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I know that the last chapter was dark and depressing, but I promise Cassie will start to enjoy it too.

Cassie was hurting. Their ship had crashed and her dearest friend Luna was offline. As Cassie checked her spark chamber to confirm, Chelsea crawled through the wreckage to Cassie to assist.
"I can't believe that we have crashed and not far from the Autobot ship! Nightwing is down and there is no spark emanating from her. I think Aura is okay, but she is in stasis. I can't get her to wake up." Chelsea stated all this in their home Cybertronian language as she checked the silver plating for dents on her body. Chelsea looked at the young communications officer. She was no Soundwave, but maybe she had learned enough from her mate that it could help their situation. She liked both of the blue mechs and oddly like she and Megatron, she like that they were both well matched even to the colors. Cassie had never been a terrific officer, but her loyalty to both Soundwave and to Lord Megatron was above reproach; however, Chelsea tended to field her weaknesses from her beloved Megatron so that Cassie would not take the brunt of his wrath.

"Chelsea, Luna is permanently offline." Cassie spoke quietly.

"Well I already pulled Aura out. Where is Sparkfly?"

I don't know. There is so much destruction that I can't be sure." Cassie seemed panicked that there were only three of them so far. Even with the repairs it took four to fly the ship and Cassie could not see an Autobot willingly wanting to help fly a Decepticon vessel. She helped Chelsea pull the dead out and bury their lifeless bodies. No use leaving them around for some creature to tear apart or use for spare parts. They stockpiled the energon that they could salvage from the wreck and made them a temporary shelter.

The time was early for the morning. Soundwave could tell by the stillness of the base that everyone was recharging except those few who had night duty. He looked over Cassie's shoulder at her face. She had woken him up and was mumbling in Cybertronian while in a deep sleep. He listened carefully as she talked about offlined femmes, and tried to make out what she said about a crash, but it was difficult to follow her. He wondered if her memory was beginning to fill in the pieces that she had forgotten so he kept listening for any clue that would explain her transformation.

"We have been here for a week, and Chelsea we are running low on energon! Aura is too weak to move and we have only been able to do the most basic repairs." Cassie tried to get her commander and friend to listen, but it looked like they were facing desperate measures.

"What do you suggest, Cassie? We form an alliance with the Autobots?" Chelsea sneered the word Autobots as if it were a rat being offered as dinner. Cassie looked at her, pleading written all over her face, and tried to form the words that might appease her commander.

"We need to do something, Chelsea. What about taking residence in that old building that we found. That would be better than staying out here and rusting. Then maybe we could look for energon after we have dry shelter."

Chelsea considered her words. She had a point, and if they could get to dry, higher ground then it might make it easier to find energon. The planet they had landed on was a biologic planet. There had to be natural resources or crude oil in the ground that could be filtered and made into energon. Besides, her sensors would detect an energy source but it would appear and then disappear from detection. Maybe this could buy time until they could scout it out and discover its source.

"It's not a bad idea. Let's rest tonight and tomorrow we will move our gear and see if Aura is strong enough to walk."

Soundwave watched as Cassie grew agitated. She began to shake her head in recharge as if something had become distasteful or unpleasant. Soundwave began to rub the small of her back trying to soothe her. She settled some in her sleep, but Soundwave was growing concerned because her spark had picked up in rhythm to her agitation.

"We were here first!" This came from Allie. She raised her gun and aimed at Chelsea.

"You think that you being here is going to stop us from taking what we want? You are sadly mistaken."

"Chelsea, no!" Chelsea fired but the ionization in the air stalled the energy in their cannons making their weapons useless. Chelsea growled in frustration as she lunged at the Auotbot femme. They tumbled to the ground, metal against metal as suddenly a bright white light blinded all of them and each femme was stabilized and frozen. The pain was excruciating as Cassie tried to get free but the light was a form of energy and she could hear a strange voice speaking to her, yet the voice was in her CPU. Cassie could not get free and the more she struggled the more painful the heat and the blinding light became. Finally she was forced to endure the pain as she collapsed to the floor of the building. She turned her head and saw a beautiful large crystal centered around strange marking on the floor. The markings had been engraved, etched into the floor, and the crystal glowed the same golden light that surrounded all the femmes. Cassie felt the energy begin to invade her CPU and she dried out as she felt an alien program start to run. It flooded all her systems causing her vision to see red flashing warnings on all her systems. Then her outer armor was painfully stripped away and she screamed as the heat became so intense that she thought she would completely burn up.

Cassie began screaming in her recharge mode. She bucked and thrashed against Soundwave as he tried to wake her up. He could feel her skin sweat, the moisture running down her face and body, pooling on the berth. Soundwave began shaking her calling her name, and trying to get her to wake up. He lightly tapped her face and leaned close to nuzzle her ear and call to her. Her eyes opened even though she was still fighting with her unseen assailant. As reality crashed upon Cassie's senses she became aware of Soundwave and clung to his arms as her breathing slowed. Soundwave had rolled on top of her to help still her struggles, and now that Cassie was awake, she could feel the steady solidness of his body press into her on the berth. He slowly caressed her hair, ears, and trailed over her jawline to rub her lower lip with his thumb. Cassie reached up to touch his face plate and she felt his body shudder from her touch. His body was warm and smooth. There were no dents or dings that she could detect in him. He attentively began caressing her lower lip with his mouth only to bite down and cause her to gasp. Soundwave gently tasted her mouth. He explored her mouth as she palmed his face.

