Chapter 3: Lost
It was on a rainy day
With an awful mood
I happened to walk
He happened to talk
No more no less with her
How I loathe her
Can't She leave him alone?
Last night I was haunted
By dreams where he was lost
Where he was hurt
Where he was dead
I woke up
Choking on my blood
I had bitten my lips, restraining myself
I shouldn't yell for him
I especially couldn't
Or else this would be the end of me
But on that rainy day
When I came by in a corridor
It slapped me back in the face
Reality came back
I thought I had managed to push away those thoughts
Those feelings aren't right
They aren't suppose to exist
Not in me
But seeing him there,
Facing her
Talking joyfully, smiling
I hated it
I hated being me
I would have done anything to be next to him
To feel what it's like to receive this smile,
This tender look,
This happy laugh.
That's when I knew I was lost.
It was the end of me
I had came upon something beyond my reach.
Something far too high for me.
Something scary,
Something crazy.
I had fallen for him.