Moving along Chapter 3
Watching these two dorks dance around to 'call me maybe' is the high light of my evening so far. I swear if I didn't know Glen like I do I'd be pretty sure he was gay.
Anyway Kyla thought it would be a good idea to have some drinks at the chalet first before going into the town which is why I am being punished. I happened to get ready quickly and came down the stairs first and it just so happened that these two losers were already down here. Luckily I have booze so it's getting less painful every sip.
"Ash stop trying to act so cool" Kyla shouts at me as she drags me to my feet. I try to resist but the stupid catching songs gets the better of me and I'm dancing. Glen joins us and I have to admit it's fun, it's really fun. I am actually laughing like I used to and it feels kind of good, dorky but good. As I spin around singing at the top of my lungs my eyes land on Spencer. She's laughing but I don't care because I feel good and I have never been one to embarrass easily. So I dance towards her singing the song and she's smiling at me. I hear Glen and Kyla dancing and singing behind me like back up dancers adding to my act like a professional. Spencer shakes her head at me but that doesn't stop me. I take her hand and pull her towards me, spinning her and she half heartedly lets me. As we are dancing I notice how cute she looks in her skinny jeans and tight vest. Before I even realise the song ends and I;m slightly breathless from dancing like an idiot.
"That was quite a performance" Spencer tells me as I look down and realise I am still holding her hand. I quickly let go and make a little bit of space between us.
"Once in a life time opportunity for you. I really should thank my back up dancers" I clap towards Glen and Kyla who take a bow and then pour themselves another drink.
"It's good that you're so humble" Spencer jokes and I offer her some wine which she accepts.
"I never had you pegged as a pop fan" I laugh at her statement and shrug my shoulders.
"I am full of surprises...I mean you should see my Britney impression"
"I will not sleep until I do"
"Aiden is already at the bar guys so we are meeting him there" Glen interrupts us which and I'm slightly disappointed.
"Ugh I forgot about him" Spencer sighs as she finishes her drink quickly.
"Don't worry about him tonight just have fun"
"Okay I will but only if you forget about Taylor"
"Already have" I'm lying.
"Prove it" She says and then heads off to grab her jacket. This girl is throwing so many different vibes and it's giving me a headache. I mean maybe I have deprived myself of sex for so long that any semblance of kindness from a girl makes me think they want me. Normally I would assume that she did just want me but I'm still not even sure she's gay. I notice everybody is actually waiting for me so I chug my wine (bad idea by the way) and I follow everybody else. Kyla links her arm in mine and we walk together while Glen and Spencer lead ahead talking intensely about something that I can't make out.
"So you and Spencer seem to be hitting it off" Kyla says as she casually swings her spare arm in a similar way she did when we were kids.
"Yea she's not too bad considering she's related to Glen" I have nothing to hide...do i?
"I think she's straight" The award for bluntness goes to my darling sister.
"Ky I'm not interested in her like that" I think that's the truth.
"Oh...you just seemed more like you around her. You know like old Ashley. Pre Taylor Ashley who liked to flirt and have fun" She has a point but I won't admit that to her.
"Look this phone embargo might be helping me get over Taylor but Glen's super straight sister isn't the reason I'm acting more 'Ashley'. Don't get me wrong Spencer is awesome but I am not wasting my time on straight girls especially ones that are related to Glen" Hopefully she gets my point. I can't really tell though because she just gives me a curious look and then skips off to Glen leaving me stood there like an idiot as they all head into the bar. I recognise it as the same one we had lunch at earlier but has a completely different vibe now. It's playing louder music, the lights are down, the garden is filled with people braving the freezing conditions for a cigarette. I like this vibe more, it reminds of some of the places back home I used to go before I met Taylor. God when we first met we used to party together so hard but then she started partying on her own and then with other girls. Ggggggrrrr Ashley sort you're head out. Oh there's that barmaid from earlier that Spencer may or may not have been flirting with. I shake Taylor from mind and head towards her. She is behind the bar and I see her look up at me offering a smile.
"Hello again" She sort of yells at me as the music is so loud which gives me a perfect excuse to lean in closer so she can hear me. I lean across the bar practically balancing on it with my stomach so I can reach her.
"Can I get a glitter bomb and a Corona please?" I try and play it cool. She nods at my order and then leans in closer to me so I can hear her this time.
"Anything else?" Now I been out of this game for a while but I know that tone and I know that question. I take my time answering because in all honestly I don't know what my answer is. I mean she's hot and obviously in to me but I'm not sure if I'm ready for this. Also let's not forget Spencer...I don't mean it like that I mean what if she does like Jamie and I have shit all over it trying to get over my slutty ex?
"Maybe later?'" I suggest with a confident smile and she nods once again turning to get my drinks which I happily accept. I offer her the money but she insists on buying them for me which I'm grateful for.
I spot the others over the opposite side of the bar. Spencer's eyes are on me as I walk over and she looks hurt. Great now I feel bad. I offer a smile and she sort of smiles back.
"Looks like somebody is back in the game" I hear Glen remark earning a dig at from Kyla.
"Back in the game?" Spencer questions as I take a seat opposite her.
"Ashley here used to be quite the player before Taylor got her claws in" Glen explained and I wanted to kill him.
"So Jamie is your type?" Spencer asks me directly while Kyla distracts Glen with a shot.
"Not really" I lie because she normally would be.
"Then why were you flirting with her?" God she is looking at me so intensely and I feel bit under pressure.
"Just trying to get back in the game. Spencer why are you so interested?" I am getting a bit annoyed by her questioning.
"Guess I just am...sorry I guess I just find it all very interesting?" She replies with a smile.
"What exactly?"
"You moving on from your ex. I'm trying to move on from Aiden and I'm not really sure how" Okay this just got interesting.