Cassie couldn't decide whether to fight or surrender. He was so gentle and she was still reeling from the nightmare that had ensnared her while recharging. Her skin crawled as if it was still on fire, and her pain sensors were still overloaded from the dream that felt like reality. She didn't know why but she felt as if she needed him and decision made, she surrendered her body to him.

Soundwave wondered what was running through her CPU as he felt her touch his face, then under his armor her hand found the chorded sensitive circuits in his neck. Soundwave wrenched his mouth away as he cried out and jerked above her body. She ghosted her fingers over the sensitive circuits and up to his antennae as her other hand ran down the side of the armor at his waist. Her hand drifted over his hip and aft and Soundwave threaded his fingers in her hair as he pulled back at the nape, exposing her neck, reaching down, and nipping little spots along the nape of her neck. Cassie's legs went around his hips as she bucked up seeking to be closer to him. He took his free hand and found her center port, dipping inside only to come and spread her delectable juices all around her. Then he heard the most wonderful sound of all…

"Please, I need you," Was whispered very softly into his audial receptors. Soundwave lost all control, opened his groin plate, and slid into her hot waiting port. Once deep inside, he stopped, looking at her dark dilated violet eyes, and asked, "Why?"

"I don't know." He could see the unshed tears in her eyes. It made them look like huge amethyst saucers in her face, and a sadness crept into them as he lay there on top of her watching, waiting. She finally added, "I just needed to feel you, to chase away the ghosts."

Soundwave turned his optics off and slowly began to set a pace. He could feel her exploring his shoulder plating and then sliding down the warm smooth metal to his hips. She would squeeze at his aft trying to get him to quicken the pace as he could feel her overload beginning to build. "Please," She would beg, "Please, I need you." Over and over Soundwave would gently thrust watching her face as she opened to him, her sweet juices making her so soft and slick and transferring onto him that he could feel the hot sensation of energon in every fiber of his systems and circuits. Tears began to slowly trickle down Cassie's face as Soundwave leaned down and kissed them away. He brought his hands up to her hair and face and he whispered all the longing that had filled his spark in her absence. He told her how much he had missed her, and he told her how lonely it had been without her.

Cassie's CPU was filling up with all the whispered words of longing that Soundwave told her. As he kept whispering endearments, pieces of the dream slowly began placing themselves in order as she realized that the dream wasn't just a dream but a moment that her CPU had suppressed because of all the pain and anguish that she, Chelsea, and Aura had endured. Cassie could feel her spark reaching out to this beautiful mech and in return she saw that Soundwave responded by opening his chest armor and lights and sparks emanated from his spark. As they merged through her skin Cassie saw her past through Soundwave's optics. She saw the little sparklings that they had made together, and how Ravage had been formed through their love. She understood why the little feline was so endearing to her, how Rumble and Frenzy were so precious, and how Laserbeak came into existence. She saw everything, felt everything that Soundwave saw and felt, and she finally understood what she was and who she was meant for.

They held each other tightly. No words passed between them as they absorbed every touch, every caress, and every pleasure that two bonded being could feel. As they quietly climaxed holding each other, Cassie knew without a doubt that she had always been meant for this mech.

"How long did you know?" She asked when they had calmed their systems down. She needed him to confirm what she had learned in spoken words.

"I've known since Allie had come three months ago and we had taken them captive. She confirmed my suspicions when I came out and asked. I did not know who we would have capture, but I had hoped." Soundwave kissed her shoulder and ran his glossa along her collar bone. Cassie shivered from the pleasure that he could make her feel.

"I don't' know what to think. By human standards I would be considered a whore because I was bonded to you, but I shared Megatron's berth as well. Is that why Chelsea and I are so close?"

Soundwave thought about her question and replied, "We don't have the limitations that humans place on themselves, but if you did share Megatron's berth it is because I wasn't there to protect you. I assure you though all of your sparklings were created by our bond, our love, which has sustained us since we were younglings. I have loved you since the first moment we were paired together as sparklings." Soundwave sweetly kissed her lips and Cassie welcome the contact after his sincere admission. He pulled away just to look at her and marvel at her acceptance of the situation that she was in. They watched each other for a while as one would caress a leg or the other would touch a chest plate.

"I'm so sorry." Cassie said after a while.

"Why would you be sorry?" Soundwave didn't want her apologies. He just wanted her love.

"I'm sorry for forgetting." Soundwave looked at her as he felt her shake and began to quietly sob against his shoulder. He knew she needed this, needed the cleansing after remembering what she had lost. He tenderly held her until she was quiet again, and then she looked up at him and smiled and his spark skipped a few beats. He rolled them over where she could be on top as they both drifted into recharge holding each other tightly, loving the fullness of two beings being complete again after so long.