For all of you people that didn't know what footy is it is football or gridiron.

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BPOV

My smile soon faded when I heard his car. Every afternoon at five it's like I'm not happy anymore. At college I feel so care free and happy, but then Jacob comes home from work and my world crashes down. He is my boyfriend of nearly a year, but we've known each other since we were little, our fathers are best friends. We are best friends.

I love Jake, but not the same way I love Edward. Jacob and I are only together because it seemed like it was meant to be that way, you know being friends for so long. Then having Edward as a teacher my feelings for Jake went out the window. I have only noticed my feelings for Edward over the past six months or so. It doesn't feel right with Jake anymore. Bella you sound like a bitch! Oh shut up brain.

"Honey I'm home" Jake called out with excitement.

"In the lounge room Jake" I feel so bad, I need to tell him but I don't know how. This will crush him.

He came up behind me and kissed me on the forehead. "How was your day today Bells?"

"Same old, same old" I lied, because today was great, it was perfect and I wish I was still in the class room with Edward. "Are you hungry?" I asked trying to change the subject from my day.

"Starving, do you want to go out for dinner tonight?"

"Sure why not, only if we can go to Casa di Nico" I loved Italian food and this was by far my favorite restaurant. My dad used to take me there when I was younger until he had that big accident.

He was on the night shift at the police station and got called out to a house that was having a big party and were too noisy. It was raining and the roads were wet and slippery. A car lost control and hit my dad's car sending him flying into a tree. He hit his head pretty hard and broke his leg. He was in a coma for two weeks, when he finally woke up they found that he had permanent memory loss. I spent my childhood with my father as my mother left when I was only three. Charlie, my father, doesn't remember my childhood with him at all; he occasionally remembers things but only little things. After the accident my mother, Renee, came back to stay with us for a little while, that is when I became close with her again. She tried to convince me to go back to Forks with her, but I loved my father and would never leave him. So here I am still in Seattle.

I don't live with Charlie anymore, I moved out about two years ago. He insisted I stayed close to him so I live four houses away from him. Reeeal close huh? I don't mind having an over protective father and I don't mind living so close, this way I can still check on him and cook his meals. He would seriously burn water. Either way, I love him.

"Of course we can go there. Where else would we go?" Jake said sarcastically.

"I want to drive, you drive like a granny!" Jake's driving is so slow I don't know how one can drive so slowly, I could walk faster than his driving.

"You drive to fast!"

"Don't be a girl, give me the keys" I asked with my hand out waiting for the keys.

"Fine!" He pouted his lips and stuck his tongue out at me while he gave me the keys. He can be such a kid sometimes.

The drive to the restaurant was quiet, Jake wouldn't let me have my music to loud which totally sucked I can't live without my music. When I am driving it has to be loud other wise I can't concentrate properly. So to keep me occupied I thought of the one and only, Edward. I know it was wrong of me to as Jacob was sitting right beside me but I couldn't help it, he was my thoughts now.

We were finally seated after fifteen minutes. I was reading over the menu but the things I was reading weren't registering in my brain, my thoughts were still with Edward. His voice, his smell, his ass oh and his bulge. All these things were just going in and out of my mind I couldn't think properly.

"Bella? Helloooo?" Jake was staring at me with a serious look on his face.

"Yeah Jake?"

"Finally you listen. What did you want to eat, my sweet?"

I felt so guilty when he called me names like that, I don't have the strength to say them back to him. Man I have dug myself a deep hole.

"Just the usual, Risotto alla Pitocca" It was my favorite meal here, the classic chicken risotto, yum.

As Jake ordered my mind went walk about again. His smile, which could light up anyone's day. His breath, that minty smell I will never forget. I wish I could taste the minty freshness of his breath. I got light headed just thinking about it imagine if it really happened? It will never happen Bella, he is your teacher and you have a boyfriend. Grr. I wish my subconscious would go away. His fingers, oh his fingers what he could do with them. It sent a chill down my spine when those thoughts popped into my mind. His bulge- I was cut off suddenly by Jake asking what I wanted to drink.

"Just a midori and lemonade please, you can drive home Jake I'll let you" I said with a grin because I knew he wouldn't be able to drink if he had to drive home.

"Yeah thanks, I'm still having one beer though"

Me drinking and him driving didn't really bother him, he wasn't really a drinker. He liked to stay fit, don't know why he can't get any more buff then what he is. Thinking about buff made my thoughts return back to Edward. I wonder what he looks like without a shirt. I bet he is buff as well. I mean I love the way he dresses, its sort of casual but also with a formal touch to it, but underneath those clothes is where I want to go and lets say explore? Bella stop it! Argh I'm in trouble.

Dinner was relaxing in a weird way. The drive home was so slow. I felt like walking, and I'm sure I would beat him back home. Even though I'm the chief's daughter I love the thrill of going fast in a car. I think that is the only rule I break, not that my dad knows.

As we finally pulled into the driveway, Jasper's car was there. Jasper was Jacobs work mate. Jacobs best friend. He doesn't speak much, but when he does it is always important. Alice was with him, she is his girlfriend they have been together since they were teenagers. I guess you could say she was my best friend. We did everything together.

"Bella!" she screamed as she ran over and hugged me.

"Hey Alice"

"It's been ages since I've seen you!"

"It has been a day Alice"

"Yeah that's ages to me, I missed you" She said as she pulled me into a hug again.

Jasper and Jake were talking about some work business. They both worked at a mechanic shop, Jasper was like Jake's boss. While they talked about that, Alice and I were talking about what we were going to do over the weekend. Of course she wanted to go shopping and I don't know how to say no to her so it looks like I am going shopping.

After about an hour Jasper and Alice left. I loved having Alice around she was like a sister to me. I still haven't told her about Edward yet, I don't think I will she can't keep anything from Jasper. I would much prefer me telling Jacob how I truly feel instead of Jasper slipping it out.

I went to bed after watching some T.V. I was laying there for a good ten minutes with a blank mind, before Edward came to my thoughts again. Jake finally came to bed and pulled me into a hug and kissed me goodnight.

"I love you" I suddenly felt guilty when he said those three words but I said them back because I did love him just not the same way I loved Edward.

I laid there staring into space tossing and turning trying to get to sleep but the guilt was ripping through me. I have to tell Jake soon. There is no point Bella; nothing is going to happen between you and Edward. You will crush yourself and Jacob. I don't care brain! He needs to know how I feel.

Ah tonight is going to be a long night.