Chapter 3

Mark looked up searching for Meredith Grey. He had recognized her voice as the shouts of "Seriously" had become even louder.

"What the hell is she screaming about?" said Christina trying to block out the sound. "Meredith!" she yelled, "Shut the hell up!"

Meredith didn't answer her; instead she got off her seat next to Alex and walked over to Mark and Christina. Mark instantly knew what Meredith was shouting about.

"You!" she yelled pointing at Mark. "What the hell do you think you're doing sleeping with Izzie?"

The whole hospital must have heard that.

"You and Izzie, McSteamy and Izzie, that's like Barbie and freaking Ken," said Christina. "That's why Alex and her weren't speaking this morning."

"Meredith, Oh My God!" Izzie screamed coming out from a patient's room. "What the hell do you think you're doing? Know half the hospital knows my business."

Izzie took off and Meredith and Christina bolted after her while everybody in the room turned to stare at Mark.

"Nothing to stare at people, so me and Stevens had sex, get over it already and get back to work."


Mark was waiting for the lift to close. He was in it by himself until Izzie came running up to it and forced her way in past the closing doors.

She took a deep breath and started speaking. "I just want you to know that I cannot remember much about last night but I want you to know that I do not usually sleep with random men and I am not…"

"We didn't sleep together," he said interrupting her.

"We didn't, oh thank god,"

Mark smiled at her sarcastically, "That just made me feel so good."

Izzie's eyes narrowed as she looked at him, "Well if we didn't have sex then why did I wake up in your hotel room practically naked?"

"You woke up in my hotel room because you were so drunk that it would've been unsafe to leave you by yourself and when I took you back to your house no-one was in. As for the being practically naked well that would have been you begging me to have sex with you and even going as far as to remove your top and trousers before falling asleep on my bed."

Izzie gulped as the memories came flooding back to her. Everything he said was true except from that part about her begging. Ok she did ask him a few times to have sex with her but she was pretty sure she didn't beg. She didn't beg guys for sex. She didn't.

The lift opened and Mark walked out winking at her as he passed through the doors.


Meredith came and sat down on the end of Izzie's bed. Izzie looked up from the book she was reading.

"Iz, I'm sorry for telling the whole hospital you slept with Mark!"

"I didn't sleep with him."

"You didn't?"

"Nope I was so drunk that he took me back to his hotel room and I just stayed the night, no sex."

"Oh well that just makes what I did worse. Sorry I was just so surprised and in shock."

Izzie smiled at her. "It's fine Mer, by tomorrow everyone will be talking about which doctor Olivia gave syphilis to this time."

"Or which Nurse Alex gave it to" Meredith laughed.

"It's not a nurse Alex is doing the dirty with."

"Who is he sleeping with please just tell me?"

"No Meredith that's evil I can't."

"Look if he hadn't told me about you in the hotel then half actually the whole hospital wouldn't think that you slept with Mark."

Izzie had an internal debate with herself about whether to spill the beans on Alex. She decided to spill. "Ok he's sleeping with your boyfriend's ex-wife."

"Addison and Alex, seriously? That's weird."

Izzie closed her book, "tell me about it."


Meredith Grey was walking towards him. Great just what he needed another lecture on how not to treat Izzie. Derek had caught him just as he left the hospital the night before.

"Don't hurt her Mark, I mean it she's already been through enough this year and she doesn't need you treating her like crap."

"Dr Grey, if you've come to give me a lecture about Izzie then I'm sorry to tell you that your boyfriend has already beaten you to it."

"I didn't. I just came here to ask you how you feel about her. I'm not going to give you a big speech; I'm just asking you to be careful; she doesn't deserve to be hurt again, especially since George refuses to talk to her and her ex is dating her boss."

"Well," said Mark, "it's good for you that I don't plan on using her or hurting her."

Meredith blinked, "You don't?"

"No, Meredith, as hard as you find it to believe, I don't," Mark said closing the chart he was working on and walking away.


Derek drank his coffee smiling as Meredith came over to him.

"Hey hunny, How are you?"

"I'm ok," she said.

"What's up," he asked her.

"Well your ex-wife is sleeping with Alex."

This surprised Derek but it didn't make him feel anything else. He still loved Addison, not in the way he loved Meredith but he still felt a strange need to protect her and make sure she was ok.

"I'm fine with that, I just never imagined Addison as the toy boy type," he said laughing, "but then I didn't imagine that Izzie would be stupid enough to sleep with Mark either."

"She didn't sleep with him," Meredith corrected.

"She didn't? But you told me that she did," said a clearly confused Derek.

"Yeah well she didn't, turns out he took her back to his hotel because she was completely drunk and out of it. No sex at all. Weird huh?

"He likes her."

"Excuse me?"

"Well if he didn't like her then he would have slept with her. It would've been perfect if she was drunk because he could take advantage of her and blame it on the drink but he never. Why? Because he really likes her and he doesn't treat girls he likes like he treats his one night stands he treats girls he likes like I don't know, like they have feelings. And there was me thinking that he was joking earlier on when he said he wouldn't hurt her."

Now Meredith was the one who was confused. "Ok I didn't understand any of that but I'll take your word for it."

Today they asked me, "what do you always seem to find?"
But though I could not answer I'd have lost my way
And I could tell that this ain't right
The morning sunrise seemed to ask me why I tried
To find the strength in people who had never thought about a different way of life
It just doesn't seem that easy

I don't know where to go
I don't know what to be
I don't know how to change from being me
I don't know what to say
Maybe another day
I'll stop getting lost and find my way, home
All I know is gone...

But the storms of weather, you know they don't seem to be as bad
If you think there's hope from here and there's a life you should now have
I don't have answers and no questions spring to mind
So here I've ended up now, there's no more signs and the roads are blocked
Aw, man...
It just doesn't seem that easy

I don't know where to go
I don't know what to be
I don't know how to change from being me

Lostprohpets - I Don't Know