"Look Spencer I am not the healthiest of examples for 'moving on'. My sister had to confiscate my phone for gods sake but I'm trying. I'm just figuring out what my next move is...so what's your next move Spencer?" I ask her as I lean in closer. Her eyes land on mine and she shrugs which makes me smile then she leans back taking a deep breathe and mulling over my question.
"I guess I'm not sure but I do know that I want some more booze" And with that she's heading over to the bar. I watch her head to the bar and she starts talking to Jamie. I watch them interact for a moment and then I head outside for some air. I'm not sure why but I don't feel comfortable watching Spencer talking to Jamie.
The cold air shocks me but I enjoy it. I've left my jacket inside so I really feel it. I spoke Aiden sat at one of the tables on his own staring at an almost empty bottle of beer.
"This is all very said and pathetic" I joke as I sit down next to him.
"It's kind of how I feel"
"You seemed okay when you were hitting on me"
"I'm sorry about that Ashley. I'm just torn between wanting Spencer and letting her go. I know it was stupid coming here but I just wanted to try"
"Why did you guys break up?" I did not come out for some drunk dude to cry at me but I feel sorry for the guy.
"Because I cheated"
"Why cheat? I mean you loved her"
"She just stopped being there. She had no interest in me" Okay I kind of feel sorry for the guy.
"Why?"
"If I knew that I wouldn't be sat here whining like a little bitch" Aiden actually looks up and starts laughing. Our laughter stops as Spencer approaches.
"Hey Spence" Aiden mutters with a smile which she returns.
"What you guys doing?"
"Well you kind of disappeared on me in there so I found a sad lonely boy to make me feel better about myself"
"Thought the barmaid was more your type?" She replies with a smirk.
"Maybe she is"
"Okay you guys are getting cryptic so I'm out" Aiden gives me a head nod and heads inside.
"So what were you guys talking about really?" Spencer asks me as she sits next to me.
"Not much nosey. Just getting to know the guy...he's not so bad you know"
"He's pretty great actually"
"Then up break up with him?"
"Long story"
"Walk me home and tell me about it then?" I stand up offering my hand to her which she takes. We go to leave but I realise my jacket is inside still so I excuse myself.
As I walk through the crowd to find my coat I am stopped by Jamie.
"Hey Jamie" I smile politely and she offers me a raised eyebrow and sly smile.
"So you prefer blondes?" She asks me this and nods her head towards the front door.
"I wasn't aware there was a choice" I have no idea what she's on about.
"You went for Spencer in the end" She sort of replies but I'm confused really.
"She's just a friend"
"She's a good friend to have. Look if you get bored of Spencer come see me" She whispers the last part and kisses me briefly then walks off. Colour me confused but what just happened? Did she just confirm that Spencer is actually gay? Did I just miss a chance of a hook up? Oh god this is giving me a headache. I head back to Spencer who is pretending that she hadn't just seen what went down.
"You okay?' She asks me as pull on my jacket.
"Confused but okay"
"If you wanted to hang with Jamie I get it"
"Not in the mood" I smile and we start walking back to the chalet.
"For hooking up with a hot girl?"She doesn't sound jealous or annoyed...just curious I guess.
"Look Spencer when I want to hook with somebody I will...trust me. Jamie is cool but I got the vibe she may have been into somebody else plus she's not my type"
"So you keep saying" She huffs.
"Anyway you owe me an explanation about you and boy model?" I'm bored of talking about me.
"What do you want to know?"
"Everything?" I reply and she gives me a look.
"Okay please explain your reasons behind breaking up with him"
"I just didn't love him...I mean I loved him but I was never in love with him. He was a great boyfriend but then he cheated so that didn't help"
"Why did he cheat?"
"I guess he wasn't getting what he wanted from me"
"You a prude Spencer Carlin?" I tease and she shoves me playfully against a mound of snow. I dust myself off and throw some excess snow at her making her laugh.
"Okay so you're a slut" I dig again and she fakes a lunge at me which is enough to get me to shut up.
"Okay so I'm over this conversation. Why did you and Taylor break up?" Ugh hearing her name still hurts.
"She cheated on me amongst other things" I reply sadly and I realise how pathetic I sound. I should be more enraged by Taylor's action but I have spent the last few months blaming myself, wondering what I did wrong or how I could've been a better girlfriend.
"Sorry she did that to you"
"Well fuck her" I almost yell and Spencer laughs at me.
"Fuck them both" She almost yells as well. Then before I know it we are both screaming 'FUCK EM' at the top of our lungs much to our own amusement. By the time we reach the cabin we are almost doubled over with laughter and it feels good. Spencer stops and looks at me with those blue eyes.
"You're better than her Ashley. I know we only met a couple of days ago but you're good people" Spencer gives me one last smile and then unlocks the front door. We both head up the stairs in silence making sure we don't wake her parents but as we go past their room we realise they aren't in.\
"Dude you do realise that we got home before your parents?"
"That's because we are super cool" Spencer reassures me. I look at my watch and it's 11.30pm which is pretty early in the grand scheme of things but I feel ready for sleep.
"Yes I am"
"You are so modest Davies" Spencer leans against her door which is next to mine. She looks pretty cute as she fiddles with her room key, she even looks kind of shy.
"I've actually had an above standard night so thank you" I tell her and suddenly this hall way feels smaller and way hotter than it did a few minutes ago.
"Anytime Ashley" She smiles at me and quickly slips inside her room leaving me stood in the hall way like an idiot. I take a deep breathe a open up my own door relieved to see my new bed. Mostly I am grateful for the peace and quiet so I can try to make sense of all the thoughts whizzing through my brain. The one thing I can decipher is that for the first time in a while my thoughts are not all about Taylor.