Chapter 3

"First, you will learn how to shoot, then you will learn how to win a fight," Tobias says, I just watch him, not really listening because I already know how to shoot.

I don't move right away and Tobias comes up to me. "Let's see what you got," he says. I smirk to myself, little does he know that I have been perfecting my shooting stance for months.

I pick up the gun, reminding myself that Will is right next to me and he is alive, I shoot and the bullet hits an inch off center.

"You can do better than that, Tris." Someone yells. I turn to see Uriah standing in the doorway of the training room, with a fake look of disappointment.

I laugh at him and everyone around me stares.

"How did you do that?" asks Tobias in awe and I just shrug,

"Beginners luck," I say with a shrug and Uriah stifles a laugh.

"Uri, what are you doing here?" I ask and he rolls his eyes.

"I wanted to see how the transfers were doing, Lauren let us out early because we all know how to shoot already," says Uriah and I laugh.

"Well, Uriah, get out of here, I still need to teach most of the transfers how to shoot," says Tobias, clearly annoyed.

Uriah must sense it too because he waves and leaves. Tobias turns back to us.

"Did I tell you to stop?" he asks when he sees that the transfers are still watching him and not shooting.

We all turn back to our targets. I shoot until my finger ache, I love the rush of energy that comes when I hit the center on my next try.

"Whatever that was, it was not beginner's luck." says a low voice behind me that I would recognize anywhere. Tobias's mouth in centimeters from my ear and I can feel his breath on my skin.

"Meet me by the chasm at 10:30 tonight, bring your boyfriend." He says coldly I look at him, waiting for an explanation, boyfriend? Then I realize, he means Uriah.

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"Four said he wants to meet us at the chasm at 10:30 tonight," I tell Uriah once I track him down after dinner.

"Shit," he says, "what are we going to tell him?" I let out a sigh.

"I suppose the only thing we can do is tell him the truth, he'll think we're crazy but that's the only way. He thinks we're dating, Uriah, we need to tell him the truth." I say and Uriah nods.

"Marlene is starting to get suspicious too, we need to tell her what's going on, I can't lose her and I know you can't lose Four." He says and I nod.

"We'll tell Four tonight, we can tell Marlene when we're ready." We quickly hug before going our separate ways.

TIME JUMP TO 10:30 THAT NIGHT

"So, are you going to tell me why Tris can shoot and how Uriah knows about it?" asks Tobias when we meet him at the chasm

"Well, that is a long story," I say, glancing at Uriah and he gives me a nod.

"We are kind of from the future but not at the same time, I know you will have questions but let us tell the whole story," I say, seeing Tobias's mouth open with a question.

"We can't tell you everything so how about I take you through my fear landscape," I suggest and Uriah gives me a look.

"What about your sixth fear?" He asks and I laugh.

"I got over that fear at the Beuro, why else am I in such a good mood?" The look on Uriah's face is priceless, his mouth is a perfect 'O' shape and his eyes are huge.

"Anyway, I bet I have some Beuro stuff in my fear landscape now. You probably do too." I say and he nods.

When we get to the fear landscape room and a shiver runs down my spine. The last time I was here was the day before the attack on Abnegation.

"Here we go," I say when Tobias puts the needle in my neck and one in his.

We enter the room and the scene changes to the green sky and still grass.

I get through my fear fairly quickly, until I get to the one that should be the initiates burning me. It is not there, I got over it and I have a new fear, I can feel it.

Instead, my fears go straight from the ocean to my bedroom in Abnegation, the faceless men clawing at the window.

I know what to do, I grab the gun hanging in the closet and fire. The fear disappears and I am standing with my family in front of me, Jeanie holding a gun to my head.

I do the same thing, I let her shoot me and then I am in Erudite, my feet bare, greasy hair, skinny, exhausted, being escorted by guards.

I look around, this is new but I have done this before in real life. I look around in confusion, then I see him. Tobias, beaten to a pulp, being dragged by guards. Fear bubbles in me.

I yell at him "Tobias! I what did you do!" he looks up at me, his eyes blank. I scream at him but he does not respond. Jeanie walks around the corner, with a syringe in her hand.

I recognize it, fear serum, the stuff she gave me to get Tobias to talk. "Now, Tris, tell me why the simulations don't work on you or I will give dear Tobias here some fear serum until you tell me how to make it work." She says with an evil grin.

I fall on the floor sobbing. She injects me with a purple liquid, death serum, and it does not work, as I suspected. She has a look of pure hatred on her face.

"I've defeated death serum before, you bitch. Kill me if you want, just leave him alone." I say breaking down in tears.

She turns and injects Tobias with the fear serum and I scream. He writhes on the floor calling for me, but I can't help him. "Tobias!" I yell and he keeps screaming.

I tug against the guards and keep screaming even when my throat gets sore and raw. I sob into my hands. "Kill me instead! He's been through enough, kill me!" I yell at Jeanie but she just smiles

I don't know how long it takes me before I give up fighting but it takes me a while. "Tobias! Fight it, fight it!" I scream and Jeanie has that look of pure evil in her eyes.

I feel a hand on my shoulder and turn to see Tobias, standing with a look of shock on his face. Suddenly I remember, this is all a simulation.

Simulation Tobias is still on the floor, screaming in pain, his eyes wide. I run over to him, the guards have disappeared.

I hold him in my arms and whisper, "I love you," give him a small kiss, and he disappears along with the room. The real Tobias stands behind me, still with that look of shock on his face.

"Before I came here, in my past life- whatever you want to call it -I went to Erudite because they were killing people and would only stop if a Divergent handed themselves in," I explain.

"After a few days, I was being led off to another experiment when you came around the corner. You had come to save me." He is still staring blankly at me.

"Why did you want to kill yourself rather than watch me in pain?" he asks and I let out a shaky laugh.

"We were together, you had only come to Erudite to make sure I held on, I loved you and you loved me. Watching you in pain puts me in pain." I sniffle.

"I died, I went into the weapons lab instead of Caleb and I left you in so much pain. I will never forgive myself." I say and a few tears fall down my face.

"How much time do we have until you die?" he asks and I shrug.

"If things play out the same way, a few months tops," I say and he puts a hand to his face. Uriah comes running in.

"Did your fears change, I know you got over the sixth one- be happy about that Four -but did any others change?" he asks and I nod.

"Instead of the initiates burning me, I have to watch him being tortured in Erudite and Jeanie saying if I don't tell her why Divergents can resist the serums, she will keep torturing him," I say and shudder at the memory.

Uriah pats me on the back and I let out a small sob. "I hate that I can do all these things, resist death serum, manage to stay alive even when I don't' want to, but I can't stop other people from getting hurt," I say, letting the tears slide down my face.

I look up and see that Tobias is holding me in his arms and I cry into his shirt, breathing his scent. I let myself break down, just for a moment.