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Ritsu opened his eyes to a familiar room. Chandeliers hung from the ceiling, stairs leading up to a balcony and a library, a grand window showcasing Tokyo, and an adjoining room to Takano's bedroom. They were in the tower once again. It's been two years since he'd been here. He was surprised everything was still intact.

Ritsu turned his head slightly to the left and saw that the hole in the ground he did two years ago was still there. Ritsu blushed. He had thought that Masamune would have fixed that by now. Why was it still there?

A sharp memory invaded his mind; he was going insane, his mind in shatters. Feelings of loss and helplessness attacked him. He was so mad that day, so anguished that he lost control.

And so he attacked.

Ritsu shook his head hard; he forced the memory to the darkest corner of his mind. He didn't know what was real and what were memories. Both clashed with each other until they merged.

Dull eyes stared at nothing. How much more of this can I take before I completely lose to insanity?

Ritsu let out a cute squeak as Masamune turned to Chiaki sharply. "Leave." His tone was sharp and commanding making Ritsu cringe.

Chiaki gave a pity glance to Ritsu before shifting. Ritsu gulped, his claws curling around Masamune's leather jacket. He didn't want to be alone with Masamune! He had to get away! But how? He was too weak from blood loss; he couldn't shift or had the strength to run away.

Masamune wasted no time as he marched to his bedroom and threw Ritsu on the bed. In midair, Ritsu closed his eyes while letting out a faint scream and the bed shook a bit when he landed on the bed.

Masamune crossed his arms, his expression emotionless. "Explain."

Ritsu ducked his head in shame. He couldn't bare to look into Masamune eyes. Every time he did he knew he would only give in. And that's something he couldn't do. He had to be strong and do this alone.

"Ritsu. Explain. Now."

Ritsu flinched at Masamune hard tone but didn't say a word. Ritsu glanced at the door behind Masamune and wondered how he could get past. He couldn't stay, he would only hurt Masamune.

Masamune sighed. "Stubborn." He muttered under his breath.

Ritsu's eyes widened as Masamune climbed in bed with him, his movements sleek and powerful. Ritsu tried to make a run for it but Masamune easily grabbed his arms and pinned him down on the bed. Masamune straddled him making movement impossible.

Ritsu shut his eyes as the memories started to hammer him. Why was this happening to him? Why with Masamune? His Masamune?

"Ritsu...look at me." Masamune pleaded.

Ritsu didn't listen. Instead he tried his hardest to control the memories, to not let a whimper escape his lips and alert Masamune of his pain.

"Ritsu...please?"

Ritsu didn't respond causing another depressing sigh from Masamune.

"Ritsu...Why are you doing this? Do...Do you not love me anymore?" His voice sounded so sad, so anguished.

Ritsu stiffen. No! It wasn't that he didn't love him! It was just that he didn't want to hurt Masamune! What if he learns that his mind was breaking everyday because of him? Or that just looking at his beautiful golden eyes made him cringe in pain?

Without opening his eyes, Ritsu leaned up to bury his face in the crook of Masamune's neck, hoping that he would hear Ritsu's silent answer through that. Ritsu breathed in deeply. How much he missed his scent! It was a torturous hell staying away from Masamune. He didn't know how he lasted so long without him.

Masamune leaned back so that he was on his knees holding a sitting Ritsu close to his chest. "Ritsu...you're going to leave me again aren't you?"

Ritsu tensed at the pained filled voice that whispered in his ear, along with it came the painful memories. He had to leave. He had no choice.

Ritsu inwardly winced. The memories were getting harder to control. This time he was reliving hurting Misaki.

How he threw him out a window.

Ritsu shuddered.

"Ritsu look at me love."

Masamune tried to pull back so he could look at Ritsu face but Ritsu clutched his shirt and buried his face deeper in Masamune's neck. Ritsu started to shake and Masamune was dreading the fact that Ritsu might cry. Masamune tried to gently push Ritsu away but Ritsu was strong. He held firm.

Masamune paused and studied the situation. It was obvious that Ritsu was not going to say anything so...

Why push? He finally had Ritsu in his arms after one hellish week alone. He should be smart and hold him tightly in his arms, to savor every second in his presence.

Before he attempts to leave me again.

Masamune leaned down to nibble on Ritsu's neck. Ritsu stiffened, his body coming closer to his with need.

Smiling softly, Masamune sank his teeth slowly into Ritsu's neck causing a shudder in Masamune at the sweet contact. Nothing was as addicting as Ritsu's blood.

Instantly Ritsu started to moan, his hands boldly going down to rake his hands under his shirt. His soft hands caressed Masamune's hard abs. Masamune took a few sips of blood before releasing him to lock his lips with Ritsu's parted ones.

Ritsu gasped. "M-Masamune...wait."

Masamune didn't listen. He leaned forward so that Ritsu lay back on the bed and crashed his lips onto Ritsu's. Ritsu tried to turn his head away but Masamune wouldn't have that. He started planting soft kisses onto his neck; his hot breath caressing Ritsu's neck causing a shiver of delight to run down his spine. With each kiss Ritsu could feel himself get weaker, his resolve wavering.

Ritsu let out a moan, his struggles completely gone, not that there was much to begin with. Masamune took his chance and crashed his lips down onto Ritsu's.

Masamune rested his whole body on Ritsu's, the pressure of Masamune's body felt so good on him. Ritsu drew his hands to caress down Masamune's back, muscle twitched at his touch, his heat burning his blood.

Masamune rotated his hips, his hardness rubbing along Ritsu's. Ritsu gasped. "Masamune!"

Masamune chuckled. "What is it? You want more?"

Ritsu bit his lip. Masamune was drawn to that. He leaned down to capture his lip with his own teeth. Ritsu let out another gasp.

Masamune wasted no time as he kissed him again, deeper, harder, softer, gently. Ritsu was soon begging for more.

After a few minutes of kissing, Masamune leans back, his eyes black with emotion. "You finally looked at me," He whispered.

Ritsu stiffened, his cheeks burning. His gaze instantly moved to the side.

This didn't faze Masamune. He engulfed Ritsu in his arms, his smile small. "Do you really think you can do this alone? I know about the memories, my Love. What I don't understand is why you would run away from me."

Ritsu's body grew more ridged. He knew? How? He tried so hard to hide it, how did Masamune find out!?

"You don't have to go through this alone. I already called Yuu, he'll be here tomorrow to seal you're memories away."

...What can he say to that? In a way he was mad that Masamune would do this. He wanted to do this on his own, to prove to himself that he could handle this, that he could beat this. He supposed it was a matter of pride. Yet at the same time he was relieved. He wouldn't have to deal with this anymore. He would finally have peace.

Dizziness swarm in his head, the emotions were too much to handle.

What if it doesn't work though? What if something goes wrong? He shouldn't get his hopes up. He tried so many methods, visited so many people who claimed they could help.

Nothing worked.

He saw Masamune's lips move but no sound emerged.

He couldn't stay, he had to leave. He was going to hurt Masamune if he finds out. Yuu might tell him.

Panicked Ritsu tried to get up but his body wont move.

"Ritsu?"

Ritsu's eyelids grew heavy. What was wrong with him? What was wrong with his body?

"Ritsu?"

He felt his body being lifted, his head rolling to the side.

Maybe it was the blood loss? That man did take a lot and then Masamune took some...and before that he wasn't eating much...

Darkness was claiming him.

He was scared. This darkness was familiar. He dealt with this two years ago.

When that hand was dragging him down deeper in the water...drowning him.

The last thing he saw was Masamune's panic filled eyes. "Ritsu!"

Ritsu lost consciousness.