herrmann stood next to them. Matt looked at the lawnmower and yelled for Severide. With Herrmann and Severide they got it away and Gabby and Shay looked shocked as they saw the blade had gone deep into the man's upper leg and worried they looked at it.

''Matt, don't pull the blade away! He will bleed out!'' Gabby said then as she saw it was probably in his coronary artery and Matt stopped.

''We have to lift him up carefully, hold the blade and bring him to the hospital.'' Shay said and Gabby nodded.

''Otis, Cruz, the gurney!'' Casey yelled and they got the gurney. The man was moaning and groaning as they lifted him on the gurney, as careful as they could and Casey held the blade as they got to the ambo.

''Come on Tom, you are going to be okay.'' He said to the man as they were in the ambo and Shay and Dawson closed the doors. She sat next to Matt, monitoring the man's vitals and she realized it was the first time in the ambo with Matt since his accident, but then he had been on the gurney.

By the hospital Matt helped the nurses getting the man out, making sure they got the blade properly before letting go of it. Gabby looked at the ER and tried to stay calm, realizing she was back in the place were everything had happened, the hospital. Her heart started beating faster and she tried to get breathing regularly as Matt and Shay walked after the patient but instead she ran to a bathroom. Worried she looked in the mirror, throwing some water in her face as she tried to relax. She waited a few minutes, breathing in and out. It was just the hospital, why was she overreacting like this? Why did her body and mind do this to her?

Walking back into the hallway her heart was still beating to fast. Matt looked worried at her and Shay was frowning as well as the patient had been taken away by a care team and she shrugged.

''Needed to go to bathroom and you were managing the patient...that time of the mo-'' She lied as her period had started yesterday, not just ye and Shay nodded understanding while Matt just turned around and walked away. She felt bad for lying about it but she still felt bad about complaining about something the others seemed to deal with. SHe didn't want to seem weak, especially not now the firefighter's test was coming up again. She knew if she told Matt about her not dealing well with te attack, she could only imagine his reaction, he would never let her do the test, telling her the job might be to emotionally have for her.

And he would probably be right.

They got back in the ambo and drove back to the firehouse. Matt walked back to the common room as they were cleaning the ambo.

While she was cleaning, she realized she had to tell Matt soon,s he couldn't keep lying to him. But she didn't want to, she hoped her fears and trauma would pass soon so she wouldn't have to tell Matt. She would give it some more time.

''Lunch is ready.'' Severide yelled and they got out of the ambo as it was clean. After lunch she got a text from Matt telling her that she found a new apartment for them to take a look at and she walked over the hallway. Entering his office she sneaked up to him and kissed him in his neck and he laughed.

''Look how beautiful it is.''

''Wow, we are going to check this one out for sure.'' She said as she looked at the screen and kissed him in his neck.

''We can check it out tomorrow...I knew you would love it, so I called the landlord. Tomorrow afternoon if that suits you.'' He smiled and she smiled as well, happily and kissed him.

''Oh yes, that suits me perfectly.'' She looked back and looked at the smile on his face. One of the man the women in the supermarket had been complaining about. That he was too blame for the mother and her children not being found in time.

She left his office, trying not to think about it as Matt always tried his best to safe people.

Walking back over the hallway, she suddenly heard little children talking behind her and slowly she turned around, a mother and her three children, looking at her, their faces and clothes fuller with blood and dirt. Her ears were ringing and as they were walking his direction she ran away, locking herself in the bathroom as tears started so stream from her eyes.

NOTE: Uh oh, is Gabby slowly snapping? is she going to tell Matt now things are getting worse or will she keep justifying things for herself so she doesn't have to tell Matt so she can take the test?

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